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Back then, even the few friends I had were unaware of my parents' occupation,
当時[とうじ]:at that time/in those days, 数[しばしば]:often/again and again/frequently, 数[かず]:number/amount, 少ない[すくない]:few/a little/scarce, 友人[ゆうじん]:friend, 両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents, 職種[しょくしゅ]:type of occupation/occupational category
当時 数少ない友人でも知らなかった僕の両親の職種を
いったい:...the heck (e.g. "what the heck?")/...in the world (e.g. "why in the world?")|one object, いったい:region/zone/whole place, 老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
いったいどうして老倉は知ったのか?
so how did Oikura know?
Or so Hanekawa asked me yesterday before school.
疑問[ぎもん]:question/problem/doubt, 投げかける[なげかける]:to throw at/to turn/to raise, 昨日[きのう, さくじつ]:yesterday, 早朝[そうちょう]:early morning
そんな疑問を 羽川から投げかけられたのが昨日の早朝のこと
Question
I could not answer.
答える[こたえる]:to answer/to reply
僕は答えられなかった
まったく:really/truly|indeed
まったくわからなかった
I didn't know.
思い出す[おもいだす]:to recall/to remember/to recollect, 両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents, 訊く[きく]:to hear|to listen (e.g. to music)|to ask||, 如何[どう, いかが]:how/in what way/how about, 如何[いかん]:how/in what way|circumstances
どうしても思い出せないんだったら ご両親に訊いてみるというのは如何(いかが)かな?
If you can't remember, why don't you ask your parents?
Question
果たして[はたして]:as was expected/just as one thought|really? (in questions), 答[こたえ, いらえ]:answer/reply/response, 判明[はんめい]:establishing/proving/ascertaining
果たして それで答は判明した
This, ultimately, led to the answer.
老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar, 小学生[しょうがくせい]:elementary school student/primary school student/grade school student, 頃[ころ, ごろ]:(approximate) time|suitable time (or condition)|time of year, 頃[けい]:qing (Chinese unit of land area equal to 100 mu)
僕と老倉は小学生の頃に会っていたのだ
Oikura and I had met in grade school.
幼なじみ[おさななじみ]:childhood friend/friend from infancy/old playmate
つまり 幼なじみである
We are childhood friends.
正確[せいかく]:accurate/punctual/exact, 小学[しょうがく]:elementary school/primary school/grade school, 六[ろく, む]:six, 六[リュー]:six, 年生[ねんせい]:pupil in ... year/student in ... year, くらい:dark/gloomy|dark (in colour), くらい:approximately/about|to (about) the extent that, 頃[ころ, ごろ]:(approximate) time|suitable time (or condition)|time of year, 頃[けい]:qing (Chinese unit of land area equal to 100 mu)
正確に言うと僕が小学六年生くらいの頃か
To be precise, it was when I was in sixth grade.
妹[いもうと]:younger sister, 妹[いも]:darling (only of a woman)|one's sister|friend, 火[ひ]:fire/flame/blaze, 火[か]:Tuesday|fire (second of the five elements), 遊ぶ[あそぶ, あすぶ]:to play|to mess about (with alcohol, gambling, philandery, etc.)|to be idle||, 遊ぶ[すさぶ]:to grow wild/to rage|to do something one enjoys, 連れる[つれる]:to lead/to take (a person), きてい:base/ground|basis, きてい:default/established/pre-arranged, 達[たち]:pluralizing suffix (esp. for people & animals; formerly honorific), 達[だち, ダチ]:friend, くらい:dark/gloomy|dark (in colour), くらい:approximately/about|to (about) the extent that, 頃[ころ, ごろ]:(approximate) time|suitable time (or condition)|time of year, 頃[けい]:qing (Chinese unit of land area equal to 100 mu), 話[はなし]:talk/speech|discussions, 話[わ]:counter for stories, episodes of TV series, etc.
僕が妹の月火や 月火が遊びに連れてきていた千石達と 遊んでいたくらいの頃の話
It was roughly around the time I played with Sengoku and my sister Tsukihi.
老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar, 共[ども]:first-person plural (or singular)|second or third person plural (implies speaker is of higher status than those referred to), 共[とも]:together with|same|both|
僕は老倉育と共にいた
Oikura was there at home with me.
I don't really remember much from grade school,
撫子[なでしこ, ナデシコ]:pink (any flower of genus Dianthus, esp. the fringed pink, Dianthus superbus)|lovable, caressable girl, あんまり:remainder/rest|not very (with negative sentence), 小学生[しょうがくせい]:elementary school student/primary school student/grade school student, 頃[ころ, ごろ]:(approximate) time|suitable time (or condition)|time of year, 頃[けい]:qing (Chinese unit of land area equal to 100 mu), 思い出[おもいで]:memories/recollections/reminiscence
撫子はあんまり小学生の頃の思い出がないから
火[ひ]:fire/flame/blaze, 火[か]:Tuesday|fire (second of the five elements), 当時[とうじ]:at that time/in those days, 呼ぶ[よぶ]:to call out (to)|to summon (a doctor, etc.)|to invite||
月火ちゃん 当時はららちゃんって呼んでたけど
but I remember the time I played with Tsukihi back then.
遊ぶ[あそぶ, あすぶ]:to play|to mess about (with alcohol, gambling, philandery, etc.)|to be idle||, 遊ぶ[すさぶ]:to grow wild/to rage|to do something one enjoys, 覚える[おぼえる]:to memorize|to learn|to feel|
と遊んでたときのことは よく覚えてるの
Well, I called her Rara.
もちろん:of course/certainly/naturally, 暦[こよみ, れき]:calendar/almanac, お兄ちゃん[おにいちゃん]:familiar form of "older brother"|form of address for young adult male/mister
もちろん 暦お兄ちゃんのことも
Of course I remember you too, Koyomi.
だそうだ
So she said.
One day—
ある日
思い出す[おもいだす]:to recall/to remember/to recollect, みたい:-like/sort of/similar to, 口調[くちょう]:tone (e.g. of voice, etc.)/(verbal) expression, 語る[かたる]:to talk about|to recite|to indicate, ではある:to be (in contrast to something that is not the case)
いや 思い出したみたいな口調で語っている僕ではあるが
Well, I say all this as though I remember it now,
まったく:really/truly|indeed, 真実[しんじつ, さな]:truth/reality, 思い出す[おもいだす]:to recall/to remember/to recollect
まだまったく真実として 思い出せていない
but in reality, I don't.
まったく:really/truly|indeed, 記憶[きおく]:memory/recollection|storage
まったく記憶にない
I don't really remember it at all.
両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents, 質問[しつもん]:question/inquiry/enquiry, 語る[かたる]:to talk about|to recite|to indicate
両親が質問した僕に そう語ったというだけだ
I'm merely relaying what my parents have told me.
ともかく:anyhow/anyway/somehow or other
ともかく ある日
Anyway, one day,
両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents, ひとり:one person|alone/unmarried, ひとり:incense burner|utensil for carrying live charcoal, 女の子[おんなのこ, おんなのコ]:girl/daughter|young woman, 女の子[めのこ]:woman/girl, 連れる[つれる]:to lead/to take (a person), 家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home
両親がひとりの女の子を連れて家に帰ってきた
my parents brought home a little girl with them.
女の子[おんなのこ, おんなのコ]:girl/daughter|young woman, 女の子[めのこ]:woman/girl, もちろん:of course/certainly/naturally, 老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
その女の子というのがもちろん 今で言う老倉育である
That girl is, of course, Oikura Sodachi.
両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents, 大して[たいして]:(not so) much/(not) very, 説明[せつめい]:explanation/exposition
両親は大して説明もしないまま
My parents didn't really explain,
しばらく:little while/short while|a while, 置く[おく]:to put|to leave (behind)|to establish (an organization, a facility, a position, etc.)||, 仲良く[なかよく]:on good terms with/on cordial terms with|to make friends with, 二人[ふたり, ににん]:two persons/two people/pair, 妹[いもうと]:younger sister, 妹[いも]:darling (only of a woman)|one's sister|friend, 告げる[つげる]:to tell/to inform|to indicate
この子をしばらくうちに置くから仲良くするようにと 僕と二人の妹に告げたそうだ
and merely asked my sisters and me to get along with her since she would be staying with us for a little while.
両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents, 児童[じどう]:children/juvenile, 老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar, 家庭[かてい]:home/family/household, 保護[ほご, ほうご]:care/protection/shelter, 形[かたち, よう]:form/shape|visage, 形[かた, がた]:shape|collateral|obverse of an old "zeni" coin, 家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 連れ帰る[つれかえる]:to bring (someone) back home/to take (someone) back home
両親は児童老倉を 彼女の"家庭"から保護する形で 自分の家に連れ帰ってきたのだ
My parents brought the young Oikura home to shield her from her family.
おそらく:perhaps/likely/probably, 当時[とうじ]:at that time/in those days, 暴力[ぼうりょく]:violence/mayhem, 跋扈[ばっこ]:rampancy/prevalence/domination, してい:servant/janitor/messenger, してい:older sister and younger brother, 家庭[かてい]:home/family/household
おそらくは当時から暴力が跋扈(ばっこ)していたと思われる 彼女の"家庭"から
Her family, which at the time must have begun to descend into violence.
There was a strange girl there.
不思議[ふしぎ]:wonder/miracle/strange
なんだか不思議な人がいると思っていたよ
一緒[いっしょ]:together|at the same time|same, 遊ぶ[あそぶ, あすぶ]:to play|to mess about (with alcohol, gambling, philandery, etc.)|to be idle||, 遊ぶ[すさぶ]:to grow wild/to rage|to do something one enjoys
一緒に遊ぼうとはしないし
She didn't want to play with us,
部屋[へや]:room|apartment|stable, ともし:light/lamp|baiting deer with a lighted torch
でも部屋から出ていこうともしないし
but she didn't leave the room either.
喋る[しゃべる]:to talk/to chat/to chatter
喋らないし
She didn't talk.
いきなり:abruptly/suddenly/all of a sudden
しかし いきなり彼女はいなくなった
One day, she was gone.
もっとも:most/extremely, もっとも:but then/although|reasonable, 児童[じどう]:children/juvenile, 老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar, 自ら[おのずから]:naturally/as a matter of course, 自ら[みずから]:oneself|for one's self/personally, 家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home, らしい:seeming ... (expresses judgment based on evidence, reason or trustworthy hearsay)/appearing ...|-ish
もっともそれは、 児童老倉が 自ら 自らの家に帰ったというだけのことだったらしい
The young Oikura had decided she wanted to go home to her family.
自ら[おのずから]:naturally/as a matter of course, 自ら[みずから]:oneself|for one's self/personally
自らだ
Nobody forced her.
両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents, 取り[とり]:taking|last performer of the day (usu. the star performer)|active partner (e.g. in judo demonstration)|, 取り[どり]:samurai receiving this much rice as a fee|offering of rice cake containing this much rice|person receiving this amount of money as a salary, 諸事情[しょじじょう]:various reasons, 保護[ほご, ほうご]:care/protection/shelter, きれる:to break/to snap|to be injured, きれる:to be able to wear/to fit into
彼女の両親が取り戻しに来たとか 僕の両親が彼女を諸事情で保護しきれなくなったとかではなく
Her parents didn't come to collect her, nor did my parents run into trouble letting her stay at our home.
判断[はんだん]:judgment|divination|judgement, 児童[じどう]:children/juvenile, 老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar, 我が家[わがや, わがいえ]:one's house/one's home/one's family, 帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home
分の判断で児童老倉は 僕の"我が家"を出 彼女の"我が家"に帰ったのだそうだ
The young Oikura decided she had to leave our version of a family and go back to her own.
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I've always known
that words are lies
Quickly we forget
that which is vague and unclear
by escaping into a realm of magic
which stifles truth
During a sunless summer
I derived
the answer alone
The answer was you
I found an answer
that I thought was more correct
than anybody else
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Coming here sure is ballsy.
よく来たわね
Oikura's Condo — Entrance
度胸[どきょう]:courage/bravery/pluck, 誉める[ほめる]:to praise/to admire/to speak well of someone, 上げる[あげる]:to raise|to do up (one's hair)|to fly (a kite, etc.)||
その度胸だけは誉めて上げるわ 阿良々Ｇっ
I'll admit that, Ararag—
Arara
にくい:hateful/abominable|amazing, にくい:difficult to .../hard to ..., おまえ:you (formerly honorific, now sometimes derog. term referring to an equal or inferior)|presence (of a god, nobleman, etc.)
言いにくいのよ おまえもなまめっ
It's hard to say. Your mame—
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えっと:let me see/well/errr ..., 元気[げんき]:lively/full of spirit|healthy, 老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
えっと 元気そうだね 老倉さん
You look well, Oikura.
よかった
Thank goodness.
元気[げんき]:lively/full of spirit|healthy
元気そう?
I look well?
見える[みえる]:to be seen|to look|to come, 見える[まみえる]:to have an audience|to face (an enemy)|to serve (esp. as one's wife)
そう見える?
You really think so?
猫[ねこ, ネコ]:cat|shamisen|geisha||, 猫[ねこま]:cat, 被る[かぶる, かむる]:to put on (one's head)|to be covered with (dust, snow, etc.)|to bear (e.g. someone's debts, faults, etc.)||, 被る[こうむる]:to suffer/to receive (kindness, rebuke, support)/to sustain (damage)
本当... どんだけ猫被ってたのよ あの子
She puts on quite the act, doesn't she?
おとなしい:obedient/docile/quiet, 病弱[びょうじゃく]:weak (constitution)/sickly/feeble, っ子[っこ]:someone with a liking or characteristic/a true representative of (place)
おとなしいだけの病弱っ子じゃないとは思っていたけれど...
I mean, I always suspected she was more than a sickly, quiet girl, but...
いっそ:rather/sooner/preferably, 傷害罪[しょうがいざい]:(crime of) inflicting bodily injury, 訴える[うったえる]:to raise|to appeal to (reason, emotions, etc.)|to complain||, かしら:I wonder, かしら:head|hair (on one's head)
いっそ傷害罪で訴えてやろうかしら
Perhaps I should have her tried for assault.
腫れ[はれ]:swelling/boil, 引く[ひく]:to pull|to draw (attention, etc.)|to draw back||, 医者[いしゃ]:(medical) doctor/physician, 診断書[しんだんしょ]:medical certificate, もらう:to receive/to take|to get somebody to do something
腫れが引かないうちにお医者さんに行って 診断書とかもらってきてさ
I could go to a doctor while the swelling is still there and get a medical certificate.
推薦[すいせん]:recommendation/referral/endorsement, 取り消す[とりけす]:to cancel/to withdraw/to retract
そうすればあいつ 大学推薦とか取り消されるんじゃない?
There's no way the school would write her a recommendation after that.
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Y—
何をっ
What?
Why are you poking my cheek?
ほっぺ:cheek, つつく:to poke (repeatedly, lightly)/to nudge|to peck at (one's food)
な なにっ... 何ほっぺつついてくれてんのよ
You poked—
つんつん:aloof/morose|smelling strongly of something
つんつんって
Do you think we're close enough for jokes like that?
茶目[ちゃめ]:playfulness/mischief|brown eyes, 気[き]:spirit|nature|motivation||, 気[げ]:seeming/giving the appearance of/giving one the feeling of, 発揮[はっき]:exhibition/demonstration/show, 間柄[あいだがら]:relationship/relation/terms (good, friendly, etc.), 私達[わたしたち, わたくしたち]:we/us
そんな茶目っ気が発揮できるような間柄だったっけ 私達?
Do you want to get tried too?
罪[つみ]:crime|penalty|fault|, 訴える[うったえる]:to raise|to appeal to (reason, emotions, etc.)|to complain||
何の罪で訴えられたいの お前!
頬[ほお, ほほ]:cheek (of face), 頬[つら]:face|surface|surrounding area|, 医者[いしゃ]:(medical) doctor/physician, 診断書[しんだんしょ]:medical certificate, もらえる:to be able to receive/to be able to take|could you (give me)
その頬じゃ 医者に行っても診断書はもらえないと思うぜ
I think going to a doctor with your cheek would be fruitless,
老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
老倉
Oikura.
あれ?
Huh?
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腫れ[はれ]:swelling/boil, 二[に, ふた]:two, 二[アル]:two, 晩[ばん]:evening|counter for nights, 治る[なおる]:to be cured/to get well|to get mended, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
あの腫れが二晩で治るだなんて
Did the swelling really go down in two days?
快復[かいふく]:restoration/rehabilitation|recovery (from an illness)
なんて快復力なの 私
Why did I heal so quickly?
問題[もんだい]:question (e.g. on a test)|problem (e.g. societal, political)|question (i.e. doubt)||, 元気[げんき]:lively/full of spirit|healthy, みたい:-like/sort of/similar to
別に何の問題もなく元気みたいだし
I just meant you seemed to have no particular trouble.
明日[あした, あす]:tomorrow|near future, 学校[がっこう]:school, 老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
明日からまた 学校に来られるんだよね? 老倉さん
You'll go to school again tomorrow, right?
委員長[いいんちょう]:committee chairman, 仕事[しごと]:work/job|work
委員長のお仕事ってわけ?
You're asking me this as the class rep, I assume?
えーっと:let me see/well/errr ...
えーっと...
Um...
Hanekawa, was it?
羽川さん? だっけ?
そう
Yes.
翼[つばさ, よく]:wing|Chinese "Wings" constellation (one of the 28 mansions)|counter for birds or bird wings
羽川翼だよ
Hanekawa Tsubasa.
Our homeroom teacher must have asked you to come here.
先生[せんせい, せんじょう]:teacher|with names of teachers, etc. as an honorific|previous existence, 先生[シーサン]:boy, 頼む[たのむ]:to request|to call|to entrust to|, 迎える[むかえる]:to go out to meet|to receive|to accept (e.g. as a member of a group or family)||, たって:strongly hoping or requesting (of something that is difficult to be brought to fruition), たって:even if/even though|however, 感じ[かんじ]:feeling/sense/impression, かしら:I wonder, かしら:head|hair (on one's head)
先生に頼まれて 私を迎えに来たって感じかしら?
Hanekawa aside...
ともかく:anyhow/anyway/somehow or other
羽川さんはともかく
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Why the hell are you here, A—
なんでお前が来るわけ?あ―
A—ra—ra—gi?
阿[くま]:corner/nook|a shadow, 良[りょう]:good|B grade (in an A, B, C ... system), 木[き]:tree/shrub|wood, 木[もく]:Thursday|wood (first of the five elements)
阿 良 々 木
顔[かお, がん]:face|look|honor|, 顔[かんばせ]:countenance/visage|face, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
私はお前の顔なんて見たくないし
I don't want to see your face,
顔[かお, がん]:face|look|honor|, 顔[かんばせ]:countenance/visage|face, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
お前だって私の顔なんて見たくないんじゃないの?
and I'm sure you don't want to see mine.
私達[わたしたち, わたくしたち]:we/us, 確か[たしか]:sure|reliable|If I'm not mistaken, とっても:very/awfully|(not) at all, 仲[なか]:relation/relationship, 仲[すあい, すわい]:broker/brokerage/brokerage fee, 悪い[わるい]:bad|evil|unprofitable||, 悪い[にくい]:hateful/abominable|amazing
私達って ねえ 確かとっても仲が悪かったはずなんですけれど
I believe we are on exceptionally bad terms.
勘違い[かんちがい]:misunderstanding/wrong guess
それって私の勘違いでしたっけ?
Am I under some misconception?
勘違い[かんちがい]:misunderstanding/wrong guess
勘違いじゃない
You're not.
But it wasn't always like this.
だが それだけでもなかったはずだ
Isn't that what you tried to tell me yesterday?
一昨[いっさく]:one previous, 教える[おしえる]:to teach|to tell|to preach
お前が一昨日 それを教えてくれたんじゃなかったのか?
小学生[しょうがくせい]:elementary school student/primary school student/grade school student
小学生のときだって
I remember grade school too.
老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar, 紅茶[こうちゃ]:black tea, 投げる[なげる]:to throw/to cast away|to face defeat, 危ない[あぶない]:dangerous|in danger|uncertain||, あらかじめ:beforehand/in advance/previously, 用心[ようじん]:care/precaution/guarding
いやほら 老倉さんが紅茶を投げたら危ないなって思って あらかじめ用心してただけだよ
Oh, I was prepared, thinking, hey, it would be pretty dangerous if she threw the black tea at us.
昨日[きのう, さくじつ]:yesterday, 止める[とめる]:to stop|to park|to prevent||, 止める[やめる]:to stop (an activity)/to cease|to cancel, 反省[はんせい]:reflection/reconsideration|regret
昨日は戦場ヶ原さんを止められなかったから 反省した
I couldn't stop Senjougahara the day before yesterday, so I reflected on my mistake.
Too much reflection.
Oikura.
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老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
老倉
I want to talk.
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話をする[はなしをする]:to have a talk/to tell a story
話をしようぜ
昔[むかし]:olden days/former, 話[はなし]:talk/speech|discussions, 話[わ]:counter for stories, episodes of TV series, etc.
昔の話を 僕とお前の話をだ
I want to talk about what happened between you and me in the past.
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In the end,
the one who faced Oikura was me
and not Hanekawa.
嫌い[きらい]:dislike|suspicion|distinction, 嫌い[ぎらい]:dislike/hatred/fear
私はお前が嫌いだ
I hate you.
Sodachi Lost
思い出す[おもいだす]:to recall/to remember/to recollect
思い出した...
You remembered...
思い出す[おもいだす]:to recall/to remember/to recollect, 様子[ようす]:state|appearance|sign, 五[ご, いつ]:five, 五[ウー]:five, 越し[ごし]:across/over|throughout (a period of time), ようやく:finally/at last|barely, ようやく:summary/digest, してい:servant/janitor/messenger, してい:older sister and younger brother, 伝わる[つたわる]:to be handed down/to be introduced/to be transmitted, たって:strongly hoping or requesting (of something that is difficult to be brought to fruition), たって:even if/even though|however
思い出しただけじゃなくて その様子じゃ 五年越しでようやく あのとき私がしようとしていたことが 伝わったってことなんでしょうね
Not just remember, but after five years you finally understand what I was trying to do, it seems.
相当[そうとう]:befitting|considerable|to be worthy of||, 馬鹿[ばか, バカ]:fool|trivial matter|foolish|
ってことは お前 相当 私のことを馬鹿にしているんでしょうね
You must be here to make fun of me
精[せい]:spirit|energy|fine details|, 一[いち]:one|best|first||, 一[ひとつ]:one|for one thing|only||, 杯[さかずき, さかづき]:sake cup/cup for alcoholic beverages, 杯[はい, はた]:sake cup|counter for cupfuls|counter for ships, octopuses and squid, 媚びる[こびる]:to flatter/to curry favor with|to flirt with (woman with a man), 売る[うる]:to sell, 助ける[たすける]:to save|to help|to aid|, もらう:to receive/to take|to get somebody to do something, してい:servant/janitor/messenger, してい:older sister and younger brother
お前に精一杯媚(せいいっぱいこ)びを売って 助けてもらおうとしていた
for having tried so hard to seduce you
私のことを
into helping me.
媚びる[こびる]:to flatter/to curry favor with|to flirt with (woman with a man)
媚びをって
Seduce you?
S-So low.
馬鹿[ばか, バカ]:fool|trivial matter|foolish|, みたい:-like/sort of/similar to
ばっ... 馬鹿みたい
馬鹿[ばか, バカ]:fool|trivial matter|foolish|, みたい:-like/sort of/similar to
馬鹿みたい 馬鹿みたい 馬鹿みたい
I've sunk so low, so low, so low.
馬鹿[ばか, バカ]:fool|trivial matter|foolish|, みたい:-like/sort of/similar to
私 本当 馬鹿みたい!
I've sunk so low!
I'm so ashamed that I had to seduce someone like you into helping me.
媚びる[こびる]:to flatter/to curry favor with|to flirt with (woman with a man), 売る[うる]:to sell, 助かる[たすかる]:to be saved|to escape harm|to be helped, 恥ずかしい[はずかしい]:shy/ashamed|disgraceful
こ こんな奴に媚びを売ってまで 助かろうとした自分が恥ずかしい!
プライド:pride, 捨てる[すてる]:to throw away|to abandon|to give up, おもねる:to flatter/to play up to/to fawn on
わ 私はプライドを捨てて あのとき こんな奴におもねった!
I threw away all my pride to flatter you.
べろべろ:licking|drunken, 靴[くつ]:shoes/boots/footwear, なめる:to lick|to taste, なめる:to be slippery/to be slimy|to behave charmingly
べろべろ靴をなめた!
I was licking your boots!
気持ち[きもち]:feeling|preparedness|thanks|, 的[てき]:-like/typical, 的[まと]:mark/target
気持ち的に!
Emotionally!
I made a much bigger mistake trying to correct a different one.
失敗[しっぱい]:failure/mistake/blunder, 取り戻す[とりもどす]:to take back/to regain/to get back, もっと:(some) more/even more/longer, 酷い[むごい]:cruel/merciless|tragic, 酷い[ひどい]:cruel|violent|very bad|
失敗を取り戻すつもりで もっと酷い失敗をした...
I'm so ashamed!
恥ずかしい[はずかしい]:shy/ashamed|disgraceful
恥ずかしい 恥ずかしい!
恥ずかしい[はずかしい]:shy/ashamed|disgraceful
恥ずかしい 恥ずかしい
I'm so ashamed!
死にたい!
I want to die!
I want to disappear!
いなくなっちゃいたい!
だけど 阿良々木
Y'know, Araragi.
きっと:surely/undoubtedly|sternly, 同じ[おなじ, おんなじ]:same/identical|(usu. part of a 'nara' conditional) anyway, ことになる:it has been decided (so) that/it has been arranged (so) that|it is the result (of)
これは 私じゃなくても きっと同じことになってたと思うのよ
I don't think I'm the problem here.
I don't think I'm particularly unfortunate.
特別[とくべつ]:special, 不幸[ふこう]:unhappiness/sorrow|death (usu. of a relative)
私が特別不幸なんじゃないと思うの
This kind of thing is not uncommon.
こういうのは よくあることなの
Hey, don't you agree?
ねえ お前もそう思わない?
You're not pitying me, are you?
まさか:by no means/never!|something unexpected, 同情[どうじょう]:sympathy/compassion/feeling pity for, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
まさか私に同情なんてしてないでしょうね?
憐れむ[あわれむ]:to commiserate/to pity|to enjoy the beauty of
私を憐(あわ)れまないで
Don't commiserate me.
大嫌い[だいきらい]:detestable/abhorrent/loathsome, 憐れむ[あわれむ]:to commiserate/to pity|to enjoy the beauty of
大嫌いなお前に憐れまれると 本当に死にたくなるの
I might want to die for real if you commiserate me.
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仕方ない[しかたない]:it can't be helped/it's inevitable/it's no use
お前からは何を言われても仕方ないって思ってるよ
I'll accept everything you have to say.
受け取る[うけとる]:to receive/to get|to take, 一[いち]:one|best|first||, 一[ひとつ]:one|for one thing|only||, 返す[かえす]:to return (something)|to turn over|to pay back|
お前から受け取ったものを 僕は何一つ返していないんだから
I haven't done anything to repay you yet.
憐れむ[あわれむ]:to commiserate/to pity|to enjoy the beauty of
だからお前が憐れむなと言うなら憐れまない
If you don't want me to commiserate you, I won't.
If you don't want me to atone, I won't.
償う[つぐなう, つぐのう]:to make up for/to compensate for/to indemnify, もちろん:of course/certainly/naturally
償うなと言うならもちろん償わないよ
何それ
Huh?
格好[かっこう, かっこ]:shape|appearance|state||
格好つけてるつもり?
Are you trying to flaunt?
態度[たいど]:attitude/manner/behaviour, 潔い[いさぎよい]:manly|pure (heart, actions, etc.)|unsullied (e.g. scenery or object)
そういう態度が潔いとでも思っているの?
Is this your idea of gallantry?
上等[じょうとう]:superior/first-class|(that's) just fine!
そんなことして 自分は上等な人間のつもり?
Your idea of the moral high ground?
潔い[いさぎよい]:manly|pure (heart, actions, etc.)|unsullied (e.g. scenery or object)
潔いとか...
You wasted
実際[じっさい]:practicality|reality|bhutakoti (limit of reality), 投げ出す[なげだす]:to throw down|to abandon|to give freely|
実際はただ投げ出しているだけなのに
your chance at gallantry.
Yes, perhaps.
投げ出す[なげだす]:to throw down|to abandon|to give freely|, 同じ[おなじ, おんなじ]:same/identical|(usu. part of a 'nara' conditional) anyway
だけど投げ出したのはお前も同じじゃないのか?
And you wasted your chance too.
仕方ない[しかたない]:it can't be helped/it's inevitable/it's no use
仕方ないじゃない
Yes, I did.
それは私のせいじゃない
What was I to do?
投げ出す[なげだす]:to throw down|to abandon|to give freely|, 嫌[いや, や]:disagreeable/detestable/unpleasant, 逃げ出す[にげだす]:to run away/to flee|to start to run away, 親[おや]:parent|dealer (in cards, mahjong, etc.)|founder|, 親[しん]:intimacy|close relative|pro- (e.g. pro-American, pro-Japanese, etc.)
投げ出すのは 嫌になったら逃げ出すのは 親のせいなのよ
That I wasted my chance, that I ran away when I couldn't take it anymore, is my parents' fault.
They're the bad guys.
親[おや]:parent|dealer (in cards, mahjong, etc.)|founder|, 親[しん]:intimacy|close relative|pro- (e.g. pro-American, pro-Japanese, etc.), 悪い[わるい]:bad|evil|unprofitable||, 悪い[にくい]:hateful/abominable|amazing
親が悪いのよ
こんなん:difficulty/hardship/trouble, 親[おや]:parent|dealer (in cards, mahjong, etc.)|founder|, 親[しん]:intimacy|close relative|pro- (e.g. pro-American, pro-Japanese, etc.), 責任[せきにん]:duty/responsibility (incl. supervision of staff)|liability
私がこんなんなのは親の責任だ
It's my parents' fault that I'm reduced to this.
親[おや]:parent|dealer (in cards, mahjong, etc.)|founder|, 親[しん]:intimacy|close relative|pro- (e.g. pro-American, pro-Japanese, etc.)
その親はどうしてんだ? 今
What are your parents doing now?
おっと:husband, おっと:uh-oh/oops/sorry
おっと!
Oh, my!
気にする[きにする]:to mind (negative nuance)/to care about/to worry
何、気にしてくれるの!
What, you care about my family?
ごとし:like/as if/the same as, 家族構成[かぞくこうせい]:family structure
私ごときの家族構成を
You care about my crumbling ruin of a family?
中学生[ちゅうがくせい]:junior high school student/middle school pupil, 頃[ころ, ごろ]:(approximate) time|suitable time (or condition)|time of year, 頃[けい]:qing (Chinese unit of land area equal to 100 mu), まったく:really/truly|indeed, 考慮[こうりょ]:consideration/taking into account
中学生の頃はまったく考慮してくれなかったのに
You definitely didn't care in middle school!
助ける[たすける]:to save|to help|to aid|, めでたい:happy/auspicious|naive, 離婚[りこん]:divorce
お前が助けてくれなかったあと めでたく離婚したわよ
Thankfully, my parents divorced after you elected to not help me.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 引き取る[ひきとる]:to take over|to take charge of|to retire to a private place, 町[まち, ちょう]:town|street|109.09 m||, 離れる[はなれる]:to be separated|to leave|to leave (a job, etc.)|
私はお母さんに引き取られて この町を離れた
My mother took custody of me and we left this town.
男親[おとこおや]:father/male parent, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
男親が今どうしているかなんて 知ったこっちゃないわ
I don't give a shit what my father is up to right now.
そうよ
Yeah.
家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 男親[おとこおや]:father/male parent
あの家をああしたのは男親
He was the one.
That piece of shit.
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お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, たまに:occasionally/once in a while, くらい:dark/gloomy|dark (in colour), くらい:approximately/about|to (about) the extent that
お母さんはたまに私をぶつくらいだったわ
My mother only hit me sometimes.
男親[おとこおや]:father/male parent, 殴る[なぐる]:to strike/to hit/to beat, 憂さ晴らし[うさばらし]:diversion/distraction
男親に殴られた憂(う)さ晴(ば)らしに
Whenever she was tired of taking hits from my father.
風[ふり]:swing|appearance|pretence (pretense)||, 風[かぜ]:wind|manner|cold, 二[に, ふた]:two, 二[アル]:two, 以上[いじょう]:not less than|beyond ... (e.g. one's means)|above-mentioned||, 引きこもる[ひきこもる]:to stay indoors/to be confined indoors
私 こんな風に二年以上 引きこもっているわけだけど
I spent two years hardly leaving this apartment,
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 引きこもる[ひきこもる]:to stay indoors/to be confined indoors
私のお母さんも引きこもった
and my mother never left our home either.
母子[ぼし]:mother and child, 家庭[かてい]:home/family/household
母子家庭になってから すぐに ね
It was right after we moved.
離婚[りこん]:divorce, じわじわ:slowly (but steadily)/gradually|slowly soaking in, みたい:-like/sort of/similar to
離婚したのがじわじわ来たみたいで
The divorce was taking its toll on her.
新しい[あたらしい]:new/novel/fresh, おうち:hollow/low ground/basin, おうち:interior/backwoods/hinterland, 一室[いっしつ]:one room, 引きこもる[ひきこもる]:to stay indoors/to be confined indoors
新しいおうちの一室に引きこもって 出てこなくなったわ
She locked herself up in a room in our new home and didn't leave it.
出てこなく
She didn't leave it?
酷い[むごい]:cruel/merciless|tragic, 酷い[ひどい]:cruel|violent|very bad|
本当 酷かったのよ
It was really difficult.
鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.), 部屋[へや]:room|apartment|stable, こもる:to shut oneself in (e.g. one's room)/to be confined in|to be filled with (emotion, enthusiasm, etc.), 隅[すみ, すま]:corner/nook|downstage right (on a noh stage), うずくまる:to crouch/to squat/to cower
鍵のある部屋こもっちゃって 部屋の隅でうずくまって
There she was in a locked room, huddling in a corner.
She completely stopped eating after a while.
食事[しょくじ]:meal|to eat, 全然[ぜんぜん]:not at all (with neg. verb)|wholly/entirely, 食べる[たべる]:to eat|to live on (e.g. a salary)/to live off
食事さえ そのうち全然食べなくなって
She boarded up the window and kept the curtains closed.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 窓[まど]:window, 板[いた]:board|sheet (of metal)|cutting board||, 打ち付ける[うちつける]:to nail|to knock|to throw (e.g. a rock), カーテン:curtain/curtains, ずっと:continuously in some state (for a long time, distance)/throughout|much (better, etc.), 閉める[しめる]:to close/to shut, っぱなし:keep ...-ing (negative nuance, with the state being improper, unpleasant, etc.)/have been ...-ing/leaving (something) on
お母さん 窓には板を打ち付けた上で カーテンずっと閉めっぱなしにしてて
部屋[へや]:room|apartment|stable, 真っ暗[まっくら]:total darkness/pitch dark|bleak future
もう部屋は真っ暗
Her room was total darkness.
I could hear her mumbling away.
ずーっと:continuously in some state (for a long time, distance)|much (better, etc.)|far away|, ぶつぶつ:grunt/grumble|pimples
それで ずーっとぶつぶつ言ってたけど...
Endless mumbling about how parents can't choose their kids.
親[おや]:parent|dealer (in cards, mahjong, etc.)|founder|, 親[しん]:intimacy|close relative|pro- (e.g. pro-American, pro-Japanese, etc.), 子供[こども]:child/children, 選ぶ[えらぶ]:to choose/to select, ぶつぶつ:grunt/grumble|pimples
親は子供を選べないとかなんとか ぶつぶつ言ってたけれど
話しかける[はなしかける]:to address (someone)/to accost a person|to begin to talk, まったく:really/truly|indeed, 無視[むし]:disregarding/ignoring
いつからか 私が何を話しかけてもまったく無視するようになった
Eventually she ignored me completely.
Thankfully, Japan is relatively wealthy.
幸い[さいわい]:happiness/blessedness|luckily, 日本[にほん, にっぽん]:Japan, 比較的[ひかくてき]:comparative/relative, 福祉[ふくし]:welfare/well-being/social welfare, 充実[じゅうじつ]:fullness|enhancement|replenishment, 国[くに]:country|region|national government||
幸い 日本は比較的福祉が充実している国だからね
書類[しょるい]:documents/official papers, きちんと:properly/accurately|neatly, 揃える[そろえる]:to collect|to arrange|to make uniform, 親子[おやこ, しんし]:parent and child, 二人[ふたり, ににん]:two persons/two people/pair, ぎりぎり:just barely/only just/at the very limit, ぎりぎり:grinding (sound)/grating|forcefully, 食べる[たべる]:to eat|to live on (e.g. a salary)/to live off, くらい:dark/gloomy|dark (in colour), くらい:approximately/about|to (about) the extent that
書類をきちんと揃えれば 親子二人 ぎりぎり食べていくことくらいはできたわ
Hand all the necessary paperwork in, and a mother and her child can just about survive.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation, 一度[いちど, ひとたび]:once|temporarily|one degree
だから私は お母さんいなくなっちゃえばいいなんて 思ったことは一度もない
I never once hoped my mother would disappear.
確か[たしか]:sure|reliable|If I'm not mistaken
それだけは確かなのよ
I can promise you that.
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毎晩[まいばん]:every night, 祈る[いのる]:to pray/to wish
だって私は毎晩祈っていたんだもの
Every night I prayed.
I prayed that I would never wish for my mother to disappear.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
お母さんなんていなくなっちゃえばいいのになんて私が思いませんようにって
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
お母さんなんていなくなっちゃえばいいのになんて私が思いませんように
I prayed that I would never wish for my mother to disappear.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
お母さんなんていなくなっちゃえばいいのになんて私が思いませんように
I prayed that I would never wish for my mother to disappear.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
お母さんなんていなくなっちゃえばいいのになんて私が思いませんように
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だけど お母さんはいなくなった
But my mother disappeared.
願い[ねがい]:desire/wish/request, 反する[はんする]:to be contrary to|to act contrary to (rules or guidelines)|to oppose
私の願いに反して
Against my wishes.
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Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
Against
my wishes
告げる[つげる]:to tell/to inform|to indicate
ある日 私に何も言わず 私に何も告げず
One day, without saying anything, without leaving me a message,
she was gone.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother
お母さんはいなくなった
学校[がっこう]:school, 帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home, お母さん[おかあさん]:mother
学校から帰ってきたら お母さんはいなかった
When I came home from school, she wasn't there.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother
お母さんはいなくなってた
She was gone.
突然[とつぜん]:abrupt/sudden/unexpected, 前触れ[まえぶれ]:advance warning/previous notice|herald, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation, そっくり:all/altogether|exactly like
突然 なんの前触れもなくどっか行っちゃうなんて ほら 私にそっくりでしょう?
She disappeared without warning just like I did, huh?
女の子[おんなのこ, おんなのコ]:girl/daughter|young woman, 女の子[めのこ]:woman/girl, 男親[おとこおや]:father/male parent, 似る[にる]:to resemble/to look like|to be similar (in status, condition, etc.), なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
女の子は男親に似るなんて言うけれど
They say a daughter often takes after her father,
きっと:surely/undoubtedly|sternly, お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 似[に]:takes after (either of one's parents)
私はきっとお母さん似なのね
but I suppose I'm taking after my mother.
Oikura, most likely
smiled like her mother.
Sodachi Lost
I made dinner and brought it to her room.
夕飯[ゆうはん, ゆうめし]:evening meal, 作る[つくる]:to make|to prepare (food)|to raise||, 部屋[へや]:room|apartment|stable, 持つ[もつ]:to hold (in one's hand)|to possess|to maintain||
夕飯を作って 部屋に持って行ったのよ
鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.), 開ける[あける]:to open (a door, etc.)|to open (for business, etc.)|to empty||, 開ける[ひらける]:to become opened up|to develop|to be enlightened, 這入る[はいる]:to enter|to break into|to join||, もぬけ:shed skin of snake, insect, etc. (also place left behind)
鍵を開けて中に這入ったら もぬけのからだった
I unlocked the door. The room was completely empty.
No letter.
置き手紙[おきてがみ]:letter left behind by someone who has departed/farewell letter
置き手紙さえなかった
両親[りょうしん, ふたおや]:parents/both parents
私の両親
I don't know
Oikura
said so.
where either
二人[ふたり, ににん]:two persons/two people/pair
もう二人とも
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
crippled
with her emotions
of my parents are right now.
居場所[いばしょ]:whereabouts/place|place where one belongs
私には居場所がわからない
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
and with her heart
sundered.
ともかく:anyhow/anyway/somehow or other, お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 世話[せわ]:looking after/help/aid, 解放[かいほう]:release/unleashing|deallocation (of computer memory)
ともかく 私はそれで お母さんの世話から解放された
Either way, I was relieved of taking care of my mother.
勉強[べんきょう]:study|diligence|discount, 遅れ[おくれ]:delay/lag/postponement, 取り戻す[とりもどす]:to take back/to regain/to get back
勉強の遅れも取り戻した
I caught up with my studies.
名目[めいもく, みょうもく]:name/title|(under the) pretext (of), 保護者[ほごしゃ]:guardian/protector/patron, 親戚[しんせき]:relative/relation/kin, 見つける[みつける, みっける]:to discover|to locate|to be used to seeing
名目上の保護者を親戚の中から見つけて
I found someone among my relatives who would put their name down for guardianship,
国[くに]:country|region|national government||, 補助[ほじょ]:assistance|subsidy|auxiliary|, 受ける[うける, ウケる]:to receive|to catch (e.g. a ball)|to be struck by (wind, waves, sunlight, etc.)||, 形[かたち, よう]:form/shape|visage, 形[かた, がた]:shape|collateral|obverse of an old "zeni" coin, 町[まち, ちょう]:town|street|109.09 m||, 帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home
それから国の補助を受ける形で この町に帰ってきた
and went back to this town to get welfare.
Oikura
帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home
お前に会いたくなかったから 本当は帰ってきたくなかったけれど
I really didn't want to see you ever again,
but this was the only town with available housing.
空き[あき]:space|vacancy|free time|
ここしか空きがなかったのよ
一人暮らし[ひとりぐらし]:a single life/a solitary life/living alone, ことにする:to make a distinction/to differ/to be different, ことにする:to decide to|to pretend that
どうして一人暮らしをすることにしたんだ?
Why did you want to live alone?
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 一緒[いっしょ]:together|at the same time|same, 住む[すむ]:to live (of humans)/to reside/to inhabit, 家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 続ける[つづける]:to continue/to keep up/to keep on
お母さんと一緒に住んでた家に そのまま住み続けてもよかったはずなのに
You could have stayed at the place you shared with your mother.
わざわざ:expressly/specially/doing something especially rather than incidentally, 引っ越し[ひっこし]:moving (dwelling, office, etc.)/changing residence
どうしてそこでわざわざ引っ越しを?
Why did you move?
ゴミ屋敷[ゴミやしき, ごみやしき]:trash house/house overflowing with garbage from hoarding
ゴミ屋敷だったから
Because it was a filthy hellhole.
掃除[そうじ]:cleaning/sweeping/dusting, 家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 捨てる[すてる]:to throw away|to abandon|to give up
今から掃除するより 家ごと捨てたほうがいいと思ったの
Rather than clean up our mess, I wanted to leave it all behind.
反省[はんせい]:reflection/reconsideration|regret, 生かす[いかす]:to make (the best) use of|to let live|to revive, 家具[かぐ]:furniture, 少ない[すくない]:few/a little/scarce, 目にする[めにする]:to see/to witness/to observe
反省を生かして ここでは家具を少な目にしてあるのよね
I'm using very little furniture here now.
Isn't this place nice and clean?
すっきり:feeling refreshed/feeling fine|shapely
すっきりしているでしょ?
わかった?
Do you understand now?
不幸[ふこう]:unhappiness/sorrow|death (usu. of a relative)
私がそんなに不幸じゃないってことが
I'm not that unfortunate.
What happened to me could have happened to anyone.
くらい:dark/gloomy|dark (in colour), くらい:approximately/about|to (about) the extent that, 身[み]:body|oneself|one's place|, 身[むくろ]:(dead) body/corpse, 起こる[おこる]:to occur/to happen
これくらいのことなら 誰の身にも起こりえることでしょう?
多[た]:multi-, 少[しょう]:small/little/few, 経験[けいけん]:experience
多かれ少なかれ 誰しも経験する
Everyone has these experiences to one degree or another.
よくあることって言うか
It's not that uncommon...
苦労[くろう]:troubles/hardships, 話[はなし]:talk/speech|discussions, 話[わ]:counter for stories, episodes of TV series, etc.
苦労話にもなってないって言うか
It's not a tearjerker.
人並み[ひとなみ]:being average (capacity, looks, standard of living)/ordinary, 辛い[からい]:spicy|salty|harsh (criticism)|, 辛い[つらい]:painful|tough|cruel, しれる:to become known/to come to light|to be known, 世の中[よのなか]:society/the world/the times, いける:to arrange (flowers)/to plant|living, いける:to be good (at)/to go well|to look (taste, etc.) good
まあ人並みよりはちょっと辛いかもしれないけれど でもそんなこと言ってたら 世の中やっていけないよね
I guess it was a little harder than the average life, but that's just looking for excuses.
強いて[しいて]:by force, 親[おや]:parent|dealer (in cards, mahjong, etc.)|founder|, 親[しん]:intimacy|close relative|pro- (e.g. pro-American, pro-Japanese, etc.), 引きこもる[ひきこもる]:to stay indoors/to be confined indoors, 珍しい[めずらしい]:unusual|new|fine (e.g. gift)
強いて言えば親が引きこもるっていうのだけは 珍しいことなんだろうけれど
In the end, the only thing truly rare about it is that my mother became a shut-in,
but I can look at that as a rare and valuable experience.
滅多[めった]:thoughtless|seldom (with neg. verb)|ordinary|, 得る[うる]:to be able to .../can ...|to get, 得る[える]:to get|to understand|to receive something undesirable (e.g. a punishment)|, 難い[かたい]:difficult/hard, 難い[にくい, がたい]:difficult to .../hard to ..., 経験[けいけん]:experience, 喜ぶ[よろこぶ]:to be delighted|to congratulate|to gratefully accept
でもそれは滅多にない 得難い経験ができたんだって喜ぶべきなんだよね
不幸[ふこう]:unhappiness/sorrow|death (usu. of a relative), 頑張る[がんばる]:to persevere|to insist that|to remain in a place
私だけが不幸なわけじゃないんだから 頑張らないと
I have to accept my experiences because many others have it just as hard.
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck
私はまだ幸せなほうよ
I can count myself relatively lucky
because at least I'm still alive.
生きる[いきる]:to live|to make a living|to be in effect||
こうして生きているんだから
同情[どうじょう]:sympathy/compassion/feeling pity for, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
だから 同情なんてしなくていいって
You don't have to pity me.
謝る[あやまる]:to apologize/to apologise, 償う[つぐなう, つぐのう]:to make up for/to compensate for/to indemnify
謝らなくても 償わなくてもいいって 阿良々木
You don't have to apologize or atone, Araragi.
なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation, 全然[ぜんぜん]:not at all (with neg. verb)|wholly/entirely
罪滅しなんて全然いいんだって
There's no need for amends.
話す[はなす]:to talk|to tell|to speak (a language), すっきり:feeling refreshed/feeling fine|shapely
なんか話したらすっきりしちゃったし
Speaking to you takes a load off my mind.
どうせ:anyhow/in any case|at best, 全部[ぜんぶ]:all/entire/whole, 昔[むかし]:olden days/former, 話[はなし]:talk/speech|discussions, 話[わ]:counter for stories, episodes of TV series, etc.
どうせ全部 昔の話だしね
It's all water under the bridge, anyway.
望む[のぞむ]:to desire|to wish for|to see, 昔話[むかしばなし]:old tale/folk tale|reminiscence, 昔々[むかしむかし]:long ago/once upon a time, 話[はなし]:talk/speech|discussions, 話[わ]:counter for stories, episodes of TV series, etc.
お前の望む昔話は 昔々のお話でしかないのよ
You want to talk about the past, but it's all in the past.
全部[ぜんぶ]:all/entire/whole, 終わる[おわる]:to finish/to end/to close, 物語[ものがたり]:tale/story/legend
全部終わった物語
That story has ended.
End
I picked a fight because you annoyed me as a person.
ムカつく:to feel irritated/to feel offended|to feel sick, 絡む[からむ]:to entangle|to pick a quarrel|to be involved with
ムカついたから絡んだりしたけどさ
I don't want anything from you.
今更[いまさら]:now (after such a long time)/at this late hour (i.e. it is too late for something)|afresh, もらう:to receive/to take|to get somebody to do something
今更お前に 何かしてもらおうとか思ってないって
End Story 1 Sodachi Lost Part Two
Black
あえて:purposely (of something needless, unexpected or seemingly counterproductive, etc.)/daringly (doing something)|not necessarily
あえて言うなら
I suppose I do want one thing.
帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home
帰ってくれないかな
Could you please go home?
If she tells us to go home,
we have no choice but to go home.
老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
老倉さん
Oikura,
鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.), 開ける[あける]:to open (a door, etc.)|to open (for business, etc.)|to empty||, 開ける[ひらける]:to become opened up|to develop|to be enlightened
鍵を開けて って言った?
you said you unlocked the door, right?
Wh—
何?
Uh...
ええ そうよ
Yes.
鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.), 開ける[あける]:to open (a door, etc.)|to open (for business, etc.)|to empty||, 開ける[ひらける]:to become opened up|to develop|to be enlightened, 這入る[はいる]:to enter|to break into|to join||, お母さん[おかあさん]:mother
鍵を開けて中に這入ったら お母さんがいなくなってたって
You said you unlocked the door and your mother was gone.
窓[まど]:window, 板[いた]:board|sheet (of metal)|cutting board||, 打ち付ける[うちつける]:to nail|to knock|to throw (e.g. a rock)
でも 窓には板が打ち付けてあったんだよね?
But you also said she boarded up the window, right?
鍵がかかる[かぎがかかる]:to become locked (e.g. of automatic locking)
それで ドアに鍵がかかっていたんなら
If the door was locked,
how did your mother leave the room?
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother
お母さんはどこから出て行ったの?
Sodachi Lost
How did your mother leave the room?
Locked Room
どこからって
How?
そりゃ:very/extremely|that is, 扉[とびら]:door/gate|title page
そりゃ 扉からでしょ?
Through the door, I would assume.
鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.), 内側[うちがわ, ないそく]:inside/interior/inner part, つまみ:knob/handle|(file) handle, ひねる:to twist/to wrench|to puzzle over, ひねる:to age, 開く[ひらく]:to open|to bloom|to open (for business, e.g. in the morning)||, 開く[あく]:to open (e.g. doors)|to open (e.g. business, etc.)|to be empty||
鍵は内側からなら つまみをひねれば開くんだから
She could just turn the knob to unlock it from the inside.
出ていく[でていく, でてゆく]:to go out and away/to leave
それで出ていけるじゃない
Then she left.
Did the door have smart lock, then?
オート:auto/automobile/automatic, ロック:lock
じゃあ オートロックのドアだったの?
No, it was a normal one with a key.
普通[ふつう]:general|normally|local train, 鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.)
普通の鍵の奴よ
But
鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.), なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
でも鍵なんて
家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 適当[てきとう]:suitable/proper|noncommittal, 辺[へん]:area|side|circumstances, 辺[へ, べ]:surrounding area|shore (of the sea)|suffix used as a rough indicator of location, direction, time, etc., 置く[おく]:to put|to leave (behind)|to establish (an organization, a facility, a position, etc.)||
家の中に適当にどっかその辺に置いてあっただけから
I left the key somewhere next to the door.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 出て行く[でていく, でてゆく]:to go out and away/to leave, 締める[しめる]:to tie|to wear (necktie, belt)|to total||
お母さんが出て行くときに締めたんでしょ
She probably just locked it again and left.
まあ...
Huh...
Well,
そうだ ね
I suppose.
老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
じゃあ老倉
Okay, Oikura.
部屋[へや]:room|apartment|stable, 鍵[かぎ, カギ]:key|lock, 鍵[けん]:key (of a piano, etc.), 玄関[げんかん]:entranceway/entry hall/vestibule
部屋の鍵じゃなくて 玄関の鍵はどうだったんだ?
Was the front door locked?
はあ? なんでそんなどうでもいいことに
Huh? Who cares about that?
覚える[おぼえる]:to memorize|to learn|to feel|
覚えてないけど
I don't really remember.
覚える[おぼえる]:to memorize|to learn|to feel|, 印象[いんしょう]:impression, 残る[のこる]:to remain/to be left
覚えてないってことは印象に残ってないってことで
If you don't remember, it must have been unremarkable,
ちゃんと:diligently/seriously|perfectly, 錠[じょう]:lock/padlock|tablet, 落ちる[おちる]:to fall down|to be omitted|to decrease||
だったらちゃんと錠は落ちていたんじゃないの?
so we should assume it was locked.
開く[ひらく]:to open|to bloom|to open (for business, e.g. in the morning)||, 開く[あく]:to open (e.g. doors)|to open (e.g. business, etc.)|to be empty||, 時点[じてん]:point in time/occasion, 変[へん]:strange|unexpected|change||
開いてたらその時点で変だって思うはずだし
You would have noticed if it had been unlocked.
I don't get it.
わけわかんない
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 失踪[しっそう]:absconding/disappearance, 気になる[きになる]:to be on one's mind|to feel like|to fancy
私のお母さんの失踪が そんなに気になるの?
Why do you care so much about my mother's disappearance?
どうして?
Why?
End Story 1 Sodachi Lost Part Two
Black
Hey, Araragi.
ねえ 阿良々木
End Story 1 Sodachi Lost Part Two
Black
家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 保護[ほご, ほうご]:care/protection/shelter, どんな:what/what kind of|(with -temo, demo, etc.) any(body, thing, means, etc.), 気分[きぶん]:feeling/mood
お前の家に保護されたとき 私がどんな気分だったか わかる?
Do you understand how I felt when I stayed with your family?
見せつける[みせつける]:to make a display of/to show off/to flaunt
何を見せつけられているのか と思ったわよ
I was completely dumb-founded.
家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 家庭[かてい]:home/family/household, 当たり前[あたりまえ]:natural/reasonable|usual
自分の家を 自分の家庭を 私は当たり前だと思ってたからね
I thought my own family was normal.
窓[まど]:window, 割れる[われる]:to break|to split|to be divided|
窓の割れていない
Yours had no broken windows,
壁[かべ, へき]:wall|barrier|Chinese "Wall" constellation (one of the 28 mansions), 割れる[われる]:to break|to split|to be divided|
壁の割れていない
no cracks in the wall,
床[とこ]:bed|sickbed|alcove||, 床[ゆか]:floor|stage (for the narrator and the shamisen player)|dining platform built across a river, 割れる[われる]:to break|to split|to be divided|
床の割れていない
no chips in the floor.
あんな:such (about something or someone distant from both speaker and listener, or about a situation unfamiliar to both speaker and listener)/so/that, あんな:Anna or Anwa era (968.8.13-970.3.25), 小綺麗[こぎれい]:neat/trim/tidy, 家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 穏やか[おだやか]:calm/gentle/quiet, 家庭[かてい]:home/family/household, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation, 信ずる[しんずる]:to believe/to believe in/to place trust in
あんな小綺麗な家が あんな穏やかな家庭があるだなんて 信じられなかった
I couldn't believe your home was neat, tidy, and peaceful.
ずっと:continuously in some state (for a long time, distance)/throughout|much (better, etc.), おまえ:you (formerly honorific, now sometimes derog. term referring to an equal or inferior)|presence (of a god, nobleman, etc.), 達[たち]:pluralizing suffix (esp. for people & animals; formerly honorific), 達[だち, ダチ]:friend, 睨む[にらむ]:to glare at|to stare intensely at|to estimate||
だからずっと おまえ達を睨んでいた
That's why I just stared at you.
無言[むごん]:silence, 睨みつける[にらみつける]:to glare at/to scowl at
無言で睨みつけていた
Without words, I stared at you.
Do you remember?
覚える[おぼえる]:to memorize|to learn|to feel|
覚えている?
Yes.
A lie.
I have no memory of that time.
まぶしい:dazzling/radiant
まぶしかった
It was so radiant.
逃げ出す[にげだす]:to run away/to flee|to start to run away, まぶしい:dazzling/radiant, くらむ:to be dazzled by/to be dizzied by|to be lost in (greed, lust, etc.)
だから逃げ出したんだ まぶしさにくらんで
That's why I ran away.
潰れる[つぶれる]:to be crushed|to become useless|to go bankrupt
目が潰れそうだったから
The radiance dazzled me, blinded me.
あたたかさ:warmth, ぬくもり:warmth
あたたかさに ぬくもりに
The warmth and love
I wish I'd never known.
ripped my body apart.
身[み]:body|oneself|one's place|, 身[むくろ]:(dead) body/corpse, 潰す[つぶす]:to smash|to shut down|to thwart||
身が潰されそうだったから
I wish
でも だめだった
But it didn't work.
手遅れ[ておくれ]:being (too) late|belated treatment
手遅れだった
It was too late.
I'd never met you.
一度[いちど, ひとたび]:once|temporarily|one degree, あんな:such (about something or someone distant from both speaker and listener, or about a situation unfamiliar to both speaker and listener)/so/that, あんな:Anna or Anwa era (968.8.13-970.3.25), しまう:to finish/to stop|to close (a business, etc.), 家[いえ]:house|family|lineage, 家[うち, ち]:house/home (one's own)|(one's) family, 悲惨[ひさん]:disastrous/tragic/miserable
一度あんなものを見てしまえば 私の家は悲惨なんだってことがわかっちゃった
I'd already realized that my own family was wretched.
It was a relatively normal family.
To her, it was radiant.
It was a relatively normal family.
To her, it was radiant.
It was a relatively normal family.
To her, it was radiant.
It was a relatively normal family.
To her, it was radiant.
It was a relatively normal family.
To her, it was radiant.
It was a relatively normal family.
To her, it was radiant.
It was too late for me then.
しよう:way/method|(technical) specification, しよう:use/application/employment
わかっちゃったときには もう私はどうしようもなかった
I tried to find odd ways to change my family
変[へん]:strange|unexpected|change||, 反抗的[はんこうてき]:rebellious/defiant
変になんとかしようとして 反抗的だと言われるようになった
and for being rebellious they beat me even more
余計[よけい]:too many|unnecessary|abundantly, 殴る[なぐる]:to strike/to hit/to beat
余計に殴られるようになった
but only where my clothes would hide it.
見える[みえる]:to be seen|to look|to come, 見える[まみえる]:to have an audience|to face (an enemy)|to serve (esp. as one's wife)
見えないところで
Over and over
見える[みえる]:to be seen|to look|to come, 見える[まみえる]:to have an audience|to face (an enemy)|to serve (esp. as one's wife)
見えないところ
ボコボコ:burbling
をボコボコにされた
where people couldn't see it.
逃げる[にげる]:to escape/to run away
だけど逃げてきた私は 逃げられなかった
But, having run back to them, I couldn't run away.
Not anymore.
逃げる[にげる]:to escape/to run away
もう逃げられなかった
中学校[ちゅうがっこう]:junior high school/middle school/lower secondary school, 再会[さいかい]:another meeting/meeting again/reunion, 運命[うんめい]:fate/destiny/lot
だからお前に中学校で再会したときは運命だとさえ思ったわよ
When I met you again in middle school, I thought it was a stroke of benevolent fate.
頑張る[がんばる]:to persevere|to insist that|to remain in a place, 媚びる[こびる]:to flatter/to curry favor with|to flirt with (woman with a man), 売る[うる]:to sell
頑張って媚びを売ったでしょ?
Didn't I try really hard to seduce you?
反動[はんどう]:reaction/recoil/kick, 高校生[こうこうせい]:senior high school student, 二[に, ふた]:two, 二[アル]:two, 回[かい]:counter for occurrences|a time|inning (baseball)||, 再会[さいかい]:another meeting/meeting again/reunion, 果たす[はたす]:to accomplish/to achieve|to do ... completely
ま その反動で高校生のときに 二回目の再会を果たしたときは
Well, the rebound came when I met you again in high school.
いささか:a little/a bit/somewhat, 過ぎる[すぎる]:to pass through|to pass (i.e. of time)|to have expired||, 過ぎる[よぎる]:to go by/to cross/to pass by
いささかキツくなり過ぎたけどね
It was all the more difficult.
どの道[どのみち]:anyway/anyhow/at any rate, 忘れる[わすれる]:to forget/to leave carelessly/to be forgetful of, 関係[かんけい]:relation|participation|influence||
どの道お前は私を忘れてたわけだから 関係ないんけど
You forgot me, so it's not like it matters.
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ったく:good grief (expression of exasperation), うまい:skillful/skilful|delicious
ったく... うまくいかないなあ
Things just never work out, do they?
今度[こんど]:this time|next time|recently, やり直す[やりなおす]:to do over again/to redo/to start over
鉄条がいなくなって 今度こそやり直せると思ったのに
I thought I'd start over when Ms. Tetsujou was gone,
同じ[おなじ, おんなじ]:same/identical|(usu. part of a 'nara' conditional) anyway, クラス:class
また阿良々木が同じクラスとか ありえない
but there you were in my class.
Perhaps it really is fate,
やっぱり:too/also|still, 運命[うんめい]:fate/destiny/lot, じみる:to have a touch of/to look like, 感じる[かんじる]:to feel/to sense/to experience
やっぱり運命じみたものを感じるよ
呪い[のろい]:curse/spell/malediction, 呪い[まじない]:charm/incantation/spell, 運命[うんめい]:fate/destiny/lot
呪いのような運命を
and fate is a cruel mistress.
You appear at the turning points in my life and sow the seeds of calamity.
人生[じんせい]:(human) life (i.e. conception to death), 節目[ふしめ, フシめ]:turning point/critical juncture|knot (in a tree, etc.), 現れる[あらわれる]:to appear/to come in sight|to be expressed (e.g. emotions), 災厄[さいやく]:calamity/disaster/accident, まき散らす[まきちらす]:to scatter/to spread
お前は私の人生の節目節目に現れて 災厄をまき散らしていく
僕のせいか?
Is it my fault?
そうよ
Yes.
人生[じんせい]:(human) life (i.e. conception to death), 滅茶苦茶[めちゃくちゃ, メチャクチャ]:absurd|extreme|disorder
お前のせいで私の人生 滅茶苦茶よ
It's your fault my life is a mess.
No.
違う
わかってるわよ
I know it's not.
悪い[わるい]:bad|evil|unprofitable||, 悪い[にくい]:hateful/abominable|amazing
お前のせいじゃない 私が悪いってことは
It's my fault, not yours.
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 正しい[ただしい]:right/correct|proper
お母さんの言ったことが正しいんだ
It's like my mother said.
If she'd had a different child, life would have been better.
生まれる[うまれる]:to be born, もっと:(some) more/even more/longer, まっとう:proper/respectable|entirely, まっとう:last place (game, race, lottery, etc.), 人生[じんせい]:(human) life (i.e. conception to death)
生まれたのが私じゃなきゃあ もっとまっとうな人生だった
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It's my fault.
悪い[わるい]:bad|evil|unprofitable||, 悪い[にくい]:hateful/abominable|amazing
私が悪い
I hate myself.
嫌い[きらい]:dislike|suspicion|distinction, 嫌い[ぎらい]:dislike/hatred/fear
私が嫌い
嫌い[きらい]:dislike|suspicion|distinction, 嫌い[ぎらい]:dislike/hatred/fear
私は私が嫌い
I hate myself so much.
だけどさあ お前のせいにでもしなきゃ やってられないんだ 阿良々木
But I have to blame you for it, Araragi, or I can't live on.
申し訳[もうしわけ]:apology/excuse, 悪者[わるもの]:bad fellow/rascal/ruffian
申し訳ないけど 私の悪者になってよ
I'm honestly sorry, but you have to be my villain.
Blaming my parents isn't enough anymore
駄目[だめ, ダメ]:no good|hopeless|cannot|, 追いつく[おいつく]:to catch up (with)/to draw level|to be compensated
もう駄目なんだよ 追いつかないんだよ
to keep me intact.
親[おや]:parent|dealer (in cards, mahjong, etc.)|founder|, 親[しん]:intimacy|close relative|pro- (e.g. pro-American, pro-Japanese, etc.), 悪者[わるもの]:bad fellow/rascal/ruffian
親を悪者にしているだけじゃあ
老[ろう]:old age/age/old people, 倉[くら]:warehouse/storehouse/cellar
老倉
Oikura.
うまい:skillful/skilful|delicious
どうしてうまくいかないんだろう
Why won't it work out?
ちゃんと:diligently/seriously|perfectly
私 ちゃんとやってるのに
I'm living a good life.
努力[どりょく]:great effort/exertion/endeavour, 頑張る[がんばる]:to persevere|to insist that|to remain in a place
努力しているし 頑張ってるし
I'm really trying. I'm doing what I can.
そりゃ:very/extremely|that is, 性格[せいかく]:character/personality/disposition, 頭[とう]:counter for large animals (e.g. head of cattle), 頭[あたま, かしら]:head|hair (on one's head)|mind||, 色々[いろいろ]:various|various colors (colours), おかしい:funny/amusing|strange
そりゃ性格とか頭とか 色々おかしいところはあるけれど
I've got psychological problems and I know it,
罰を受ける[ばつをうける]:to receive punishment/to be punished/to pay a penalty, 悪い[わるい]:bad|evil|unprofitable||, 悪い[にくい]:hateful/abominable|amazing, じゃん:isn't it
ここまでの罰を受けるような悪いこと 何にもしてないじゃん
but what have I done to deserve this punishment?
教える[おしえる]:to teach|to tell|to preach
教えてよ 阿良々木
Tell me, Araragi.
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck
お前 今幸せなんでしょう?
You're happy, right?
少し[すこし]:small quantity|little while|short distance, 貢献[こうけん]:contribution (furthering a goal or cause)/services (to a cause), 教える[おしえる]:to teach|to tell|to preach
それに少しでも私が貢献(こうけん)しているって言うのなら そう思ってくれるなら 教えてよ
If you think I made the slightest contribution to your happiness, please tell me.
Why can't I be happy?
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck
どうして私は幸せになれないの
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, してい:servant/janitor/messenger, してい:older sister and younger brother
あなたが幸せになれないのは あなたが幸せになろうとしていないからだよ
You can't be happy because you're not trying to be happy.
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck
幸せになろうとしない人を 幸せにすることは誰にもできない
Nobody can make someone happy who doesn't try to be happy.
風[ふり]:swing|appearance|pretence (pretense)||, 風[かぜ]:wind|manner|cold
知った風なことを言ってくれるじゃない
You talk like you know everything.
何でもは知らないわよ
I don't know everything.
知ってることだけ
I just know what I know.
通り[とおり]:avenue|coming and going|flow (of water, air, etc.)||, 通り[どおり]:in accordance with|roughly|Street
本当 その通り
You're absolutely right.
正解[せいかい]:correct/right/correct interpretation (answer, solution)
正解
Correct answer.
Answer
だってさあ
I mean, look at me.
脆い[もろい]:brittle/fragile/tender-hearted, 幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, ぐしゃ:fool/nitwit|The Fool (Tarot card), 潰れる[つぶれる]:to be crushed|to become useless|to go bankrupt
私の脆さで幸せになんかなったら ぐしゃって潰れちゃうよ
I'm so brittle happiness would smash me.
身[み]:body|oneself|one's place|, 身[むくろ]:(dead) body/corpse, 潰れる[つぶれる]:to be crushed|to become useless|to go bankrupt
目も身も 潰れちゃうよ
My eyes blinded, my body ripped apart.
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, 重み[おもみ]:importance/weight/dignity, 耐える[たえる]:to bear|to support|to be fit for
幸せの重みに耐えられない
Happiness is too heavy for me.
今更[いまさら]:now (after such a long time)/at this late hour (i.e. it is too late for something)|afresh, 幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, 不幸[ふこう]:unhappiness/sorrow|death (usu. of a relative), 足首[あしくび]:ankle, 浸かる[つかる]:to be submerged|to be pickled|to be totally immersed (in a condition, e.g. laziness), 適当[てきとう]:suitable/proper|noncommittal, 凌ぐ[しのぐ]:to endure|to pull through|to surpass
今更幸せになるより ぬるーい不幸に足首まで浸かって 適当に凌(しの)いでいきたい
I just want to survive the days, steeped in mild unhappiness.
靴[くつ]:shoes/boots/footwear, ずぶ濡れ[ずぶぬれ]:soaked/dripping wet, 生きる[いきる]:to live|to make a living|to be in effect||
靴をずぶ濡れにして生きていきたい
I want it to drive me forward.
実際[じっさい]:practicality|reality|bhutakoti (limit of reality)
実際そうして来たし
That's what I've done so far.
I don't want to be happy anymore.
今更[いまさら]:now (after such a long time)/at this late hour (i.e. it is too late for something)|afresh, 幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation
今更幸せになんてなりたくない
It's too late for that.
手遅れ[ておくれ]:being (too) late|belated treatment
手遅れなんだよ
Too late
Then when wouldn't it have been too late?
Was it already too late
Then when wouldn't it have been too late?
Was it already too late
long before then—
Then when wouldn't it have been too late?
Was it already too late
long before then—
Then when wouldn't it have been too late?
Was it already too late
long before then—
Was it already too late
long before then—
Was it already too late
long before then—
Was it already too late
long before then—
Was it already too late
long before then—
Was it already too late
long before then—
For my childhood friend.
in the past,
For my childhood friend.
Is everything too late,
in the past,
For my childhood friend.
Is everything too late,
in the past,
For my childhood friend.
Is everything too late,
in the past,
For my childhood friend.
Is everything too late,
in the past,
Is everything too late,
in the past,
For my childhood friend.
Is everything too late,
in the past,
unable to be undone,
changed
or remedied?
unable to be undone,
changed
or remedied?
For my childhood friend.
unable to be undone,
changed
or remedied?
For my childhood friend.
unable to be undone,
changed
or remedied?
For my childhood friend.
unable to be undone,
changed
or remedied?
unable to be undone,
For my childhood friend.
changed
or remedied?
Is everything too late,
No.
in the past,
No.
It isn't.
No.
It isn't.
We can do it.
It isn't.
We can do it.
It's not too late.
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ねえよ
潰れる[つぶれる]:to be crushed|to become useless|to go bankrupt, 重い[おもい]:heavy|heavy (feeling)|slow||, 幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, なんて:how ..!/what ..!|what (questioning), なんて:such as/(things) like|exclamation, この世[このよ]:this world/the present life (in contrast to the land of the dead)
お前が潰れるほど重い幸せなんてこの世にねえ
There's no happiness heavy enough to rip you apart.
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, まぶしい:dazzling/radiant, 重い[おもい]:heavy|heavy (feeling)|slow||
幸せは まぶしくもなければ重くもない
Happiness is neither radiant nor heavy.
幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, 過大[かだい]:excessive/too much/unreasonable, 評価[ひょうか]:valuation|to value|to appreciate
幸せを過大評価するな
You overestimate happiness.
あらゆる:all/every, 幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, ちょうど:exactly/precisely|as if, ちょうど:supplies/furniture/fixtures
あらゆる幸せは お前にとってちょうどいいんだ
There are a million ways for you to be happy.
風[ふり]:swing|appearance|pretence (pretense)||, 風[かぜ]:wind|manner|cold, 幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck, 嫌う[きらう]:to hate/to dislike/to loathe
だからそんな風に 幸せを嫌うな
Don't hate happiness.
世界[せかい]:the world|sphere|renowned|, 嫌う[きらう]:to hate/to dislike/to loathe
世界を嫌うな
Don't hate the world.
嫌う[きらう]:to hate/to dislike/to loathe
何もかもを嫌うな
Don't hate everything.
Don't hate yourself.
嫌う[きらう]:to hate/to dislike/to loathe
自分を嫌うな
身体[からだ]:body|torso|build||, 身体[しんたい, しんだい]:body/physical system/person, 嫌い[きらい]:dislike|suspicion|distinction, 嫌い[ぎらい]:dislike/hatred/fear, 全部[ぜんぶ]:all/entire/whole, 受け止める[うけとめる]:to catch/to stop the blow|to react to
お前の身体の中にある"嫌い"は全部 僕が受け止めてやるから
I'd gladly take all the hate you have in you.
受け入れる[うけいれる]:to accept/to receive/to agree
受け入れてやるから
I can be the one you hate.
もっと:(some) more/even more/longer, 好き[すき]:liking/fondness/love, 好き[ずき]:-phil/-phile|being attractive (to)
お前はもっと自分のことを好きになれ
Love yourself.
You can hate me as much as you like.
Love yourself at least as much
as I used to love you.
確か[たしか]:sure|reliable|If I'm not mistaken, とても:very/awfully|(not) at all, 幸せ[しあわせ, しやわせ]:happiness/good fortune/luck
確かに僕は今 とても幸せだ
It's true. I'm very happy right now.
あえて:purposely (of something needless, unexpected or seemingly counterproductive, etc.)/daringly (doing something)|not necessarily
だからこそあえて言うぞ!
So I'll say this.
持つ[もつ]:to hold (in one's hand)|to possess|to maintain||, 当たり前[あたりまえ]:natural/reasonable|usual
こんなもんはな 誰もが持ってて 当たり前のもんなんだよ!
What I have is pretty normal!
Well said.
よく言った
役場[やくば]:town hall
役場
The town hall.
役場[やくば]:town hall
役場の人が来るのよ もうすぐ
Soon the people from the town hall will come.
Sorry to interrupt you at such a lively point, but could you please go home?
熱い[あつい]:hot (thing)|passionate (feelings, etc.)|hot (e.g. temper)||, 悪い[わるい]:bad|evil|unprofitable||, 悪い[にくい]:hateful/abominable|amazing, 帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home
熱くなってるところ悪いんだけど 本当に帰ってくれないかな
ちゃんと:diligently/seriously|perfectly, 生活[せいかつ]:living/life (one's daily existence)/livelihood, チェック:check/plaid/checkered
私がちゃんと生活してるかどうかチェックしに
They want to check how I'm doing.
不[ふ]:un-/non-/negative prefix, 不[ぶ]:un-/non-|bad ..., 登校[とうこう]:attendance (at school)/going to school, ぎりぎり:just barely/only just/at the very limit, ぎりぎり:grinding (sound)/grating|forcefully, 大目に見る[おおめにみる]:to tolerate/to condone/to overlook, もらう:to receive/to take|to get somebody to do something, 状況[じょうきょう]:state of affairs (around you)/situation/circumstances
不登校をぎりぎり大目に見てもらってるような状況でね
They're gracious enough to overlook my absence from school,
学校[がっこう]:school, 同級生[どうきゅうせい]:classmate, 言い合う[いいあう]:to say to each other/to exchange (jokes, comments, etc.)|to quarrel, まずい:poor-quality/shoddy|unskillful, まずい:unappetising/unappetizing|unskillful
学校の同級生と言い合いしているところを見られると まずいの
but I don't want them to see me arguing with you.
そう
Okay.
帰る[かえる]:to return|to leave|to get home
じゃあ 今日は帰るね
We will go home, then.
私達[わたしたち, わたくしたち]:we/us, 明日[あした, あす]:tomorrow|near future
でも私達は明日も来るよ
We'll be back tomorrow.
明後日[あさって, みょうごにち]:day after tomorrow, 土日[どにち]:weekend/Saturday and Sunday, 関係[かんけい]:relation|participation|influence||
明後日も 土日も関係なく
The day after, too, and also on the weekend.
迷惑[めいわく, べいこく]:trouble/bother/annoyance, しれる:to become known/to come to light|to be known, 好き[すき]:liking/fondness/love, 好き[ずき]:-phil/-phile|being attractive (to), 迷惑をかける[めいわくをかける]:to cause trouble (for someone)/to annoy/to bother, 私達[わたしたち, わたくしたち]:we/us
迷惑かもしれないけれど 好きな人には迷惑をかけるのが 私達のやりかただから
Maybe you think we're pestering you, but pestering the people we like is what we do.
おっと:husband, おっと:uh-oh/oops/sorry, 忘れる[わすれる]:to forget/to leave carelessly/to be forgetful of
おっと 言い忘れてた
Oh, I forgot to say this.
最初[さいしょ]:beginning/outset/first
これ最初に言っとかなきゃね
I should've said this earlier.
結構[けっこう]:splendid|sufficient|well enough||, 好き[すき]:liking/fondness/love, 好き[ずき]:-phil/-phile|being attractive (to)
私 あなたのこと 結構好きになっちゃったから
You know, I really like you.
Okay.
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達[たち]:pluralizing suffix (esp. for people & animals; formerly honorific), 達[だち, ダチ]:friend
じゃあ あなた達
お母さん[おかあさん]:mother, 見つける[みつける, みっける]:to discover|to locate|to be used to seeing, 頂戴[ちょうだい]:receiving|eating|please
いなくなったお母さんを見つけて頂戴
Please find my mother, then.
見つける[みつける, みっける]:to discover|to locate|to be used to seeing, 学校[がっこう]:school, あげる:to raise/to elevate|to do up (one's hair)
見つけてくれたら 学校に行ってあげてもいいわ
I'll come to school if you find her.
I'll also apologize to Senjougahara.
謝る[あやまる]:to apologize/to apologise, あげる:to raise/to elevate|to do up (one's hair)
戦場ヶ原さんに 謝ってあげても
I hear your laughter near me
You were supposed to be there forever
I breathed onto the classroom window and wrote your name
only to panic and wipe it with my sleeve
I heard your voice from the hallway
and went home in hurry to hide my feelings
At some point I became unable
to talk to you normally
I can hear your laughter a ways away
You were supposed to be next to me forever
You knew how I felt
even when I said nothing
Now I know how important you were to me,
but we will never see each other again