MISS BROWN A NOVEL
BY VERNON LEE AUTHOR OF ‘EUPHORION,’ ‘BELCARO,’ ETC.
IN THREE VOLUMES
VOL. I.
WILLIAM BLACKWOOD AND SONS EDINBURGH AND LONDON
MDCCLXXXIV
All Rights Reserved
TO HENRY JAMES, I DEDICATE, FOR GOOD LUCK, MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT A NOVEL.
IT was melancholy to admit that Italy also had ceased to interest him, thought
Hamlin, as he smoked his cigarette on the hillside above the Villa Arnolfini; melancholy,
although, in truth, he had suspected as much throughout the journey, and, indeed, before
starting. Pale, milky morning sky, deepening into luminous blue opposite the fast‐rising sun;
misty blue‐green valley bounded by unsubstantial Apennine peaks and Carrara crags; yellow
shimmer of vines and of maize, green sparkle of pine and fir branches, glitter of vermilion
sand crumbling under his feet among the sear grass
Walter Hamlin had never been your splash‐of‐scarlet and dash‐of‐orange‐and‐skyblue,
lust‐and‐terror kind of lyrist; but he had begun his poetical career with a quiet concentra‐
“Dear Mr Hamlin, I must kiss the hands that have opened the paradise of body and soul to so many of us.”
She, and her speech, and the damp dab on his hands, had passed before him like a nightmare; he felt that he would never be able to disassociate Mrs Melton Perry from that horrible smell of ill‐trimmed, flickering oil‐lamp. It seemed to him dreadful—a sort of hideous, harpy‐like proceeding—that his old friend should have thus been metamorphosed.
“You see,” Perry had said, “I must paint things—well—not the sort of things I exactly admire,—because, you see, there’s Mrs Perry and the children—five girls,—and last year’s baby.”
Perry’s depressed voice had remained in Hamlin’s ears. This was the end of a bright,
original fellow—married for love, too! And
Hamlin had got to the bottom of the hill, and in front of him, nestled among the olives and
the vines, rose the Villa Arnolfini, a time‐ and weather‐stained Tuscan country‐house, with
its rose‐hedges gone wild among the beans and artichokes, its grotesque ivy‐draped terra‐cotta
statues, its belvedere towers, from whose crannied sides and yellow lichened tiles
Making these reflections, Hamlin pushed open the green and blistered house‐door and entered
the wide hall, with rickety eighteenth‐century chairs and tables marshalled round the walls.
There was one good thing about his hosts, he thought, and that was, that they had no common
breakfast, but invited their guests to do whatsoever they pleased in the early morning. The
hall was very silent, and Ham‐
“Confound it!” thought Hamlin, “am I to be left in
“I beg your pardon,” said Hamlin, in Italian, as he stood in the doorway. The children looked round, tittered, and made remarks in shrill whispers; the girl stopped her work, stood erect, putting her iron on the brasier, and stared full at Hamlin with large wide‐opened eyes of strange dark‐greyish blue, beneath heavy masses of dark lustreless hair, crimped naturally like so much delicate black iron wire, on her narrow white brow.
“I beg your pardon,” said Hamlin again; “but can you tell me how I may get some breakfast?”
He could not help smiling in proffering this innocent request, so serious and almost tragic was the face of the girl.
“It’s Mr Hamlin,” tittered the children, rolling under the table, and hanging to the table‐cloth.
The young woman eyed Hamlin for a second in no very gracious manner; then answered, with a certain contemptuous listlessness in her slightly hollowed pale cheeks and beautifully curled but somewhat prominent lips—
“I don’t know anything about your breakfast, sir.” She spoke, to his surprise, in perfect English, with only the faintest guttural Italian accent. “Mr Perry went to sketch at Massaciuccoli early this morning, and took the boy with him; Mrs Perry may never be disturbed till nine; and the cook is gone to Lucca for provisions.”
“That’s very sad,” remarked Hamlin, laughing, and looking at this curious and picturesque being.
The girl seemed annoyed at being discovered
“I suppose the cook has orders about your breakfast,” she said, in a tone which seemed to put an end to the conversation; and she took up her iron once more. “Mrs Perry did not think you would want anything so early; the cook will be back about nine.”
But Hamlin would not be shaken off; the fact was, he enjoyed watching this beautiful sullen creature much as he might have enjoyed watching a cat whom he had disturbed in its sleep.
“Nine o’clock!” he said; “that’s a long time to wait. Couldn’t you give me something to eat? I saw a table spread in the next room.”
The girl put down her iron with a sort of subdued irritation of manner.
“It’s the children’s breakfast, sir,” she answered; “we have neither tea nor coffee.”
“We have milk,” said the eldest of the little girls pertly, “and figs.”
“Milk and figs!” exclaimed Hamlin; “why, that’s a breakfast for the gods! and won’t you,” he went on rather appealingly—“won’t you share a little of it with me?”
“You are Mrs Perry’s guest,” said the girl more sullenly than ever, “and of course you are welcome to anything you choose.”
Hamlin felt rather taken aback.
“Indeed!” he said. “I don’t wish to do anything against the habits of the house, or disagreeable to you.”
“It is not against any rules,” she answered. “If you will excuse me, I will see whether the milk is heated. The children will show you the way.”
HAMLIN felt rather contrite and humiliated as he sat down at the square table, with
the two eldest children, pert little rosy and flaxen things, on either side of him, and the
three little ones staring at him, and then suddenly making convulsive dives under the
table‐cloth and behind each other’s shoulders opposite. He was the furthest possible removed
from the kind of young man who persecutes pretty housemaids. Whatever vagaries he might have
had in his life, they were not of that sort; and now, although he had merely intended to ask
for some breakfast, he found himself somehow in the position of pushing his presence upon a
servant girl. He was vexed with himself, and became very grave, scarcely
“And you know,” said the eldest child, a pretty little minx of eleven, fully conscious of her charms, “mamma told us you were the great poet, and she read us a poem of yours about Sir Troilus. Mamma always reads poetry to us—and we liked it so much,—and I liked all about where he kisses the lady so much, and her purple dress with the golden roses, and then about Love, where he comes and takes her by the throat, and chokes her, and makes her feel like a furnace. Mamma says it’s just like love. Mr Thaddeus Smith was in love with the gardener’s girl when he came here last year, mamma says.”
“Good heavens!” thought Hamlin, “what a mamma and what children!”
“And mamma told us to get some myrtles and put them in your room,” blurted out a smaller one.
“Hush, Winnie! You know you shouldn’t tell,” said the eldest.
“And you know,” insisted the younger, in her little, impertinent lisp, “mamma said we should put the myrtles, because you made poems about myrtles; and we were to have had on our best frocks, and met you in the hall, and—”
“Hush, Winnie!”
“And thrown roses on the floor before you; only then papa got a telegram saying you were coming by the late train, and we had to go to bed—”
Miss Winnie’s revelations and her sister’s expostulations were interrupted by the entry of the nurse, or governess, or whatever else she might be, carrying a large jug of milk. She had slipped on a skirt and loose jacket of striped peasant cotton, which at a distance looked like a dull, rich purple. She sat down at the head of the table, and began silently helping the hot milk.
“May I cut the bread for you?” asked Hamlin, feeling quite shy from her silence.
“I don’t think you will know how to do
“Now, children, say your prayer.”
The children immediately set up a shrill chorus; the elder, who wished to show off, slowly—the little ones, who were hungry, quicker; an absurdly pseudo‐poetical thanksgiving, which reminded Hamlin of the sort of poetry presented to rich foreigners by needy Italians on creamy, embossed, and illuminated paper. He was struck by the fact that the girl did not join, but waited passively through this religio‐poetical ceremony; doubtless, he thought, because she was a Catholic.
“That’s mamma’s Tuesday hymn,” said Winnie; “she makes a different one for each day of the week.”
Whereupon the children fell vigorously to their breakfast of bread and milk. Heaven knows
when Hamlin had eaten bread and milk last—probably, he thought, not since he
He looked at her with the curiosity of an artist examining a model, or a poet trying to solve a riddle; there was, he felt conscious, nothing insolent or offensive in his stare. Yet he felt he must break the silence; so, with real indifference, he suddenly asked—
“ How is it that you speak English so marvellously well? No one would ever guess that you were not English.”
“I am English,” answered the girl.
English nationality had explained many otherwise unaccountable mixed types to Hamlin; but this took him by surprise, and left him utterly incredulous. This girl certainly was no Englishwoman—a Jewess, perhaps. No, never; no Jewess was ever so pure and statuesque of outline: some Eastern, dashed with Hindoo or Negro; they were much coarser, more common, of far more obvious, less subtle beauty.
“You mean English by adoption,” he suggested, “surely not by blood?”
“My mother was an Italian. I think her
“Have you ever been in Scotland?” he asked, just by way of saying something to mitigate the personalness of his previous questions.
“No,” she answered, and her lips closed as with a spring; then she added, as if to close all further conversation, “I was born in Italy; my father was employed at Spezia in the docks.”
The eldest Miss Perry raised her pretty little sentimental head pertly.
“Annina’s father was one of those who make the big men‐of‐war at Spezia.”
“Oh, you know, we once went with papa, and saw a man‐of‐war, and all the boilers and big, big cannons,” interrupted a smaller one.
“And he was a bad, bad man,” went on the eldest, composedly. “He used to drink quantities of
Hamlin listened as the cruel words dribbled out, and stared at the childish face. He had never taken any interest in children; but he had never thought that a child could be so deliberately (as it seemed to him) malignant. The words made his ears burn, and he felt indignant, confused, and humiliated, as if he were a party to them. He did not look at the girl; but he somehow saw, or felt, the sullen, suppressed bitterness of shame in her tragic face.
“And is it true,” interrupted Winnie, “that you are going to do our picture? Mamma said you
would want to paint us angels or fairies. All the painters paint us, because, mamma says, we
are the most beautiful children in Florence. They always give us chocolate and
WHEN breakfast was over, and she had made the children fold up their napkins, the nurse took what remained of figs, bread, and milk to lock up in the kitchen. Mildred, the eldest of the little Perrys, sidled up to Hamlin, as he stood on the doorstep leading into the vineyard, lighting a cigarette, and asked whether he would not like to see her garden.
Hamlin looked down upon the innocent‐looking little fiend with a sort of disgust and contempt. “Thank you,” he said; “gardens aren’t much in my line.”
The little thing scowled at this rebuff of her fascinations. But a sudden thought struck Hamlin. “Yes, by the way,” he said, “I do take an interest in gardens sometimes. Come and show me yours.”
Mildred slipped her arm through his—a long‐legged, fair‐haired, pre‐Raphaelite child, in much‐darned stockings and patched pinafore—Winnie, the second, a rounder, more comfortable, cherubic beauty, seized his hand. He let himself be led along, among the prattle of the little one and the assumed shyness of the elder, through the vineyard, where the tall, red‐tipped sorghum brooms stood among the trailing pumpkins and the tufts of fennel, to a small grove behind the house, in whose shade were four little raked‐up spaces, with drooping marigolds and zinnias stuck into the earth, and small box sprigs.
“This is my garden!” cried Winnie, dragging him along, and pointing to the melancholy little patch. “I have marigolds, and sunflowers, and red beans and potatoes.”
“And this is mine,” said Mildred, raising her big blue eyes. “I call it the garden of Acrasia; because mamma told us once about Sir Guyon—”
“Won’t you give us anything to buy seeds
“Hush, Winnie! I wonder you’re not ashamed!” cried Mildred.
“They are very good sort of gardens,” said Hamlin, fishing in his waistcoat for loose silver, while the children looked at him with beaming eyes; “here—I hope your tomatoes may prosper and prove eatable.”
Then he suddenly turned to Mildred. “Come here,” he ordered, “I want to speak to you ;” and he sat down on a stone bench under a plane‐tree, in which the cicala was sawing away with all his might.
Mildred stood in front of him, wondering, half hoping for the usual request that she should sit for an angel or a fairy.
“Look here,” said Hamlin, quietly; “I want to know how you would feel if your papa had been
in the habit of drinking too much
The child flushed with surprise and anger; she looked as if she would have scratched
Hamlin’s eyes out. But he looked steadily in her face, and he was a stranger, a gentleman, a
man, and not her papa; circumstances which entirely overawed her. She recovered her composure
marvellously, and answered after a moment’s reflection, “My papa is a gentleman, and Annina’s
papa was a common man —a
“Your papa
And Hamlin left the little Perrys to muse upon this moral truth. He felt quite excited; and
when the excitement had subsided, he felt quite astonished at himself. He could scarcely
realise that he himself had actually been
“Annina, how dare you distress the signorina Mildred? How dare you say cruel things to my poor, poor sensitive child?”
“I have said nothing cruel to the signorina Mildred,” answered a deep, quiet voice; “the signorina Mildred went to show her garden to Mr Hamlin, and then came back crying. I asked her what had happened, but she refused to tell me. I have nothing to do with her tears.”
“How dare you tell such an untruth?” shrieked Mrs Perry. “The signorina Mildred said something about your father at breakfast, and you, like a little viper, turned round upon the poor little darling. She is nearly in hysterics! You little serpent!”
“It is one of Miss Mildred’s usual lies,” answered the other voice calmly—“una delle solite bugíe.”
Hamlin had been admitted too much into
This was the pretty result of his interference! He had merely got this poor devil of a nursemaid into a scrape. It was the fit punishment for his folly in going out of his way to meddle with other folk. He was very much annoyed; he had been dragged into a sordid woman’s squabble; Mrs Perry’s scolding had seemed addressed to him. At the same time, he did feel indignant that the girl should be treated in this fashion: such a splendid, queenly creature slanged by a sentimental, æsthetic fishwife, as he defined his hostess to himself.
The return of Melton Perry interrupted his reflections. Perry was quite astonished to find him up, and extremely distressed at his having had no regular breakfast.
“You see,” he said, “Mrs Perry is very delicate—in short, scarcely fit for any kind of household bother,—so that—”
“Oh,” answered Hamlin, “I had a capital breakfast with your children.”
Then they fell to talking of old times; and little by little there emerged from out of the overworked, henpecked Melton Perry of the present, the resemblance of the proud and brilliant Melton Perry of the past.
“Of course,” said Perry, as they sat smoking in the sheltered studio—“of course I’m very
happy, and that sort of thing. My wife—well, she’s a little impetuous, and I don’t always
agree about her way of bringing up the children—but there’s no saying that she isn’t an
immensely superior kind of woman. I don’t always agree with her, mind you; but she has the
true poetic temperament, and”—here he made an evident effort—“she keeps me up to the mark with
my work. I was always a lazy hound, you know, and all that. In short, I know I’m quite a
singularly fortunate man. Nevertheless,—well, I tell you my frank opinion about matrimony:
never do it; the odds
“I don’t think there is the faintest chance,” answered Hamlin. “Women have got to bore me long ago: all that in my poems is mere recollections of the past—descriptions of a myself which has long come to an end.”
“I’m glad of it,” replied Perry. “It is a foolish thing to get tied to a woman.”
“Foolish indeed!” thought Hamlin, looking from his shabby, depressed old comrade, to the blazing sunsets and green moonlights on the easels about them.
DURING luncheon, no mention was made of the nursemaid into whose concerns Hamlin had that morning intruded; but at dinner, Hamlin’s sense of the question being a sore one, and of being himself mixed up in it, gave way before his curiosity to solve the riddle of the strange‐type which had taken him so by surprise.
“That is a very strange‐looking girl you have in your service,” he remarked to his hostess, over their grapes and thin wine.
“The cook?” cried Mrs Perry. “Isn’t she a divine creature? I call her Monna Lisa’s younger sister.”
“I don’t know your cook by sight,” he answered. “I mean the other young woman they call Annina—”
Mrs Perry’s brow darkened.
“The nurse—or governess,—I don’t know exactly how to describe her,—of your little girls.”
“My children’s maid,” answered Mrs Perry, with considerable emphasis. “Thank heaven, my children have never had and shall never have any other nurse or any other governess than their own mother.”
“Well, now, Julia,” remonstrated her husband, “I think, you know, that’s pushing it a little too far.”
“My children shall never learn anything from a menial,” insisted Mrs Perry, “neither to walk bodily, nor morally, nor intellectually, as long as I am alive.”
“Good heavens!” thought Hamlin, “what a bandy‐legged family they are likely to turn out!”
“I suppose you mean Annie,” said Perry. “Yes, she’s a good girl, and a good‐looking girl.”
“You are mad, Melton,” cried Mrs Perry, “with your idea of goodness and good looks!”
“I think her extraordinarily good‐looking,” put in Hamlin, enjoying the authority of his own verdict.
“I always told you so,” replied Perry.
“When I say good‐looking,” corrected Hamlin, “I don’t mean it at all in the ordinary sense. There are dozens of Italian girls five times as pretty as that girl, and I daresay most people don’t think her at all attractive.”
“Yes,” burst out Mrs Perry, “vulgar minds and eyes never appreciate the higher beauty. They see only the body.”
“This is exactly a question of the body,” went on Hamlin. “That girl is one of the most singular types I have ever come across. She is like some of Michaelangelo’s women, but even stranger—a superb creature.”
The revelation of her maid’s beauty by so great an authority as Hamlin quite dazzled and delighted Mrs Perry.
“All our servants are handsome,” she said; “the cook’s the finest Leonardo da Vinci
type—when you see her you will want to do her
“And the footman” . . . she went on.
“Errand‐boy,” corrected Mr Perry, suddenly, emboldened by his friend’s presence.
“The footman is quite a type of manly beauty—a young Hercules,—such a neck and shoulders and arms—and a head like a cameo. I always make it a rule to engage only handsome servants, because it spiritualises the minds of our children to be brought up constantly surrounded by beautiful human forms.”
“I see,” answered Hamlin drily, entirely neglecting his opportunity of making the usual reply to this remark—namely, that the young Perrys were so abundantly provided with beautiful human form in the person of their mother that any other was superfluous.
“That girl you noticed has rather a curious history,” said Perry.
“Indeed!” answered Hamlin;“she looks as if she ought to have some sort of tragic past—a kind of Brynhilt or Amazon.”
“It’s tragic enough if you like, but it’s unfortunately not at all poetical,” replied Perry.
“There is poetry in all suffering, Melton,” corrected his wife gravely.
“Well, this girl is the daughter of a Scotch mechanic, a very clever fellow, I believe, who
fell in love with the Italian maid of some old friends of ours, and followed her to Italy. He
got a very good position in the docks at Spezia, but then the other chaps caballed against
him, and made him lose his place. They had to live from hand to mouth for a long while, doing
odd jobs for the railway company; he squandered his money also on inventions, so, little by
little, he and his wife and children got into great distress. Then he took to drinking, poor
devil! (I’m sure I should have done so long before;) and one day that he had again been done
out of a place by some Italian scoundrel
“He was a great republican, poor dear,” added Mrs Perry. “I’m a republican too, a socialist—quite a dreadful creature, Mr Hamlin.”
“What became of the wife and children ?” asked Hamlin.
“The children had all died by this time, except Annie; and the poor wife was quite broken in health. There was a nephew of the husband’s, a Scotch lad, quite a boy, who was awfully plucky and worked for them for some time. Then the widow died; and an old friend of ours, old Miss Curzon, the famous singer that had been—perhaps you may have heard of her—took Annie into her house.”
“Darling Miss Curzon!” exclaimed Mrs Perry. “She was the noblest woman that ever lived. How she loved me! I always say that I lost my voice—I had a lovely voice before my marriage—when dear darling Miss Curzon died.”
“Miss Curzon
“Then I said to my husband, ‘Perry, this child is a legacy to us from our dearest friend,’” went on Mrs Perry, solemnly; “‘we are not rich, but Heaven will send us enough for our children and this child; and if it don’t, why, we must do without.’”
“So she has been with you ever since?”
“Yes,” answered Perry, sharply; “and I should like her to remain for the children’s sake, only that I feel the girl ought to look out for some better place.” And he turned rather gloomily to his wife.
Mrs Perry answered his look with one of sweet and ineffable astonishment. She naturally
viewed all her property, servants, children, husband, etc., as emanations from herself—that
is to say, from perfection, and consequently as
“And what is this girl’s name?” asked Hamlin.
“Anne,” answered Perry—“ Anne Brown.”
THUS it came about that Walter Hamlin, of Wotton Hall, pre‐Raphaelite poet and painter, made acquaintance with Anne Brown, nurse, or as Mrs Perry defined it, children’s maid at the Villa Arnolfini.
The whole of the two following days, Hamlin neither saw nor particularly remembered the
strange girl whose champion he had constituted himself against the little Perrys. An old
chaise, with an older pony, was produced from the neighbouring farmhouse, and Mr and Mrs
Melton Perry took it by turns to drive their guest along the dusty roads to the old town of
Lucca, to various villas, and other sights of the neighbourhood. In the evening Perry led his
friend out for a stroll among the vineyards and
“Nonsense!” he cried—“don’t say that; don’t leave me in the lurch yet.”
“You see,” said Hamlin, hypocritically, “I intend going to America; and I really think I ought to do a little work before leaving Italy.”
“What sort of work?”
“Why, I suppose—I think—I ought to take this opportunity of working a little at one of my pictures for the next Grosvenor.”
“Which picture?” asked Perry, eagerly.
“I really scarcely know. I suppose I ought to be making some studies for Circe and the child Comus.”
“Child Comus!” exclaimed Perry. “Why, I’ve the very thing you want here at hand.
“I don’t intend doing him naked,” answered Hamlin, whose strong point was not anatomy.
“Naked or not, he’s what you want. The head, since you don’t care for legs and chest. You shall have him to‐morrow; and you can work much better here than in that swelter at Florence—”
“In short,” burst out poor Perry, “don’t leave me yet, old fellow. You don’t know what it is for me to have you here—I feel quite another man. It seems to me as if I were ten years younger. The fact is, don’t you know, a man’s never the same when once married; it’s a weight round his neck. Don’t go away yet, dear old Watty, for the sake of auld lang syne.”
Hamlin could not help being touched by the way in which his old friend threw himself on his
compassion. Poor old Perry! How
“Well, I’m willing enough to stay, if you’ll keep me,” answered Hamlin.
“That’s right!” cried Perry, squeezing his hand. “Keep me from growing into a turnip for a little longer, for goodness’ sake.”
So the next morning the farmer’s boy was sent for, and Hamlin began, in a desultory way, to make some studies for his picture. The fact was, he was so utterly indifferent as to all his own movements, that it was an absolute relief to be pinned down to one place by his old friend. Accordingly he unpacked his things, and prepared to stay at the Villa Arnolfini until the Perrys should themselves return to Florence in October.
Little by little he got to arrange his day so as to avoid as far as possible the dreaded
The girl looked up from her work, and fixed her great greyish‐blue eyes upon him in wonder. No one had ever called her Miss Brown before.
Thus things might have continued, and Hamlin have left the Villa Arnolfini with only a few
lines of a sonnet on the fly‐leaf of his ‘Vita Nuova’—a few scratched‐out sketches of a face
with strange, curling full lips, and masses of wiry hair, in his sketchbook—and a daily
fainter remembrance of Mrs Perry’s nurse; when one day he took it into his head to construct a
kind of medieval costume for his peasant‐boy model, and accordingly went to Mrs Perry for
assistance in sewing together the various shreds of old brocade and satin which he had bought
at Lucca, the various bits of weather‐stained cotton which he had obtained by barter from the
peasants. Mrs Perry, lying languidly on a sofa in her dusty boudoir, littered over with
“Won’t you sit down and do it here, Miss Brown?” Hamlin at length suggested.
The girl hesitated for a moment, and then
Hamlin looked at her as he might have looked at a beautiful cathedral front; and he began to
feel that kind of anticipated regret at the thought of losing sight of something beautiful and
rare, that almost painful desire to keep at least some durable likeness of it, which, in
former years, had often tormented him in the midst of the enjoyment of lovely things. He did
not see his way to introducing Anne Brown into any picture; nay, he perhaps did not even think
of his work; but he determined that he must have a likeness of
“I may want her for a picture some day,” he added, half hypocritically.
Mrs Perry’s enthusiasm was immediately kindled.
“Oh !” she exclaimed, “paint a picture of her as the Witch of Atlas, with a red cloak and
red roses all about her, and a background of cactuses and aloes all twisting and writhing, and
looking as if they gibbered. Do paint her like that, dear Mr Hamlin—and Mildred and Winnie
will do for attendant spirits. Begin to‐morrow—you shall have her to sit to you all day; and
she has such lovely arms and shoulders, you
“I think it’s rather cool of you to promise Annie as a sitter in that way,” put in Melton Perry—“especially with so few clothes on, Julia.”
“Why not?” asked Mrs Perry, in astonishment. “If she is beautiful she must be painted. She shall begin sitting to‐morrow morning.”
“She shan’t do anything of the kind!” exclaimed Perry, suddenly. “I don’t see at all what right we have to dispose of her. We pay her wages as a servant for our children, not as a model for our visitors.”
“I never dreamed of Miss Brown being in any way compelled to sit,” remonstrated Hamlin, rather indignantly. “I only wanted your assistance in asking whether she would.”
“Of course she will,” insisted Mrs Perry. “Why, I wonder what great hardship there is in sitting for one’s likeness? Haven’t I done it hundreds of times? When a woman is beautiful, it’s her duty; that’s what I was always told.”
“It may be the duty of a lady, Julia,” answered
“Well,” retorted Mrs Perry, angrily, “I think you don’t show much appreciation of the honour of having one of the greatest of living painters in our house, Perry. I do, and I shall see to his having the proper model.”
“Please, I entreat you, dear Mrs Perry,” cried Hamlin,“ do let the matter go—it really is of no consequence; and, indeed, it would be in the last degree distasteful to me to have an unwilling sitter.”
“You shall have a willing one, Mr Hamlin;” and Mrs Perry walked off with dignity.
Melton Perry suddenly shook off his languor, and started after his wife.
“Julia,” he cried, “do leave it to me—I’ll speak to Annie—only
“I see no reason for this,” she answered.
“Then I shall speak to Annie at once,” replied Perry.
“There’s been far too much of this turning of servants into models in this house,” he said, turning to Hamlin. “Mrs Perry can’t be got to see that it isn’t at all the right sort of thing. I don’t mind so much with the others, for I suppose they’re a parcel of sluts; but Annie is another matter. I don’t mind it’s being you, you know, old fellow; but I object to the principle. Annie! Annie! I want to speak to you a moment,” and Mr Perry went into the house.
After a moment he returned.
“I’ve spoken to her, Hamlin,” he said. “I told her that she was just what you wanted for the
Lady Guenevere or the Lady of the Lake, or some lady or other—all a lie; but you see I didn’t
wish her to know it was merely because she’s handsome. I told her she was like a portrait of
one of these persons. Please don’t tell her she’s not. I really expected she’d refuse; and I
said to her, ‘Annie, mind you don’t let the mistress force you into sitting; don’t do it to
please anybody.’ I’m
“Thank you,” answered Hamlin, putting his hand on Perry’s shoulder; “you’re a good old creature, Perry.”
HAMLIN did not succeed in doing much that first sitting. He had thought that Anne Brown’s head would be an easy one to sketch; but it proved just the reverse. Those salient and outlandish features, which he had thought he could catch in half an hour, were turned into caricature by the slightest exaggeration, and exaggeration was almost inevitable. He made several beginnings, and scratched them all out; and at the end of a couple of hours he felt that he positively could not go on; he had become quite fidgety over his work.
“I have bungled everything,” he said at last, rising, “and kept you here for nothing,
He felt very humiliated at having, as it were, to confess himself a bad artist before such a model.
“Try again,” suggested Perry. “I daresay Annie will sit for you again—won’t you, Annie?”
“If Mr Hamlin wishes me to sit, certainly,” answered the girl simply.
“She
“She’s difficult because she’s a kind of mystery,” explained Perry. “I’ve felt it ever since
we have had her. One thinks there must be something behind that face, and yet it seems to be a
mere blank. My belief is, that people of this condition of life often have very little
character—at least none in particular developed. Because, after all, it’s talking and jawing
about things which don’t matter a pin that develops our character. The people who have no
opportunity for that remain quite
“There’s something in that,” answered Hamlin, tearing up his abortive sketches in a huff;
“but it
The fact was, that the utter silence of his model, and his own utter silence, except when
begging her to turn a little more in this direction or that, made Hamlin nervous. He had, of
course, sketched and painted scores of people who had sat as utterly silent as Anne Brown, but
then Anne Brown was not a model of that kind. Indifferent as he felt towards the hidden
reality of this girl, he was, nevertheless, fully conscious that she was a personality,
something much more than a mere form; or rather, the form itself was suggestive of something
more. It would be an easy thing to have to sketch Michaelangelo’s Dawn, or
“I find we have a common friend, Miss Brown,” he said.
The girl, without stirring, opened her large eyes.
“A common friend?” she asked, with a scarcely perceptible agitation in her quiet manner; then added, “I suppose you mean Mr Perry; I haven’t many friends now anywhere.”
“Oh! this is the friend of a great many people—thousands—besides ourselves, so you need not feel jealous; his name is Dante.”
“Indeed!” answered Anne Brown, and relapsed into silence.
But silence did not suit Hamlin. “I found two books belonging to you in the vineyard early this morning,” he continued; “and I put them on the nursery window‐sill.”
“Thank you,” replied Miss Brown, in her taciturn manner; “I missed them last night.”
“I was indiscreet enough to wonder whether
“Yes,” said Miss Brown.
“How is it that you marked Provenzano, and did not mark Ugolino, I wonder?”
“I don’t care about Ugolino. He was a traitor.”
“Do you consider that traitors ought to be starved to death?” asked Hamlin, with a smile.
“I don’t think any one ought to be starved to death,” she answered very seriously; “it is too dreadful. But I don’t care about Ugolino, because he was a traitor; and the Archbishop was a traitor too. There is no one to be glad or sorry about.”
“And Francesca da Rimini? Do you find there is nothing to care for or be sorry about in her?”
A faint redness welled up under the uniform brown pallor of Anne Brown’s face.
“The husband was quite right,” she said, after a pause.
“You are very severe,” remarked Hamlin—“much more severe than Dante. He was sorry for them.”
“They were quite happy,” she answered. “They did not mind being killed; they did not mind being driven about in the wind, of course”—then she stopped short suddenly.
“Why of course?” and Hamlin went on scraping at his pencil.
“Because I don’t think one would mind, if people cared for one, being driven about in the wind like that. Lots of people have been driven about in revolutions, and put into dungeons together, and so on. If they had put papa in prison, I should have wanted to go in with him,”—for once she spoke with a certain amount of vehemence.
Hamlin looked up from his pencil‐cutting. The expression which he suddenly met in her face
made him feel that at last he had what he wanted. It was a curious mixture, possible
“That is what I want!” thought Hamlin; “the Amazon or Valkyr—as I thought.”
“Tell me why you care for Provenzano,” he went on, now much more interested in his work again.
“Because he was so proud, and did not like to do humble things,” she answered; “and yet he begged in the streets for a ransom for his friend.”
She showed no desire to say more, and Hamlin was now engrossed in his work. They exchanged
but a few trivial remarks during the rest of the sitting. The girl seemed to have contracted a
habit of silence, to break through which required a positive effort. When the
She hesitated. “If Mrs Perry wishes it, of course,” she answered.
“Excuse me,” corrected Hamlin. “Mrs Perry’s consent may be necessary for you; but for me, the sitting depends upon your wishes, Miss Brown.”
“I don’t care one way or another,” she answered hurriedly.
Mrs Perry of course gave her consent.
She had carefully collected and pieced the scattered remnants of yesterday’s abortive sketches, and Hamlin found her pasting them on to cardboard.
“Do let me keep them, dear Mr Hamlin,” cried Mrs Perry; “they are the most precious things I possess.”
“They are horrible rubbish;” and Hamlin rudely tore them to shreds. “If you want something of mine, I will make you a sketch of little Winnie—only please don’t keep these fearful things.”
“Thank you, thank you
“It’s the head of Miss Brown,” he answered angrily. “You don’t care for it much on her shoulders,—why should you care for it on my paper—an abominable caricature? Really, I must be permitted to tear it up”—and he tore it into a heap of little pieces.
The next day but one he had another sitting from Anne Brown; and he was so pleased with his drawing, that he begged for permission to finish it in colours. During these additional sittings there was not much conversation. The Dante topic was perfectly worn to shreds, till at last it seemed as if it could be made to go no further. In despair, Hamlin remembered the Italian grammar which he had picked up together with the Dante.
“What do you want with an Italian grammer?” he asked. “You surely don’t require to study it yourself, Miss Brown?”
“I want to teach some day,” she answered.
“Do you mean to teach the Perry children?”
“Oh no—to teach, to be a daily governess, what we call a
“Ten lessons a‐day! But that’s fearful. What awful slavery! Surely you don’t want to do that?”
“I wish I could. I should be so happy.”
“Then you want to leave the Perrys?”
“I want to give up being a servant.”
Hamlin paused, and looked at this superb and regal creature. He did not know what to say.
“You don’t care for children?” he asked at random.
“I don’t know. I don’t care for these children,” she answered bluntly.
“I thought women always liked children.”
She smiled bitterly.
“Oh,” she said, “children are worse sometimes than grown people; and then one can’t resent it, or answer bad words, or strike them, just because they are children.”
“Then you think you would prefer being a teacher of Italian?”
“Oh yes, I must become that some day; I study when I have a little time. A teacher talks with ladies, and talks about all sorts of things.”
“How do you mean—about all sorts of things?”
“About things—which are not things to eat, or mend, or clean,—about books, and places, and people.”
Hamlin could not help smiling. “Is that such a rare pleasure?” he asked, thinking not of the girl with whom he was talking, but of those weary æsthetic discussions which he had left behind him in London.
“Miss Curzon used to talk about books to me—and about music, sometimes,” said the girl. “She made me read Shakespeare with her. That is long, long ago.”
“And since then. Do you never talk about such things?”
“Never.”
“Never?”
Anne Brown raised her eyes quietly. “Never, except with you, sir.”
Hamlin did not answer.
Towards the end of the sitting, he suddenly looked up.
“Have you ever read the ‘Vita Nuova,’ Miss Brown?” he asked.
“What’s the ‘Vita Nuova’?”
“It is a little book by Dante, in prose and verse, telling how he met Beatrice, and then how she died. It is much more beautiful than the ‘Divina Commedia.’”
She looked incredulous.
“Is it more beautiful than Bertran del Bornio, where he carried his head like a lantern? Or Bocca degli Abati, where they all change into snakes? Or Cacciaguida when he prophesies about Dante’s exile?”
“It is quite different—all about beautiful things, and love.”
“I don’t care for that.”
“You must read it some day, though.”
Miss Brown was silent, and relapsed into her usual sullen appearance.
“I say, Hamlin, old fellow,” said Perry, as they walked up and down in the garden that evening, “do you care to see the festival at Lucca to‐morrow? I’m going to take the children in for a treat, and I shall take Annie too—for she never gets any amusement, poor girl. I’ve hired a waggonette—will you be of the party?”
“Will you let me think about it, Perry? I don’t much go in for festivals.”
“This is a picturesque affair—really worth seeing.”
“By the way,” asked Hamlin, “I have nearly finished my sketch of Miss Brown, and I should like—I suppose I ought—to make her some little present.”
“I wouldn’t,” answered Melton Perry sharply; “she’s an odd girl, and you might just hurt her
feelings. You see her father was a republican, and that sort of thing, so she’s got
“I didn’t mean any money,” said Hamlin, feeling himself grow red at the mere thought.
“Then, if you will run the risk, give her some school‐books. You know she wants to set up as a teacher. Grammars—that sort of thing.”
Hamlin made a gesture of disgust.
“Horrible!—to give her grammars!”
“It’s what she wants.”
“Why, it would seem—well—it would be like encouraging her to become a daily governess.”
“That’s just what I wish to do.”
Hamlin did not answer. The idea of Anne Brown giving lessons at two francs the hour jarred upon him.
EARLY the following morning Hamlin was awakened by the wheels of the waggonette and
the bells of the horses. Then came the excited voices of children; the sound of slammed doors
and precipitate steps on the stairs; and finally the rattle and jingle of departure. He had
declined being one of the boisterous expedition to Lucca, for he detested children in general,
and the little Perrys in particular; and a day in the empty house (for Mrs Perry was going to
see some friends at a neighbouring villa) had seemed to him delightful. He opened his shutters
and saw, in the crisp pale‐blue morning, the carriage sweeping round the corner of a narrow
lane, the children’s hats, Anne Brown’s red shawl, the coachman’s grey coat, brush rapidly
along a tall box hedge.
After breakfast he went to the studio and sat down before his sketches of Miss Brown. They
were unsatisfactory, but they were as good as he could hope to make them. He had fancied that
a coloured sketch of her head would be all that he could possibly want; but he now recognised
that, after all, the head, beautiful and singular as it was, was yet the least part of the
matter. It was the girl’s gait, her way of carrying her head and neck, her movements when at
work, her postures when in repose—a number of things of which that head gave no indication,
and which, indeed, it was difficult to render in painting, since it was all movement. He had
scribbled a few lines—just fragmentary metaphors and scraps of description—suggested to him by
Anne Brown, and wondered what use he would make of them; indeed, what use he could make of
Anne Brown altogether. Here was a
The sun was already high as he walked, or rather waded, along the dusty road, with its
garlands of dust‐engrained vines hanging from tree to tree on either side; its dust‐stifled
marsh‐flowers in the ditch; its white farmhouses, and white stone heaps, white upon white,
brilliant, relentlessly white, under the deep blue autumn sky. Before him the bullock‐carts,
with sleepy drivers prostrate on their back, moved in a white cloud; a whirlwind of dust was
raised by every cariole, heavily laden with singing and yelling peasants, which dashed past.
Within sight of the rampart trees, like a pleasant oasis of leafage in
Hamlin gradually made his way to the side of the altar‐steps. This part of the cathedral was
full of women—provincial great ladies, and shopkeepers’ wives and daughters in their Sunday
clothes, brilliant caricatures of last year’s Paris fashions—close packed together on reserved
seats, enjoying the incense, the
“What! here after all!” cried Perry. “Up to some mischief, you cunning dog!”
“Up to the mischief of watching these good people’s devotion,” answered Hamlin.
“Why did you come?” asked the children eagerly.
“I suppose because I thought I should like to amuse myself after all,” answered Hamlin.
They were out on the cathedral steps, in the full glare of the blue sky. Outside a fountain was playing, penny whistles and trumpets shrilled on all sides, and the people at the stalls shrieked and bellowed out their wares to the motley crowd pouring out of the church. The children cast eyes of longing upon the booths, decorated with tricolour flags and sprigs of green, full of gaudy dolls, and squeaking wooden dogs, and tin trumpets, and drums; upon the tables, covered with bottles shaped like pyramids, and china men, and Garibaldi busts, full of red and yellow and green stuff, and with piles of cakes with little pictures of saints stuck in the middle of them.
“Buy us something,” cried the little ones to their father and Hamlin; and they squeezed
“You look very happy, Miss Brown,” said Hamlin, as they were waiting while the children made their choice. For really the girl looked quite radiant,—an expression of unwonted happiness, of freedom and amusement, shone through her quiet, almost solemn, face, like sunshine through a thin film of mist, all the richer for being half suppressed.
“It is all so beautiful,” she answered, looking round at the square surrounded by high black palaces draped with crimson brocade, and terraces covered with green, and at the cathedral, carved like a precious casket, beneath the blue sky.
“Not more beautiful than at the Villa Arnolfini, surely?”
She paused.
“No, not more beautiful; but more—I don’t know what.”
“More cheerful?”
She shook her head. “Yes; but not so
The children were laden with lollipops and sixpenny toys.
“Come,” said Perry suddenly, very cheerful, in his unaccustomed freedom from his better half, “you must choose a fairing, Annie. What will you have?—a doll?—a beautiful yellow ’kerchief with purple flowers, warranted the very worst colours in creation? some gingerbread?—a penny whistle? No, I’m sure you’re dying for some literature”—and he turned to a stone bench under a palace, where twopenny books were piled up, and quantities of leaflets of ballads, and lives of saints, and romantic histories, were strung to the wall.
“Oh!” he said, “there’s nothing for Annie here—she hates saints and knights and poetry; we
must get her a book on the ‘Rights of Man,’ or a ‘History of the French Revolution,’ at the
bookseller’s in Via Fillungo. But this is just what suits Hamlin”—and throwing
“Don’t be ridiculous, Melton,” cried Hamlin.
“Ridiculous!” exclaimed Perry. “Who talks of things being ridiculous? I’m in good earnest”—and as they went along he began declaiming, with appropriate gestures, a ballad composed by some printer’s prentice from the libretto of an old opera.
The children shrieked with laughter at papa’s voice and faces; and Anne Brown burst into a curious subdued laugh, which, although scarcely audible, was extremely childish.
As they walked along the narrow crowded streets towards the inn where they were to
“Did you like the ceremony in the cathedral, Miss Brown?” he asked, irresistibly drawn on to understand why she had not knelt like the others.
“It was very beautiful,” she said; “and such beautiful vestments! Did you see the white and gold embroidery of the bishop?—and the purple dresses of the canons?—oh, it was lovely! But it makes me angry to see such things.”
“Why so?”
“Because it is dreadful—don’t you think?—to see all those people kneeling down and believing in all that nonsense.”
“How do you know it is nonsense? It seems to me very beautiful and consoling.”
She turned her big grey‐blue eyes upon him. “You don’t mean that you believe in all that
mummery?” she asked, searchingly and reproachfully—“you who have studied so much;
“I don’t believe it,” answered Hamlin, with some embarrassment; “but I think it is very beautiful, and those who do believe in it are very happy.”
“But you don’t think it is right that people should believe in falsehoods, and be the slaves of wicked priests?”
“How rabid you are!” laughed Hamlin. “No, I don’t believe; but I like to see others believing.”
“I don’t;” and after a minute she added, “Don’t you believe in anything at all?”
“Perhaps I do,” he said, fixing his eyes upon her. “I believe in beauty—I believe that is the one true thing in life.”
“I don’t know what you mean,” she answered; “but it seems to me dreadful that people should believe in priests and kings, and all sorts of lies.”
They relapsed into silence. As they walked along, Hamlin stole glances at his companion,
Melton Perry took them to the chief inn of the place for dinner. He let each of the children
choose whatever she preferred, ordered several bottles of
“Good gracious!” said Perry, in a consternation, “what are we to do with these wretched infants? They’ll just prevent our taking a stroll in the town before returning home.”
“I think the best thing will be for them to sleep a little, sir,” suggested Anne Brown. “I will tuck them up on the sofa, and stay with them here while you and Mr Hamlin take Miss Mildred and Miss Winnie for a walk.”
“But I can’t think of leaving you behind, Annie,” cried Perry., “I know how much you would like to see the town.”
“I saw part of it this morning,” she swered; “and I really would just as soon stay with the
children here.” There was no gainsaying her; so the two men sallied forth with the two elder
children on a walk through the crowded and bannered streets; while Anne Brown remained sitting
in the stuffy inn dining‐room by the side of the torpid little
They went to the stable, where all the carioles from the country put up, and ordered the
waggonette to be at the inn door in an hour. But as they were slowly mounting the wide stone
staircase, with the eternal plaster dancing nymphs tripping it on each landing, Perry’s eye
fell upon a large bill pasted upon the
“
“Oh, papa!” shrilled Mildred.
“Oh, papa!” echoed Winnie, catching hold of his knees—
“Not so quick!” exclaimed Perry; “I’m by no means so sure of it. What’s to become of the two sleepy little worms?”
“Send them home with Annie,” suggested Mildred, promptly; “and you’ll take us home later.”
“Nothing of the kind, my young woman,” he answered sternly. “If any one goes to the opera it shall be Annie. Make up your mind for that.”
The dining‐room was deserted. On a sofa
“I say, Annie,”’ cried Perry, “what do you say to taking these two brats to the opera this evening?”
Anne Brown started up.
“To the opera, sir?” she cried, flushing with pleasure.
“Yes; these creatures have never been. They’re giving ‘Semiramide’ to‐night. I think it’s a
good opera for children to begin with; because it will teach them betimes the unhappy
complications which are apt to result from murdering one’s husband, and trying
“But,” exclaimed Anne Brown,—“ oh, how good of you, sir!—but are you sure you would not like to stay for the opera yourself? I could take the little ones home.”
“No, thank you, Annie. The fact is, I
A few minutes later Perry went away with the two little girls, leaving Mildred and Winhie with Anne Brown. Hamlin accompanied them down‐stairs to the waggonette.
“I will go to the theatre and secure a box,” he said, “and order a trap to take us back.”
“All right!” cried Perry, as the waggonette rolled off. “Mind you don’t let those children bore you or worry poor Annie too much; and don’t leave them alone the whole afternoon.”
But, for some unaccountable reason, Hamlin did leave them alone the whole afternoon. After he had secured the box and ordered the carriage, he felt a sort of unwillingness to go back to the inn, perhaps unconsciously, to sit opposite the Perrys’ nursemaid; so he walked about the town till tea‐time, not troubling himself to inquire whether Anne Brown and the children might not prefer a stroll on the ramparts to the monotony of sitting for two mortal hours in the inn dining‐room.
AT dusk they hurriedly drank some of the thin yellow hotel‐tea; and then hastened to the theatre across the twilit street and square, where the garlands of Venetian lanterns were beginning to shine like jewels against the pale‐blue evening sky. Hamlin offered Anne Brown his arm, but she asked him to give it to Winnie Perry.
“Mildred shall take mine,” she said—“that’s the best way in case of a crowd.”
A crowd, alas! there was not; the liveried theatre servants (doubtless the same, in yellow
striped waistcoats and drab gaiters, who carried out Semiramis’s throne, when the drop‐scene
fell) made profuse bows to the little party, and handed them at least half‐a‐dozen playbills
Then the opera began—an opera such as only the misery and genius of Italy could produce.
There was a triumphal procession of six
“We must go, Miss Brown,” cried Hamlin, “otherwise we shall be left in the dark.”
She turned, took little Winnie by the hand, and followed him, who led the elder Perry child, prattling loudly, to the stairs. There was a great crowd going down, whistling and humming tunes from the opera. From the force of habit Hamlin again offered Anne Brown his arm. But instead of accepting it, she, so to speak, rapidly plucked little Winnie from the ground, and raised her in her arms as if she were a feather.
“Please let me carry that child,” cried Hamlin.
“Oh no,” she answered quietly. “I don’t mind carrying her at all; but she’s too heavy for you, sir.”
Out in the square the carriage was awaiting them in the bright starlight, where the red and
green lamps were already dying out among the plane‐trees. In a minute they were rattling
through the narrow streets, and out of the town by the dark tree‐masses of the bastions. The
bells of the horses jingled as they went; the melancholy shrilling of insects rose from the
fields all round; the vine‐garlands creaked in the wind. The two children were speedily
asleep—one with her head on Hamlin’s shoulder, the other wrapped in her nurse’s shawl. Anne
Brown bent over the side of the waggonette, a dark outline, the damp night breeze catching her
hair. Neither spoke. Hamlin felt a sense of guilt stealing over him; of guilt for nothing very
definite; of guilt towards no one else, but towards himself.
“I caught it nicely when I came home—I don’t know why, upon my soul! I’m sure I wish I had remained and amused myself with you.”
“I wish you had,” said Hamlin quite seriously, always with the sense of vague guilt towards himself; then added,—
“By the way, old man, I fear I really must go on to Florence to‐morrow afternoon.”
PERRY could not at first understand his friend’s sudden decision, and violently combated it. But after a little while he said to himself that it must have been fearfully dull for Hamlin at the Villa Arnolfini, and that to have stayed so long was already much more than a miserable being like himself could expect. So that when his wife nearly went into hysterics at the notion of Hamlin—their poet‐painter, as she called him—suddenly departing, he represented to her, with more emphasis than was his wont, that Hamlin had bored himself to death, and must be bored no longer.
“And where are you going?” asked the limp and Sapphic lady, as they sat at lunch.
“I have no notion,” answered Hamlin. “I know nothing beyond Florence for three days. I may go on to Rome, Naples, Egypt, America, Japan, or return to Hammersmith. I have no notion.”
“Ah, these poets!” cried Mrs Perry; “they never can tell whither their soul may waft their body.”
When they had finished, Hamlin asked whether he might say good‐bye to Anne Brown. “I have a little farewell gift to make her,” he explained.
Anne Brown was summoned into the studio; she evidently had only just heard the news.
“Are you going away, sir, really?” she asked.
“Yes,” answered Hamlin, drily; “I expect the gig must be waiting for me already.”
“And—are you not going to return, Mr Hamlin?”
“Oh no; I think I shall go to America this winter.”
She was silent, and stood by the table in the attitude of a servant waiting for further orders.
“Before I go away,” said Hamlin, “I want to thank you, Miss Brown, for your kindness and patience, which have enabled me to make a sketch which will be very valuable for one of my next pictures, and,” he added, as she merely nodded her head, “I want to beg you to accept a little gift in remembrance of all the trouble I have given you.”
Anne Brown flushed, and her face suddenly changed, as if a whip‐cord had passed across it.
Hamlin took the little vellum‐bound volume from his pocket.
“You told me you had never read the ‘Vita Nuova,’ Miss Brown,” he said, “so I venture to ask you to accept this copy of it. I don’t know whether you like old books; I think them much prettier to look at. Good‐bye.”
The girl’s face cleared into a kind of radiance.
“Thank you so much,” she said; “I will read it often.”
“And think of me sometimes and the trouble I gave you?”
“It was my duty, since Mrs Perry wished it, sir. Good‐bye—a good journey to you.”
“Good‐bye, Miss Brown.”
WALTER HAMLIN did not go to America. On leaving the Villa Arnolfini, he met at
Florence some artist friends, who, in his condition of utter absence of plans, easily drew him
on with them to Siena and Perugia, thence into the smaller Umbrian cities, and finally into a
wholly unexplored region between the Abruzzo and the Adriatic. By the time that their
sketching and article‐writing expedition was at an end, the winter had come round, and more
than three months had elapsed since Hamlin had parted with the Perrys. Would Hamlin return
with his friends to England? He had often said that he had had enough of Italy—that he would
go home and shut himself
“I shall be in England at the end of two months at latest,” he said.
And on their remonstrating at his fickleness, he merely answered—
“I have a notion for a new picture, and I think I have found my model for it.”
“‘The Queen of Night’ in your portfolio,” suggested one of his friends.
They had noticed and generally admired that strange head, the like of which none of them had
ever seen before, and they had given the drawing, which Hamlin described
“Yes,” answered Hamlin, “that’s the one I’m thinking about.”
So the rest of the party set sail from Civita Vecchia; and one drizzly, foggy morning, Hamlin got into the train to carry him northward to Florence.
During those three months, he could scarcely himself have explained when or how, strange
notions had come into Hamlin’s head, and a still stranger plan had finally matured in it. He
had been haunted by the remembrance of the Perrys’ nursemaid at the Villa Arnolfini, and
gradually taken to brooding and day‐dreaming about her. He had made up his mind that Anne
Brown was the most beautiful girl, in the strangest style, whom he had ever met. What was to
be her future? Of two possibilities one must be realised. Either this magnificent blossom was
to be untimely nipped,—this beautiful and strange girl was to fritter away her life,
unnoticed, wasted, to
Yet not necessarily; there was still a middle course—she might marry some small shopkeeper
or teacher of languages at Florence; or, perhaps, some artist might notice her, make her his
mistress, perhaps his wife. This last thought of Anne Brown as the possible wife of some other
Melton Perry (for they were all Melton Perrys at Florence) filled Hamlin with a vague disgust
and irritation. Much better that she should end her life as a nursery‐maid, or a daily
governess at a franc the hour. Still, it was dreadful to think that something so
When Hamlin had got thus far he stopped for a long time, revolving the matter in his mind in
a purely abstract way, without attempting to realise how things might be settled. He was not a
man of action or of resolves, and would usually let things slip on and look at them slipping;
and during this ruminating condition, he did not once seriously ask himself whether he
intended marrying the Perrys’ nursemaid. But suddenly, the very day before his friends were to
carry him back to England, a new notion came into his head. His life seemed
A WEEK later Hamlin was painting Anne Brown in a studio which he had hired for three months. She had manifested some pleasure when, unexpectedly, Mrs Perry had told her of his return, and of his desire to have her once more for a model; but the manifestation thereof was so calm, or rather so mingled with her usual haughty indifference, that her romantic and passionate mistress had forthwith made up her mind that Anne Brown was a mere soulless body, and communicated that fact to her husband.
“I don’t see why Annie should be particularly delighted at the prospect of sitting for two
hours, twice a‐week, with her head raised and her throat outstretched, in a beastly cold
“She is a mere soulless body,” repeated Mrs Perry—“as indifferent to Hamlin as a handsome cow would be.”
“Do you expect her to throw herself into Hamlin’s arms?” cried Perry, angrily.
“I expect her,” answered Mrs Perry, with a kind of haughty mystery and sadness, “to be a woman.”
“And I expect you to attend to her remaining what she is—an honest girl,” retorted Perry.
“Melton!” said his wife solemnly; and immediately poor Perry’s principles drooped like a furled sail.
Melton Perry had always an uncomfortable feeling of responsibility regarding Anne Brown; a
sort of sense that, as poor old Miss Curzon had been grievously mistaken in intrusting a girl
like Anne Brown to a lady so mystical
“I can recommend you a most delightful young laundress,” exclaimed Mrs Perry with fervour—“quite a Palma Vecchio.”
“Thank you,” answered Hamlin, drily; “I particularly want an elderly woman who can take charge of my things, and who can be there when—I mean, who can take Miss Brown’s bonnet and shawl when she comes to sit to me.”
Mrs Perry confessed to no knowledge of such a person, but sat down to write to the German deaconesses,—“such real saints,”—in quest of the desired piece of elderly respectability. But when she had gone to her writing‐table, Melton Perry kicked Hamlin’s foot under the table, and said in an undertone—
“You are a damned moral dog, certainly, Wat. Thank you so much, old fellow.”
So the old housekeeper was hired to go three times a‐week to Hamlin’s studio, and twice
a‐week she opened the studio door to Anne Brown, and took the girl’s poke‐bonnet and grey
shawl in the little anteroom, crammed full of dwarf orange‐trees, which opened into the
pillared balcony circling round the topmost floor of the old palace, and from which
For, it must be remembered, the picture, or rather the painting of it, was merely an excuse
invented by Hamlin for an opportunity of seeing, of examining, the creature whose future was
in his hands. He wished to assure himself that Anne Brown was really the Anne Brown of his
fancy; and as he stared at that strange and beautiful face, it was not in reality with the
object of transferring it on to his canvas, but to make sure whether it was
It was a satisfaction, also, to notice how, little by little, whatever ideals seemed to bud
in Anne Brown’s mind, were connected with him, or at least with the things which he presented
to her imagination. Nay, with himself, as a person not at all, but yet with the books, the
music, the pictures about which he talked to her. This studio, so unlike the bleak and
tobacco‐reeking workshop of Melton Perry, with its curious carved furniture, its Japanese
screens, its bits of brocade and tapestry (rubbish which Hamlin would have blushed at in
London), its shelves of books and chipped majolica and glass, its quantity of flowers, was
evidently a sort of earthly paradise to the
They did not talk very much, for they were both of them rather taciturn; but what they said
acquired therefrom more than doubled importance. And of this talking Hamlin did by far the
greater share. Anne Brown had indeed little to say—a nursery‐maid of nineteen has not much to
tell a fashionable poet‐painter of thirty‐one: slight descriptions of places she had been to,
villas, or bathing‐places, and one or two
For when he told her the plots of novels, and repeated scraps of poems to her, she scarcely ventured to give him her opinion. She was so earnest that she felt that only something worth saying should be said; and what things worth saying could she say to him?
“By the way,” said Hamlin one day, as she stood, tying her bonnet, and looking out over the
sea of shingly roofs, the sudden gaps showing shady gardens far below, open
“It is very beautiful,” she said, still looking out of the window—“but do you think it is true?”
“Why not?” he said.
“I don’t know—I don’t think there are men like that;” then she suddenly added, with a sort
of melancholy humorous laugh, which was frequent with her, “I will make my pupils read it when
I am a
Hamlin was looking at her, as she still turned her massive head, with its waves of iron‐black hair, away from him, towards the light.
“Good‐bye,” she said, with her hand on the door‐latch.
“Stop a minute,” said Hamlin; and going
“I don’t know why,” he said, “but I should like you to read these. It is idiotic trash after the ‘Vita Nuova’—but it is mine.”
“Thank you,” she said. “I will bring it you back next sitting. I will cover the binding.”
“I want you to keep it. Won’t you do me that favour?”
She reddened all over her pale face.
“Thank you,” she said. “’It is very good of you.”
IT so happened that as Anne Brown was walking quickly home she was overtaken by Melton Perry.
“What’s that book, Annie?” he inquired, as they walked side by side.
“Mr Hamlin gave it me—it’s his poems.”
“Let me see.” Perry was more peremptory than usual.
He turned over the leaves as they went along, and then returned it to her.
“You may read that,” he said—“it’s sad trash, but you may read it. All poetry isn’t fit for women to read,” he added, by way of explanation.
The gift of this book somehow disturbed Perry’s equanimity.
“What made him give you that book?” he asked.
“I don’t know, sir. We were talking about the ‘Vita Nuova.’”
“A lot of confounded medieval twaddle,” cried Perry. “Why don’t you read ‘Lady Audley’s Secret’ or ‘The Heir of Redclyffe’? that’s the right sort of thing.”
She seemed hurt, and they were silent. Suddenly Perry said, with some roughness—
“I’m sorry to inconvenience Hamlin, but this will be the last of the sittings. I am going to send you to the sea‐side with the children in a day or two. Little May needs change of air. When you return, Mr Hamlin will be leaving Florence.”
“Yes, sir,” answered Anne Brown; and a kind of suppressed spasm passed across her face.
Perry saw it.
“It’s high time,” he said to himself.
Melton Perry could not screw up his courage
“I say, Hamlin,” he began, lighting his pipe, while Mrs Perry artistically twisted a cigarette in her long brown fingers—“d’you think you could finish off that picture with only one more sitting? I’m sure Mrs Perry thinks it is time for the children to go down to the sea‐side—only, of course, she doesn’t like disturbing you in your work.”
“Go down to the sea‐side!” exclaimed Mrs Perry, not at all mollified by her husband’s deference; “who talks of going to the seaside? and what has that to do with his work?”
“You forget, my dear, that you said this morning that May requires change of air—and, of course, Annie will be required to take the children down to Viareggio. I am extremely sorry for you, old fellow, but I fear you must finish that picture—at least so far as Annie is concerned—by the beginning of next week.”
“I see,” answered Hamlin, briefly. For the first time in his life almost, he felt angry with
“
“Bosh!” cried Perry, stretching out his legs and puffing at his pipe—“rubbish! A fine thing if May gets low fever again: much you’ll think of Hamlin’s masterpiece then.”
“May shall not have fever,” answered Mrs Perry, haughtily; “and Hamlin’s masterpiece, which you choose to sneer at—”
“Oh, please, don’t bother about my masterpieces!” interposed Hamlin.
“—Shall not be sacrificed. You shall take the children to the sea‐side, Melton; and Annie shall continue to give him as many sittings as he may wish.” And then, passing over her husband’s nauseous existence, she began a mellifluous and irrelevant conversation with Hamlin across him.
But after two or three minutes Perry could stand it no longer.
“Damn your sea‐side!” he suddenly burst out.
“Melton!” shrieked Mrs Perry, falling back on her chair.
“Damn your sea‐side!” repeated Perry. “Haven’t you eyes in your head to understand that the sea‐side has nothing to do with the matter? The children no more require to go to Viareggio than I require to be made Khan of Tartary. What is required is that an honest girl, who was intrusted to us by an old friend, should not get to be talked of as a—”
“This loathsome coarseness is too much for me. Adieu, Mr Hamlin!” and Mrs Perry flounced out of the room.
“Lord deliver us from womankind!” exclaimed Perry, as the door shut upon his wife, and he fell back in his chair. “What a nice breakfast I shall have to‐morrow!”
Hamlin did not answer, but merely lit another cigarette, and looked into the smouldering fire.
“Hamlin, old boy,” resumed Perry, “don’t be down upon me. I really am confoundedly sorry to bother you—indeed I am; but—you see—about this girl—”
“I understand,” answered Hamlin, shortly; “don’t let’s talk about it.”
“But—please don’t be in a rage with me, Watty,” cried Perry, appealingly; “really I don’t know what to do. You see, it’s not as if she were an ordinary girl or an ordinary servant; then I should say—hang it, please yourself!”
“Sweet morals!” sneered Hamlin.
“But with her it’s different; I’m sure you must recognise that yourself. Now I don’t mean to say you are in the least to blame, or that the girl cares the least scrap about you; but still, this sort of thing won’t do. I know you’re the last man to do a dirty thing—indeed you’re the only man whom I would have permitted to go on so long. But then, quite without meaning anything, all that sitting, and talking, and discussing poetry and ‘Vita Nuova’ together—without knowing it, it puts ideas into a girl’s head, makes her dissatisfied, that sort of thing, and the result is that she goes to the bad. And then, here in Florence especially, a girl’s none the better looked at for having sat, if even only to one man. People begin to talk (at the villa it was another matter), stories go round, and it becomes difficult for her to get a respectable situation.”
“You needn’t say any more,” cried Hamlin, with almost feminine impatience. All this gave him a sense of moral nausea.
“You understand, old fellow, I don’t mean
“Not a bit,” answered Hamlin, quietly, minutely examining one of the pictures on the wall, which was not worth looking at, and had been thoroughly looked at by him already; “not a bit, my dear Perry. I suppose you have no objection to Miss Brown giving me one more morning?”
“Not the least—two, or even three, for the matter of that. I was only anxious not to spin out things indefinitely.”
“One more sitting will be more than enough,” answered Hamlin. “By the way, before I go, I want to do a drawing of little Mildred.”
IT was a cold and drizzling February morning that last sitting which Anne Brown was
to give to Walter Hamlin. As the girl slowly mounted the well‐like stairs of the old tower
palace, and saw the distant snow‐covered hills through the dim windows on the landings, she
thought with sadness that this was the last time she should toil up to Hamlin’s studio. A
lethargy weighed upon her, making her feel that everything was dreary and unreal, such as she
had experienced only once or twice before, when one of the few holidays of her childhood had
drawn to a close. The cheerless, colourless, eventless, joyless routine of ordinary life was
about to close over, to engulf, her little island of brightness. She was longer
“It is bad weather,” said Hamlin’s old housekeeper.
“Horrible,” answered Anne, looking vacantly through the window at the grey sky and wet roofs.
The old woman opened the studio door and drew the curtains. Hamlin, who was at a table writing, rose and came to meet his model.
“It is very good of you to come in such horrible weather, Miss Brown,” he said.
“It is the last sitting—I thought I ought not to miss it,” and she sat down at once in the arm‐chair of faded green velvet opposite Hamlin’s easel.
“Won’t you warm yourself a little?” he asked.
“No, thank you; I am not cold.”
Hamlin began to prepare his paints.
“You are going to Viareggio, Miss Brown,” he remarked.
“Yes; I believe I am.”
“You will enjoy the change of air. The sea—you told me you liked the sea one day,”—and he went on squeezing the paints on to his palette.
“I suppose so.” She said no more.
Hamlin was seated before his easel, looking now at his work and now at her, and making
minute alterations with a small brush. They did not talk much. He seemed bent upon his work.
He had told her that she need not keep her head in position, as he was merely finishing some
unimportant details. Her eyes wandered round the room—at the books, the sketches on the wall,
the rugs under foot. On the chimney‐piece was stuck a photograph of Melton Perry. If only she
might have a photograph
Hamlin called the old woman—
“Take that letter to the post‐office at the Uffizi,” he said, pointing to his writing‐table, “and mind you get it registered.”
It was the first time that Hamlin had sent the old woman on an errand during one of Anne Brown’s sittings, when she was wont to go in and out of the studio noiselessly, like a watchful duenna.
The heavy stairs door banged behind her. Anne listened to it dully, vacantly, as one listens to things when deeply preoccupied. For a few minutes Hamlin worked on in silence, then suddenly, without looking up, he said—
“Do you remember my finding your ‘Dante’ in the vineyard at the Villa Arnolfini, Miss Brown?”
“Yes,” she answered.
“And you told me that you wished to fit yourself to be a teacher?”
“Yes, I remember.”
“Well,” went on Hamlin, “I have been thinking about that; and I think it would be a pity—I mean—I hope you won’t think it horribly rude of me to say so—I think it would be better if you went to school for a little while yourself.”
Anne stared at this speech, and at the close of it her surprise turned to resentment.
“Of course it would be better,” she said, bitterly; “of course I shall always be very ignorant; but I have no wish to set up for what I am not. I am not going to teach people anything—only to correct their pronunciation and a few mistakes. One does not require to study much for that, and I shall be competent to do it.”
In her quiet, subdued way she looked very angry.
Hamlin rose from his easel.
“You misunderstand me,” he said; “and
“Please do not think me very bold, and forgive the horrid way in which I am forced to put things, when I tell you, dear Miss Brown, that I am very much interested in you, and, indeed—will you forgive a comparative stranger saying so?—that I have never felt so much attracted by any one as I do by you.”
Anne Brown did not answer; she seemed literally petrified by sheer astonishment.
“The time has come when our acquaintance must come to an end,” went on Hamlin, rapidly; “but
I cannot let this happen without making an effort to prolong it. I have no brothers or
sisters—no one, at least, living with me, except distant relations. I have never taken much
interest in anybody. But now I want to know—would you, instead of our parting company
altogether—would you let me become
Anne’s big onyx eyes had opened wider and wider. She flushed purple in the middle of his speech, then turned ashy‐white, while she picked convulsively at the fringe of the armchair. Then suddenly a sort of convulsion came across her face, and, as if from sheer unbearable tension of feeling, she burst into tears.
She gave way only one second, immediately trying to stop herself, but in vain. Hamlin felt that he was making a horrible mess of it. He came close up to the chair where the poor girl was thrown back, shaken with sobs.
“Miss Brown,” he cried, taking her hand—“Anne—oh, don’t be unhappy! I did not mean to offend
you. Don’t you understand my meaning? I wish you to be what you have a right to be. I wish you
to be in
Anne did not cease sobbing; and every convulsive heaving of her body made Hamlin feel a sort of sickening terror. He slid down on his knees and kissed her hand.
This action seemed suddenly to awaken her. She started up, and making a tremendous effort, stopped her crying.
He stood aside while she went to the mirror and looked at her swollen eyes and convulsed face.
“May I have a glass of water?” she asked; then, stopping Hamlin, “never mind,” she said—“never mind—I must go;” and she pulled her blue veil hurriedly over her eyes and huddled on her cloak.
“Miss Brown,” cried Hamlin, “why don’t you answer me?” and he laid hold of her arm as she was about to open the door.
“Because you do not deserve it,” she answered, trying to loosen his grasp. “Let me go, please.”
“I cannot let you go,” answered Hamlin calmly, standing before the door, “until you have
listened to me. Will you let me provide for your future, send you to school, and then place
you in the care of my aunt? Will you let me act as if I were your guardian for the next three
years, and at the end of them you shall have enough to live and marry as befits a lady, and be
as free as air, or become my
Anne Brown paused.
“Don’t ask me for an answer now,” she said; “I am not sure that you are in earnest.”
“I am—indeed I am!” cried Hamlin; “I have intended asking you this ever since my return to Florence. I returned merely in order to ask you. I am in earnest; cannot you give me a serious answer?”
“Not now—I can’t think about anything; I must ask; I don’t know what is right to do.”
He opened the door, and Anne Brown walked out rapidly, through the anteroom and downstairs.
FOR a long time Anne Brown remained as it were dazed, as if she had received a blow
on the head. When she got back to the Perrys’ house, she felt broken in all her limbs, and
slipped up‐stairs and threw herself on her bed. But it was no use: all that day, while
attending on the children and doing her usual work, she felt as if some one else were doing it
all; while she remained conscious only of something very sudden and strange, of a confused
buzzing in her brain, through which she heard the voice of Hamlin repeating his words in the
studio; words which somehow made her indignant, angry, and at the same time filled her with a
sense of having done something which she should not. This feeling increased
“Have you thought over our conversation in the studio yesterday, Miss Brown?” he asked.
“Yes,” answered Anne, inaudibly, as he stood with his hand on the bell; “I have.”
“Well, then,” went on Hamlin, “with regard to the plan which I submitted to you, what is your answer? Do you consent or not?”
Anne Brown raised her head.
“I consent,” she answered quietly, looking
“Thank you,” he answered gravely, and rang the bell. For a moment they stood in silence, till the door was opened.
HAMLIN sat for some time in the dusty attic called a studio, while Perry cut acrobats and devils out of black paper, and stuck them on the dirty window‐panes.
“That’s my vocation,” said Perry, “and not painting damned landscape spinach and soapsud seas. Look! aren’t they jolly old fiends?” and he held up a group of black clowns, standing on each other’s hands and shoulders.
“Capital!” answered Hamlin. “But look here; I came to tell you something. I want the address of Miss Brown’s guardian,—you told me there was one,—because I am going to have Miss Brown educated, with a view, if she do not change her mind, to her becoming my wife.”
Perry let his scissors fall on the floor.
“Damnation!” he cried.
Hamlin picked up the scissors and put them quietly on the table.
“So that’s it!” burst out Perry. “While I was bothering my brains with trying to take care of Anne, you were being inveigled by that cursed hypocritical slut.”
“I shall be obliged to you to speak in rather different language, Perry,” said Hamlin, in a
tone of voice and with a manner which his friend was not accustomed to.
“Oh, beast! brute! seven‐times‐distilled and most‐kickable jackass that I have been,” moaned Perry, “that I should have let this happen to you!—that I should have let you be entrapped under my very nose! But it mustn’t be, old fellow; I won’t stand it.”
“You will have to,” answered Hamlin, contemptuously; “and so, let’s say no more about it. Only one word: Miss Brown has not inveigled me.”
Perry gave a sort of moan of disgust. “No woman ever does inveigle a man!”
“Miss Brown has not inveigled me. I conceived the desire of educating her, and giving myself a chance of marrying her if she would have me, long ago, before I returned to Florence. And, as a favour, I beg you will respect Miss Brown so long as she remains in your house, as you would respect the woman who is at present my ward, and may possibly become my wife.”
“Ward! wife! fiddlesticks!” cried Perry. “For God’s sake, my dearest old Watty, don’t go and do such a damnable thing! don’t be such an idiot as to suppose you must do it. That was my confounded folly: let myself be led on, and then thought it was my own choice, my resolution, all sorts of fine things. No man ever really wants to tie himself up; it’s the woman who does it, and makes him believe it’s himself. All this is bosh, mere bosh; you’ll think better of it.”
“I tell you again, Perry, that there is no inveigling about the matter. I made up my mind to
this step while I was away from
“Education, forsooth!” groaned Perry; “you will get yourself married before you have time to say Jack Robinson: and to think that I have brought it all upon you! to think that I have driven you to do it!”
Hamlin could not help smiling at his friend’s distress.
“Really, you need not feel under any responsibility. I alone am responsible in the business—I and good fortune, which has brought me into the presence of the most marvelIous woman that ever was—”
“But what do you do it for? You’re not in love with Annie, I do believe,” cried poor Perry.
“I do it because she is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen,” answered Hamlin,
deliberately; “and the woman who, properly
Perry flung his arms over his head with a gesture of grotesque despair. At that moment the door opened, and Mrs Perry entered the studio.
“What is the matter? what has happened?” she asked with a dramatic gesture, and a not less dramatic accent; and she remained standing on the threshold, raising the door‐curtain with much dignity.
“Hamlin wants to bring up and marry Anne Brown,” yelled Perry.
Mrs Perry tottered, let the curtain go, held her hand to her head for a moment.
“Anne Brown—do you hear that? He wants to marry her! to educate her! He has already proposed!” repeated Perry.
Mrs Perry came forward solemnly, and stretched out her hand to Hamlin.
“Dear friend,” she said softly, “my heart told me that this would be.”
“Fudge!” exclaimed Perry; “if it did, why the deuce didn’t you interfere?”
“My heart told me this would be. I congratulate you, dearest friend, that you have at last found the embodiment of your mysterious dreams of beauty. And I thank you, on my part, for giving me the happiness of seeing that glorious dethroned goddess reinstated in her rights, and also,”—and Mrs Perry’s long mouth smiled—formidable like an alligator’s,—“for giving me the happiness of witnessing a union of mystic perfection;” whereupon, to Hamlin’s horror, the tall and bony lady deposited a damp kiss on his forehead.
“Oh—but—thank you so much!” exclaimed Hamlin—“I have not asked Miss Brown to marry me; I have only asked her to let me educate her. I wish her to choose whatever husband may deserve her.”
“And that will be yourself—your noble, darling self,” beamed Mrs Perry.
“I am happy that you approve of my decision,” said Hamlin, quickly; “and since you
“Julia, I forbid you,” moaned Perry feebly.
“His address”—answered Mrs Perry blandly, and taking no notice of her husband—“is Richard Brown, care of Gillespie Brothers, New Cross. He is foreman at a cannon‐foundry, or a place where they make torpedoes. I know it’s something murderous and dreadful.”
“Richard Brown, Gillespie Brothers, New Cross,” wrote Hamlin in his note‐book. “Thank you so much; I shall write to him at once.”
“Oh, idiotic beast that I was!” groaned Perry, “to think that it should all be my fault.”
“Come into my boudoir,” said Mrs Perry; “you shall write to him without a moment’s delay. Denrest Mr Hamlin, it is so noble, so lovely on your part; and dear Anne—how beautiful she will become!”
Perry paced up and down the room in violent despair, kicking at all the chairs and easels on
his way, and hurling a tin of black
Suddenly an idea struck him, and he rushed to the nearest telegraph‐office. There he spent
upwards of an hour, and consumed many pieces of paper in concocting a missive which should,
within the compass of twenty words, convey to Mr Richard Brown, care of Gillespie Brothers,
New Cross, that the proposal being made to Anne Brown by a certain person must be immediately
rejected, as its acceptance would bring ruin, dishonour, and misery on all parties. “Proposal
disastrous snare,” wound up Perry at last in triumph; and then discovered that, in his zeal
for Hamlin’s good,
“Nothing but pipes—loathsome, smelly, filthy pipes; never a cigar—for the next two months,” meditated Perry, as he paid his money and received the clerk’s receipt; “but a fellow must save his friend after all.”
NO arrangements could be come to until Hamlin should hear from Anne Brown’s guardian, and this, even by return of post, was impossible under a week. And during that week, Hamlin determined to keep away from the Perrys’ house: the objurgations of Melton Perry, the congratulations of his wife, the very tittering of the children, all this vulgar prose had best be kept aloof from his romance; besides, he was in the ridiculous position that Anne was, and was not his; that she could no longer be considered the Perrys’ servant, and could not yet be considered as his ward. Accordingly, he betook himself for three days to Siena, deeming it impossible that any answer could come so soon.
But when Hamlin returned to his lodging in Florence, on the fourth day after his proposal to Anne Brown—it seemed to him as if he had proposed to her months ago, nay, as if he had never existed at all before that proposal—he was told that a gentleman had called that morning, and had left word that he would return again later on in the day.
“Some confounded painter or poetaster of my acquaintance,” thought Hamlin, annoyed that any one should call upon him at this point of his adventure.
A little later a card was brought in to him. The name upon it made him start—a large shopman’s card, on which was printed, “Richard Brown, New Cross.”
“Ask him to come in,” cried Hamlin.
The visitor stalked in: a tall, burly man, with bushy black hair and beard.
“An insolent cad,” said Hamlin to himself.
“Mr Walter Hamlin?” asked the newcomer, bowing very slightly, and looking down upon Hamlin from his big, bent shoulders.
“Precisely—and you, I believe, are Miss Anne Brown’s cousin?” answered Hamlin, stiffening at the other’s free‐and‐easy manner. The very look of this man rubbed him the wrong way. “Pray, sit down,” he added, doing his best to be courteous. But the other had already sat down.
“I have come here,” said Richard Brown, in a deep, Scotch voice, which made a certain abruptness of manner even more offensive to his host, “in consequence of a telegram which I received from your friend Mr Melton Perry.”
Hamlin turned pale with anger.
“Perry telegraphed behind my back,” he exclaimed—“however, I had written to you the same day. I presume you know the contents of my letter?”
“I have received no letter from you—I suppose I started before it arrived,” answered Richard
Brown. “Mr Perry mentioned no letter from you in his telegram, and as I understood from it
that there were plans afoot which concerned my cousin and ward, I
He stopped a moment, and looked Hamlin in the face, as if to find out what sort of man he might be. He himself might be any age between thirty and forty, of the darkest possible Scotch type, sun‐burnt like a bargee, snub of feature, with a huge, overhanging forehead; he was a man such as Hamlin had never dealt with—a type which he recognised as having seen among workmen and Dissenting preachers: ugly, intellectual, contemptuous—the incarnation of what, to the descendants of Cavaliers and Jamaica planters, seemed the aggressive lower classes.
“I see,” said Hamlin, coldly. “I am greatly obliged to you for the trouble you have taken. Your presence here will make it much easier for us to settle all necessary matters.”
“Mr Perry,” went on the visitor, “has given me rather a confused account of the proposal
which I understand you to have made to my cousin; and I thought it wiser to see
“Had you waited for my letter, I think you could have had no further doubts,” answered Hamlin, with some irritation. “To recapitulate, then. I proposed to Miss Brown that she should permit me to take charge of her education for the next two years, and, on her becoming of age and deeming her studies complete, to place at her disposal the capital of an income which should enable her to live in a manner corresponding with the education she had received, and to make a suitable marriage.”
While Hamlin was speaking a sneer came over his listener’s face.
“I am to understand, therefore,” he said, “that I was misinformed as to this being a proposal of marriage.”
“Pardon me,” corrected Hamlin, gently. “I told your cousin that I hoped that perhaps, at the
end of those two years, or more, she might
Richard Brown flushed.
“In short,” he said, with a strange irony in his voice, “you offer to provide my cousin with a competence whereon to live, or get married, after she shall have remained for two years in your charge. I fully appreciate the intention of your proposal; and I therefore beg to refuse it.”
The blood rushed to Hamlin’s head. That such an interpretation should be put upon his words had never entered his mind. It was as if a whip had whizzed about his ears and cut into his face. His first impulse was to knock the other down. But the sense of his misunderstood superiority, superiority unintelligible to his visitor, restrained him.
“I quite understand your refusal, Mr Brown,” he answered, “as a result of your interpretation of the case; and I suppose I have no right to ask you to see my proposal, except as you would mean it were you to make it yourself.”
Richard Brown turned pale; but he too mastered his feelings.
“If your intention is to marry my cousin, why not marry her at once?” he asked, with something in his look which expressed that he felt himself not to be outwitted by a vicious fool.
Hamlin hesitated. He felt that he could never make this man understand his dreams, his plans of turning Anne Brown into a realised ideal, of wooing and winning the creature of his own making.
“Because—because,” he hesitated.
“Because,” interrupted Richard Brown, “a man in your position of life cannot marry a girl
like my cousin before she has been turned into a lady; and because, even if this be granted,
he cannot bind himself to marry her
In this man there was a hatred of Hamlin, not merely as a fine gentleman, an idler, but as an æsthete; a hatred not merely of class, but of temperament.
“You misunderstand my motives,” answered Hamlin, losing patience. “My reason for not
marrying your cousin at once is, that I would not marry a woman who cannot possibly love me as
yet; and my reason against a formal engagement between us is, that I cannot consent to bind
Miss Brown to marry me when she has no opportunity as yet of choosing a man more to her taste.
It seems to me,” added Hamlin, feeling the advantage on his side, “that to take your cousin in
marriage now, or to bind her to marry me in the future, would be buying her in exchange for
the education and the money which she will receive
Hamlin’s tone and these sentiments, which seemed to belong to a world west of the sun and east of the moon, evidently impressed Anne’s guardian. He remained silent for a moment, unable to realise Hamlin’s state of mind, while no longer able to disbelieve in it. But the temptation to disbelieve in the sincerity of this handsome, effeminate, æsthetic aristocrat was too strong.
“All this is very noble and chivalric,” he said, “and I doubt not quite natural in a poet like you, Mr Hamlin; but for us practical people, I fear it won’t do. I am fully persuaded of the desirability of giving my cousin some further schooling, and fully persuaded also of the undesirability of leaving her any longer in the care of Mr Perry. So I shall take her back to England with me.”
Hamlin turned pale with anger. It sickened him to see his plans dragged in the mire of this fellow’s suspicions, and at the same time he felt unable ever to make him understand, utterly helpless in defending himself. Suddenly an idea struck him.
“I see,” said Hamlin, rising and leaning against the fireplace, while his guest remained coolly seated—“I see that, in plain words, you suppose that I project settling some money upon your cousin, with a view of making her my mistress for two years—that is it, is it not, Mr Brown?”
The brutal frankness staggered Brown; it was impossible to make any more insinuations now. And he began to feel ashamed of those which he had already made. His own imagination, then, was less clean than the intentions of this womanish fine gentleman?
Perhaps for this very reason he answered calmly, but turning very red—
“Yes, sir; that is exactly the state of the case.”
Hamlin felt a sort of triumph at this humiliation of his visitor.
“In that case,” he said, “I think I can devise a plan which shall satisfy you—which will relieve your apprehensiveness. I offer not merely to settle upon Miss Brown the capital of five hundred a‐year, to be administered by you until her majority; but also to give you my word of honour to marry Miss Brown at any time that she may summon me to do so.”
Richard Brown was taken aback; all this romance, which he had believed to be but a vicious snare, was then real.
“I don’t understand you,” he said. “I don’t understand what you want to do with my cousin.”
“It seems difficult to explain it to you, Mr Brown,” said Hamlin; “still, I may repeat it. I
wish Miss Brown to receive all the advantages of education and money which a woman gifted like
her has a right to, and which will enable her to freely marry a man worthy of her—
Brown did not answer for a moment.
“Are you ready to sign a document to that effect?” he asked.
“I will give Miss Brown my word,” answered Hamlin, contemptuously; “and I will give you, Mr Brown, as many signed documents as may be equivalent thereto in your eyes.”
Brown felt the insult, but he knew he had drawn it upon himself. For a moment he hesitated; his aversion to Hamlin and Hamlin’s plan fighting painfully with his sense of the worldly interests of his ward. At last he said—
“On these conditions I can no longer make any opposition; and it rests with my cousin to
accept or refuse your offer. I can only warn her and you—and to do so is my
“I take your warning to heart,” answered Hamlin, contemptuously; “but I cannot agree with it. May I beg you to meet me at the English Consulate to‐morrow morning, to witness the document which you proposed I should draw out; the matter of her money settlement I shall leave in the hands of my lawyers. What hour will suit you? and may I have the pleasure of receiving you to breakfast with me and Mr Perry, who will doubtless be my witness?”
Richard Brown bowed.
“Thank you,” he said briefly; “I think I should prefer breakfasting at my inn. With regard
to the document, I shall be happy to meet you at the Consulate any time convenient to
yourself. But,” and his face became as threatening as his voice was studiously courteous, “we
must first hear whether, on
“Good afternoon,” answered Hamlin.
Richard Brown’s visit had left a nauseous taste in his soul.
LATER in the afternoon Richard Brown called at the Perrys’ and asked to see his cousin. He was received with effusiveness by Mrs Perry.
“So you have seen our noble, darling Hamlin,” she cried; “and you have felt your heart go out to meet him as we have felt ours.”
“I have seen Mr Hamlin,” answered Brown roughly, not at all appreciating the lady’s winning manners; “and I should like to speak to my cousin, please.”
“Anne—my beautiful Anne”—cried Mrs Perry, opening the door of the next room.
“Poor child!” she added, “how she has been trembling in her heart all day!”
Anne entered. She was paler even than
“Good afternoon, Richard,” she said briefly.
Brown looked round at Mrs Perry, waiting for her to withdraw. But such was by no means her intention.
“Don’t be unhappy, darling,” she said to Anne; “I know how one woman always longs for
another woman in these moments. I will stay with you while your cousin tells you the result of
his visit.
“It is very kind of you, madam,” said Brown gruffly, “but I think this matter had better be settled solely between my cousin and myself. Would you permit her to take me into some other room?”
“Oh, I don’t wish to intrude,” sighed Mrs Perry, “I only wished to support this poor child with my presence. But after all, a woman who loves requires support from no one.” Saying which she swept out of the room.
There was a moment’s silence.
“I have been to Mr Hamlin’s, Anne,” said Brown briefly, seating himself by the fire.
“Well?”
The tone of voice was so resolute and even triumphant that he raised his head and looked up at her where she was standing by the table, a piece of needlework still in her hands.
“Well,” answered Brown quietly, and watching the effect of each of his words on the pale, melancholy, but dispassionate face of the girl, “I have spoken to Mr Hamlin; and I find that you were correct in your judgment, and that I was mistaken in mine. He is in earnest in his proposal, and honest in it.”
“I knew that;” and Anne Brown wondered whether this could be the same cousin Dick who was a
big boy, almost a man, when she was a tiny mite at Spezia; who took care of her when her
mother was ill and her father was drunk; who used to shoulder his uncle and drag him off to
bed when, in a fit of
“I knew that,” she repeated, “though you would not believe it. So,” she added, with a certain hardness in her manner, “I suppose I am left free to decide, and that you are ready to let Mr Hamlin do what he chooses.”
“You are free to decide,” he answered. “Mr Hamlin, as I have said, is serious and honest, and willing to make every provision which can bind him and leave you free, legally. I cannot, as your guardian, say no. But,” and his voice assumed a threatening tone, “as your kinsman, and as the representative of your father, I most earnestly dissuade you from accepting this proposal.”
Anne reddened. “But you can no longer oppose it,” she said quickly.
“I have told you before that you are free,
Anne did not answer.
“Of course,” went on Richard Brown eagerly, “you will have every worldly advantage. But will
you be happy taken out of your own sphere of life, knowing yourself to be bound in gratitude
to this man, who will always continue to feel your superior, to look down upon you as a beggar
whom he has fed, or a chattel which he has bought? This man is, for his class and ideas,
honourable: he wishes to leave you free
Anne flushed still deeper, and trembled from head to foot as she leaned against the table. A dull pain clawed her at the heart, a lump rose up to her throat. But she did not speak.
Richard Brown misunderstood her silence. He rose and approached the table, and tried to put his arm paternally on her shoulder. She shrank back, but let his heavy hand rest on her shoulder. What did his touch matter when there were his words?
“Annie, dear,” said Brown more gently, “you know I am a rough man, and don’t know how to
mince matters and say things to women; but you know that I am fond of
Anne held on to the table, and as she recognised that familiar intonation, hot tears rolled down her cheeks. Her whole childhood seemed to return to her.
“Don’t cry—don’t cry!” exclaimed Brown, taking her hand. “Poor child! I know it must be very
hard for you who are so young; I know what it must be to be tempted with a lady’s education,
and money, and a fine gentleman, who’s in love with one, for a husband. But remember what your
poor dad used to tell us, that we common folk must make our own way—make the others feel that
we’re as good as they, and not accept anything from them. D’you remember how he used to say to
me, ‘Work and be proud’? Well, and I
“Look here,” he went on, “you must not think you are never to be anything but a servant. I feel I’ve been to blame, and neglected you too long. You see, I’ve had to work hard for my life, out in England; but now I am quite safely off—indeed much better off than I ever anticipated: my employer is going to take me into partnership next year. Well, since you wish to go to school, I will send you there. You shall come back with me to England, and I will send you to the very best school to be found: you shall be as good as any lady, and you shall owe nothing to any one. Annie, do say yes.”
He spoke, this rough man, almost as one might to a sick child; and as he spoke, he tried to
pass his arm round the girl’s waist. But Anne shuddered, and freed herself from his grasp.
There was something in this big dark
“You are very good, Dick,” she said, feeling ashamed of her ingratitude; “but—but—oh no, no, I can’t, I can’t!” and she hid her tears with her hands.
“Can’t what?” exclaimed Brown, and his voice and face changed; “can’t what? Can’t accept my offer; can’t owe anything to me, to your cousin, to the man to whom your father confided you? No! you won’t be under such an obligation, eh? Nay, don’t humbug me. You can’t give up the money, the land, the house, the fine name—all the things which he can give you and I can’t; for I can only give you an education, and I was such a fool as to think that you wanted that!” and Brown laughed a loud, bitter laugh.
“You want to marry that man,” he went
“Mr Hamlin does not wish me to degrade myself,” cried the girl. “He respects me,—yes, he does; and you—you don’t!”
“He respects you!” sneered Brown. “And he does not want to degrade you. Of course, he’s a respectable, highly moral man. But, upon my soul, I would rather you had been seduced by a man you loved, than that you should have sold yourself coldly in this way.”
Anne felt herself choking. For a moment she could not utter a word. Then suddenly,
“I love him!”
Brown turned and looked her in the face. She was very flushed, and her slate‐grey eyes gleamed feverishly. But her face was calm, and she returned his taunting gaze, which sought for the proof that she lied, with a look of irrepressible contempt.
“I love him!” she repeated.
Brown took his hat.
“Good‐bye,” he said, stretching out his hand; “I left the choice in your hands, and you have chosen. To‐morrow morning I shall settle everything with Mr Hamlin—the papers, I mean—which shall make him henceforth your sole protector. Then I shall go. Goodbye. I wish you joy of your choice”—he paused—“you mercenary thing!”
Anne did not move.
Richard Brown had already turned the handle of the door when he stopped. “One thing more,”
he said, “which I desire you
Anne sank into a chair, excited, exhausted, all her blood in movement, she scarcely knew why—insulted, maligned, and yet with a great sense of joyfulness in her heart.
A MONTH later, the little Perrys were being taken for their walk in the Boboli
Gardens by a Swiss
When Richard Brown had returned to England with the signed documents in his pocket, Hamlin
had immediately written two letters,—one to his lawyers, instructing them to settle the
capital of five hundred a‐year, that is to say, one quarter of his property, on Anne Brown;
the other, narrating the history of his engagement (if engagement it might be called), to the
widow of his former tutor, and asking
There was still a fortnight before the school would reopen, so Hamlin suggested that they should slowly travel north, and it was settled that he should accompany the schoolmistress and his ward. The greater part of that fortnight was spent at Venice, where Anne Brown had never been, and Hamlin parted company from them to return to England, only at Munich.
Mrs Simson was of that particular type of Englishwoman which, however much it may marry,
always seems to remain an old maid; but an old maid whose old‐maidishness is an incapacity of
feeling any difference of age between herself and her youngers, of maintaining any stateliness
of superior age and experience: a hopeful, believing, shrewd, happy‐go‐lucky, enthusiastic
creature, invariably making
What was Anne’s own condition? During those hours in the train, when Hamlin was for ever
jumping out and overwhelming them with coffee and stale cakes and newspapers at every station;
during those days at Venice, when they stayed at the same hotel (the headwaiter quite
spontaneously wrote “Mrs Simson
The fact was that the poor girl was in a dazed condition—that all this journey seemed
The excellent and somewhat romantic heart of the schoolmistress immediately melted at this sight.
“My dear child,” she cried, looking more than ever like a friendly grey old mare, “what is the matter with you?”
But Anne merely buried her head deeper in the pillows, and sobbed harder than before.
“What is the matter?” repeated Mrs Sireson, laying her hand on Anne’s shoulder.
“Oh, leave me, leave me!” moaned the girl.
Mrs Simpson gently passed her arm under
“What is the matter with you, my dear?” she asked.
“Nothing—nothing,” sobbed Anne, trying to hide her cried‐out eyes with her hands.
“Nonsense; nothing!” said Mrs Simson, briskly. “You are unhappy about something, you poor little thing.”
Girls, and especially girls in distress, invariably appeared little to Mrs Simson, even when, like Anne Brown, they overtopped her by a good head.
“Something is the matter with you,” she insisted. “Now just let us see together what it may be;” and she made the reluctant girl sit down by her side on the sofa. “Are you homesick?—do you feel very strange, poor dearie, with strange people?— are you frightened a little by the sudden change in your life?—it’s very natural, my dear little girl, but you’ll get over it soon.”
Anne shook her head. But the impossibility
“No, no,” she said; “oh no, no—you can’t understand. I don’t feel lonely—I don’t feel unhappy—but it’s only because Mr Hamlin—”
“Because Mr Hamlin is going away, my dear?” Mrs Simson smiled as she kissed Anne on the crisp iron‐black hair, for the girl would not loosen her hands from her face—“Because he is going away? That’s very natural too; but it won’t be for long, dearest.”
Anne broke loose from her embrace. “It’s not that! it’s not that!” she sobbed; “please go away—you can’t understand—it’s not that! Oh no, I shall be glad when he be gone away!”
Mrs Simson rose. At first she felt pained, disgusted; but her frigidness melted with the speedy reflection that girls don’t know what the matter is with them in such cases.
“Good‐bye, dear,” she said; “I shall send you up some tea in a few minutes; that will set
you all right. But don’t fret because
“I shall be glad when he is gone!” repeated Anne, in a paroxysm of grief.
It was not a mere foolish, hysterical falsehood. It was a real relief when, one morning at Frankfurt, Hamlin was standing on the platform of the station, speaking to them at the door of their carriage. The guard came to slam the door.
“Good‐bye, Mrs Simson,” said Hamlin. “Good‐bye, Miss Brown.”
“Good‐bye, sir,” she answered, extending her hand.
He kissed it hurriedly. The door was slammed. The train moved on slowly, and Hamlin walked along its side. Gradually it went quicker and quicker, and Anne Brown saw Hamlin for a minute on the platform; he was pale, but radiant. He waved his hand.
“
A pillar of the station hid him. Anne turned away from the window and opened a
When they had got out of the train, rattled over the round stones of Coblenz, and were
finally following the obstreperously welcoming cook and housemaid up the stairs of Mrs
Simson’s house, Anne felt relieved. And when she had been left alone in her room, she felt a
weight off her. When she had taken some things out of her box, she went to the window. The
last flare of sunset was on the marblelike brownish‐green swirls of the Rhine; and filaments
of reddish gold streaked the sky above Ehrenbreitstein, whose windows gleamed crimson. A
steamer was puffing and whistling by the wharf; the trumpets of the
It was the beginning of a new life. Anne Brown left the window, hung her clothes in the wardrobe, folded her linen in the drawers. Then she took from her trunk a framed photograph of Hamlin, and stuck it on her dressing‐table; he was very handsome, with his straight, keen‐featured, almost beardless Norman face and waves of light hair: she looked at it long. Then she dived to the bottom of her trunk and brought out two little books; the “Petrarch” he had given her at Lucca, and the volume of his own poems. She sat down by the open window and began reading them, and glancing at the redness dying away from river and sky. She felt very solemn and happy.
“I must become worthy of him,” she thought.
LIFE was monotonous enough at Mrs Simson’s at Coblenz; but it was a kind of
monotony which to Anne Brown was positively exciting. It was for her a process of absorption
into another class of life; and as such, represented a daily influx of new ideas and habits, a
daily surprise, effort, and adjustment. By virtue of her half‐Italian nature, Anne required
but little to make her, in education and manners, a lady. With her wide‐open but rather empty
mind, her seriousness and dignity of person, extreme simpleness, as the reverse of complexity
of character, it was wholly unnecessary that she should unlearn anything, or even that she
should absorb anything absolutely new; the only thing was to fill up the magnificent design
Mrs Simson was very fond of preaching this gospel of higher education, to the great scandal
of the respectable German matrons whom she visited. “Narrow‐minded, vicious creatures,” she
used to say, who shook their heads at the young ladies attending public lectures, walking
about by themselves, and flirting in the most stalwart and open manner (quite unsentimental
and unwomanly, said the Germans) with the Prussian officers. Of these girls two were orphans,
and had been sent to Coblenz as a convenient riddance by their guardians; one had been
deposited in Europe by her parents, to be called for when educated, and shipped off to New
Zealand; one, a huge damsel approaching thirty, was studying eye‐
Each of them studied whatsoever she thought fit: Greek and Latin professors, piano and
singing masters, German governesses, were perpetually going in and out of the house; the girls
were continually running to lectures on botany or physiology or comparative philology, where
the youth of the town eyed the
Anne Brown’s arrival created a tremendous sensation in Mrs Simson’s establishment. Her
strange kind of beauty, which did not strike the conventional spectator as being beauty
AS Hamlin had fancied, while painting Anne’s portrait, so the girls at Mrs Simson’s used to fancy that there could not be much going on inside this taciturn and undemonstrative creature. But it was not so. While Anne looked so quiet, said so little (and least of all about herself) during those two years of school, a drama—nay, a whole life‐poem—was incessantly going on within her. She worked indefatigably at her lessons, read every book she could lay hold of, was taken to concerts, lectures, burgher tea‐parties and garrison balls, and on excursions up and down the Rhine and into the neighbouring hills; but all this was but as an exterior life surrounding an interior one, as the movement of the ship to the movement of the passengers on its deck.
The real life was not with these girls and these teachers, but with Hamlin; not in this
Rhineland town, but in the distant places where he travelled. He wrote to her very often, from
London, from Italy, from Greece and Egypt, and wherever he roamed about. At first she was
surprised by the frequency of his letters; then she became accustomed to it as to a necessity
of her existence, but a necessity to which she had no right. It seemed to her wonderful that
he should write so often, and yet that the time which elapsed between his letters should be
intolerable. In her great desire for them she used to have recourse to all manner of
unconscious sophistications. She tried to train herself to disappointment, to chastise her own
impatience and greediness, saying to herself, on the days when she thought that a letter might
come, “It is impossible that there should be one to‐day,” although her heart fell when the
prophecy sometimes came true; and she stayed up‐stairs, her eyes pinned to her book,
Any one who had seen these letters which were her soul’s food, would have been surprised how
they could awaken such a longing, how they could produce such emotion and
A strange correspondence; and of which Hamlin’s half, although beautiful with all manner of
artistic prettinesses, would have struck one as the less beautiful and interesting part: the
suppressed passionateness, unconscious of itself, of the girl’s letters, her mixture of prim
literary daintiness, absorbed from her reading, and of homely, tragically‐hurled‐about imagery
(Hamlin used, without revealing the author, to read out some of these metaphors of Anne’s to
his friends, pointing out their Elizabethan, Webster‐like character), were much
Hamlin, indeed, was very good to her—very gentle, courteous, generous, and assiduous. There
was scarcely a book read by Anne Brown which was not of his selecting; and even in the midst
of his journeys he used to elaborately select things for her reading, cutting out all but a
very few pieces out of books of poetry, and copying and pasting into them all manner of
extracts. “I should be grieved to think that anything save the very best should ever be read
by you,” he often wrote. Thus, in the most singular way, Anne, only a nursemaid a few months
before, became more deeply versed in poetry and poetical and picturesque history than most
girls; Greek lyrism, Oriental mysticism, French æstheticism, but above all, things medieval
and pseudo‐medieval; imbued with the imagery and sentiment of that strange eclectic school of
our days which we still call pre‐Raphaelite. And
Of these matters she never spoke to any of the girls. But often, while walking with them, her pride would swell with the thought that she belonged to him—that he had chosen her. And when the New Zealander, who was musical and had a fine voice, used sometimes to sing Schumann’s song, “Er der herrlichste von allen,” the words and the music sent a flood of love and pride to her heart; it was he, “he the most glorious of all,” who was thus gracious and good to her.
THUS one year went by; and then, slowly, another, while Anne Brown was being
transformed from a nursemaid into a lady. Hamlin saw her twice during that time. Once, while
Mrs Simson and Anne were staying in Paris—for he had begged that her holidays might be spent
either in Switzerland, or in some place where she might see pictures and statues—when he
suddenly turned up for a day on his way from England to Greece; and once at Coblenz. Mrs
Simson was giving a party: suddenly into the parlour, filled with German matrons and damsels,
with a sprinkling of professors and soldiers, was introduced a slight, fair man, who looked
very young till you saw him closely, and at whose sight that
One day, some two years or so after her arrival at Coblenz, Anne Brown received a letter in
which Hamlin reminded her that she was twenty‐one, and that his guardianship had consequently
come to an end already some months before; and suggested that, as he heard that her education
was now completed, at least in so far as Coblenz went, he thought that it might be wiser if
she came to England, where she would have better opportunities of continuing any special
studies. Moreover, that his aunt, Mrs Macgregor, a widow without any children, was coming to
settle in London, and that he thought it might be a good arrangement that she and Anne should
live together, as Anne could scarcely take a house by herself. What did Miss Brown think of
this arrangement? And would she authorise him to settle everything for Mrs Macgregor and her?
Faintly and vaguely Anne thanked him for his forethought, and acquiesced in
But as the winter drew to a close, there came another letter from Hamlin (all the
intermediate ones had been only the usual talk about himself, and about books and scenery)
telling her that, with a view to her living with his aunt, he had, as her ex‐guardian (he
always spoke of himself as her guardian, completely ignoring Richard Brown) deemed it wise to
employ part of her capital, which had been accumulating in his hands, in the purchase of the
lease of a house at Hammersmith, which he was having prepared and furnished against her coming
in May. “It is in a pretty neighbourhood, with the river in front and old houses and gardens
all round,” he wrote. “What determined my choice, as I am sure it would have determined yours
also, is that the house is itself more than a century and a
Anne put the letter down, and wondered whether she was dreaming. What was all this about
buying and consulting her, employing her capital? What capital had she
“There are two rooms additional on the garden, having a separate entrance from the embankment, and which I think you will not at present require for yourself. Would you perhaps let me rent them for a studio? My own lodgings are a long way from St John’s House (that is its name, for it was a priory once); but if I had my workshop there, I might hope to see you almost every day, if you would let me.”
The first dinner‐bell rang, and Anne, having hastily washed her eyes and smoothed her
“I am going away,” cried Anne—she felt she must say it—“going away from school—to London, next month.”
The thin, nervous, anæmic little girl turned ashy‐white.
“Oh, are you really going?” she exclaimed faintly, for with Anne disappeared all the poor child’s sunshine and ideal from this dreary, worse than orphaned life, among girls who had too many occupations and interests to care for her.
“Are you really going, Annie? . . . Oh, I am so sorry!”
“Sorry?” cried Anne; “it is very nasty
The little New Zealander had gone to the window, and was looking through its panes at the rainy street; she gave a little suppressed sob.
Anne felt as if she had committed a murder. She ran to the window, and seized the struggling small creature in her powerful arms, and knelt down before her, clasping her round the waist.
“Oh, forgive me! forgive me!” cried Anne, as the consciousness of the girl’s love, which she had never before perceived, came upon her, together with the shame and remorse at her heartlessness; “forgive me, forgive—I am a brute—a beast —oh dear, oh dear, that happiness should make me so wicked!”
The New Zealander smiled and buried her thin yellow face in the masses of Anne’s dark crisp hair.
“Will you remember me sometimes?” she asked; “I love you so much.”
Anne kissed the poor, pale, tear‐stained cheeks.
“Oh yes, I will always remember you,” she said.
But she was already thinking of Hamlin.
DURING that last month at school Anne was indefatigable: in the face of the vague
future which was so rapidly approaching, she felt bound to clutch hold of the present,
thinking that time which was employed in some way went less quickly. The fact was that she was
in a state of great excitement—half impatience and half terror; she wished the days to go by
quicker, and she wished them to go by slower; she was at once dragged wearisomely, and hurried
along. At length it became a question no longer of weeks but of days. And then came another
letter from Hamlin. He remembered the desire she had once expressed to go down the Rhine, to
be on the sea: he proposed that she should come through Belgium and cross from Antwerp to
The morning before her departure, Mrs Sireson handed Anne a letter at breakfast.
“Mr Hamlin has sent a girl to fetch you, dear,” she said.
“To fetch me?” cried Anne, in astonishment.
Mrs Simson opened the door—“Pray, come in,” she said.
A young woman entered, whose immaculate smartness and cheerful alertness never would have let one guess that she had just been travelling twenty‐four hours.
“This is Miss Brown,” said Mrs Simson. The girl curtsied, and waited for Miss Brown to speak. But Anne could not utter a word.
“Mrs Macgregor, Mr Hamlin’s aunt, engaged me as your travelling‐maid, miss,” said the young woman, handing a note to Anne.
It was from Hamlin, and ran briefly—
“MY DEAR MISS BROWN,—My aunt is unfortunately too delicate to admit of my asking her to
fetch you from Coblenz; but she has engaged the bearer to be your maid, unless you have some
previous. choice at Coblenz, in which case, please forgive our interference. She is highly
recommended, and seems a good girl, and accustomed to travel. She will telegraph me how you
are from Cologne and Antwerp
“WALTER HAMLIN.”
For some unaccountable reason Anne felt quite angry. She did not require any one to travel
with her; she did not want a maid. The very word maid seemed to bring up her whole
past.
“You had better go and rest yourself,” she said to the girl coldly.
“How sweet and considerate!” said Mrs Simson, reading Hamlin’s note.
“I don’t want a maid!” cried Anne, angrily.
“A young lady of your age cannot travel alone, my dear,” answered Mrs Simson, blandly. But Anne felt miserable, she knew not why, and hated the maid.
Presently she went up to her room to pack her trunk. On opening the door she discovered the
maid—her maid—on her knees, emptying
“Please don’t do that!” cried Anne, turning purple. “I will do it myself, please.”
The girl stared politely, and answered in a subdued, respectfully chiding tone—
“I was only packing your trunk, miss.”
“I will do it myself!” cried Anne, excitedly.
“As you wish, madam,” was the maid’s icy answer; and she rose.
“Can I do nothing for you?” she said, standing by the door, with a reproachful, prim little face.
Anne was ashamed.
“You can help me if you like,” she answered, rather humbled; and she began folding her
things. But the girl was much quicker than she, and Anne soon remained with nothing to do,
looking on vacantly. She felt as if she would give worlds to get the girl away; she felt as if
she ought to say to her, “Don’t do that for me; I am not a real lady; I am no better than you;
I am a servant, a maid, myself
“Please,” she cried, “let me pack my things myself; I have always packed them myself; I should be so glad if you would let me.”
The girl rose and retired.
“As you like, miss,” she replied, fixing her eyes on Anne’s strange excited face.
“She knows I am only a servant like herself, and she thinks me proud and ungrateful,” thought Anne.
The next evening, among the lamentations of Mrs Simson’s establishment, Anne Brown set off
for Cologne. This first short scrap of journey moved her very much: when the train puffed out
of the station, and the familiar faces were hidden by outhouses and locomotives, the sense of
embarking on unknown waters rushed upon Anne; and when, that evening, her maid bade her good
night at the hotel at Cologne, offering to brush her hair and help her to undress, she was
seized with intolerable homesickness
The afternoon was drawing to a close, and the river had narrowed; all around were rows of
wharves and groups of ships; the men began to tug at the ropes. They were in the great city.
The light grew fainter, and the starlight mingled with the dull smoke‐grey of London; all
about were the sad grey outlines of the old houses on the wharves, the water grey and the sky
also, with only a faint storm‐red where the sun had set. The rigging, interwoven against the
sky, was grey also; the brownish sail of some nearer boat, the dull red sides of some steamer
hard by, the only colour. The ship began to slacken speed and to turn, great puffs and pants
of the engine running through its fibres; the sailors began to halloo, the people around to
collect their luggage: they were getting alongside of the wharf. Anne felt the maid throw a
shawl round her; heard her voice, as if from a great distance, saying, “There’s Mr Hamlin,
miss;” felt herself walking
IT is sad to think how little even the most fervently loving among us are able to
reproduce, to keep within recollection, the reality of the absent beloved; certain as we seem
to be, living as appears the phantom which we have cherished, we yet always find, on the day
of meeting, that the loved person is different from the simulacrum which we have carried in
our hearts. As Anne Brown sat in the carriage which was carrying her to her new home, the
feeling which was strongest in her was, not joy to see Hamlin again, nor fear at entering on
this new phase of existence, but a recurring shock of surprise at the voice which was speaking
to her, the voice which she now recognised as that of the real Hamlin, but
“You must be very tired,” said Hamlin.
“Oh no,” answered Anne, that repeated revelation of the real voice still startling her—“ not at all.”
He asked her how she had left those at Coblenz, and about her journey; she had to
“I hope,” said Hamlin, when they had done discussing Van Eyck, and Rubens, and Memling—“I hope you will like the house and the way I have had it arranged; and,” he added, “I hope you will like my aunt. She is rather misanthropic, but it is only on the surface.”
His aunt! Anne had forgotten all about her; and her heart sank within her as the carriage at
last drew up in front of some garden railings. The house door was thrown open, and a stream of
yellow light flooded the strip of garden and the railings. Hamlin gave Anne his arm; the maid
followed. A
“This is Miss Brown, Aunt Claudia,” said Hamlin.
The old lady rose, advanced, and kissed Anne frigidly on both cheeks.
“I am glad to see you, my dear,” she said, in a tone which was neither cold nor insincere, but simply and utterly indifferent.
Anne sat down. There was a moment’s silence, and she felt the old lady’s eyes upon her, and felt that Hamlin was looking at his aunt, as much as to say, “Well, what do you think of her?” and she shrank into herself.
“You have had a bad passage, doubtless,” said Mrs Macgregor after a moment, vaguely and dreamily.
“Oh no,” answered Anne, faintly, “not at all bad, thank you.”
“So much the better,” went on the old lady, absently. “Ring for some tea, Walter.”
Hamlin rang. In a moment tea‐things were brought. Hamlin handed a cup to Anne, and offered her some cake.
“It is a long drive,” said Mrs Macgregor—
“Miss Brown came by the Antwerp boat—St Catherine’s Wharf—in the City, aunt,” corrected Hamlin.
“Ah, yes, to be sure—perhaps she would like some more milk in her tea. There is always such a delay at Charing Cross, isn’t there, Walter?”
But while Mrs Macgregor’s mind and words seemed to ramble vaguely about, her eyes were fixed upon Anne—large, melancholy dark eyes.
“You are glad to be back in London, aren’t you?” she asked.
“This is the first time I am in England,” answered Anne, shyly; all this dim room, with its vague sense of beautiful things all round, this absent‐minded lady, all seemed to harmonise with her own dreamlike sensations.
“Miss Brown was born in Italy,” explained Hamlin, probably for the hundredth time.
“Oh yes, of course; how stupid I am! And,
“All right,” interrupted Hamlin.
“Won’t you have another cup, Margaret?” asked Mrs Macgregor.
“Her name is Anne, auntie—”
“Of course—I don’t know whether you take sugar in your tea or not, Rachel.”
Thus they went on for another half‐hour; Mrs Macgregor calling Anne by one wrong name after another, alluding to things which she could not possibly know anything about, and Hamlin trying to set matters right and induce Anne to talk.
“It is getting late,” he said, “and I fear Miss Brown must be tired after her long journey. I think you had better not keep her up any longer, aunt.”
“I am not tired,” protested Anne.
“You will be tired to‐morrow,” said the old lady.
“Yes,” added Hamlin, “and I must go. Good‐bye, aunt. Good night, Miss Brown; I hope you will
have good dreams to welcome you home to England. I shall come in for lunch to‐morrow, Aunt
Claudia. Good night. Good night, Miss Brown,” and he kissed her hand. “Good night,
The few words of Italian almost brought the tears to Anne’s eyes; she felt so strange here, so far from everything—and yet what had she left behind? nothing, and no one who loved her, except that little girl from New Zealand. She felt terribly alone in the world.
Hamlin had evidently not trusted to his aunt to send Anne to bed, for the maid came in uncalled, and asked whether Miss Brown would not like to go up to her room.
“Of course,” said Mrs Macgregor; and taking a heavy old‐fashioned silver candlestick, she
led Anne to her room. The poor girl was too weary and dazed to see what it was like. She sank
on to a chair, and
“Shall I undress you, ma’am?” she asked.
Anne shook her head. “No, thanks.”
The girl retired, but Mrs Macgregor remained standing by Anne’s side, looking at the reflection in the glass of her pale, sad, tired face. “Undo your hair, Eliza dear,” said Mrs Macgregor.
Anne mechanically pulled out the hair‐pins, and the masses of iron‐black crisp hair fell over her shoulders.
The old lady looked at her for a moment.
“You are a beautiful girl, Anne,” she said, at last hitting the right name, “and,” she added, with a curious compassionate look, as she kissed the girl’s forehead, “are you really in love with Watty?”
Anne did not answer; but she felt herself redden.
“Marriage without love is a terrible thing,” said the old lady, “and in so far love is a
mitigation of evil; but at the best it is only
The words went on in Anne’s head, but she was too worn out to understand them. She soon fell asleep, and dreamed that Melton Perry had painted a picture, and that in a storm the ship’s crew said it must be used as a raft; and somehow it all took place at Florence, in the large pond in the Boboli Gardens.
ANNE BROWN awoke with a vague sense of gladness, but no very clear notion of where
she was. Then it came upon her that this was Hamlin’s house, that she would actually see him
again in a few hours; for it was as if she had not seen him at all the previous evening. The
sun was streaming through the blinds, filling the room with a yellowish light; from without
came a sound of leaves, of twittering birds, and the plash of the steamer‐paddles in the
river. Anne looked round her and wondered. She had never seen such a room as this in her life:
the wails were all panelled white, except where the panelling was interrupted by expanses of
pale‐yellow chintz; the furniture also was of old‐fashioned chintz; the
Anne was already half dressed; but she spent some time wondering which of her frocks she
should put on: they had been made expressly for London, and greatly admired by the girls at
Coblenz, but now one looked more absurd and frumpish than the other. At last she put on a sort
of greyish‐blue tweed, such as were then worn on the Continent, and having looked at herself
rather anxiously in the glass, she opened her door and hesitatingly went out into the passage.
All was perfectly quiet as she went down the carpeted stairs, wondering at the tapestry and
brazen wrought shields and
It took her a long time to take it all in. She stole to the piano, opened it gently, and
played the accompaniment of a song of Carissimi’s, which Hamlin was fond of, but inaudibly,
without letting her fingers press down the keys. Then she looked at everything once more. She
was beginning to get familiarised with the pictures on the wall; the pale, delicate
“I have been looking for you everywhere, miss,” she said. “I thought, as you didn’t answer when I knocked, that you must still be asleep, so I carried your tea down again. Mrs Macgregor is going to have breakfast now, and says, would you mind having it in her room with her, miss, as she never goes down till lunch?”
Anne followed the servant to Mrs Macgregor’s room, where she found the old lady in her dressing‐gown, before a table spread with eighteenth‐century china, or what to Anne seemed such.
“What an hour you do get up at, Charlotte!”
And Mrs Macgregor made Anne turn round slowly. She looked at her approvingly.
“You’re a handsome girl, certainly,” she said; “not the style that used to be admired in my
time,”—and she smiled with the faint smile of an old belle,—“girls had to be slight, and fair,
and with little features then. But you’re just what they like now. I’m thankful at least that
Walter has not brought home a bag of bones like the other beauties of his set.
Anne did not know what to answer; she poured herself out a cup of tea in silence, and
vaguely ate some bread and butter. The old lady was good‐natured, garrulous, flighty; but yet,
beneath the shiftiness of her exterior, there seemed to be something real, something
“That’s a pretty frock you have on, my dear,” she pursued, “and
After breakfast Anne was free until luncheon‐time, as Mrs Macgregor proceeded to lie down on
her sofa and read Leigh Hunt’s ‘Religion of the Heart,’ or Fox’s ‘Religious Ideas,’ which Anne
saw lying on her table. Hamlin’s aunt had evidently been an
He was more respectful than ever,—asked her how she had slept, and what she thought of the house.
“It’s lovely,” said Anne, “and it is so nice having everything old about one.”
“Everything old?” asked Hamlin.
“Yes; all the hangings, and chairs, and tables, and mirrors, are of the time of the building of the house, aren’t they?”
“Oh goodness, no,” answered Hamlin, sadly; “I only wish they were. They’re bran‐new, every stick of them. Everybody has them now; nobody makes anything except imitation old‐world things.”
“Why don’t they try and make something good and new—something out of their own
“There is nothing to nourish art nowadays,” said Hamlin, seating himself opposite her and looking her full in the face as he used to do long ago at the studio in Florence. “Art can’t live where life is trivial and aimless and hideous. We can only pick up the broken fragments of the past and blunderingly set them together.”
“But why should the life of to‐day be trivial and aimless and hideous?” asked Anne, a vague remembrance of things which she had heard her father say years ago about progress and modern achievements returning to her mind as it had never done when, in the letters which he used to write to her at Coblenz, Hamlin had said before what he was saying now.
“I don’t know why it should be,” replied Hamlin, “but so it is.”
“Can’t we prevent it?” asked Anne, scarcely thinking of what she was saying; conscious
Hamlin shook his head sadly.
“Why cannot we revive those?” he said, pointing to a bunch of delicate pale‐pink roses, which drooped withered in a Venetian glass. “What is dead is dead. The only thing that remains for us late comers to do is to pick up the faded petals and keep them, discoloured as they are, to scent our lives. The world is getting uglier and uglier outside us; we must, out of the materials bequeathed to us by former generations, and with the help of our own fancy, build for ourselves a little world within the world, a world of beauty, where we may live with our friends and keep alive whatever small sense of beauty and nobility still remains to us, that it may not get utterly lost, and those who come after us may not be in a wilderness of sordid sights and sordid feelings. Ours is not the mission of the poets and artists of former days; it is humbler, sadder, but equally necessary.”
“Oh, but you must not say that!” cried
Hamlin shook his head, and remained for some time with his beautiful greenish‐blue eyes fixed on Anne, as she sat twisting and untwisting the fringe on the arm of her chair.
“There is one consolation, Miss Brown,” said Hamlin, rising from his chair and leaning against the chimney‐piece, all covered with Japanese cups and curious nick‐nacks, and not taking his eyes off her, “and that is, that even now, Nature, which is so barren of painters and poets, can produce creatures as wonderful as those who inspired the painters and poets of former times—a consolation, and at the same time a source of despair.”
Hamlin spoke these lover‐like words in a tone so cold, so sad, that Anne did not at first understand to whom he was alluding, and looked up rather in interrogation than in embarrassment.
A bell rang. “There’s lunch,” said Hamlin. “We must finish our discussion afterwards.”
“WON’T you take her out for a drive, Walter?” asked Mrs Macgregor, after lunch.
“She must be curious to see something of London.”
Hamlin looked at Anne, as much as to say, “Do you really wish to go?”
“I am sure Miss Brown is too tired from her journey, aunt,” he said; “and what is there to take her to see in this beastly city?”
“I thought we might have a brougham and take her to see a few of your friends, Walter,” suggested Mrs Macgregor.
Poor Anne felt a sort of horror go all down her.
“Oh, please don’t!” she cried—“not to‐day; don’t take me to see any one, please.”
“It’s much wiser to let her rest,” said Hamlin, in a tone of annoyance.
“Won’t you just take the poor girl to Mrs Argiropoulo’s, Watty?” insisted his aunt. “It’s a sin to keep her mewed up at Hammersmith all day; and you know Mrs Argiropoulo was so anxious to see her at once.”
“Confound Mrs Argiropoulo!” exclaimed Hamlin. “I beg your pardon, Miss Brown, but do you feel inclined, after your long journey, to go and see a fat, fashionable lion‐huntress, with a snob of a husband who sells currants?”
“Not at all,” answered Anne, laughing. “I would much rather stay at home, really.”
“Very well; then I will show you the garden and my studio, if you don’t mind; and a great friend of mine, Cosmo Chough,—I think I sent you some of his poems about music. . . .”
“Oh yes,” cried Anne; “they are lovely—”
“I think little Chough’s poems perfectly indecent,” interrupted Mrs Macgregor. “I would much sooner let a girl read ‘Don Juan,’ or even ‘Candide,’ any day.”
Hamlin reddened, but laughed.
“Opinions differ; at any rate, Miss Brown knows only Chough’s best things; and when he is at his best, Chough is really very good and pure and elevated.”
“Ah, well,” merely remarked Mrs Macgregor.
“Cosmo Chough said he would look in about four,” went on Hamlin. “He is a strange creature, and sometimes says odd things.”
“Very odd things,” put in his aunt.
“But he is as pure‐minded a man as I know, and a real poet,” went on Hamlin—“indeed quite one of the best; and he is a great musician, and a most entertaining fellow—his only weakness is that he is a great republican and democrat, but would like to be thought the son of a duke.”
“The son of a duke? ” asked Anne, in surprise.
“Oh, the natural son, of course—forgive me, my dear,” said Mrs Macgregor. “People nowadays
like anything illegitimate—it’s a
Hamlin smiled.
“Poor Chough! Some one told him he was like Richard Savage one day, and that’s his pose. Would you like to come into the garden, Miss Brown?”
They went together into the strip of garden which lay behind the house. There were not many
flowers out as yet, only a few peonies and lilacs, and a belated tulip or hyacinth, but there
was green, daisied grass, and big grey‐mossed apple‐trees still in blossom; and across the low
walls, covered with creepers, you saw big waving tree‐branches, and old brick houses covered
with ivy: the birds were singing, and some hens clucking next door. It was very quiet and
old‐world. Hamlin showed her all the rose‐buds which might soon come out, and the place where
the lilies would be, and the espaliers for the sweet‐peas. Then
When he had showed her his properties, and she had reverently handled the things which had
once belonged to Shelley and Keats, and the bundles of unpublished manuscripts, entrusted to
Hamlin by living poets, they sat down in the studio and began to discuss various matters:
Anne’s school life, her readings and lessons, Hamlin’s work, art, poetry, life, all sorts of
things,—a long and drowsy afternoon’s talk, such as is possible only after a long
correspondence between people become familiar without much personal intercourse, who, knowing
each other’s mind, are now beginning to know each other’s face and ways and heart; and which
has a charm quite peculiar to itself, like that of hearing
Anne had never felt so happy in all her life, and Hamlin not often happier in his, as they sat in the studio, talking over abstract questions, which seemed to acquire such a quite personal interest from those who were discussing them.
They were thus engaged when the servant announced Mr Cosmo Chough.
Anne’s heart sank at the thought of confronting one of Hamlin’s most intimate friends, and one of the poets who constituted the stars of his solar system. To Anne’s surprise Mr Chough did not at all resemble either Shelley or Keats, as she imagined; he was a little wiry man, with fiercely brushed coal‐black hair and whiskers, dressed within an inch of his life, but in a style of fashionableness, booted and cravated, which was quite peculiar to himself.
“Miss Brown,” said Hamlin, “let me introduce my old friend, Cosmo Chough.”
Mr Chough made a most fascinating bow, and swooped gracefully to the other end of the studio
to fetch himself a chair near Anne’s. He was quite touchingly concerned in Anne’s journey and
her sensations after it; and asked her whether she liked London, with a sort of expansive
chivalry of manner, as of Sir Walter Raleigh spreading embroidered cloaks across puddles for
Queen Elizabeth, which struck her as rather ridiculous, but very agreeable, as she had rather
anticipated being scorned by Hamlin’s poetical friends. Anne thought Mr. Chough decidedly
nice, with his oriental style of politeness, and magnificent volubility, constantly quoting
poetry in various languages in a shrill and chirpy voice; moreover, he seemed to adore Hamlin,
and this was enough to put him in her good graces. Mr Chough rapidly informed her what the
principal poets in London and Paris (for he spoke of French things with an affectation
Mr Chough was as modest as he was polite. His eyes shone, and he clasped his small hands in ecstasy at the idea of anything of his having pleased Miss Brown. He then proceeded to tell her that he had an idea for a long poem—a sort of masque or mystery‐play—to be called the Triumph of Womanhood.
“We were trying over some of Jomelli’s music a night or two ago, at Isaac the great
composer’s,” he explained; “magnificent music, which no one can sing nowadays, and we feebly
crowed, when in the midst of the great burst of the “Gloria” I seemed to have revealed to me a
vision of a mystic procession of women going in triumph; I understood,
“It must have been very beautiful,” said Anne, naively.
Mr Chough had opened the piano, and began playing, in a masterly way, a fragment of very intricate fugue.
“Do you notice that?” he asked: “that sudden modulation there—ta ta ti, la la la—from A minor to E major,—that somehow mysteriously brought home to me one of the figures of that triumphal procession, and her I have tried to describe. If you like, I can repeat you the first few lines; it is called ‘Imperia of Rome.’”
“How good of you,” cried Anne.
“I think we had better put off hearing it till you have composed rather more of the poem,” interrupted Hamlin.
Cosmo Chough looked mortified, and Anne wondered why Hamlin should silence his old friend.
“Tell me all about Imperia of Rome,” she
“Imperia was not an ancient Roman,” explained Chough; “she lived at the beginning of the sixteenth century, and it is said that all the cardinals and poets and artists of Rome, nay, the Pope himself, accompanied her coffin when she died.”
“Why, what had she done?—was she a saint?”
“The inscription on her tomb is, I think, the most truly noble and Roman ever composed on any woman,” proceeded Chough; “Imperia . . .”
“Miss Brown doesn’t understand Latin, Cosmo,” interrupted Hamlin, roughly, “and I am sure
she would take no interest in Imperia or her epitaph. Supposing you let Miss Brown hear some
of that beautiful Jomelli Mass you were speaking about. Chough is one of the finest musicians
I know,” he explained to Anne, “and he is quite famous
Chough sat down and began to sing, in a warbling falsetto, but with the most marvellous old‐world grace and finish.
Anne did not attend. She was wondering about Imperia of Rome. Why had Hamlin cut short Chough? What had Imperia done? The remarks of Mrs Macgregor came to her mind; and she felt indignant, and her indignation was all the greater, perhaps, because Chough’s offence was vague and unknown—how nobly and simply Hamlin had silenced him! She wondered whether he was very angry with Chough, and whether Chough’s feelings had been much hurt. She felt rather sorry for the sharp way in which he had been treated, and terrified lest she should be a source of misunderstanding between Hamlin and his friends. She greatly praised Chough’s singing.
“Will you sing?” cried the little poet, supplicatingly; “you must have a beautiful
Anne refused in terror.
“Do sing, Miss Brown,” urged Hamlin. So she took her courage with both hands, as she expressed it, and sang an air by Scarlatti, Chough accompanying. She made several false starts, and sang the wrong words almost throughout, for she felt a lump in her chest. Anne had a deep, powerful, rather guttural voice, not improved by singing modern German songs at Coblenz; but the voice was fine, and she had caught something of the manner of her former protectress, Miss Curzon, who had been a great singer in her day.
Chough burst out into applause.
“A splendid voice!” he cried; “you
Anne looked at Hamlin; such an offer, on so slight an acquaintance, surprised her.
“You will let Chough teach you, won’t you,
Chough was in high spirits, and proceeded to display to Anne two or three relics which he carried on his person. A fervent though not very orthodox Catholic, he was prone to religious mysticism: on his watch‐chain hung a gold cross, containing a bit of wood from St Theresa’s house, which a friend had brought him from Spain; by its side dangled a large locket, enclosing a wisp of yellow hair.
“It is a lock of Lucretia Borgia’s,” he said, displaying it with as much unction as he had manifested for St Theresa—“a bit of the one which Byron possessed,—the most precious thing I have in all the world.”
“She was rather an insignificant character though, on the whole, wasn’t she?” remarked Anne, not knowing what to say,—“a sort of characterless villain, the Germans say.”
Cosmo Chough was indignant.
“Insignificant!” he cried—“ a Borgia insignificant! Why, her blood ran with evil as the Pactolus does with gold. All women that have ever been, except Sappho and Vittoria Accoramboni, and perhaps Faustina, were lifeless shadows by her side . . .”
“I don’t believe in those sort of women having been very remarkable,” said Anne, in her frank, stolid way, “except for disreputableness.”
“But that is just it,—that which you call disreputableness, my dear Miss Brown,” cried Chough, “therein is their greatness, in that fiery . . .”
Anne shook her head contemptuously.
“I daresay great women have often committed great crimes,” she said; “but then they have had
great plans and ambitions; they
She had had what Hamlin used to call her Amazon or Valkyr expression as she spoke; and he felt, as he had felt in Florence, the persuasion that this proud and sombre woman must have in her future some great decision, some great sacrifice of others or of herself.
While they were talking, the servant entered to tell Miss Brown that Mrs Argiropoulo was in the drawing‐room with Mrs Macgregor.
“Confound Mrs Argiropoulo!” exclaimed Hamlin between his teeth, “to come intruding so soon.”
“Is that the lion‐hunting lady?” asked Anne.
“Yes; I suppose you must receive her, as she has called on you.”
“Called on me?” repeated Anne in amazement; “you mean on Mrs Macgregor. Why, how should she have heard of me?”
“All London has heard of you, Miss Brown,” exclaimed Chough enthusiastically, as he opened
the door for her; “at least all that deserves
Anne did not answer, but she grew purple. So every one was curious to see this nursery‐maid
whom the great Hamlin had cast his eyes on, and whom he had generously educated; for the first
time her heart burst with indignation and ruffled pride. But after a moment, as she sat in the
drawing‐room, after frigidly returning the fat and fashionable lion‐huntress’s affectionate
greeting, her conscience smote her: who was she, that she should feel thus? if she did depend
entirely on Hamlin’s generosity, ought she not to be grateful merely, and proud? and if his
friends felt curious to see her, was it not natural, he being what he was; and had she a right
to feel annoyed at their curiosity, at their knowing all about her? It had been mean and
unworthy. Yet she could not help feeling a sort of vague anger
“You must let me take your ward into society a little, dear Mrs Macgregor,” lisped the Greek lady, “for I know you hate going out of an evening. Miss Brown must meet some of the principal persons of our set.”
She was very fat, very good‐natured, and extremely vulgar‐looking, her huge body encased in a medieval dress of flaming gold brocade. “What in the world can she have to do among artists and poets?” thought Anne.
“Her husband is in the currant‐trade,” whispered Chough—“an awful old noodle, but he buys more pictures of our school than any one else. Their house is a perfect wonder.”
“My aunt is going to ask a few friends to meet Miss Brown first here,” answered Hamlin; “perhaps you will join them, Mrs Argiropoulo. There’s plenty of time to think of party‐going.”
“Very good, very good,” answered Mrs Argiropoulo; “meanwhile perhaps I may have the pleasure of taking Miss Brown out for a drive once or twice.”
“I am sure she will be delighted,” said Hamlin.
“I hate that woman!” exclaimed Hamlin, as he returned from escorting the wife of the currant‐dealer to the door; “an odious, inquisitive, vulgar brute.”
“She looks good‐natured, I think,” insinuated Anne.
“Oh, every one’s good‐natured!”
“In your set, Watty?” asked Mrs Macgregor, bitterly.
“Every one’s good‐natured!” continued Hamlin, throwing himself back in his chair; “and so’s
Mrs Argiropoulo. But a kind of grain that sets my nerves off. That’s the misfortune of London,
that a lot of vulgar creatures, merely because they buy our pictures and give dinners, have
come and invaded our set, showing us, like so many wild beasts, to
“Upon whipped cream and Swiss champagne,” said Mrs Macgregor—“what one might call the real,
genuine, four hundred a‐year intellectual world. Ah, well, Walter! you needn’t look
reproachful; but it
Hamlin merely smiled. “One must make a world for one’s self,” he said, and looked at Anne.
When Mr Cosmo Chough had taken his seat next to Mrs Argiropoulo, the portly lady deluged him with questions and replies as her landau rolled away.
“On the whole, I’m quite as well pleased not to take her out at once,” she said. “I’m
“I know what
At this grand winding up Mrs Argiropoulo laughed loudly.
“I know you don’t like those young men,” she said. “Posthlethwaite’s your rival, they say;
he writes even more improper things
This was an old joke, for Mr Cosmo Chough always surrounded his dwelling‐place with mystery, and had his letters addressed to his office.
“Pray don’t inconvenience yourself,” he said in a stately way; “set me down at the corner of Park Lane. I shall walk home in less than a minute from there.”
“To the corner of Park Lane,” ordered Mrs Argiropoulo of her footman, who knew, as well as his mistress and every other creature in what they called London, that Mr Cosmo Chough lived in a secluded terrace in Canonbury.
ANNE BROWN found that Hamlin, or, as he studiously put it, Mrs Macgregor, had made
several engagements for her before her arrival; and before she could thoroughly realise that
the school, the journey from Coblenz, were things of the past, she found herself being led
about, passively, half unconsciously, through the mazes of æsthetic London. It was all very
hazy: Anne was informed that this and that person was coming to dinner or lunch at
Hammersmith; that this or that person hoped she would come and dine or take tea somewhere or
other; that such or such a lady was going to take her to see some one or other’s studio, or to
introduce her at some other person’s house. She knew that they were all
At first Anne felt very shy and puzzled; but after a few days the very vagueness which
And little by little, out of this crowd of people who seemed to look, and to dress, and to
talk very much alike,—venerable bearded men, who were the heads of great schools of painting,
or poetry, or criticism, or were the papas of great offspring; elderly, quaintly dressed
ladies, who were somebody’s wife, or mother, or sister; youngish men, with manners at once
exotically courteous, and curiously free and easy, in velveteen coats and mustard‐coloured
shooting‐jackets or elegiac‐looking dress‐coats, all rising in poetry, or art, or
It was a curious state of things, thus to be introduced by a man whom she knew at once so much and so little, to this exclusive and esoteric sort of people; and whenever the thought would come upon her how completely and utterly she, the daughter of the dockyard workman of Spezia, the former servant of the little Perrys, was foreign to all this, it made her feel alone and giddy, like one standing on a rock and watching the waters below.
Such was the condition of things when one morning, about three weeks after Anne’s arrival, Hamlin put upon the luncheon‐table a note addressed to Miss Brown.
“It’s an invitation to Mrs Argiropoulo’s big party on the twenty‐seventh,” he said; “you must go, Miss Brown. She’s an awful being herself; but you’ll see all the most interesting people in London at her house. Edith Spencer or Miss Pringle can take you, if Aunt Claudia feel too tired.”
“Aunt Claudia always feels too tired,” answered Mrs Macgregor, in a bitter little tone. Anne could not quite understand this amiable and cynical old lady, who was at once devotedly attached to her nephew, and perpetually railing at his friends. A fear seized her lest, in her vague, almost somnambulic introduction into æsthetic society, she might have unconsciously neglected the woman who, proud of her birth as she was, requested this workman’s daughter to address and consider her as her aunt.
“Oh, won’t you go?” cried Anne; “won’t you go, Mrs Macgregor?”
“The fact is,” hesitated Hamlin, “that—you see—Mrs Argiropoulo invites comparatively few people, and—”
“That she wants only celebrities, or great folk, or pretty girls,” interrupted Aunt Claudia, with her friendly cynicism, “or, as she expresses it, that she wants no padding. So you must go with Mrs Spencer or Miss Pringle, my dear.”
“But it is abominable; it is most rude of Mrs Argiropoulo; and I certainly won’t go anywhere where Aunt Claudia has not been invited.”
“Nonsense, Nan,” silenced the old lady; “you’re not up to this lion‐hunting world yet. Where there are so many geniuses on the loose, and so many professed beauties, there are no chairs for old women, except countesses or school board managers.”
“But since you think Mrs Argiropoulo hateful,” persisted Anne, addressing Hamlin, “why should you wish me to go? You know I would much rather not; and I think, considering her rudeness to your aunt, you ought not to wish me to go.”
“As you choose, Miss Brown,” cried Hamlin, peevishly.
“Don’t be absurd, Anne—you must go,” insisted Mrs Macgregor. “Listen: Watty has actually been addling his brains doing dressmaking; he has invented a dress for you to go to the party, so you will break his heart if you refuse.”
Anne looked in amazement; and Hamlin reddened.
“I hope you will not deem it a liberty on my part, Miss Brown,” he said; “but as I knew that this invitation was coming, I ventured to make a sketch of the sort of dress which I think would become you, and to give it to a woman who has made dresses from artists’ directions; of course, if you don’t think it pretty, you won’t dream of putting it on. But I could not resist the temptation.”
Miss Brown scarcely knew what to say or feel: there was in her a moment’s humiliation at being so completely Hamlin’s property as to warrant this; then she felt grateful and ashamed of her ingratitude.
“If you had shown me the sketch, I daresay I could have made up the dress myself,” she said.
“I fear my sketch might not have been very intelligible to any one who had not experience of making such things.”
“Perhaps not,” answered Anne, thinking of
“What an idiot I was to let the cat out of the bag!” exclaimed Mrs Macgregor when her nephew was out of hearing. “I’ve spoilt your pleasure in the frock; and there’s Walter sulking because he thinks you won’t like it.”
“I am very ungrateful,” said Anne, sighing as she stooped over her book, and feeling all the same that she wished Hamlin would let her make up her dresses herself.
A few days later the dressmaker came to try on the dress, or rather (perhaps because Hamlin
did not wish Anne to see it before it was finished) its linings and a small amount of the
Greek stuff of which it was made; but it was not till the very afternoon of Mrs Argiropoulo’s
party that the costume was brought home finished. Miss Brown was by this time tolerably
accustomed to the eccentric garb of æsthetic circles, and she firmly believed that it was the
only one which a self‐respecting
“I must get out a long petticoat,” said Anne, appalled.
“Oh please, ma’am, no,” cried the dressmaker. “On no account an additional petticoat—it would ruin the whole effect. On the contrary, you ought to remove one of those you have on, because like this the dress can’t cling properly.”
“I won’t have it cling,” cried Miss Brown, resolutely. “I will let alone the extra petticoat, but that’s as much as I will do.”
“As you please, ma’am,” answered the
Anne walked to the mirror. She was almost terrified at the figure which met her. That colossal woman, with wrinkled drapery clinging to her in half‐antique, half‐medieval guise,—that great solemn, theatrical creature, could that be herself?
“I think,” she said in despair, “that there’s something very odd about it, Mrs Perkins. It looks somehow all wrong. Are you sure that something hasn’t got unstitched?”
“No indeed, madam,” answered the dressmaker, ruffled in her dignity. “I have exactly followed the design; and,” she added, with crushing effect, “as it’s I who execute the most difficult designs for the Lyceum, I think I may say that it could not be made differently.”
The Lyceum! Anne felt half petrified. What! Hamlin was having her rigged out by a stage dressmaker!
“Mr Hamlin is down‐stairs, Miss Brown,”
“Watty wants to see you in your new frock, my dear,” said Mrs Macgregor, putting her head in at the door. “Come along.”
Anne followed down‐stairs, gathering all that uncanny white crape about her. For the first time she felt a dull anger against Hamlin.
He met her in the dim drawing‐room.
“My hair isn’t done yet,” was all Miss Brown could say, tousling it with her hands.
“Leave it like that—oh, do leave it like that!” exclaimed Hamlin; “you can’t think how”—and he paused and looked at her, where she stood before him, stooping her massive head sullenly—“you can’t think how beautiful you look, Anne!”
It was the first time he had called her by her Christian name since that scene, long ago, in the studio at Florence.
“Forgive me, dear Miss Brown,” he apologised
“It was very kind of you to have it made for me,” said Anne, “and the stuff is very pretty also; and—and I am so glad you like me in it.”
Hamlin kissed her hand. He was more than usually handsome, and looked very happy.
“Thank you,” he said; “I must now go home and dress for that stupid dinner‐party. I will meet you at Mrs Argiropoulo’s at half‐past ten or eleven. I suppose Edith Spencer will call for you soon after dinner. Good‐bye.”
He looked at her with a kind of fervour, and left the room.
Anne sat down. Why did that dress make such a difference to him? Why did he care so much
more for her because she had it on? Did he care for her only as a sort of live picture? she
thought bitterly. But, after all, it was quite natural on his part to be pleased, since he had
invented the dress. And it was
Mrs Spencer, a very lovable and laughable little woman, whose soul was divided between her babies and fierce rancours against all enemies of pre‐Raphaelitism, hereditary, in virtue of her father, Andrew Saunders, in her family, came punctually, marvellously attired in grey cashmere medieval garments, a garland of parsley and gilt oak‐leaves in her handsome red hair. On seeing Anne, who stood awaiting her by the fireplace, she could not repress an exclamation of admiration.
“Yes,” answered Anne, unaccustomed to have her looks admired at Florence and at Coblenz; “it is a very wonderful costume, isn’t it? Mr Hamlin designed it for me. I think it was so kind of him; don’t you?”
“Kind? I see nothing kind about it. Walter” (she always spoke of him thus familiarly,
because he had worked as a youth in
Anne shook her head.
“Oh no,” she answered, with a sort of reasoned conviction, “he is merely very good to me, that’s all—and perhaps he likes me also, of course. But that’s all.”
“You know nothing of the world, Annie; and still less of Walter. He has never in his life been fond of any one except when in love. I’ve not known him these fifteen years for nothing.”
“I think you are mistaken,” said Anne, quietly.
“I think you are not aware, my dear girl, that you are the most beautiful woman Walter has ever seen.”
MISS BROWN felt very excited as the brougham drew up at Mrs Argiropoulo’s, and they entered her large house, blazing with lights and crammed with flowers. She followed Mrs Spencer timidly up‐stairs; but the men who crowded the landing never guessed that this majestic and imperturbable creature could possibly be nervous. At the top of the stairs, receiving her guests, an occupation (called seeing a few friends) which excluded her from her own drawing‐room the best part of the evening, was Mrs Argiropoulo, gorgeous in old lace and diamonds, and withal excessively vulgar.
“I am
“I wanted to come.”
“You are
“Follow me,” she whispered, as Anne, bewildered among the lights and noise, tried to pick
her way over the trailing skirts, and every one turned to stare as she passed—“Here,
Euphrosyne”—perceiving one of her big bouncing daughters in the crowd—“I want to introduce you
to Miss Brown. Do
The spacious drawing‐room was filled, as for a theatrical performance, with rows of chairs, wellnigh occupied already. Into the very first of these Mrs Argiropoulo led Anne and Mrs Spencer.
“Sit down,” she whispered. “I do hope you’ll enjoy yourself, Miss Brown. You’ll hear Gosselin beautifully here. Oh dear, there’s the dear Marchioness of Epsom; goodbye”—and she whirled off her portly person.
“Goodness!” whispered Mrs Spencer, “old Argey has actually put us into the best places!”
Anne looked round. In front was a vacant space, with an open piano, and some chairs in a
corner facing the company. All round and behind were chairs, and only a little gangway
remained leading to the piano, next to where Mrs Argiropoulo had placed Anne. She had never
seen such a crowd of magnificently and oddly dressed people in her life. Old ladies in velvet
and diamonds,
“I scarcely know any one here,” said Mrs Spencer, looking round like a rapid little bird, “except one or two artists—there are three or four R.A.’s—horrible creatures, to think the public is so wickedly infatuate as to buy their pictures! Will Englishmen ever have any poetic feeling in art? Papa would rather die than be an Academician. There’s little Thaddy O’Reilly—horrid little jackanapes—in the door. That old flat‐faced man is Lord Durrant, the critic. All the frumpy people with the diamonds must be peeresses, I’m sure. There’s Cosmo Chough just come in,—they’re all looking about for somebody or other. There’s Browning talking to old Argiropoulo. Oh, here’s little Thaddy! How do you do, Mr O’Reilly?”
Mr O’Reilly, a callow critic who united æstheticism with frivolity, bowed, and cast
“Who’s the lion to‐night?” asked Mrs Spencer.
Mr O’Reilly fixed his eyes on Anne, and answered languidly, with a faint smile—
“Why, how can you ask, Mrs Spencer? Have we not all been invited expressly to meet Monsieur Gosselin and his charming friends, the ladies from the French comedy? No one comes to see lions or lionesses here, it is much too intellectual for that.”
“Do tell me who
“Haven’t I told you that there never
“How horrible!” said Anne; “and do they pay them to be insulted like that?”
“Pay them? oh, never. The Argiropoulos are far too delicate for that. Monsieur
Gosselin had come forward, his opera‐hat in his hand, and begun to recite. It was a very delightful performance, and Anne enjoyed it greatly. Besides, it was a great relief to find that this entertainment was a performance, and not as she had dreaded, a series of introductions and conversations with celebrities. There was a dead silence during Gosselin’s recitation, except near the door, where people kept pressing in and out. When he had ceased, Anne looked round. She was surprised at the aspect of many of the company. They had evidently not been listening at all, but looking about, straining to see some one in the front rows. In a minute the little gangway leading to the piano was crowded.
Posthlethwaite, whom she had met several times before, was elbowing his unwieldy person—a
Japanese lily bobbing out of the button‐hole of his ancestral dress‐coat—towards her. He had
scarcely begun a description of a picture which he had just seen, representing “Aphrodite
tripping with pink little feet across the dimpled sea sands,” when Mrs Argiropoulo came up
with several gentlemen about her, whom she began rapidly to introduce to Anne: two of them
were famous painters; one a well‐known sculptor; another was an aristocratic drawing‐room
novelist; the fifth a man of fashion. They all stood in the gangway around Anne’s chair, while
Posthlethwaite, who was not the person to be ousted, propped his elephantine person against
the end of the piano, and leaning down his flabby flat‐cheeked face and mop of tow, continued
conversing with Miss Brown, regardless of the new‐comers, who exchanged smiles as they
listened to him with much more amused attention than they had listened to
With a shrill exclamation and a pert curtsy,
“How do you do, Annie?” said a voice behind her.
She turned round. It was Richard Brown.
“I saw you as soon as I came in,” he said, calmly pushing aside the astonished Posthlethwaite, “but I have only now been able to make my way here. How do you like Madame Gauffre? don’t you think she’s delightful? or rather, I ought to ask, how do you like London?”
The voice was always that same deep one, which, when lowered to a whisper, had something curiously hot and passionate about it; but the accent and the easy worldly manner seemed as if they could not belong to Richard Brown.
“Who the deuce is that fellow?” asked Posthlethwaite angrily of Mrs Spencer.
“
“Oh Lord, no!” answered the little journalist. “You don’t read newspapers in your set, do you?”
“We always read the ‘Athenæum,’” answered Mrs Spencer, seriously.
“Newspapers are Cimmerian inventions,” said Posthlethwaite. “I’m a republican, red,
incarnadine, a
Thaddy O’Reilly laughed. “Oh, well, you won’t find Education Brown in the ‘Athenæum,’ Mrs Spencer—a mere barbarian, Goth, Philistine, but well known in Philistia. He’s a tremendous Radical, goes in for disestablishment, secular teaching; an awful fellow for obligatory education and paupers; he’ll be in Parliament some day soon, for he’s backed by all the black trade.”
“Surely it is very easy to feed paupers, as people used to, don’t you know, in Chaucer?” said Mrs Spencer, simply and seriously.
Young O’Reilly went into an inaudible but convulsive giggle.
“Anyhow, that’s Brown—‘Peace by Expensive Warfare Brown’ we call him. Look at him; he’s a force in his world, as your father is in yours.”
“I wish he’d keep in his own coal‐cinders,” retorted Posthlethwaite. “What business has he to talk to—”
“By Jove!” exclaimed O’Reilly, “it never struck me,—Anne Brown—Richard Brown,—perhaps they’re relations!”
“What do you think of her?” whispered Mrs Argiropoulo to the little knot of artists whom she had assembled.
Posthlethwaite, as usual, answered for the company.
“’Tis the body of a goddess; we must give it the soul of a woman.”
“That’s Hamlin’s look‐out,” answered Paints, the R.A.
“Why, what’s become of him?” they all asked. “Surely he was to be here.”
“Oh, be sure he’s lurking around here,” answered O’Reilly; “of course he keeps in the background—enjoys his triumph from afar. You don’t sit in front of your own picture on the first Academy day, do you, Paints?”
“Mr Posthlethwaite, will you take Miss Brown in to supper?” cried Mrs Argiropoulo, who was working up and down the crowd.
Richard Brown had already given Anne his arm.
“That can’t be,” cried Mrs Argiropoulo. “Mr Posthlethwaite
“Good‐bye, Annie,” whispered Richard Brown. “I will come and see you to‐morrow.” And he let his cousin be borne away in triumph by Posthlethwaite.
“Of course, Mr Posthlethwaite must take in Miss Brown,” explained Mrs Argiropoulo to Mrs
Spencer; “he’s the most conspicuous man, after all; and, as it were, it stamps her at once. By
the way, two R.A.’s, Paints and
“Walter Hamlin will never let her be painted by an R.A.,” answered Mrs Spencer, fiercely; “and Annie has far too much artistic feeling to endure such a thing. Why, Mr Bones has been drawing her for the last week, and papa made a crayon of her.”
As Anne passed through the crowd on Posthlethwaite’s arm every one turned to look at her.
And then it suddenly flashed upon her that she was the person people had been staring at,
At that moment Hamlin came up.
“Have you amused yourself?” he asked. “Why, what’s the matter? do you feel ill?”
“Only very tired. Oh, why didn’t you turn up before?” Anne’s voice was so wretched and supplicating that Hamlin felt quite terrified.
“Where’s Mrs Spencer?” he asked. “It must be that hot room. Edith, do take Miss Brown home, she looks so awfully tired.”
“Permit me to take you down‐stairs,” said the mellifluous fat voice of Posthlethwaite.
“I will take Miss Brown down myself, if you please, Posthlethwaite;” and Hamlin pushed the prince of æsthetes roughly aside.
“Why did you not show yourself the whole evening?” asked Anne feebly, while he was helping her on with her cloak.
“Why—because—I thought I had no right to monopolise you always,” answered Hamlin in a whisper.
When the two women were alone in the brougham, Anne could stand it no longer; and leaning her head in the corner, she began to cry.
“Why, what’s the matter, Annie?” cried Mrs Spencer, drawing her close to her. “What’s the matter, my dear girl?”
“Nothing—nothing,” answered Anne, wiping her eyes. “I suppose it is because I am so worn‐out—so—”
“It’s that vile, ostentatious party,” replied the little woman, half in consolation, half in
pride—“mere stupid crushes—no real society, as
THE sudden discovery that she was the standard beauty of the most prominent artistic set, and accepted as such by the rest of society, would have greatly disturbed almost any woman. But Anne Brown’s nature was too completely homogeneous—too completely without the innumerable strata, and abysses, and peaks, and winding ways of modern women’s characters—for her to experience any of the mixed feelings of pride, and disgust, and humiliation, and general uncomfortablehess which would have been the lot of a more complex nature. The atoms of her character were not easily shaken into new patterns: it was coherent, and, like most coherent things, difficult to upset, slow to move, and quick to settle down.
After the first shock of surprise, she resigned herself, without doubts, or diffidence, or
elation, to her new place. That she was more beautiful than other women had indeed never
occurred to her before; but once that it had been proved to her she accepted it as a fact, as
she had accepted as a fact the still stranger news that Hamlin had singled her out to change
her life and love her. She did not take it at all as a merit or any other exciting thing in
herself: the only effect which it had upon her was to strengthen a curious feeling,
constitutional in her, and resulting probably from the very coherence and weightiness of her
character, that she was fated to be or do something different from other women—a sort of sense
of tragic passiveness, which always formed the background of her happiness. Moreover, the
discovery which she had made at Mrs Argiropoulo’s somehow made Anne’s position more
intelligible and simple to herself. She had heard of other men who had educated and married
girls of the lower orders on account
Now that she had settled down in æsthetic society, and found her place, and got to
understand the main points of things, she was quite ideally happy. Her life was very full, and
was surrounded by a flood of love,—on her side or on Hamlin’s? She scarcely knew; but she
Some of the people were distinctly repulsive, or distinctly boring, or distinctly annoying
to her; others, like Mrs Spencer and her father and mother and sisters, decidedly lovable;
others, like little Chough, decidedly amusing and amiable: and she took them as they came, but
with the indifference of concentrated
Meanwhile Anne Brown read quantities of medieval and Elizabethan literature; went with
Hamlin to see pictures and hear music; studied Dante and Shakespeare—the algebra and
arithmetic, so to speak, of the æsthetic set—and even began, secretly, to work at a Greek
grammar. Twice a‐week Cosmo Chough came to practise her accompaniments with her; and twice
a‐week also, of an evening, friends dropped in at the house at Hammersmith, when Mrs Macgregor
would leave her nephew and niece, as she called her, to entertain the guests. On other
evenings Anne would usually go to the house of one of the set, where literature and art, and
the faults of friends, and the wrong‐headedness of the public, were largely discussed; music
was made, young long‐haired Germans on the loose performing; and poets, especially the
“You see, it enters into their artistic effects,” explained Mrs Spencer. “I don’t like such things personally, but of course everything is legitimate in art.”
“They may be legitimate in art,” answered Anne, sceptically, “but they shan’t be legitimate in my presence.”
To return to Chough. Anne gradually became the confidant of the domestic difficulties, though not of the domestic shame, of the little poet; and to every one’s great astonishment, she obtained Hamlin’s permission to have one of Chough’s little girls at Hammersmith every Saturday till Monday, and tried to instil into the miserable puny imps some notion of how to behave and how to amuse themselves.
“You are not going to take that child out in the carriage with you, surely?” asked Hamlin, the first Sunday that Maggy Chough spent at Hammersmith.
“Of course I am,” answered Anne. “She’s the daughter of your most intimate friend; surely you can’t grudge the poor little thing some amusement. And I want you to go with us to the Zoo, Mr Hamlin. I’m sure it’s much more fascinating than the Grosvenor or the Elgin rooms.”
Hamlin smiled; and next day made a crayon drawing of Anne, one of the dozens in his studio, with Chough’s child; but he managed to make Anne look mournfully mysterious, and the child haggard and wild, so that people thought it represented Medea and one of the children of Jason.
So far Anne’s acquaintance were entirely limited to the æsthetic set; but there were two
exceptions. One was a couple of sisters, Mary and Marjory Leigh, who existed as it were on the
borderland—Mary Leigh being a sort of amateur painter with strong literary proclivities; the
other was Richard Brown, who, after the meeting at Mrs Argiropoulo’s, called at Hammersmith,
was politely received by Hamlin, with whom he appeared quite reconciled, and talked on a
variety of indifferent subjects, as if Anne Brown had never been his ward. Hamlin had
apparently never appeared to him in the light of a slave‐buyer and seducer, and all parties
had apparently never been in any save their present position. Anne
“He isn’t at all a stupid man, that cousin of yours,” remarked little Mrs Spencer; “and I do
think he is
“I’m sure
“Oh papa, you know what I mean; and I’m sure art will gain ever so much. It’s only what Mr Ruskin has said over and over again, and Mr Morris is always talking about.”
“Any one is free to give the lower classes that taste of beauty, as long as
“Oh, I know, Watty; your ancestors kept negroes, and you would like to have negroes yourself,” said Mrs Spencer, hotly.
“Heaven forbid! I only ask to be left alone, my dear Edith, especially by reformers.”
At any rate, Richard Brown was permitted to show himself sometimes in æsthetic company. But Richard Brown did not avail himself much of the condescending permission to improve his mind; and neither at her own house (for people always spoke of Miss Brown’s house now) nor at the houses of any of her friends would Anne have had much opportunity of seeing her cousin, had he not, by a curious chance, been a frequent visitor at the house of the Leigh girls.
Mary Leigh was, as already said, a demi‐semi‐æsthete; she had studied art in an irregular,
Irish sort of way, and she had a literary, romantic kind of imagination, which fitted her
rather for an illustrator than a painter. She felt the incompleteness of her own endowment, in
a gentle, half‐humorous,
Richard Brown was at first annoyed, then amused, then indignant; and then, seeing how completely Anne’s ideas were borrowed from her set, and also how completely unsuitable they were to her downright, serious, and practical nature, he determined, not without vanity playing a part as well as conviction, to “let a little light,” as he expressed it, into her mind.
There had been recently founded, by some friends of his, a kind of club where girls of the
dressmaker’s apprentice and shopwomen class might spend their leisure moments in reading and
meeting each other; which club, besides a library and reading‐room, offered
The lecturers or teachers were nearly all young ladies: Marjory Leigh had for some time lectured on sanitary arrangements (this being her especial hobby), and Mary Leigh was going to set up a drawing‐class.
Anne Brown, practical by nature and æsthetically sceptical by training, had no very great
belief in the famous club; she had been told so often that mankind is too stupid and degraded
to be helped, that she had almost got to believe it. But she let herself be taken one evening
to a lecture, at what she called Marjory’s college. The lecture was just beginning as they
entered the little, white‐washed, bare room up innumerable stairs. Four or five young women,
decently dressed, were seated at desks, copy‐books and ink‐stands before them; and a beautiful
little girl, who had been pointed out to Anne in æsthetic circles as a rising poetess, was
seated opposite
“She is too delicate for such work,” whispered Marjory, “but she will do it.”
Anne listened. But she did not follow the lecturer’s argument very closely. She thought what
these girls were, what the drudgery of their work, the temptations of their leisure, the
hopeless narrowness of their horizon; and she thought also, the thought throbbing on almost
like dull pain, what it would have been for her, when she also was alone in the world—when she
had drudgery on the one hand and temptation on the other—when her whole nature had been
parched and withered for want of a few words that should speak of
When, the following day, Mary Leigh came to take her out for a walk, Anne looked as if she had received bad news, or as if she had bad news to communicate. She answered only in monosyllables; until, as they were looking in at a shop window, she suddenly turned to her companion.
“Do you think,” she said hesitatingly, “that I might perhaps—teach something at Marjory’s college?”
“Teach!” exclaimed Mary Leigh in astonishment; “you teach! Why, what would you teach, Anne dear?”
Anne was silent. She sighed. “That’s just what I have been thinking all the morning—I
fear—but you see I
Mary Leigh squeezed her hand.
“We will ask your cousin,” she said.
“Oh no, not Dick—don’t mention it to Dick,” answered Anne; “he is sure to make difficulties and laugh at me—he thinks me a useless thing.”
“
Anne sighed. “All those things didn’t make themselves,” she answered. “It’s the artists who were useful and whom we have to thank.”
The other Miss Leigh was immensely astonished, and, with her youthful intolerance, rather indignant at Anne’s suggestion.
“I think,” said Anne, hesitatingly, “that I could, with a little work, manage medieval literature—at least medieval lyrics.”
Marjory shook her head. “There’s too much of that sort of thing already,” she
“That’s true,” Anne said sadly.
Marjory was rather sorry for her rough practicalness, but at the same time she had a blind impulse to harass an æsthete.
“Political economy is what we want most,” she said; and, as the door opened and Richard Brown entered, she went on—
“Isn’t it true that political economy is what we want most at the college, Mr Brown?”
“Yes,” answered Richard. “How are you, Miss Leigh?—how are you, Annie? What about it?”
“Oh, only that your cousin wants to teach at the college, and I tell her that literature is no use, and that political economy is what we want.”
“You want to teach, Annie?” cried Brown,
“I am not dull, Dick,” answered Anne, sternly; “but it struck me that, having been a poor
girl without education myself—until” (and she looked her cousin reproachfully in the face) “Mr
Hamlin had me taught—I have an obligation to help other girls like what I was, greater than
the obligation of people who have always been educated. I daresay there may be nothing that I
“Laugh at you!” cried Brown. “Oh, not in the least! I was only smiling at the cool way in which you absolve those who are born in fortunate circumstances from the obligation which you yourself feel.”
“I don’t think that’s quite true, Dick,” answered Anne, simply. “You think it’s absurd on my
part, and I knew you would,
“Well,” said Brown, evidently surprised at her manner, and looking searchingly in her pale, strange‐featured face, “what do you think you might teach?”—his voice was much gentler.
“At present”—Anne’s voice sank, for she felt the uselessness of her offer—“I can think only of medieval literature” (Brown smiled); “but perhaps, if there were something else, I might get it up.”
“I’m sure there won’t be a vacancy for anything except political economy,” interrupted Marjory Leigh, impatiently. “I’m quite positive, from what the secretary told me, all the rest is glutted.”
“I fear it is the case,” mused Brown. “There has been a talk of teaching singing,—in which case, perhaps—”
“I don’t sing well enough,” said Anne, haughtily. Why was she always having her æstheticism thrust in her face?
“Besides,” added her cousin, “it’s extremely improbable.”
They fell to talking of other things. As Brown was leaving, Anne stopped him.
“Tell me,” she said, “what are the best books to begin learning political economy?”
Brown smiled. “Why? Do you want to teach it?”
“Since it is such an important thing,” answered Anne, gravely, “I think I should like to learn it.”
“It’s not amusing, Annie.”
“It can’t be duller than Minnesingers—and nothing is dull when one is learning it. Can’t you tell me of some books?”
Brown looked at her with a puzzled expression. “I have written a primer of it myself,” he said—“I will send it you; and if you get through that, you will find at the end a list of text‐books, some of which I can lend you to take into—”
“Thank you, Dick. I shall be much obliged to you.”
“You shall have it this evening. Goodbye, Annie, and
“You’ll find it tough work,” remarked Marjory, shaking her short mane of hair out before the
glass; “but, of course, a primer is never
WHEN Mrs Macgregor had gone up‐stairs to rest before dinner on their arrival at Wotton Hall, Hamlin took Miss Brown round the huge, deserted‐looking house, which his grandfather had built on returning from Jamaica. It was like an Italian villa, with vaulted rooms, gilded and stuccoed, marble floors, and terraced windows; the furniture was all of the Napoleonic period; nothing could be more dignified or sadder.
When Hamlin had shown her the large drawing‐rooms, the library, the room which had been the
play‐room when he was a child, he took Anne into the large Palladian hall, and showed her the
innumerable portraits of ladies and gentlemen in armour, and ruffs,
Anne looked at them shyly. They were mostly indifferently painted and vapid—affected, like
all old portraits by mediocre painters; but it seemed to her that in most of these gentlemen,
with peaked beards on their Vandyck lace, or horse‐hair wigs, or carefully powdered hair tied
back in silk bags, she could recognise a resemblance to the man by her side—the same delicate,
handsome features, the same fair, almost beardless complexion, the same gentle, melancholy,
slightly ironical expression: and never did the real meaning of Hamlin’s marriage with her
come clearer before her mind than when, in that silent hall, surrounded by all those portraits
of his ancestors, she suddenly saw herself and him reflected in one of the long dim mirrors;
she, so tall and strong, so powerful of bone and muscle, with her strange, half‐southern,
half‐Jewish, and
“They all married and intermarried for nearly a century,” said Hamlin, “that’s why they’re
all so like each other. I often wonder why it didn’t end in insanity—you see it has ended in a
poet at last. My mother was the first woman married by a Hamlin for eighty years who was not
at least a second cousin,—in those islands there were very few decent people, you see. Don’t
they all look dapper and respectable? It appears they were not. That man in the corselet was
killed in a duel about another man’s wife. That one in the middle, the boy in the grey dress
with the powdered hair, Sir Thomas Hamlin, they used to call the bad Sir Thomas, because he
amused himself practising pistol‐shooting on black people, whom he had put all round his yard;
“No,” said Anne, laughing, as she looked at Hamlin, at that noble and delicate face, which
seemed to her the noblest and most beautiful
“That’s my mother,” said Hamlin, pointing to a faded crayon of a beautiful, gentle, pathetic‐looking woman.
“
“I’m glad you think so. She was a very beautiful woman, and very brave and noble, and not very happy, poor mamma.”
“Did you know her?”
“Only till I was about twelve; she died young. That is grandpapa; and that is my uncle
Arnold,—he died young too—in fact, drank himself to death. Don’t you think he is like Mordaunt
Hamlin? That’s papa;
“You wouldn’t think that he was a very violent man, would you?” he said.
“No,” answered Anne, looking at that weak, worn, rather blear face, and thinking how her father, too, had been a drunkard; but how different had been the drunkenness of the poor overworked mechanic, so industrious and gentle and high‐spirited when he was sober, from the sort of emasculating vice of Mordaunt and Arnold Hamlin, of Walter Hamlin’s bad‐faced father!
“It’s very curious,” pursued Hamlin, with a sort of psychological interest in his own
family, “how that Mordaunt, who, after all, was no ancestor of mine, tries everywhere to
perpetuate himself. There’s unfortunately no portrait of my great‐grandfather, or perhaps we
might understand it; but perhaps it came from the mother. It’s curious I have never felt any
inclination to drink—I mean, however moderately; but I can’t take
“I never have seen you take any wine, by the way,” said Anne.
“I tried opium once; but Chough made me give it up. It’s sad to be denied any sort of unreal pleasures, don’t you think? That’s my brother and I when we were boys.”
Anne stopped to look at the picture.
It was very well painted, though a trifle old‐fashioned. The two boys were represented in shooting‐jackets, with guns and dogs. The shorter, slighter, and paler boy was evidently Walter Hamlin; the other was more robust, boyish, and ordinary‐looking.
“Your brother died when he was a child, did he not?”
“Oh no,” answered Hamlin, quickly. “Poor Arnold—was very fond of shooting—I hated it; but papa had the picture painted on his account; he was the favourite at first, being younger.”
It seemed to Anne that Hamlin was going
“It’s curious,” said Hamlin, after a moment. “Arnold looked so jolly and strong when he was a child; and yet, later, he got such a look of our grand‐uncle Mordaunt.”
“I think you have your grand‐uncle on the brain,” said Anne, trying to break through Hamlin’s strange mood.
They left the hall, and went to the window of the large drawing‐room, and looked out on the reddening beeches and the grass, permitted to grow high and thick, in the yellow sunlight.
“I shall sell this place most likely soon,” said Hamlin; “I’ve already had some offers for
it. It’s too large, and pompous, and characterless for me. I should like a real old
country‐house, two or three centuries old, with flower‐gardens and panelled rooms,—not this
plaster and stucco and romantic gardening.
Anne did not answer.
“I hate this place,” went on Hamlin, leaning on the window‐sill by Anne’s side, “and that is the reason why I have brought you here. Before saying farewell to it for good and all, I wish to save it from being a mere hateful recollection in my life. I wish to be able to think of it in connection with you;” and he looked up at Anne, who was leaning against the tall French window.
“I don’t know,” went on Hamlin, again looking out at the vaporous yellow sunset horizon— “I don’t know what are destined to be the relations between our lives. You have seen too little of the world as yet to be able to know yourself and me; and I am more and more decided to abide by my original plan of giving ourselves time to understand each other, and to understand whether we are made for one another. . . .”
He looked at Anne; she had turned an ashy‐white as she listened; she had thought
“Don’t take what I say in bad part,” he went on, conscious to himself that he was speaking the truth, and at the same time that he was acting, telling it at a moment and in a manner which made it untruthful; “and don’t think that I mean anything horrid against you or against myself, when I say that you don’t yet know me, and will not know me, perhaps, for some time. You see me through your own nature, your own enthusiasms, your own aspirations; you think I am strong where I am weak, and pure where I am impure.”
Anne shook her head.
“I don’t think so.”
Hamlin smiled sadly.
“But I do. It’s very sad to think that one
Hamlin had often said things like these in the letters which he used to write to her, and had hinted, much more clearly, at weaknesses and basenesses which she would some day recognise in him.
It could not occur to Anne, whose character was so completely of a piece, that there was any untruthfulness in this mode of speaking, any more than she could believe that Hamlin could be correct in thus speaking of himself. The sort of shimmer, as of the two tints in a shot stuff, of reality and unreality, of genuine and affected feeling, of moods which came spontaneously and of other moods, noticed, treasured up, reproduced in himself,—which existed in Hamlin, would be perfectly unintelligible to Anne.
“I daresay,” she answered gravely, “that you have faults, in which, at present, I cannot believe; but those faults are not the ones which you imagine. When a man knows himself to have a fault, he ceases to have it—he cures it.”
A sensation of a new experience passed through Hamlin’s mind as Anne said this: it seemed so strange, pathetic, grand, to him—who knew himself to be for ever mixing up the unrealities of his art with the realities of his life, to be continually experimenting upon himself the moods of his poetry—that any one should seriously think thus, should not know that when a man recognises in himself a fault, he may, so far from eradicating, cherish it stealthily.
“You have asked me not to be angry with you for telling me that I am inexperienced and
cannot yet know my own mind,” said Anne; “don’t be angry and don’t laugh at me if I tell you
that I think you don’t always know yours. I have often observed how imaginative
Hamlin did not answer. He was deeply touched, touched all the more because he knew how little she guessed at the self‐conscious unreality of so much of him.
“You are very comforting,” he said sadly, then went on more cheerfully: “well, what I wanted
to say, when we began to discuss which of us knew the other better, is this,—that whatever we
may be destined to be to
“It is getting chilly,” said Hamlin, and shut the window. “You look very pale, Miss Brown; had you not better put on some warmer dress this evening?”
His voice seemed like the curtain dropping after a scene, or the chord at the end of a duet. It was a return to reality and prose.
“Perhaps I had better, and I ought to go and see after your aunt; good‐bye for the present.”
Hamlin strolled out into the terrace, and lit a cigarette; the past and present, his real
and unreal self, Anne, his brother and father, his great‐uncle Mordaunt—all went cloudily
through his brain. He was very happy. Love to him was not what it was to other men, not what
he had tried it himself in former years. It was romance, but romance not of ladders and
hairbreadth escapes, but
They had many conversations like this one. Hamlin never so much as kissed Anne’s hand, never told her that he loved her, spoke merely of himself, of her, of the future and the past, of what she would one day know, of what he would one day feel; and Anne listened seriously, trying to cure him of his despondency and morbidness, trying to persuade him of his own worth and of her clear‐sightedness, while never a suspicion crossed her simple stern mind that all this earnest talk, which was so tragic and still so delightful, was the thing which she scornfully connected with whispers and kisses and nonsense,—in one word, love‐making.
THEY remained about a fortnight completely solitary in the large house. Hamlin was
finishing a poem and correcting the proofs of his next volume. Anne was continuing her usual
literary studies, but now with the addition of some books and pamphlets on political economy,
which had been incredulously lent her by Richard Brown. The two young people had never seen so
much of one another, and they were, Hamlin in his dreamy manner, Anne in her serious,
practical way, very happy. Mrs Macgregor went on reading her old‐fashioned freethinking books,
and giving out cynical remarks, which her amiable and utterly gullible character deprived of
all weight. She was the elder and considerably
“I don’t believe that all people are like that, Aunt Claudia,” Anne would often exclaim indignantly. “I don’t believe that all people marry from unworthy passion, just to wake up and find its unworthiness. I am sure that if love were such a vile thing, and marriage such a mistake, every man or woman with any self‐respect and self‐restraint would refuse both.”
“Oh, my dear child,” Mrs Macgregor would answer with a smile, “wait till you are a little older and see what a disgusting thing life is.”
“If it is,” answered Anne, feeling quite nauseated and terrified, and at the same time resolute in herself—“if it is, Aunt Claudia, it is because men and women are mostly such wretched, weak, silly, base, puling creatures.”
Then, when she saw Hamlin, and thought of
It seemed somehow, here all alone in this ancestral home of Hamlin’s, as if the fate which
Hamlin had refused to forestall was working itself happily out; and as if, tacitly, the
poet‐painter and the girl whom he had educated were becoming affianced to each other. None of
the outward ceremony was broken through; he was always Mr Hamlin, and she Miss Brown, and
there was never an allusion permitted to any more intimate relations. But it seemed perfectly
natural that he and she should go walks together; that Aunt Claudia should leave them alone at
breakfast and luncheon; and that, when the old lady had retired to her room, they should
remain,
BY the middle of the summer a perfect colony from æsthetic London had settled itself, to the amazed terror of the vicar and his parishioners, in Wotton Hall and the inn of the adjacent village. The Spencers came, with a perfect shipload of babies, and accompanied by Mrs Spencer’s father and mother; Cosmo Chough came, bringing scarcely any luggage except MS. poems and old music; Thaddy O’Reilly came, and half‐a‐dozen young poets and painters, to name whom would be perfectly superfluous, and who were all the humble worshippers of Walter Hamlin. All these people had pictures to paint, poems to compose, articles to write; but the exciting question for the whole household was the approaching publication of Hamlin’s new book.
Hamlin’s acquaintance with Anne Brown had not been without a decided influence on his art.
He had written a number of sonnets about her ever since the moment of their first meeting,
recording various moods, real and fictitious, in connection with her, and of which he had sent
or read her the greater number. Perhaps he would have written much the same sort of thing
about any other woman; but Anne had influenced him at once more directly and more indirectly.
The æsthetic school of poetry, of which Hamlin and Chough were the most brilliant exponents of
the younger generation, was evidently running to seed. It was beginning to be obvious, to
every one who was not an æsthete, that the reign of the mysterious evil passions, of the
half‐antique, half‐medieval ladies of saturnine beauty and bloodthirsty voluptuousness of the
demigods and heroes treated like the figures in a piece of tapestry, must be coming to a
close; and that a return to nature must be preparing. Anne had felt it, and had vaguely
determined
“Why, Walter!” she exclaimed indignantly, “what possesses you? are you crazy? Why, you are going in for realism; do you know that?”
“I don’t see any particular realism, Edith,” answered Hamlin, testily.
“Come, now, it isn’t Zola, my dear,” said her father, a good‐natured man, who never carried his belief in himself to the length which it was carried to by his family.
“No, it isn’t Zola,” cried Miss Spencer; “but it’s worse than Zola. . . .”
(“It’s just the decentest thing I’ve heard for many a long year,” murmured the old painter.)
“It’s worse than Zola, because it’s poetry and not prose, because it’s English poetry, because it’s poetry by Walter Hamlin, who has hitherto been an apostle of beauty, and is now basely turning apostate and going over to ugliness.”
There was a slight laugh at Mrs Spencer’s
“I don’t think there’s anything actually ugly in it,” put in Chough, blandly. “Hamlin could never write anything ugly. But it is certain that there’s a want of idealism in it, a want of that exotic perfume which constitutes the essence of poetry. I think it’s an unfortunately chosen subject. . . .”
“I think it’ s perfectly disgusting,” gobbled out Dennistoun, the little rickety poet, who had to be carried up and down stairs, and who wrote, while slowly sinking inch by inch into the grave, about carrying off lovely girls, and throttling them in the fierceness of his love. “Did you notice about the heroine washing the children? I call that beastly, beastly. And then, I don’t know how any man can write a poem about people who are in love and get married.”
This seemed an unanswerable piece of criticism. Anne alone leaned across the table; she was
very indignant. “I think,” she
Cosmo Chough looked at Dennistoun, and Dennistoun looked at Mrs Spencer’s father.
“My dear young lady,” cried the old painter in his broad Scotch, “d’ye ever know any of these gentlemen write a poem about people who did any single respectable thing?”
“I wonder you can talk like that, papa,” silenced his daughter, whose zeal for him and his school included timely snubbings for himself.
“Well, my dear, I privately think with Miss Brown that there’s nothing more poetic than a gude, bonnie lass of a wife, and I don’t wonder a bit at Walter being of that opinion. But then, of course, I’m not a poet.”
“It’s that washing of the children which troubles me,” reflected Chough, “and their being
married. Don’t you think, now, Hamlin, that you might just alter a little, and make it appear
that they
“Only put a husband of the lady in the distance,” suggested O’Reilly, laughing.
“Thank you,” said Hamlin, affecting to laugh, “your suggestion is most happy, and most characteristic. You are always full of original ideas—all of you,” and he looked bitterly round. Chough felt the rebuke and was silent. But Dennistoun, who was gasping, propped up in his chair, was furious.
“It’s not a question of an alteration here or there,” he gobbled out; “it’s the whole tone of the poem which is pestilent. It’s Wordsworth pure and simple, that’s what it is.”
Hamlin rolled up his MS. He was very white. The others he did not mind, but this little
rickety Dennistoun, whose poems were the most limited and the most hopelessly morbid of the
whole set, annoyed him; for in Dennistoun, for all his limitations and repetitions, Hamlin
recognised the most genuine poet of his circle, his most real rival. Those words, “It’s
Wordsworth, that’s what it is,” were like
The conversation was changed; and soon the first dinner‐bell dispersed the company. When Anne came down she heard some one stirring in the study next door. She went in. Hamlin was seated before the table, his head on his hands; the MS., all crumpled up, lay in front of him.
Anne came silently to his side. Her heart was bursting with indignation.
“What’s the matter?” asked Hamlin, crossly.
“Nothing. I only came—because I wanted to see you—because I wanted to tell you how I despise those people and their disgusting, unmanly school of poetry—how I hate their stupid criticism,—how completely I believe in you and in your poem.”
Anne had spoken with vehemence and almost anger. She took one of his hands, which was dog’s‐earing the MS.
“Oh, why,” she asked, “why do you read
“I never thought—” and Hamlin stopped. “I never thought that that fellow Dennistoun would ever dare to speak like that about a poem of mine.” His tone was angry and tearful, like that of a punished child.
“Nor did I. I never thought any one would dare to speak like that. But what does it matter—what can the words of such a man matter to you?”
He did not answer.
“Surely,” went on Anne, “you can’t mind what they say? You believe in your poem, as I believe in it?”
It seemed so impossible to her how any one could not believe in that poem, which seemed to her so strong, and noble, and beautiful.
“I know you believe in it,” answered Hamlin, brusquely; “you made me write it—so of course you must—”
“And—and—are you sorry to have written it?”
“I don’t know; I can’t judge. There’s O’Reilly outside.”
“The disconsolate poet being consoled by his beautiful
“Well, Hamlin, old fellow, do you repent you of that sinful marriage between your hero and heroine?” asked O’Reilly.
“I repent me of nothing at all, except of having read my poem to a parcel of damned meretricious rhymesters,” answered Hamlin, angrily.
“Walter!” cried Mrs Spencer, “how can you talk like that!”
But, despite this bravado, Anne felt, and her spirit sank within her, that Hamlin had been disgusted with his poem. He was rather cantankerous throughout dinner; and Anne, watching him, felt a strange mixture of indignation—towards his critics for their criticism, and towards Hamlin for minding it.
THE time has come for him to break with the old school, thought Anne; consoling herself for a certain childish petulance, perhaps not quite new to her, in Hamlin’s manner.
But Anne proved mistaken. Whether the critics became less rabid on the following day, or
whether Hamlin was suddenly smitten with the truth of their criticism, she could not say. He
was very snappish at first towards Chough, and absolutely refused to speak to Dennistoun for
nearly twenty‐four hours. Chough, who loved Hamlin like the apple of his eye, would not,
however, be spurned; he followed Hamlin about, he soothed him, he flattered him, he assured
him that he was much the greatest poet of his generation; but he repeated, almost
“Such a poem will
“Thank you for your advice, Chough,” answered Hamlin, angrily; “I think I told you before that I didn’t want it.”
Anne did not revive the subject of the unlucky poem. It was useless provoking quarrels
between Hamlin and his friends; quarrels in which she was forced to own to herself that he
showed himself too easily mortified and put out of temper. If he had been taught to mistrust
their judgment, if he had been alienated from their school by their absurd criticism, why, so
much the better. This business drew Anne’s attention to the poetry of the school; she re‐read
a number of poems by Chough, Dennistoun, and several gods, demigods, and heroes of the
movement. Whether it was that she had read
The proof‐sheets of the new volume began to come in. Anne had read nearly all its contents at one time or other, yet Hamlin, in his grave, ceremoniously adoring way, handed on the proofs to her. One day a fresh bundle came by post. After breakfast, Hamlin took Anne aside.
“I want you to read these sonnets,” he said. “I don’t think you have read them all. There are rather more than I care to print in this volume, so I should like you to select those which you think the best or the least bad: divide them into two packets, and tell me which you prefer.”
Anne was quite taken aback for joy, and at the same time for fear.
“Don’t say that,” she said; “I could never,
“You are the person whom I trust and respect, and—will you let me say so?—whom I love most in all the world,” said Hamlin, solemnly. “For whom should my poetry be written except for you? Whom else should I care to please? Are you not the best and worthiest thing in my life, and is it not my highest ambition to do anything worthy of you?”
Hamlin had never spoken so passionately and earnestly before.
Anne did not answer, but she squeezed his hand, and the gesture, and the look accompanying it, meant “I love you.”
“Listen,” said Hamlin, detaining her as she was leaving—“I want to say one word more. These
sonnets are not merely my verses; they are myself—and many of them, you will see, are about
you. Perhaps you
“I will,” answered Anne. “What you wish me to do, I must do.”
She went up into her room, shut the door, and seating herself at the table, unrolled the
little bundle of proof‐sheets. But at first she could not read, or could read only the
titles—her heart beat so, and the blood boomed so in her temples. That he should love her so
much, believe in her so much—that it should really be he, just he and she, and not some one
else; it seemed too strange to be true. She slowly began to read the sonnets. Some of them she
knew already; others were expansions in verse of things which Hamlin had said or written to
her; many were about herself, passionate, with a sort of delicate, subdued, respectful
passion, played, like some exquisite instrument, in various keys and rhythms of subdued pain
or
“Here are the proofs,” she said, laying them on the table.
“Have you read them already?” cried Hamlin; “how sweet of you! Now tell me what you think about them.”
He looked so cheerful, so utterly unconscious
“I think they are most of them very beautiful,” she answered slowly—“indeed, quite some of the best things you have ever done—and especially those about me; I am very grateful to you for them. But”—she resumed, after a moment’s silence—“there are some which I dislike extremely, and which are utterly unworthy of you. I have put them into the smaller roll by themselves.” She spoke rapidly, decidedly, but when she had done she felt that she was crimson.
Hamlin seemed quite speechless for astonishment. He quickly unrolled the smaller parcel, and glanced at its contents. A look of surprised ill‐humour crossed his face.
“I am quite astonished at your choice,” he said with affected coolness; “for these are the very sonnets which Chough and Dennistoun and all my other friends picked out as among my best.”
So he had already provided himself with a stock of criticisms.
“I am no judge of their technical merits,” answered Anne, trying to feel as if she had expected this news. “It seemed to me that they were very excellent in workmanship, and there is beautiful imagery in them. But I think the subject and tone of them horrible.” she spoke resolutely and unflinchingly, because she saw Hamlin’s eyes fixed incredulously on her. “You asked me to give you my frank opinion; and even had you not asked me, I should have felt bound to tell you that I think those sonnets ought not to be published. Perhaps you think it strange of me to speak so openly; but, of course, I understand what those sonnets allude to, and, of course, so will every grown‐up reader.”
Hamlin bit his moustache.
“There is not a single word to which any one can take objection in these sonnets,” and he turned over the proofs.
“What do the words matter? It is the
Hamlin’s eyes flashed, but he kept his temper.
“Everything is legitimate for the sake of an artistic effect,” he said, echoing the worn‐out aphorism of his school.
“Even to do a disgraceful thing?”
“I can see nothing disgraceful in a man attempting to describe what has passed through his mind.”
Hamlin spoke sullenly and doggedly.
“You have shifted your position,” cried Anne. “You intimated just now that a man may pretend to anything for the sake of an artistic effect. And now you are trying to make me believe that you really have felt and thought those horrible things. It is of no use. You have not—”
“How do you know?” exclaimed Hamlin, angrily. “Do you think I tell you everything that I have ever done, or thought, or felt?”
Anne was silent for a moment: that he should prefer to make her believe in his own baseness! It was horrible, loathsome, and, at the same time, pitiable and childish.
“I know you have not,” she repeated, “because I know you to be a gentleman. And I know that all that is affectation—school affectation—learned from creatures like Dennistoun and Chough; they have all done it, or something of the sort, and you have learned what comes naturally to their dirty minds. Oh, Mr Hamlin, do not commit this abomination—this baseness of pretending to shameful things which you have not felt or thought; do not be so mean, so base, so lying, as to slander yourself for the sake of an artistic effect.” Anne had seized his arm; he was shaken by her unexpected vehemence and passion; he had never thought that Anne could become so passionate about anything; he looked on, taken by surprise, not knowing what to think.
“Do not slander yourself,” repeated Anne—“do not blacken your real self, which does not
“As you choose,” answered Hamlin; “perhaps you are right; though, heaven knows, I thought myself, when writing those sonnets, but too bitterly in earnest.”
Anne’s look—a look of incredulous contempt—smote him like a rod.
“I suppose I am apt to be morbid,” he said, sadly; “that is the wretchedness of my life, that I never know where the truth about myself really lies—it seems to me that I ought to speak out, and yet . . .”
“And yet it is mere nonsense.”
Hamlin smiled a forced smile.
“Perhaps it is. Since you are determined, I suppose it must be.”
“You won’t publish those sonnets?” asked Anne, anxiously.
“I will not, since they offend you so much. But it is curious, that of all the people to
For a moment Hamlin had been overcome, had been delighted by this sudden burst of impetuosity, by this passionate belief in him and vindication of himself. But now, as he again glanced at the sonnets, he was once more annoyed and resentful.
“Such things must be judged from a purely artistic standpoint,” he said with some irritation.
“I am willing to judge art from an artistic standpoint; but I cannot judge from an artistic standpoint an honourable man trying to defame himself.”
Hamlin sighed.
“Well, after all, I bade you select, and the principal thing is that you should be
satisfied. But it
“The ‘Ballad of the Fens’?—aren’t you going to print that? What do you mean?”
Could Hamlin be merely worrying her, to vent his annoyance at the loss of the sonnets?
“The ‘Ballad of the Fens’ has been torn up,” answered Hamlin, with a kind of dogged satisfaction.
“Oh, Mr Hamlin! How could you—the finest thing you have ever written.”
The ballad torn up!
“I know you thought it good, and so did I myself. But, on reflection, I saw that my friends were right, and that such a thing would not do.”
He spoke sharply, brutally, as if to bring home to Anne the unreliableness of her judgment: she had induced him to write it; she had praised it; and she wanted him to tear up those sonnets.
“It is a bad plan to keep things about which one is doubtful,” he went on; “so I tore it up. I think it was wiser; don’t you?”
“No,” said Anne, in a husky voice which burst out in a way that almost frightened him; “no, no—it was . . .” but she said no more.
ONE morning Hamlin received two unexpected letters at breakfast. From his looks, which he was at all times quite unable to control, it was clear that one of them brought good news, while the other must be about some disagreeable matter.
“Edmund Lewis is coming the day after to‐morrow,” announced Hamlin to his aunt, to Anne, and to his guests.
There was a chorus of exclamations of surprise, sprinkled with pleasure.
“Who is Edmund Lewis?” asked Anne. “He is an old friend of mine, a charming fellow whom I have not seen for some years. Some of the drawings in the drawing‐room at Hammersmith are by him.”
Anne remembered the name, and the strange, beautiful, cruel, mysterious, out‐of‐drawing heads in crayon, which had curiously impressed her the first morning after her arrival in England, rose before her eyes; since then she had seen so many similar things, had got to understand so completely that mysterious, beautiful faces, with combed‐out hair, big weird eyes, and cruel lips, were so much school property, that she had become quite indifferent to them.
“I thought you told me that something strange had happened to him—that he had left England for good,” remarked Anne.
“Oh, it was nothing particularly strange,” interrupted little O’Reilly—“only a German lady
whom he met one day, blond, fat, thirty‐five, who was nothing but a soul—you know the sort of
thing—with a husband who was a great deal besides a soul (a charming man, for the rest, and
quite wildly in love with the
“How can you talk in such a flippant way, Mr O’Reilly?” cried Mrs Spencer. “You have a way of making the most serious things seem ridiculous. Poor Mrs Lewis! she’s dead now; you needn’t make fun of her.”
“Poor Mrs Lewis!” laughed O’Reilly;
“I thought her a designing woman then; I didn’t know all the circumstances.”
“Come now, Edith,” interrupted her father, in his broad Scotch; “I
“I don’t see that at all, papa. I don’t see why a woman’s happiness should be sacrificed,” and Mrs Spencer, who was the most devoted of wives and mothers, tossed her head rebelliously. “I don’t see why the world should insist that a woman is to be satisfied with a husband who is good to her and her children. After all, she has a soul, and that requires response.”
“Would you behave as Mrs Lewis did?” asked O’Reilly, “If—well—let me see—Mr Spencer were suddenly to develop an overpowering belief in the Royal Academy and in Zola?”
“Papa would never have let me marry a man who
At this perfectly solemn answer there was a general laugh; even poor Mr Spencer, who was the most timid of æsthetical persons, joining.
“I think it was rather hard on poor Ted Lewis,” remarked Hamlin, “to become necessary to the soul of a lady whether he liked it or no.”
“Oh, Lewis liked it well enough, be sure of that,” answered Chough, bitterly.
“Don’t you think it was rather hard upon the husband,” suggested Anne, “since he really cared for his wife? Fancy being abandoned like that, and his children left without a mother!”
“He was at liberty to marry again,” replied Mrs Spencer sharply, still thinking of what she would do if by any chance Mr Spencer were to suddenly disbelieve in her father and his school.
“What would you have had Lewis, or rather
“Why, I would have them never dream of each other; but if they had been so foolish, be ashamed as soon as possible, and each go his and her way, and attend to his and her proper concerns.”
Dennistoun, who had sat silent at the other end of the table, propped up on his chair, suddenly stretched out his long neck, and gobbled out—
“Love permits no man or woman to resist: it is imperious, irresistible, dragging us along to happiness, or misery, or shame, whether we will or not. Love is the extinction of the reason, the extinction of the will, or rather the merging of the whole individuality in one mysterious desire. Those who can talk of resistance have never experienced love. Woe to them! their hour is coming!”—and he tried to fix his weak eyes on Anne.
“Well,” she answered quickly, “I hope I may never make such a disgusting fool of myself
O’Reilly leaned over the back of her chair.
“It happens only to those who want to write about it, Miss Brown,” he whispered.
“Anyhow,” remarked Hamlin, “Lewis is a charming fellow, and I am sure you will appreciate him, Miss Brown. He is, moreover, the most backbitten man in creation,” and Hamlin glanced round the table; “but you must never believe any harm of him.”
Perhaps, thought Anne, Edmund Lewis was disliked by this set for the same reasons which, she could not help understanding, were beginning to make her vaguely unpopular. Still, she did not like the story of his marriage, she did not like the recollection of his morbidly beautiful drawings.
“It’s good news about Lewis,” said Hamlin to her after breakfast; “but unfortunately
Mrs Macgregor was walking slowly up and down the gravel walk before the house.
“Do come and keep me in countenance.
“What’s the matter?” cried Mrs Macgregor suspiciously, as if expecting to be told something disagreeable.
“I wanted to tell you, Aunt Claudia,” said Hamlin, “that I had a letter this morning.”
“Yes, I know, from your dear Lewis,” interrupted Mrs Macgregor. “What’s that to me?”
“I don’t mean that one. I had a letter from—guess from whom?” and Hamlin tried to smile—“from Cousin Sacha.”
Mrs Macgregor recoiled as if she had trodden on a toad.
“From whom?”
“From Cousin Sacha. Sacha Polozoff—Madame Elaguine, I suppose I ought to call her.”
For a moment there was a dead silence. The old lady’s face, usually so vacant, was lit up into a terrific energy of anger.
“ What business has
“Well, really, aunt, I don’t see why she shouldn’t,” answered Hamlin. “After all,
”My aunt,“ he explained, turning to Anne, ”has got a tremendous aversion—a prejudice—towards this one and only cousin of mine. She disliked her father, very reasonably, and I think she has let her dislike descend to the second generation rather unreasonably.“
”Unreasonably!“ exclaimed Mrs Macgregor; ”
”I know nothing of the sort,“ cried Hamlin, angrily. ”I know that Sacha lived in this house as a child; I know she left it as a child; I know we all hated her and hers, and that perhaps they deserved it; but I know that we have no right to hate a woman of whom we know nothing, because she happened to have been a badly brought up child, years ago.
“At all events,” went on Hamlin, “I insist upon her being properly treated as a lady, and a relation.”
“Properly treated!” almost foamed out his aunt. “Do you mean to say that she is coming
“Not here; but to London. Her husband is dead; and she writes to me that she thinks she had better send her boy to an English school; and as the only person in England upon whom she has a claim—”
“A pretty claim!” interrupted Mrs Macgregor.
“As her first cousin, she has written to me for information and assistance.”
“And you are going to give it her, Walter?”
“Of course I am. And I hope, Aunt Claudia, that you will remember that I won’t be disgraced towards a lady who has done us no harm. She will be in London, most likely, when we return at the beginning of winter.”
Anne had heard many allusions to this Cousin Sacha, and they belonged to that class of
cynical hints which always made her indignant with Mrs Macgregor. She instinctively took part
with this unknown woman,
“That child—that Sacha,” said Mrs Macgregor, when Hamlin had left them, “was the evil genius
of his house. She was sent as if to embody all the bad tendencies of the family. It was a
miserable house at best, my brother‐in‐law’s, for he was a weak, vicious, violent man. But
just when this wretched child was brought to us my sister had died, Mr Hamlin was very much
shaken and repentant for the life he had led her, and I really believe that he had made up his
mind to live decently for the sake of his children. The two boys were growing up, and there
seemed some chance of things going quietly and happily. Then Mr Hamlin thought fit to invite
home his sister, who was a widow; she had married a horrible Russian, a sort of indecent
madman, with every possible vice under the sun. She was an odious woman herself, the regular
slave‐driving type of the Hamlins. Oh, you can’t judge of them from
“Poor child!” said Anne. She shuddered at this glimpse into Hamlin’s early life; it had a horrible attraction for her, and yet she felt that she would far rather know nothing about it. All this filth seemed to cling to her mind and soil it. “How horrible for her!”
“She was about twelve when she came to us,” went on Mrs Macgregor meditatively, “and you
couldn’t believe that such a child could exist in Christendom. She could no more spell the
simplest word than I can speak
“Now?” repeated Anne in astonishment; she had listened without saying a word to this horrible page of family history. “Now? Do you mean that Mr Hamlin’s brother is alive?”
Mrs Macgregor looked at her with strange wide eyes. “Of course he is. We say he is dead; or if not dead, mad. Well, he might as soon be either, poor boy. He wanders about with a servant. Walter allows him some money. We never talk of him. Ah!” cried Mrs Macgregor, and it was a kind of suppressed cry of pain—“and that it is all, all owing to Sacha Polozoff; and she has the insolence to write to Walter!”
Anne did not know what to say.
“But,” she could not help saying after a minute, for it seemed to her as if the whole story
were so unjust, so one‐sided, as if there were so much too much laid at the door of
“She was a woman, and he was a man,” said Mrs Macgregor fiercely, her love for her lost
nephew, and her strange theories of sexual influences mixing grotesquely and tragically—“and a
woman can always do what she will with a man; a woman can always, unless she be as weak as my
poor
“Some of them,” she said after a moment, “are good, and some are bad: my brother‐in‐law was bad—Arnold was good, and Walter is good; but they are all as weak as water, these Hamlins—weak in goodness or badness, every one of them.”
Anne sighed. And as she walked through the big, stately rooms of Wotton House, she thought
of the horrible scenes which had happened in there; of the waste of life by violence and vice
and neglect which they had witnessed; especially of that wretched, vicious child, held so
terribly responsible for the folly and wickedness of others. And the sense of the terrible
power of circumstances, of the degradation into which others may lead one, or out of which
others may raise one, which had been silently growing in her as she watched the world in her
tragic way, came over her with a terrifying rush;
As the summer changed into autumn, the guests at Wotton Hall were gradually renewed. Chough
remained, and at Anne’s particular desire sent for his two little girls, sad, strange, Cockney
creatures, to whom the large house, the garden, the country walks and country sights, were as
things of another world. But the Spencers, Dennistoun, and O’Reilly departed; and in their
place arrived the two Leigh girls and Edmund Lewis. The last‐named gentleman did not by any
means strike Anne as a fascinating being. He was a stumpy, high‐shouldered, thick‐set little
man, always very slackly dressed, with small, rather handsome features, and a profusion of
curly reddish hair and beard, which made his face
Marjory Leigh, who had considered Anne
No man that ever breathed could have satisfied cravings which were in reality not after a
man, but after a higher life, a more complete activity, a nobler aim; but Hamlin fell short
not merely of Anne’s ideal, but also, in many things, even of the reality of Anne herself, and
of all she could understand and sympathise with. The ecstatic devotion
And so Anne went on loving and hoping, and believing herself to be happy. But there began to
be a strange restlessness about her; a desire to be useful, to be perpetually active in
something, to be always trying to understand, and sympathise, and help—an imperious necessity
not to be left to her own thoughts (those thoughts which had once been like a
IN this condition of mind Anne was violently impelled towards the two Leigh girls; and strongly induced to take an aversion to Edmund Lewis. For the Leighs represented every day more and more the influence which was strengthening her, the influence which might revive Hamlin; and Edmund Lewis seemed sent as an incarnation of those tendencies which, in her belief, had marred the nobility of Hamlin’s nature.
Anne’s unmistakable desire to know what was going on in the striving and suffering world
outside the strongholds of æstheticism, to help in it to her utmost; to be, what the people
believing only in beauty and passion could not conceive, responsible,—all this intense
“Anne does make one less conceited,” Marjory one day remarked to her sister, waking up from
a long reverie—“less conceited and less narrow, I do believe. It’s such a revelation; and
somehow it makes one feel just a little bit ashamed, to find such honesty and determination in
an æsthete. After that, people don’t seem to be so hopelessly lost—do they? I fear I must have
been a rather bigoted sort of brute formerly,” and Marjory pushed her fingers through her
short, lank
So much for the Leighs. But if their presence at Wotton was a support and a consolation to
Anne, the presence of Edmund Lewis very soon grew to be a positive source of disgust
Now, if there was one thing which was more abhorrent to Anne than any other, it was spiritualism: averse to mysticism like every Italian; prosaic and common‐sense, perhaps just in proportion to the idealism of passion and aspiration, she was impatient of the vulgar mysteriousness of modern magic; while at the same time her powerful personality, her austere will (which she always recognised as the most precious part of her nature), which took umbrage at Mrs Macgregor’s theories of obedience to mere physical passions, was positively insulted by the notion of surrender to the perfectly unintellectual will of another. However, she let Lewis try. During his performance, as he fixed his green eyes upon her, and made passes with his flabby white fingers, Anne felt a loathing as if a slug were trailing over her, but she sat unaffected by Mr Lewis’s will‐power, and at last wearied out his patience.
“You resisted!—I felt you resist!” cried Lewis angrily, at the end of the
“There was nothing to resist against,” answered Anne, bluntly; “but had there been, of course I should have resisted.”
“Hamlin does not resist,” replied Lewis, with a certain malignant pride. “I can do just whatever I choose with Hamlin.”
“I enjoy it,” explained Hamlin; “it’s like the first effects of opium or haschisch. One feels one’s self giving way, one’s soul sinking deliciously.”
“Going to sleep, in fact,” corrected Anne.
From that moment Anne felt that Lewis hated her. Yet he was, in a way, fascinated by her exotic beauty; he could not make up his mind that so strange and splendid a woman could resist him. He never tried to magnetise her again; and he made many drawings of her, curiously distorting her expression, sullen, but frank and resolute, into a kind of sombre, morbid wistfulness.
“I hate those sketches he does of you,” cried Marjory one day; “nasty things, which make you
look—I don’t know to express it—
Mary Leigh laughed. “The school is running to seed,” she said: “the great men have done all that could be done in the way of beautiful suggestiveness—the little ones can only do suggestiveness of all sorts of vague nastiness which they don’t even understand. But there’s a change coming on in painting; people are beginning to be satisfied with interpreting real nature; and—don’t you think—Anne—a similar change . . .”
Mary Leigh, who was the most absent‐minded of Irish enthusiasts, suddenly stopped short. She
had only just remembered that Hamlin was a poet and a painter of the school which she had just
described. And a pained, darkened look had come over Anne. Mary Leigh could not understand
that that look meant that Anne had often thought just the same thing, and that now there
returned to her, with sickening bitterness, the double
Meanwhile Anne gradually got substantial reasons for her instinctive aversion to Edmund Lewis. The family of the vicar of Wotton sometimes visited at the Hall. There were two very young girls, scarcely more than children, for whom Anne and the Leighs had taken a fancy. One afternoon they came to tea, delicate pink‐and‐white creatures of fourteen or fifteen, impressionable, nervous, utterly ignorant of the world. Hamlin seemed to appreciate the charm of obvious purity and guilelessness which went with their ignorance of the world.
“I should like to make a picture of those two creatures,” he whispered to Anne, as they sat
at tea in the library, “or to write a poem about them—they seem to do one good; for it is
good, is it not, to see so much life which is so perfectly fresh, and unsullied, and
untormented—such a desire to know the world before
Even Chough could not make a single unintelligible allusion to the wife of Claudius or the daughter of Alexander VI., but sat with one of his children on his knee, looking at the young girls and gently humming a scrap of old minuet, fresh and simple like themselves. Anne could not help thinking that she had never been what these girls were. She had been shown the ugly things of life, taught to struggle with them since her childhood, and now believing equally in good, but believing sadly and bitterly. It was better to be a woman as she was, a woman who knew of good and evil, and was prepared to fight her way out of darkness; but still it was sad never, never to have been as these girls. Edmund Lewis was leaning forward on the table, his reddish‐auburn head with its glittering eyes rising like that of a snake, as if silently trying to mesmerise the visitors.
“Suppose we show these young ladies some of our works of art?” he proposed, in a half‐
Anne had seen these drawings time after time, and had thought them, accustomed as she was to
studios and painters, merely clever nude studies, with the usual expression of
“That’s not the sort of thing to show those children,” whispered Mary Leigh, who, heaven
knows, had seen nude studies enough in her life. Both she and Anne had caught the surprised,
vacant expression of the two girls, had seen the flush in their face, and understood the
silence, never asking what it all meant, as they stared at all this emaciated, flabby
nakedness. And Anne caught also Edmund Lewis’s expression, as he held the corner of the page,
ready to turn over, with one hand, stroking his reddish‐brown beard with the other, and
looking, with slightly raised eyebrows and curious green eyes, towards Hamlin, as if to call
his attention. Lewis turned another page, and another; always the same stark‐naked people.
Anne was very black. Heaven knows from what instinct, perhaps from a paternal recollection
“Confound your awkwardness!” cried Lewis, stooping to pick up his drawings, and slowly replacing the sketch‐book.
“I don’t think they care to see any more,” said Anne; “you see, these young ladies haven’t studied anatomy. Supposing you show them your Eastern sketches, Mr Lewis.”
Lewis gave Anne a rapid, angry glance. “The Eastern sketches are up‐stairs,” he said snappishly; adding, in his drawling, mock courteous way, “I think these young ladies have seen the best I could show them.”
“Then we had better go down‐stairs, and Mr Chough will play an accompaniment, for I know they sing very nicely,” said Anne, taking no notice of him.
Perhaps, thought Anne, she might have been prejudiced against Edmund Lewis. He
The next day but one the question was settled in her mind. It was a fine autumn morning, and
Anne was seated on the terrace, waiting for the others to come down to breakfast. The air,
just touched by the first cold, was exquisitely pure; and the sear bracken of the hillside
opposite sparkled golden with the heavy dew. All round the swallows were whirring about,
collecting for departure. The thought of the Villa Arnolfini—of the place in the vineyard,
among the yellowing vines, where she used to sit on the dry warm mint and fennel with the
little Perrys, where, under the big mulberry‐tree, they had buried her Dante in a heap of
yellow leaves—came home to Anne. How good Hamlin had been to
As she was thinking in this way, Edmund Lewis strolled up, his hands behind his back, to the table at which she was seated. He gave her a little unceremonious nod, and then, interrupting the tune which he was faintly whistling, pushed a paper‐bound book across the table to her.
“Have you ever read this, Miss Brown?” he asked; “do you know that passage? I
Anne’s eye glanced at the page, pencil‐marked all round, and then at the title on the margin. It was Gautier’s ‘Mademoiselle de Maupin.’ She understood.
“I have never read it,” she answered, “but I have often heard that it is a book which a man does not offer a woman except as an insult,” and she quietly handed the volume back, looking up, her beautiful severe face flushed, her slate‐grey eyes flashing, at Lewis.
The painter started.
“Upon my word,” he answered quickly, with his usual self‐possession, “I never thought that. I never thought that any book could possibly offend a pure woman nowadays. I regard this book merely as a noble hymn to beauty; others may regard it otherwise. I really had no thought of offending you, my dear Miss Brown”—there was a tone of patronising insolence in his voice.
“So much the better,” answered Anne, rising.
Oh how, how could Hamlin, with his chivalrous nature, endure the daily contact of such a man as this!
“Lewis ought not to have selected those particular drawings to show the vicar’s girls,” said Anne, later on. She could not allude to that scene of the book; but she felt she must say something. “A man ought not to show such things as those to mere children, brought up in the country, who don’t know what they mean, and are merely shocked by such things—don’t you think so, Mary?”
“Certainly,” answered Mary Leigh boldly, quite astonished at Anne’s venturing to mention such a subject.
“It wasn’t good taste, certainly,” answered Hamlin. “Lewis is fearfully absent‐minded. They are lovely designs. But still, it wasn’t good taste, I quite agree.”
“Good taste!” thought Anne, with a shudder. “Is there nothing higher than taste in the world?”
THREE days later, Chough and Lewis returned to town, and Hamlin went with them. The weather had broken up, and it was time to settle for the winter. Aunt Claudia and Anne were to stay on another fortnight, in order to give Hamlin time to make some alterations in the house at Hammersmith. Such at least was the pretext; but Anne knew that Madame Elaguine had arrived in London, and she guessed that Hamlin would wish to transact whatever business there might be, before exposing to Mrs Macgregor’s wrath the Cousin Sacha of former days—before, perhaps, refusing to let Anne Brown meet a woman whose past spoke little in her favour, and of whose present he knew absolutely nothing.
“How I dread seeing that woman!” he exclaimed the evening before his departure, as he walked up and down the hall with Anne, while the rest of the company was listening to Cosmo Chough, shrilly piping eighteenth century music in the drawing‐room.
“Has Aunt Claudia ever told you anything of our life when Cousin Sacha was here with us, years ago?” he asked.
Anne nodded.
“Aunt Claudia told me the whole story.”
“Then you can understand,” cried Hamlin, almost convulsively, “how the mere thought of Sacha is loathsome to me; and yet, I must behave decently towards her—don’t you think?”
“Of course you must; and I can’t help thinking that perhaps—well, that your aunt and you may be a little unjust towards her—I don’t think that a child really could be so bad.”
“Oh, a child may be as bad as a woman if she have evil blood in her! and just think, if
There was something odd in his tone; something not of indignation, but of a kind of clinging curiosity.
“I daresay,” said Anne, “that as a woman she may be much better than as a child. Her eyes may have been opened to her own unworthiness, and she may have struggled out of the influence of bad examples. I am sure many, many people are much better as men and women than as children. To know, to feel responsible, means so much.”
“That may be.” There was some disappointment in Hamlin’s tone.
Anne laughed.
“You want to find a fiend, a lamia, a vampire,” she said—“something hateful and picturesque. Fancy if your cousin should turn out a most prosaic and ultra‐respectable woman, given up to her children, and coffee‐taverns, and women’s suffrage!”
Hamlin could not help laughing.
“I fear there’s not much chance of that. Anyhow, I must see whether she is fit for you to receive, and whether Aunt Claudia can be mollified towards her, supposing she is the exemplary piece of prose which you imagine.”
Anne had induced Cosmo Chough to leave his little girls in her charge; and the Leighs were
to return to London with her and Aunt Claudia. The big house seemed very empty without Hamlin
and his friends; but the quiet was pleasant. Somehow, when he was away, when she could no
longer see him perpetually sitting and walking with Edmund Lewis, Anne’s love for Hamlin
became much stronger. In her recollection he existed only with reference to herself; she felt
his goodness, she believed in his nobility, she felt sure that some day he would become more
manly, healthy, and resolute. If only she could enter into his confidence, instead of men like
Lewis and Dennistoun; if only she could make him see all that there was in the world besides
mere art and poetry. Perhaps she was unworthy to
Marjory Leigh had, soon after her arrival at Wotton, made acquaintance with the wife of the vicar, a simple, energetic, rather narrow‐minded but boundlessly unselfish woman, all whose thoughts were given to improving the condition of the neighbouring poor. To tell the whole truth, the vicar had a son, a young man entirely belying the usual saying about clergymen’s sons, who had renounced a good living in the neighbourhood in order to become a curate in the East End of London.
Harry Collett had been at Oxford at the same time as Hamlin; he had even, for some time,
belonged to the æsthetic set of which Hamlin and Melton Perry had been the heads: but he had
soon become a religious enthusiast; and, his religious enthusiasm cooling down, he had
remained an ardent philanthropist. Hamlin had a liking for Harry Collett. He was handsome,
tall, and emaciated, like a St John
“He is a monk,” she used to say; “he ought to have lived in the middle ages. What we want nowadays are disagreeable, rough‐and‐ready men like Cousin Dick—men who don’t merely feel sorry for vice, but who try to understand its scientific reason.”
Marjory Leigh, who declared herself to belong to the most advanced of all advanced parties,
and to whom Richard Brown was little less than a god, perfectly agreed in Anne’s verdict. But
being of a proselytising temper, and having a special love for proselytising among the young
men of her acquaintance, she immediately
One afternoon—they were within three or four days of return to London—Marjory Leigh returned more than usually excited from a visit to the vicarage.
“What’s the matter?” asked Anne, as the three girls sat alone in Hamlin’s empty studio.
Marjory threw her hat on the floor. “Give me some tea,” she said, “I feel quite sick; I never thought I should come across such horrors. Of course,” she added quickly, before Anne or her sister had time to exclaim, and as if to reclaim her reputation for omniscience—“of course I knew that such things existed—oh dear, yes—in big towns and so forth; but still,”—and poor Marjory fairly burst into tears,—“I never, never thought that—I should come so near them.”
Finally, when she had had some tea, Marjory, all blushing and stammering, and in a
“It appears it’s been going on for generations,” cried Marjory, “and that there’s no hope of
remedying things unless the miserable creatures be removed into more decent dwellings. It’s
useless trying to teach them to live decently as long as they live there, in
Mary Leigh had exclaimed in horror as soon as Marjory’s meaning had become plain to her.
“Oh, don’t cry, don’t cry, Marjory darling!” she exclaimed, throwing herself on her knees
and clasping her sister’s waist. “
Anne had not exclaimed. She sat perfectly still, and said nothing. Most persons would have deemed her very callous, she looked so calm.
“Are you quite sure, Marjory,” she asked, after a minute—“are you quite sure you did not misunderstand, or that Mrs Collett did not exaggerate?”
“I couldn’t misunderstand; and Mrs Collett gave me ever so many details—such dreadful details;” and interrupted by her sobs, Marjory repeated scraps of what she had heard.
“Where is the place?” asked Anne, after another pause.
“It’s that cluster of houses half‐way to Eggleston, in the middle of the fen, by the river—they call it Cold Fremley. Don’t you remember our going down there once in the break, with the Spencers and Chough, and your saying you wished Hamlin would paint that sort of fiat green country, and Mrs Spencer saying it was unpoetical?”
Anne remembered. The recollection of that moment came like a vision; she saw the wide river,
between its low sedgy banks of boggy green; the reddish storm sunset reflected in clotted
flame‐coloured masses in its thick grey waters; the moon rising, a spectral crescent on the
blue evening sky; she heard the quail of the frogs, the cries of the water‐fowl: the Spencers
and Chough on ahead with the two
“Marjory,” said Anne the next day, suddenly, “is it true that you told me some dreadful things which you had heard from Mrs Collett about the people at Cold Fremley?”
Marjory looked up in astonishment.
“Of course it is,”—she had half forgotten it herself.
“I cannot get it out of my mind,” said Anne, passing her hand over her eyes, as if to disperse some black mist; “it is too horrible. Everything in the world seems tarnished, don’t you know, and a sort of horrible clamminess all round.”
Marjory looked at Anne. She was very pale, and her big, greyish‐blue, onyx‐coloured
Marjory was a sensible girl. She had studied medicine, and knew an appalling amount about direction of the will, expectant attention, and other psychological and physiological matters. “Anne,” she said, “you are making yourself ill about this matter. Of course you couldn’t help being shocked; but you take it too much to heart. You are going to let these horrible things haunt you; it is a great temptation to do so. Take care; it won’t do any good, and you will merely get quite unstrung. I warn you against it. You mustn’t let such things get the better of your will: it’s morbid, and dangerous, and unworthy,”—and Marjory completely forgot how she herself had entered the room in hysterics the previous day.
Anne took no notice of her speech. “You say nothing can be done until these people be
Marjory nodded. “So Mrs Collett says, and I’ve read that repeatedly in books also—for, of course, such things have happened elsewhere. At all events, the children might be brought up to live more decently, if they were not all huddled up together like that.”
A thought seemed to flash across Anne’s darkened mind. Her maid had just brought in the tea‐things.
“Laura,” she asked, “do you know to whom Cold Fremley—those cottages by the river, half‐way to Eggleston—belongs?”
“I can ask Mr Hamlin’s steward, miss—he’s just in the housekeeper’s room,” answered Laura.
“Run and ask,” ordered Anne.
“Good heavens, Anne!” cried Mary Leigh, “what
“The houses must be rebuilt,” answered Anne, quietly and firmly; “to whomsoever they belong, they must—they shall be rebuilt.”
“Nonsense!” cried practical Marjory; “how can you talk like that? Are you going to apply to the neighbouring squires and tell them about such matters?”
“They must rebuild the houses if once they understand,” repeated Anne. “I don’t care to whom they belong—they shall be rebuilt. I will write and speak to every one and any one on the subject, until the thing has been done.”
“It’s all very well, but when it comes to the point, you wouldn’t venture to mention such a thing to a man,” cried Marjory, contemptuously—“I—wouldn’t.”
At this moment the maid entered.
“The steward says that Cold Fremley—those houses by the river, leastways—belong to Mr Hamlin, and as it’s he that lets them out.”
Marjory and her sister looked at each other and then at Anne, as much as to say, “Well, you see now what it would be.” Anne flushed scarlet, but her face brightened.
“I will speak to Mr Hamlin,” she said, as soon as the maid’s back was turned. Her voice faltered a little; but it was from sudden surprise, not from hesitation.
“Oh, Annie, dear, you’ll find that you can’t!” exclaimed Mary Leigh; “you’ll find it impossible.”
“At all events, you’ll have to put it through your aunt,” suggested Marjory.
“Through Aunt Claudia?” cried Anne. “Do you think she will make him feel it? Why, she will answer that such things are going on all round us, and worse ones. No; I shall speak to Mr Hamlin himself: he is the proprietor of Fremley; and he is responsible.”
“You’ll never be able to do so,” insisted Mary; “you think you will, but you can’t. Fancy saying all that to a man—and to a man who is in love with you!”
“What must be done, must be done,” answered Anne. “It’s not a question of liking or disliking. Mr Hamlin’s a man, and I am a woman, and I daresay men and women don’t talk about such things. But Mr Hamlin is the proprietor of Cold Fremley, and that’s all I have to do with.”
The Leighs looked at her with incredulous astonishment. It seemed so simple to her.
IT was raining when they arrived in London—a warmish, brown, clammy autumn day. The
streets were a porridge of liquid mud, whose trail dragged along the wet asphalt; the houses
were staring forth, a livid dirt‐grey, in the thin rain; and the sky, the very rain, was
befouled with grime. Only drays splashed through the mud, and carriages carrying
hurried‐looking people; children, still in their tattered summer cottons and battered straw
hats, stared in at the shops, the broad sheen from whose brilliant windows was caught up by
the wet pavement, and lingered out, in broken reflections, in the brown ooze of the
thoroughfare. Along the deserted suburban streets every second house seemed to be a
Anne found Hamlin full of his cousin Sacha, upon whom he had already called three times, and in whom, to his surprise, he had found not a trace of the child whom he had hated; but a respectable, unworldly young mother, devoted to her children, timid, and only deserving a little sympathy.
“She is a very curious woman,” he said, “evidently excellent at bottom; but I don’t know
whether I quite like her. She has something very strange about her,—handsome; and at the same
time—I don’t know exactly
“I am so awfully glad she’s nice,” exclaimed Anne. “Do you know, she weighed upon me like a nightmare after all Aunt Claudia had said. It seemed too horrible that such a creature should exist; and I felt sure it was all prejudice against the poor little thing.”
“Don’t be in such a hurry,” laughed Hamlin; “perhaps you won’t like her after all. There is something uncanny about her, decidedly.”
“I’m sure that’s all your imagination. You’re always thinking that things are uncanny: it comes of writing too much about proud, pale, evil women, and that sort of nonsense.”
Anne felt really glad. That the terrible Cousin Sacha, the fiend‐child of Wotton Hall,
should turn out a respectable, unworldly young woman, devoted to her children, seemed to her
like the first breaking of the spell which hung over Hamlin. She felt no jealousy of Cousin
Sacha; for, as Hamlin spoke of Madame Elaguine, it was obvious that if he was anxious to
The next day Madame Elaguine was to call on Anne. Mrs Macgregor took the announcement in a spirit of sombre defiance. “She may come,” she said, “but I will not see her. What o’clock is the creature coming?”
“Four,” answered Hamlin.
“Very well; then I’ll order the brougham for half‐past three, and go and make some calls. Anne may stay behind if she likes.”
Accordingly, at half‐past three, Mrs Macgregor rolled off in the brougham to Mrs Argiropoulo’s, and to various other people whom she declared she hated. At four o’clock Hamlin came up‐stairs from his studio, and Anne gave him some tea. “She will be here in a minute,” he said.
There was a noise of wheels; Anne felt her hand tremble as she poured out a second cup for Hamlin.
“There! I’ve gone and spilt it on your cuff!
But the wheels passed on. More wheels, which also passed; rings and knocks; but no Madame Elaguine. Hamlin, at every false alarm, got up and looked at Anne—a long, admiring look at her stately figure and her strange pale face, with the overhanging masses of crimp black hair; at the splendid postures, of which only Michelangelo seemed to have ever understood the magnificent weary weightiness into which she naturally fell.
“She is evidently not coming,” he said with some irritation, as the clock struck five; “it’s too bad, keeping one in for nothing, like this!”
“I didn’t want to go out with Aunt Claudia; and I don’t see how you could have gone on painting after dark.”
“Still it is too annoying.”
“I daresay it’s not so easy to go paying visits at Hammersmith when one has children to attend to.”
“Bother the children! she might leave them to a nurse.”
At that moment a cab stopped, and there came a knock.
“That’s she!” cried Hamlin, and he ran down‐stairs.
Madame Elaguine entered; in the dusk Anne could scarcely see her face: she was rather below the average height, but so slender that she looked tall; there was something very shy about her, and Anne could understand her shyness.
“I am so glad you have come,” she said; “we had almost given you up.”
“I fear I am very late—perhaps in your way,” said Madame Elaguine; “the fact is, I had to
take my little girl to choose a doll, and she took nearly an hour about it,” and she laughed a
little shy laugh. She had a beautiful voice, high and silvery, and yet warm and caressing,
like a child’s, which inevitably made you think of delicate green leaves, and fields whitened
with budding clover, and all sorts of young and tender things. She
“It is very good of you to let me come and see you,” said Madame Elaguine, after some trifling conversation, “and very good of my cousin to propose it; because,” and her voice, in a sudden outburst of frankness, became just a little tremulous, “Walter must have a very painful recollection of me. It was a very unhappy time when we were last together, and I often think with shame of what I was then—what a wretched, badly brought up, bad‐hearted child I was.”
“If you had been a bad‐hearted child,” cried Anne, “you could not be what you are now, you could not speak as you do now. I don’t believe it.”
Madame Elaguine sighed.
“At all events,” she said, “the question now is no longer what I was or what I am, but what my children are to be. I am played out; I only hope I may live to see them on the road to being happier and more useful creatures than I have been.”
There was something in that clear soft voice, with its just perceptible daintiness of Russian pronunciation, making the English words not less English, but more distinct and liquid, which made what from any one else might have seemed strange, quite natural and simple.
“You have come to settle in England?” asked Anne.
“Yes; at least if it is possible for me ever to settle anywhere. I have been a rolling stone
so long, or rather such a feather carried hither and thither by the wind, that I can scarcely
believe in settling anywhere; and then, perhaps, I may not be permitted to stay where I should
be happy. But I want my boy to become an Englishman, and at the
“Why should you not settle?” asked Anne; “surely you will be much happier near your child.”
“Why may I never do what I wish?” exclaimed Madame Elaguine, with a curious wildness; “why may I not be left to live in peace like any other insignificant woman, whose life has been a failure? I am not my own mistress.”
“Bring lights,” ordered Hamlin, who had summoned the servants. He was impatient that the two women should see each other, impatient to display to his cousin the magnificent creature which belonged to him.
They had begun discussing various school‐plans for Madame Elaguine’s children when the lamps
were brought in. Anne was surprised when she saw Hamlin’s cousin distinctly; she had imagined
her pretty and delicate in an ordinary way, but there was nothing commonplace about this
woman. She was pale, and of almost ghastly thinness, and
While they were talking, Sacha Elaguine
“Either a volcano or an iceberg, or both,” said the little Russian to herself, as she looked at Anne’s solemn, unruffled, and yet tragic beauty.
At that moment a carriage stopped at the door. Hamlin went to the window. He looked rather pale and puzzled as he came back.
“Let me show you my studio, Sacha,” he said hurriedly; “we can get there quickest by a little back‐stair out of the library. Will you come?”
Anne understood. Mrs Macgregor, who had gone out expecting Madame Elaguine to come an hour earlier, had returned, and Hamlin dreaded a scene. But Madame Elaguine understood also.
“Your aunt has returned,” she said; “yes, I’m sure she has—that’s why you want to hide me away; you are afraid of a scene . . .”
Hamlin hesitated; but Madame Elaguine
“Well, yes,” he said; “what’s the use of mincing matters? You know how unreasonable Aunt Claudia always was, and what a prejudice she had against you.”
“And has still; I can believe it. But look here,” and the little emaciated creature rapidly stopped Hamlin as he was raising the curtain into the next room—“I am not going to be hid away. Your aunt has every reason to hate me, and to be angry at finding me here. But I am not coming into her house on the sly—I won’t be hidden away. Your aunt may say what she likes to me, but she shall see me here.”
“I think Madame Elaguine is quite right,” said Anne, though she knew full well what sort of reception Mrs Macgregor was likely to give to the detested Sacha. “I quite understand her feeling.”
“But you are not coming into Aunt Claudia’s house on the sly,” insisted Hamlin. “In the
Madame Elaguine listened with a slight look of contempt.
“So much the better if I am not intruding behind her back. And it is very considerate of Mrs Macgregor to save me what she knows must be a painful scene. But besides Mrs Macgregor, I have myself to think of. I wish to see your aunt. I wish to have the satisfaction of telling her, that however much she may hate the remembrance of me, she cannot hate it more than I do.”
There was something theatrical in this which took Hamlin by surprise; but it was the theatricalness of a quixotic and passionate temper, and Anne liked Madame Elaguine for it.
“I want to see Mrs Macgregor,” repeated
“I will go and tell Aunt Claudia,” said Anne.
But as she spoke, Mrs Macgregor entered. The old lady was short‐sighted; and in that room, where the light, concentrated on a few spots, left all the more shadow all round, she did not at first notice the presence of a stranger.
“Well, is she gone?” she asked savagely.
“Madame Elaguine is here, Aunt Claudia,” answered Anne, quietly.
“Here!” exclaimed Mrs Macgregor—“ still in this house!”
“And she has remained,” went on Anne, with a weighty coldness which often put
Hamlin was standing by the piano. How he wished his cousin at the devil for inflicting such a scene upon him!
“The insolence!” muttered Mrs Macgregor.
But Madame Elaguine had come forward and stretched out her hand.
“I could not come here without seeing you, Aunt Claudia,” she said, in her clear voice. “I want to tell you that, badly, as I behaved as a child, and cruelly unjust though you were towards me, I bear you no ill‐will, and only wish to ask for your forgiveness.”
She had sat down opposite to Mrs Macgregor. Hamlin’s aunt scanned her from head to foot; she was taken by surprise, shaken throughout her nature, and at a loss how to answer.
“So you are Sacha Polozoff,” said Mrs Macgregor at length, slowly. “I know all the fine
trash which Anne talks about the woman not being the same as the child—
And she stretched out her hand with a bitter smile.
Madame Elaguine stooped down and kissed that shaking old hand.
“Whatever your forgiveness is worth, I take it joyfully; it cannot undo the past, and it cannot put an end to injustice and hatred,—so far it is worthless. But to me it gives a new life, because I have been able at last to ask forgiveness, to admit all the mischief I have ever done, and to cast away the faults of my childhood from my own clean self,”—she spoke very low, and with tears in her voice, but with passion and pride.
“I am happy that you feel so comfortable,” replied Mrs Macgregor, “and that I have been
conducive thereto. I am happy also to make
Sacha bowed; the insult seemed to trickle off her. Anne half wondered, half admired. She could not in the least understand the kind of character which prompted such a useless and hollow ceremony as this; but as to Madame Elaguine, this solemn act of self‐humiliation seemed necessary and just; she admired her for having the courage to carry out her intention.
“Good‐bye,” said Madame Elaguine, as Anne accompanied her into the anteroom. “I must beg your forgiveness a thousand, thousand times for having made a scene in your house. You see, I am a badly brought‐up woman: I was never taught to do anything except what I liked; and I am what I am, and must say what I feel.”
Her tone was very appealing.
“Will you forgive me, Madame Elaguine,” said Anne, in her earnest, solemn way, “if I
The little thin woman looked up in Anne’s face.
“You are good,” she said. “Will you give me a kiss?”
Anne stooped down and kissed her shyly on her wan cheek. But a sort of shudder passed through her as her own lips touched that hot face, and grazed the light hair, which seemed to give out some faint Eastern perfume. This woman was so unlike anything she had ever seen—so unlike her own simple self.
“You will come and see me—and see my children—won’t you?” asked Madame Elaguine. “I think it will do me good to know you.” She was very excited, and she gasped as if her heart were beating like bursting.
“I will come with Mr Hamlin,” said Anne.
“She is a strange creature,” said Hamlin, as he followed Anne up‐stairs from the door. “Didn’t I tell you she was uncanny?”
“I don’t see anything uncanny about her. She is very nervous and excitable—very Russian, I should say—and accustomed always to follow her impulses; but I think she is a brave little woman.”
“I can’t make her out. Did you notice her mouth? it looks as if it would bite: and she has strange eyes; one looks into them, and finds she has merely drawn out one’s soul without showing her own.”
Anne laughed. “Poor little woman! Fancy what her feelings would be if she ever knew all that! I wonder, by the way, whether you ever thought me strange, and told people that I had. a mouth which would bite, and eyes in which you get drowned?”
“I always thought,” answered Hamlin, looking at Anne, and seeing her again in that
close‐fitting white bodice, with rolled‐up sleeves, bending her magnificent head over the
iron‐board in the little nursery, with frescoes of blue skies, and blue seas, and ducks, and
people in boats, at the Villa Arnolfini—“I always
Anne smiled; but she took his words to heart, for somehow that same impression which he said he had received from her face she had had vaguely in her heart.
“I hope the strangeness may consist in being a tolerably well‐behaved and useful young woman,” she said, “and—a tolerably grateful one.”
“I WONDER whether Anne Brown has really spoken about that Cold Fremley business to
Mr Hamlin,” remarked Marjory Leigh to her sister one day, soon after their return to town.
“
“I don’t see how she can,” answered Mary; “at least I can’t conceive doing such a thing. But I don’t think we must judge Anne by ourselves: when once she thinks something ought to be done, she is quite capable of forcing herself to do it. Anne is quite unlike any one else.”
“Fiddlestick!” cried Marjory; “you don’t know anything about women, Mary.”
But despite her sister’s superior knowledge of womankind and of everything else, Mary
But it was, though simple, difficult, not on her own account, but on Hamlin’s. In the first
few days after her return from Wotton, she had several times been on the point of broaching
the subject, but she had desisted on noticing the absolute want of seriousness in Hamlin’s
manner, the æsthetic vagueness and fickleness of his thoughts. “He will do nothing practical
in this mood,” she said to herself; and as, time after time, she watched for a propitious
moment without finding it, Anne became painfully aware, as one becomes aware of some
deficiency in a valued piece of property only when it is pointed out, of Hamlin’s
“Perhaps it is cowardice on my part,” Anne suddenly thought; “perhaps I find that he is not
fit to attend to the subject because I dislike mentioning it.” So it must be done at once.
Hamlin, she knew, was alone in his studio; he must have finished his afternoon’s work, or very
nearly, and there was no Chough, or Lewis, or Dennistoun on the horizon. So Anne closed the
piano at which she had been practising some of Chough’s favourite old music, and went
down‐stairs. She had made up her mind; but, as she went slowly to the studio, she felt her
heart begin to flutter and to beat, and a cold perspiration to start out in her forehead. For
all her familiarity with the æsthetic world, in whose apprehension, as Thaddy O’Reilly’s
Yankee friend had quietly remarked, “right or wrong don’t exist,”—for
“I am a base creature,” Anne thought as she felt her heart fluttering as if it would break loose, as she stood and knocked at the studio door.
“Come in,” cried Hamlin.
He thought it was the servant, for at first he did not turn round, but continued writing at a beautiful, fantastically inlaid desk in a corner.
“It’s I,” said Anne.
He started up to meet her.
“How sweet of you to come, Madonna Anna!” he said, beaming; “I was just wanting so much to
see you—I don’t know why—a sort of silly, nostalgic wish. It’s ridiculous to be nostalgic
about a person who is on the first floor, when I am on the ground floor, isn’t it? and yet it
is so. I was feeling quite an over‐
Anne smiled faintly, but her heart sank.
“I also wanted you to see how I have been getting on with my Beatrice,” he said, and rolled an easel into the middle of the room. Anne stood for a moment before the almost Giorgionesquely magnificent picture, looking vaguely at the well‐known lady—with those strange, half‐classic, half‐Semitic, and yet a little Ethiopian, features, those wide grey eyes, that pent‐roof of crisp, lustreless, black hair, those hollowed cheeks and tragic lips which had by this time become so familiar to the artistic world of London. It never seemed to her that this could have anything to do with her, this sombre, mystic, wistful woman of unreality. But she was not thinking of that; she stood at the picture, but almost without seeing it.
Hamlin was standing a little aside, looking from her to the picture, and from the picture
“Certainly,” he said to himself, “Dante had not a better Beatrice than this.”
“I want to speak to you, Mr Hamlin,” said Anne, suddenly turning round.
Something in her voice took him by surprise.
“So much the better,” he said, pulling forward a heavy arm‐chair, covered with old‐fashioned green brocade.
Anne sat down. How was she to begin? She had intended to prelude with some sort of apology for entering on such a subject; but, somehow, now she could not apologise.
“Do you remember a hamlet near Wotton, close by the river, called Cold Fremley?” asked Anne, slowly.
Hamlin had just caught a look which he wanted for his picture, and he had taken up his painting things.
“Yes,” and he looked up from his palette in
“Just so; well, it appears that this hamlet, or rather group of six or seven cabins, belongs to you—is part of the Wotton property.”
“Is it? I didn’t know that. Fancy my being the unsuspecting proprietor of such a lovely place! I am so glad; I want to write a poem about it one day.”
“And it appears,” went on Anne, carefully steadying her voice, but keeping her eyes on the little cypress‐trees and conventional anemones of the Persian rug under her feet—“it appears that the condition of the people who live in those houses is very, very horrible; the cabins have barely more than one room, into which the whole family is piled.”
“Loathsome!” cried Hamlin, with a shudder, “and in such a lovely spot. Do you remember the
thick clotted masses of the river dragging
“It
“Very dreadful indeed,” said Hamlin, mixing his paints. “Of course nothing can be done—nothing ever can, you know—”
“Something can and must be done!” cried Anne. “It appears that in consequence of this utter
wretchedness and ignorance, and especially on account of the degrading effect of being all
huddled together, men and women, boys and girls, all of them, in one room which is bedroom,
kitchen, sitting‐room, everything at the same time,—it appears that these miserable creatures
have gradually come to live worse than animals; they grow, and let their children in turn grow
up in horrible, shameful sin.” The difficulty of saying it had vanished; Anne felt that,
whether she would
Hamlin let his hand with the palette drop on his knee, and listened with deep attention. “How very strange!” he said; “how very strange—how tragic!”
“It
Anne had not the slightest thought of being eloquent, but she was, not only in her words,
but in her face and look. Hamlin appreciated it; he was struck. Such a view of evil and of
fate had never presented itself to him; he recognised how much newer and grander it
“Are you quite sure of this?” he asked, with some interest.
“Mrs Collett gave one of the Leighs all the details of it. If you would go to her, she would tell you all about it; she has been afraid, ashamed of mentioning it to you, so I have done it. But if only you would speak to Mrs Collett now, she would explain to you exactly that ought to be done.”
Hamlin did not seem to attend.
“It is awfully grand,” he mused—“all the grander for the utter unconsciousness, involuntariness. It would make a splendid subject for a poem. I always felt there must be something in that county which should correspond to the tragic look of everything. So much Dennistoun’s notion that there isn’t anything poetical or terrible in reality.”
A sickening fear came over Anne. But she drove it from her: she tried to say to herself
“Mrs Collett says that there is hope of saving these miserable creatures by building better dwellings for them; trying to turn Cold Fremley into a village, and setting up a school. I have been thinking over it a great deal myself. Of course I’m very ignorant. But I’ve heard that the river ought to be valuable for water‐power, because there is no other one near; so I thought the simplest would be to try and induce some one—or do it yourself—to set up a factory there. That would give the people work, and give them ideas of decent living, and then a school would have to be opened.”
The word
“A factory on that river? on my property? to befoul all that pure and exquisite country with smoke and machine refuse!” he cried indignantly.
“One single factory need not befoul anything,” said Anne, sternly. “And all the smoke and machine refuse in the wide world could not make that neighbourhood one‐hundredth part as foul as it is made by the sin of Cold Fremley. No, not one‐thousandth part as foul as our own hearts, if we let such an evil exist under our eyes.”
Hamlin seemed moved and puzzled.
“It
Against this Anne felt it useless to struggle.
“Since you will not hear of the only plan which would easily improve the condition of those people,” she went on, “let us leave the factory alone; it is not necessary: a few hundred pounds will amply pay for improving, enlarging the six or seven houses of which Cold Fremley consists. As to draining, every one says that were that county drained, it would amply repay the expense by the superior quality of the crops. All that is wanted for the present,” invocated Anne in despair, “is that the people should have more room—that they should not herd like cattle—that the growing children, at least, should not be forced into contact with all that vice. And all that can be gained by merely enlarging the cottages.”
“Such a thing as you suggest would—besides being, in my opinion, perfectly useless—involve a very heavy expense,” answered Hamlin, coldly.
“Not more,” cried Anne, blazing up—“not
The words were scarcely out of her mouth when she repented of them.
“Perhaps,” she added sullenly, “that also has been a waste.”
Hamlin did not answer; he was taken by surprise, embarrassed.
“The cases are wholly dissimilar. The left hand may not ask the right hand what it has or has not been able to do.”
“What do you mean, Mr Hamlin? If you have been spending more than you can afford on me—oh, don’t think I’m not grateful—but please, please, spend no more. This house might be sold. You don’t live in it after all, and Aunt Claudia would be just as happy at Wotton. The house and furniture must be worth a good deal, and then there is the expense of housekeeping in London. Do think of it. I am sure you could raise money enough in that way.”
“This house is not mine, Miss Brown,”
He had wasted all this on her, and the people on his estate lived in foul, sinful hovels! A strange gratitude, mixed with horror, overcame Anne; all the beautiful things about her,—her beautiful fantastic dress, which Hamlin always designed for her, her knowledge and good‐breeding,—all that had been paid for with that money, became loathsome to her.
“It is not mine—not mine; I am a mere beggar living off your charity,” she exclaimed—“living
off what I have no right to, what ought to go to
Hamlin smiled; he admired and disbelieved; but what a magnificent woman she was! what passion, what fervour under that cold exterior!
“There is no need for that,” he said gently, looking at Anne with admiring and loving eyes. “I am not so poor as that, and I would starve rather than see you deprived of any single thing to which you have a right.”
“Then you will go to Cold Fremley? You will see about it?” He was good and generous at bottom—she knew it; and she could have fallen on her knees and cried like a child with her head upon his arm.
“I will go to Cold Fremley,” he answered
“What do you want to study it for?” asked Anne, suddenly and terribly; “to improve matters, or—to write a poem?”
“I do wish to write a poem,” answered Hamlin, who felt no shame for doing so, and resented
being thus reproved. “Certainly I wish to write a poem. You made such a fuss about my tearing
up that ‘Ballad of the Fens’—well, I now see my way to making use of all the best parts of it,
and with a real tragic and passionate motive. As to improving matters, I will look about me.
But I totally disbelieve in the utility of giving these people better dwellings. Of course,”
he went on gently, but with that tone of knowledge of the evil of the world which Anne so much
hated—“of course
Hamlin’s eyes sparkled, and he spoke with a flush; but there was no excitement, no horror in his tone. Anne felt that he was reciting in prose what he would soon write in verse.
“In short,” she said, “you think the sinfulness of the people of Cold Fremley fits very well into the landscape? You think it, as you said, very picturesque and grand?”
Hamlin was a man who could not easily keep at high moral tension.
“Well, yes,” he answered; “of course it
“I see,” said Anne, faintly—everything seemed to be turning all round her; “good‐bye.”
“You mustn’t be angry with me,” said Hamlin, following her to the studio door. “You see I, unfortunately, have much more experience of life and evil than you will ever have. I know that fatality of sin; and that makes me take things in a different way from how you take them.”
Hamlin’s voice sounded faint and distant to Anne, hollow like an echo in a whispering
chamber. She went mechanically up‐stairs; she did not know how she felt, but everything seemed
surrounded by thick, clammy horror; the world was going to pieces. When she had shut the door
of her room behind her, she threw herself with her face on her bed, and burst into an agony of
half‐audible sobs. But when at length hours passed, and the maid
THE Leigh girls never discovered which of them was in the right; and as Anne never
made any further allusion to Cold Fremley, they concluded that she had not spoken to Hamlin
about it. Hamlin noticed no change in her, but then he never expected to see one: Anne became
gradually more silent, more indifferent, more abrupt in her answers. Some people said, “She is
getting spoilt by being made too much of;” and others, like Thaddy O’Reilly, hinted that the
vagaries and splendours of æsthetic society, the poems and music and improprieties of Chough
and Dennistoun, the nudities and Elizabethan dramatists of Lewis, were beginning to pall upon
Miss Brown. “I’ll bet anything,” said Thaddy
But Anne pushed aside these thoughts. She felt that she had no right to indulge in them—that
she must give her mind to other things, her heart and her energy. Without exactly knowing what
she could do, or even whether she could do anything at all, she felt that she must work—work
with all her might; for it seemed as if all the thoughts which the people about her refused to
think, all the sympathy which they refused to feel, all the work which they refused to do, and
all the sacrifices which they refused to make, must all be taken upon herself—as if she alone
must bear this terrible weight of rejected responsibilities. So Anne
To meet the terrible realities which were now being revealed to her, to answer her own
painful craving after usefulness, Anne had therefore only a vain negative belief—the pessimism
which
But all this no one ever guessed. She despised indulging her own wretchedness. She went on,
behaving as usual, goading herself to practical concerns silently, letting no one know of her
misery, letting no thought of it waste a moment of her time. Her longing was to break the
hateful solidarity between
“I have read the books you lent me to take into the country,” she said, giving him back the various primers and pamphlets on economical subjects. “Thank you so much for them, Dick.”
They were sitting alone in the drawing‐room at Hammersmith. Richard Brown had called only once before, ceremoniously and briefly, and he would not have come this time either, if Anne had not written expressly to beg him to fetch back the books. He looked at her in his incredulous, contemptuous way.
“Really,” he said, “my shabby old books are very much flattered by having been permitted
“Those are Mr Hamlin’s books,” said Anne, quickly; “he must have taken them out of the library, or brought them up from the studio. I am not reading any of them.”
“You are reading nothing but sociology and political economy; I understand,” went on Brown,
with his placid sneer, which seemed, in this frightfully masculine man, to condemn in Anne her
mind, her person, her manner, her character, and even her sex. “Ah, well, I can understand
that; it must be refreshing. Who is it—Mr Pater, or some such great gun of yours—who says that
the object of the wise
Anne frowned.
“Of course,” she said, “you think it very clever to snub me, Dick, and very manly; just to treat me as if I could not possibly have either heart or brains. Maybe; but it is a very cheap sort of sarcasm, and to make which a man like you is not at all required.”
Richard Brown bit his black beard, and looked at Anne from beneath his beetle brows; he threw himself a little back on his chair, and with his head on one side, he said, with affected indifference—
“You don’t mean to tell me that you
“Were you ever ignorant about important vital subjects, Richard—ever conscious that it was your duty as a rational creature to know something about them, and then snubbed by a man who knew all about them, and to whom you had applied to help you?”
Brown was silent for a moment.
“I was a poor lad, working in a factory, and refusing myself food and coals in order to buy books and papers”—he said crushingly—“and I never had an opportunity of asking any one’s assistance.”
“I don’t see why there should be salvation only for people who have gone through hardships,
nor why only you and those who have acted like you should be treated sincerely and seriously.
Do you think that because I am a woman who has been brought up among Persian rugs and Japanese
pots and Burne Jones’s pictures,—because I have gone to dinner‐parties
Richard Brown did not answer. He was a frank man, and he frankly faced Anne’s look, and in
return looked long and searchingly at her; and as the habitual look of bantering contempt had
given way to a serious scrutiny,
“Forgive me, Anne,” he said, after a moment; “I think I may have been doing you injustice, and that I may, to some degree, have been disgracing myself. But, you see, I am a plain self‐made man, and it is difficult for me to understand how . . .”
Brown rarely hesitated for the end of his sentence, but this time he did.
“To understand how there can be any conscience or seriousness in a woman who has been willing to owe everything to the generosity of an æsthete like Mr Hamlin”—Anne finished his sentence bitterly. She went on—“Well, I know you could not believe that an æsthete could be generous and noble and chivalrous; and now you cannot understand how a woman who has accepted his generosity can be anything better than—than a piece artistic embroidery, or a Japanese cup, or a green tree,” and Anne pulled the long pliable leaves of a palm passionately through her fingers.
Brown’s suspiciousness had tried to return; but it was routed by Anne’s firm look, by Anne’s frank words.
“It is terrible to think how prejudiced, how inaccessible to truth, one allows one’s self to become,” answered Brown, “even though, Heaven knows, one tries to be fair. What you say is true. I couldn’t understand your not being a mere frivolous girl, Anne; and I can’t well understand it yet. But what you tell me I will believe.”
“Thank you, Dick,” said Anne, stretching out her hand. “I don’t think we are made to like each other much: you are too prejudiced, and haughty, and contemptuous; and I am too proud and too stiff‐necked. But we are both honest, so we might as well deal honestly and openly with each other, and try and understand each other’s good points.”
“I am not accustomed to deal with semi‐professional beauties, to do the Petrarch to æsthetic
“I will bring you some more books when I return,” he said. “By the way, have you ever read any psychology?”
“What is psychology? Is it metaphysics? I have read Hegel—” Anne stopped short, and then boldly added—
“ But it was only Hegel’s æsthetics, you know.”
Brown smiled. “Hegel’s æsthetics are not—well—not Posthlethwaite’s æsthetics,” he said; “this is not much more difficult. It is Spencer’s sociology. I will bring it you. Good‐bye.”
After that visit, Anne began to see more of her cousin. He came sometimes to Hammersmith,
and he met her frequently at the Leighs. Anne did not feel that she completely liked him. He
was pure‐minded, certainly, and generous, a man devoted to progress even in
HAMLIN had forgotten all about the business of Cold Fremley, except that he had
stopped the printing of his book, and set to work remodelling the “Ballad of the Fens,” to the
immense admiration of Chough and Dennistoun, who were quite reconciled to realism now that it
was allied with horrid sin. But that Anne was at all alienated from him, never once entered
his mind. He noticed, indeed, that Anne had grown much more serious of late, that she seemed
less happy than some months before; but for that he had his explanation. He believed that her
character was suddenly maturing (for he never guessed that Anne’s nature was one of those
which mature rapidly, and whose maturity means
“She is not a woman, she is a mere splendid statue!” Lewis had once exclaimed angrily, as he
felt how utterly all that kind of occult sensual fascination, which his pale mysterious face,
his vermilion lips, his cat‐like green eyes, his low droning voice, his sultan‐like freedom of
manner, his sense of omniscience and omnipotence, his own nature, strangely compounded of the
beast and of
“She is not a woman, Hamlin,—she has an intellect and a will, but she has no soul; and one day you will discover it.”
“She is not a woman in the sense in which you conceive a woman,” answered Hamlin,
contemptuously; “and she is as incapable of what you and most of us call passion, as is a
statue. She has not one fibre of what you could call womanhood in her—not one shred of the
beast which lies at the bottom of all our natures has entered into hers; she is a woman of
mere stone and ice and snow for men like you. But just for that reason has she got a capacity
for passion—for a passion which you can never understand—such as no other woman ever had. What
are all those precious women—Cleopatras and Mary Stuarts—call them whatever you like, whom we
think so poetical? Mere common harlots, decked out in poetical gewgaws, at bottom nothing
better than a Madame Bovary, not so much as a Manon Lescaut
Edmund Lewis’s lip curled.
“Certainly Miss Brown suits you in your present mood, Walter; I don’t say not. But you will find out later what it is to be in love with a woman who is stone and ice and snow for men like me. Madonna Laura and Beatrice are all very fine; but your ideal lady, I repeat it, is no woman at all, but a mere sexless creature, something like Victor Hugo’s handsome Enjolras in petticoats. Passion for humanity, for fame, for abstract excellence‐oh, as much of that as you like; but passion for so humble a thing as a living man! Never!”
“Please leave the subject alone, Lewis,” said Hamlin. “I don’t care to have slugs creeping,
even only in imagination, over my lilies. Talk about
Chough had been listening. The excitable
“There is passion of all sorts,” said Chough, pulling his long black whiskers; “the passion of the pure animal, the passion of the mere human creature, and the passion of divine essences: the first is like a lush tropical country; the second is like the manifold sea; the third is like the high Alps, the highest strata of air, the purest light. The passion of divine essences is more terrible than any other, exactly because of its external nature: it is tragic. Miss Brown has that sort of passion—”
“Idiot,” muttered Hamlin ; and yet he felt pleased at Chough’s mystical corroboration of his ideas.
Meanwhile there was one subject upon which Anne sympathised warmly with Hamlin, and that was
his cousin Sacha. For all her evident theatricalness, Anne warmed towards Madame Elaguine. She
saw in her something frank and fearless which appealed to her, and a pathetic helpless desire,
as of a child which has been naughty but wants to learn how to be good, to retrieve her own
wasted life, to save her children from what she had undergone herself; above all, a wish to be
in earnest without well knowing how to, a strain to be a serious woman in the midst of the
habits of a spoilt child and of a flirt. For a spoilt child, unaccustomed to self‐control,
impatient of small sacrifices, avid of excitement and novelty, avid of constant attention and
admiration, Madame Elaguine certainly was; and a flirt as certainly also. She flirted with
every one, with Hamlin, with as many of his
“What a flirt that woman is, to be sure!” cried Hamlin, as he saw every one of his and Anne’s friends subjugated in an hour’s visit by Madame Elaguine. And to be a flirt was no recommendation to Hamlin; he wanted to absorb all admiration, he wanted to inspire love; flirts were his particular aversion.
“What harm does her flirting do?” answered Anne; “it merely makes her and those about her a little happier.”
“I thought you cared only for serious, for intense people, Miss Brown—you who are so serious and intense yourself.”
“Perhaps I am too serious”—and poor Anne felt at the moment that she certainly was too serious to be very happy; “but, however that may be, that is no reason why your cousin should not be a flirt. As long as a person can feel strongly and seriously on serious subjects, why quarrel with him or her for being childish about childish matters?”
For experience had taught Anne the bitter truth that people could be serious—heaven knows how serious!—like the odious Lewis and like Hamlin himself, and yet have no fibre of sympathy or indignation; and her experience of flippant little Chough, with his tenderly cared for wife—of flirtatious Marjory Leigh and her humanitarian labours—had made her hope most from the very people whose light nature she, so earnest and tragic, could understand least. And to this category she added Madame Elaguine.
“Your cousin has strong sides to her nature, I am quite persuaded,” she said.
Hamlin shrugged his shoulders; but nevertheless
What moved Anne was Madame Elaguine’s vehement passion for her children, the long schemes
which, to Hamlin’s
“I tell you she is a bad woman, and you will find it out some day to your cost,” she would
answer Anne. “The woman is contained in the child: or rather the woman is only the child
altered and trimmed up to pass muster—
“But, Auntie Claudia,” persisted Anne, “if a person can alter sufficiently to pass muster, why should that person not alter also in obedience to her awakened reason and conscience? Why should one not be able to shed the bad qualities of one’s childhood, for quite new and good ones?”
“Because one cannot, Anne; because the fox remains a fox, and the cat remains a cat, and the swine remains a swine.” And Mrs Macgregor looked with cynical compassion at Anne.
“I might have remained a mere soulless servant, had every one gone on your theory,” answered Anne. “No, I cannot agree with you, Aunt Claudia. I think it is terrible to condemn a woman because she was a good‐for‐nothing child; I think it is terrible to shut her out from sympathy which might be a comfort and an encouragement to her if she be still in need of any.”
“Ah, well, that is how you young people of to‐day always talk. You would object to sending criminals to the docks, because it is shutting them out of improving society.”
“I don’t see that the cases are parallel. I merely ask that a person be not condemned where she could not be responsible. If I thought that any one were really and hopelessly vicious, a mere source of evil, I think I should do my best to crush them out, to trample upon them.”
“That is how you are, Anne, willing to be a moral sick‐nurse or a moral executioner. In a
world where every one has some horrid
“I don’t feel any admiration or love or awe for Madame Elaguine. But I think that she is a comparatively young woman, very impulsive and rather injudicious, all alone here in London; and I think she ought not to be shut out from the only house which she has, as Mr Hamlin’s cousin, a sort of right to enter.”
“As you choose, Anne. Invite her, give up the house to her; do what you please. But remember, when you have burnt your fingers, that I told you you were playing with fire.”
So Anne had her way. And Madame Elaguine came often to Hammersmith. Hamlin and Anne did their best to prevent her meeting Mrs Macgregor; Madame Elaguine was received mainly in the studio, where, little by little, and at first seemingly casually, Hamlin’s friends would drop in to meet her. She was a curiously fascinating little woman. Education, in any regular sense, she seemed never to have had; she was grotesquely ignorant about a great many things, and laughed at it herself.
“I am teaching myself arithmetic in order to teach my boy a little before he goes to
school,” she would say—or spelling, or grammar, or something similar. On the other hand, she
had a lot of superficial accomplishments, like most Russians: she spoke four or five languages
with tolerable correctness and extraordinary fluency; she had, in some mysterious manner,
acquired Greek. She read little, and that little mainly novels and poetry; but, with her
Russian rapidity to adapt herself to a new position,
“Dressmaking, as long as only pins are required, is my one talent, my one accomplishment,”
she would say, when any one admired the capricious garments, in which she looked sometimes
like a schoolgirl, and sometimes like a page in woman’s clothes, and sometimes almost like a
little nun. But this was not the case. Without ever having learned, she sang with wonderful
charm: a small, childish, high voice, which trilled out Russian and Spanish and French
folk‐songs, and which had a strange, hot, passionate power of singing those German songs which
poor Anne, for all her fine voice (which Chough used distressingly to compare with that of
various equivocal singers of former days) and her conscientious learning, could never succeed
in rendering. But the fact was that Madame Elaguine’s personality was surrounded by a vague
halo and shimmer of talents: she had never learned to do anything, yet she could somehow do
everything; she
“She is a first‐rate actress,” was one of the first things which Edmund Lewis, who seemed at once singularly attracted and puzzled by her, found to say about Madame Elaguine.
“You think that because she sometimes looks a little like Sarah Bernhardt,” answered Hamlin, who never cared much to hear his cousin praised, since everything which was praised in her seemed to point to a deficiency in Anne.
“I think she is an actress because I see it,” answered Lewis, in his positive way. “For my part, I don’t think any of you half appreciate all that there is in Madame Elaguine.”
“A nice little kittenish, intelligent flirt; just the same as a hundred Russian women one has known,” said Hamlin.
Lewis shook his head.
“That woman is not a mere ordinary flirt. She has an almost unique temperament: she is a first‐rate medium; I feel it.”
“You have felt so many people to be first‐rate mediums, Mr Lewis,” said Anne, scornfully. “Do you remember, you thought once that I was one.”
“So I did. But this time I’m not mistaken;” and he gave Anne one of those looks of fierce aversion which, loathing him as she did, she rather liked from the little painter.
However, Lewis proved right this time. Madame Elaguine had scarcely ever heard about spiritualism, but she threw herself into it with all her Russian ardour, and in a very short time, under Lewis’s guidance, became a great adept. Lewis declared that he had never met so gifted a medium in his life; and, indeed, Madame Elaguine showed a perfectly marvellous power of going off into trances, reading thoughts, and otherwise communicating with spirit‐land.
A young doctor, one of Marjory Leigh’s hygienic demigods, whom she brought to call on Anne,
once met Madame Elaguine at Hammersmith. Anne noticed the way in which he
“Why were you staring so at Mr Hamlin’s cousin?” asked Marjory Leigh when the Russian had left.
“Staring at her?” answered the Professor, vaguely.
“She is a very pretty woman, and very charming,” said Anne; “I think that is sufficient explanation.”
“Well,” said the young doctor, a rough, brusque creature, “that wasn’t exactly the reason. I was thinking how very—well, to put it plainly—how very hysterical a subject that lady looks.”
“What do you mean by hysterical?” said Anne, quickly. “She is very nervous, but she doesn’t seem to me to be at all subject to any kind of fits.”
“That’s not what
“She has let Mr Lewis, who has gone in a good deal for that sort of thing, mesmerise her once or twice,” answered Anne. “I don’t believe in that rubbish myself.”
“Nor do I. But there is this much of truth in it, that some sorts of temperaments are naturally inclined to it, and that it reacts upon them. And I should think it would be the case with that lady.”
“But surely,” hesitated Anne, “people who are in good health—who have never had any kind of nervous illness or shock—don’t get into that state.”
“Oh yes, they do. It is often hereditary; one or two, or even sometimes only one, depraved ancestor will do it for you.”
The recollection of all she had heard of
And any remaining ill‐will which Mrs Macgregor’s stories had left was swept away. Anne did not like Madame Elaguine, in the same way that she liked the Leighs or even Mrs Spencer; but she felt a sudden strong compassion for her. Perhaps, she thought, there is more goodness in the world than I guessed. And it seemed to her that this giddy little woman, with her passionate desire for the welfare of her children, this woman who had struggled through the disadvantages of hereditary weakness and corrupt training, was a sort of a hero.
AUTUMN turned to winter, and at last Hamlin’s long‐expected, much‐talked‐of book of
new poems made its appearance. In her gradual estrangement from Hamlin, in the gradual
replacing of the ideal creature whom she had so fervently loved by a reality by which she was
beginning to be repelled, Anne had hung some of her last hopes to Hamlin’s poetry. She would
often say to herself that, after all, Hamlin made no pretence to being anything more than an
artistic nature; that he was a great artist, born to give the world a certain amount of
pleasure, and that she had no right to ask of him to be anything else. What could she, willing
as she was to sympathise and to work,—what could a
“It is the first copy,” he said, “and as such, belongs to you.”
“Thank you,” said Anne, flushing with pleasure; for, opening the book, she found on the
fly‐leaf a little poem, imitated from the love‐songs of the Tuscan peasants, in which Hamlin
dedicated the volume to her; it was beautiful and simple and almost solemn—the
“You have put in the ‘Ballad of the Fens’ after all! Oh, thank you so much, Mr Hamlin! You know I always thought it the best thing you have ever done,” she exclaimed.
Hamlin did not answer; perhaps because he was aware that this “Ballad of the Fens,” rewritten under the influence of Dennistoun, was not the same as the one which he had torn up three months before. Anne soon discovered it: reading through the still uncut sheets, she found that instead of the story of married love, which had called down the wrath of the whole school, Hamlin had set in his beautiful descriptions a ghastly tale which she scarcely required more than to glance at. So this was all that had come of her having mentioned Cold Fremley to him!
“I think I have made the story more tragic and more in harmony with the surrounding nature.
I always felt that I needed some more powerful and terrible situation. Like this,
“Yes,” said Anne, icily. There was the description of the sunset on the fens, of the broad slow river flowing between low green banks, its clotted masses reflecting the red sunset embers; the description of the whole scene as they had witnessed it; and then a description of the people of Cold Fremley, of their lives and sins, in which she could almost recognise her own words in which she had vainly pleaded for them that memorable afternoon in his studio. A cold terror prevented Anne from turning at once to the sonnets. But after all, had he not, as it were, promised to abide by her choice? had he not submitted, however reluctantly, to the condemnation of those twelve sonnets? Anne felt ashamed of her own suspicions and fears; she boldly turned to the end of the book, peeped between the leaves—
“Desire—XII. Sonnets.”
Anne did not know what was the feeling
Breakfast passed gloomily, talking little, or of indifferent things. Hamlin was evidently ruffled by this reception of his book.
“Are you going to sit to me this morning, Miss Brown?” he asked with some irritation, as he rose from table.
“I will, if you wish me to.”
Anne’s voice smote him as if he had opened the window to a snowstorm.
“Have you anything else to do?”
“I always have plenty to do, you know. If you don’t want me, I shall go out with Marjory Leigh.”
“So much the better. I don’t feel as if I could work successfully this morning, and I should be sorry to detain you for nothing at all. I will go and ask my cousin whether she would care to see Lewis’s studio. This weather is very depressing.”
“Very,” answered Anne.
Anne went out with Marjory Leigh, who was on a round of visiting poor people at Lainbeth. They were joined by Harry Collett. He stood in great awe of his future bride’s superior wisdom and dogmatic manner; but it was touching to see how completely these two creatures—the shy and mystical curate, and the masterful and rationalistic young woman, who was wont to tell him that some day he should be persuaded that only secular work was really useful, and the Church ought to be disestablished—understood each other, and sympathised in their best endeavours.
“Hamlin has brought out a new book,” said Collett to Anne. “How proud you must be, Miss
Brown! he has been quite another man,
Anne did not answer. She felt alone—alone as in a desert, without an ear to hear her, or a hand to touch hers.
Often did that sensation recur to her now; a sensation as of dragging wearily and alone along an ice‐bound road, under a grey wintry sky, weary and solitary, but with the knowledge that the more solitary and weary she felt, the more was she bound to plod on. Things that happened seemed spectral. Here in London she saw less of Hamlin than in the country; he was going about with his friends, he was at his cousin’s. She did not know or care where. People talked a great deal about the new book; and only Anne was silent.
“You don’t like Hamlin’s new book,” said Richard Brown to her one evening, fixing his eyes
upon her in his ruthless way. He came often now; he had apparently got to believe in
“You don’t like Hamlin’s new book.”
“I like some things in it extremely,” she answered boldly; “but I dislike and disapprove of some others.”
Brown made a characteristic upward movement with one of his big black eyebrows.
“I thought that you æsthetic folk never disapproved of anything—that it was against the canons of art to disapprove.”
“I am not an æsthete, Richard. If I were, I should not be trying to learn the things in which you take interest.”
“True. And does Hamlin know that you dislike and disapprove of some of his poems?”
For a moment Anne did not answer.
“He knows exactly what I think about all his poems; but he does not, naturally, agree with me in all my views.”
She was determined to keep her cousin at a distance. He had hated her ever becoming connected with æsthetic society, and he tried to force her to admit that she regretted it.
But Brown had an inveterate hatred which he could not put aside.
“Have you seen the review in the ‘Saturday Gazette’?” he asked.
The review was one of the few bad ones which Hamlin’s book had had, among a chorus of good ones. But it was written by a rabid enemy of pre‐Raphaelite poetry; and who had taken the occasion of this book to show up what he considered the pestilent moral condition of the whole school.
“Yes; I have. It is a very unjust and violent attack, and quite indiscriminating.”
“So I thought. Still, what it quoted from the sonnets called
“I think,” answered Anne slowly, and choking her pride and emotion, “that all he says about those sonnets is quite correct. I think it is most regrettable that they should have been published. But I think that in writing them Mr Hamlin was merely following the vicious traditions of his school; and I know that he is, in reality, a perfectly pure‐minded man. And,” she added, as if to put an end to the conversation, “he is the man to whom I owe more gratitude than any woman ever owed to any man.”
Brown did not press the conversation. He understood. He had of late been getting to comprehend Anne’s character; he recognised her serious unselfishness, her indomitable desire for good; he saw in her a strange straining dissatisfaction—a something which was as the beating of a bird’s wings against its cage. And now he understood whence it came.
“She has made her choice and must abide by it,” he said sternly to himself, remembering that scene when he had tried vainly to dissuade her from accepting Hamlin’s offer, and she had answered, “I love him!” “She has sold her soul into bondage, and must accept the isolation and silence and uselessness of a slave.” But then, as he said good night and looked at that noble face, whose tragic intensity of rectitude was now revealed to him, Richard Brown could not help feeling a pang. “Poor child!” he said to himself; and wished he had proved less of a prophet than he believed himself to have done.
He began, in consequence, to feel a little ashamed of himself, and came oftener to see Anne.
He was a brilliant man when you got him on his own subjects, warm‐hearted, self‐sacrificing,
ambitious, eloquent; and he had always a number of practical schemes at heart. Originally a
hand at a foundry, he had for some time, like Anne’s father, been smitten with communistic
theories; but instead of
“He is a man of the middle ages!” Mrs Spencer would enthusiastically exclaim; “if only we
had a few more like
“He is a canny Radical,” answered her father, “but a gude sort of man. For my part, I don’t much believe in educating the lower classes up to art, but there’s no harm in trying, and, at least, we shall get better‐made chairs and tables for our money.”
Chough was equally enthusiastic. Richard Brown was anxious to get up some concerts at a kind
of workman’s union at which he presided; and Chough—yes, the great Chough himself, who hinted
mysteriously that his father (who was an apothecary at Limerick) was a duke, but that he would
rather die
There was something in this big, burly, rather brutal man, which immediately fascinated the nervous little Russian woman: she sat at Brown’s feet, she listened with rapture to his theories, she threw herself headlong into the plan of the concerts; she offered to perform, to teach, to do whatever Brown might wish.
Hamlin was thoroughly disgusted with his cousin Sacha, who had hitherto known no divinity save him and pure beauty, when he saw her devoting herself to humanitarianism, personified in what he called “that shoddy philanthropical black brute.” He became vehemently devoted to Anne. He seemed to repent of his book. He declared himself sick of London and of æsthetic society.
“I must turn over a new leaf,” he said. “I feel I must, or sink into being no better than
Chough or Dennistoun. But I am too weak
Anne smiled sadly. “No one can help any one, I am beginning to fear; and I least of all.” She had got so accustomed to these sudden returns of Hamlin’s, to these false starts, these longings after a healthier moral and intellectual atmosphere, which came to nothing. She saw so plainly the hopeless weakness and thinness of his nature; and yet in such moments she could not help feeling some of that old love for this beautiful, delicate, idealistic, chivalrous creature whom she knew to be mere selfishness and vanity. If only he would remain thus at least.
“Perhaps you are right,” answered Hamlin, leaning over the piano at which she was seated;
“but I feel myself sick of this life, this poetry. All is false, false, hollow, and empty. My
verses are untrue, my pictures are mere Christmas cards; even with you as a model, I feel I am
always repeating the same
It was but too true. That school of mere beautiful suggestion, which scorned reality and mechanical skill as a bird scorns the ground, was fast sinking into nullity. Anne had often remarked it in comparing the works of various masters; she had noticed the stray sentences, not meant for her, dropped by painters of other schools.
“Go to Paris and study for a year or so under Bastien‐Lepage, or Henner, or Duran,” she said, with a smile at the vanity of her own words.
Hamlin could not even conceive that she was in earnest, that any one could dream of seeing
anything in modern French painting, that any one could be so mad as to think of
“Yes,” he cried, “that is the only art that can live in our day! Ours is a mere phantom; our
poetry is a phantom; they come round us imploring us to give them life, like
And he suddenly turned round and looked at her with great yearning eyes. Hamlin was genuinely unhappy, though he did not guess that his unhappiness was due to vacuity, to slighted vanity, to the sudden infatuation of Madame Elaguine for a shoddy philanthropist. He longed for passion as, in hot climates, after months of faint sultriness, one longs for rain and wind; and he looked at Anne as one might watch the dark clouds hanging on the hills, the dark clouds which hold the storm for which one is thirsting. Oh for a strong passion!—it would revive him, revive his art. Hamlin did not say it to himself in so many words, but he felt it.
He talked long and vehemently about the necessity of going outside one’s self, of
transmuting one’s consciousness into that of another, of having something beyond one’s self to
And still, when she met her cousin Dick, and realised how different he was, how genuine and
strong and passionate for good, she could not help experiencing a sort of repulsion from him,
and a melancholy, hopeless throwing of herself back on to the unreal Hamlin.
returned to her with a chill; and she felt that Hamlin wanted, expected from her that
sort of passion which he had spoken of to revive him and his art. It seemed to her as if she
had been sold in the slave‐market, and were being told “now love.”
RICHARD BROWN did not let Madame Elaguine sit at his feet very long. After about a fortnight of extremely assiduous visits at the Russian lady’s house at Kensington, during which he poured out to the enthusiastic little woman all his philanthropical schemes, Richard suddenly gave up calling, and even avoided meeting Madame Elaguine at other houses.
“Why have you deserted Madame Elaguine so suddenly?” asked Anne of her cousin. To confess
the truth, Anne was rather malicious in her question. She had speedily recognised the vanity,
or rather the self‐sufficiency, the belief in his own irresistible uniqueness, which was the
leaven of Cousin Dick’s virtues, and she had been amused from the first at seeing
“Why have you deserted Madame Elaguine?” repeated Anne.
Brown suddenly raised his big, rough, black head from the review which he had been mechanically looking at, and answered, looking straight in front of him—
“Don’t speak to me about Madame Elaguine; she is an odious woman.”
There was something brief and silencing in his tone which surprised Anne and precluded further questions.
“In fact,” added Richard Brown, “if it were not that a woman like you will never even understand what Madame Elaguine is made of, I should peremptorily say that she is not a person for you to know.”
Anne was indignant, and yet, at the same time, a little shocked.
“Why, what has Madame Elaguine done?”
“Done!” answered Brown, half waiving the subject, and half insisting upon it, as
self‐important men frequently do. “Why, she has
Anne laughed bitterly. The whole world seemed so awry, every one seeing everything through the crooked spectacles of his own vanity. Now here was Dick insinuating evil against a woman because he had been such a big baby as to fancy her in love with him.
“Men are very unjust!” cried Anne; “they always trump up some mysterious sin to justify their unreasonable aversions.”
Brown reddened, and was on the point of
“Oh, of course women always fancy that they understand each other better than a man can.”
“So they can! A woman can always understand another woman better than a man can, who attributes all sorts of nasty masculine faults to women, or suspects imaginary feminine ones, when he doesn’t see clear. Oh yes, I know: every woman is weak, vain, a creature of impulse and passion, something half‐way only between the man and the child, as I read in a French paper, with a kind of sham character, like the backbones of cartilage or jelly of some lower creatures!”
Brown shook his head.
“Most women are like that, but not all; not you, Anne, for instance.”
“Thank you,” answered Anne, scornfully.
“But all women, at least all noble women, are unable to judge of other women. How should
they judge? It is only a man, or a
“One does not need to be base to know that,” said Anne, half to herself; and she thought of the mud which she had discovered in her own silver idol.
“I don’t think we are alluding to the same thing,” said Cousin Dick, turning off the conversation.
“Mere vanity, and the injustice of vanity,” said Anne to herself, and her pessimism became more confirmed. But later, although she continued to believe quite equally in Richard Brown’s vanity, she began to suspect that there had been in this coarse‐looking man a movement of modesty, an unwillingness to let her eyes rest upon some nasty thing which he had seen. But of this, at present, she had no idea, and Madame Elaguine, although she did not find much in common with her, became for Anne another victim of the vanity and injustice of the world.
They saw a good deal of the little woman now. Anne thought she understood her thoroughly,
and owned to herself that she had not understood her at first. She recognised that the little
woman had much more character than she had at first imagined; and the impression of frailness,
childishness, and helplessness which something in Madame Elaguine’s appearance, manner, and
voice had at first given her, wore away so completely that she could scarcely believe it had
ever existed. Eccentric and irresponsible she still seemed, always rushing from one enthusiasm
to another, always thirsting for excitement; but Anne found that instead of a childish girl
who could lean upon her, she had to deal with a woman, undisciplined and capricious indeed,
but still, in many respects, more of a woman than herself. She was flighty and giddy like her
own little girl in many respects, and fully as ignorant of many things; but she had a
knowledge of sides of life which Anne instinctively guessed, and from which she recoiled
It was about Christmas, and Anne had prevailed upon Hamlin to accompany her and Madame
Elaguine to a pantomime, to which the Russian was taking her little girl, and Anne the two
Chough children. Anne amused herself heartily, as she always did, at every sort of theatrical
performance, with the love
“Oh, how delicious it is to be in the cold, and fog, and dark, after that theatre!—”
When little Hélène Elaguine, who was holding Anne’s hand, and see‐sawing from one leg to another—while staring at the men in opera hats and comforters, and the ladies and children huddled in furs, and the policemen and cabmen who passed in front—suddenly gave a piercing shriek, and threw herself into Anne’s arms, clinging to her and burying her head in her pelisse.
“Good heavens! what’s the matter, child?” cried Anne, mechanically clasping the little girl round the waist.
“What’s the matter?” cried Hamlin, who had not seen this action.
But Madame Elaguine had let go his arm and darted forward, white as ashes, and seized
The carriage came up, and she jumped into it, scarcely giving Hamlin and Anne time to follow, and leaving Chough and his children amazed before the theatre door.
The carriage stopped at her door in Kensington.
“I cannot pass this night alone with only Helen and the servants! I cannot, I cannot!”
And Madame Elaguine burst into tears, strangely intermingled with hysterical laughs.
“They want to take my child away; they are trying it again!”
“What is to be done?” asked Hamlin.
“I will stay to‐night with Madame Elaguine,” said Anne, with decision; “if you will go to Hammersmith and tell Aunt Claudia’s maid that your cousin was feeling ill, and I am staying with her till to‐morrow. Help Madame Elaguine out, will you?”
Hamlin lifted his cousin out of the carriage, while Anne took charge of the child,
When they were in Madame Elaguine’s drawing‐room, the Russian took the child in her arms, and flinging herself on a sofa, burst out crying, her sobs interrupted by moaning complaints that some one wanted to take her child away.
“I will go to Hammersmith now, and leave you with her,” whispered Hamlin to Anne, who had knelt down by the side of the sofa.
“I will come to‐morrow morning for news; good night.”
“Good night,” answered Anne, under her breath.
But Madame Elaguine heard. She started up, and looking wildly about—
“Oh, don’t leave me alone yet!” she cried.
“Miss Brown will remain, Sacha,” said Hamlin.
“Oh, don’t leave me yet, Walter!” repeated
“I think you had better remain, Mr Hamlin,” whispered Anne; “she will probably be quiet in a minute or two.”
Hamlin took a chair near the table, and looked on in surprise. Madame Elaguine was stretched on the sofa, her sleeping child pressed close to her; her little head, with its short pale curls, thrown back; her eyes half closed, moaning and gasping and sobbing; and Anne, kneeling by her side, looking anxiously into that curious, convulsed face.
“Do you think she is going to faint?” asked Hamlin of his cousin’s Swiss maid, who stood by, the picture of self‐satisfied composure.
“Oh no—Monsieur need be under no apprehension. Madame often had
“What black man?” asked Hamlin.
Sacha Elaguine had suddenly raised herself on her elbow,—as if she had heard the maid’s words.
“Take Mademoiselle Hélène to bed, Sophie,” she said quietly.
“Shan’t I take her?” asked Anne.
“Sophie knows how to manage her,” answered Madame Elaguine; and sitting up, she drew the half‐wakened child close to her and kissed her with convulsive passion. Yet she let the maid carry off the little one, and merely let herself slip down on the couch with a moan, putting aside her heavy fur and passing her hands through her pale blond hair, and moaning.
“Don’t you think you had better go?” said Anne to Hamlin. “I will look after your cousin.” She would loathe to have Hamlin sitting there, looking at her, if she were in Madame Elaguine’s condition.
Hamlin rose.
“Stop a minute,” said his cousin faintly,
Hamlin remained standing, his eyes involuntarily fixed upon the curious spectacle of this prostrate little figure, panting and gasping as if going to die, and half unconscious of any one’s presence—her cloak thrown back on the sofa, her hair tangled, her bare arms and neck (for it was one of her caprices always to go the play, even to the pantomime, full dress) half covered by the fur of her pelisse and the lace of her dress.
“Stay a minute; I want to explain,” repeated the Russian, in a faint voice. “Anne—dear Anne—where are you?”
“Here I am,” answered Anne, in her cheerful strong voice; “do you want anything, dear Madame Elaguine?”
“I want
“Dear Anne,” she said, “forgive me.”
“There is nothing to forgive,” said Anne, trying to get loose and to rise to her feet. But Madame Elaguine kept her down in her kneeling posture, her arm always round Anne’s shoulder.
“I must explain it all to you,” she said, in a slow, vague tone, fixing her eyes upon Hamlin. “Don’t think me very foolish or mad; but I thought they were again trying to carry off my little Helen,—they have tried before,—and they keep writing to me, telling me that they will carry off Helen or kill me. I don’t care about that,—but Helen!” and Madame Elaguine hid her face in Anne’s iron‐black hair.
Hamlin looked on as in a dream. It was a
“I want to explain it all,” said Madame Elaguine. “Walter, give me that box—the little Indian inlaid one on the writing‐table—there, next to the palm‐tree.”
Hamlin brought the box; and Madame Elaguine, without letting go her hold of Anne, pressed a spring and opened it. It was full to the brim of letters—some large and folded in their envelopes, others mere scraps of paper. She took some out, and spread them on her knees.
“Look,” she said, letting Anne go, so that she could, while still kneeling, see the papers.
Anne raised herself, and Hamlin approached.
“Look at these,” said the Russian, carefully
Anne and Hamlin were shyly fingering the papers; they were all in the same hand—a curious,
crabbed, left‐handed character—some in French, some in English, some in Russian, but all brief
and to the same purpose: initials of which neither Anne nor Hamlin understood the meaning at
the head, and below a threat of something terrible, sometimes left vague,
“It was all my fault in the beginning,” began Madame Elaguine, covering her eyes with her
hands; “but I was very young, ignorant, and lonely; and after all, what harm did I do? I had
been married when I was only seventeen to a man whom I thought of as a father; and little by
little, when I found what sort of man he was—how base, and coarse, and cunning—I began to feel
very lonely and empty‐hearted. I was too young to care for my children, who were babies, and I
was a baby myself. But it was all so lonely, and the world so mean about me. I longed to be of
some use, and able to sacrifice myself for something. And a man was sent across my path, twice
as old as myself, whom I looked
A convulsion passed across Madame Elaguine’s face; it dropped, like that of a dying person.
But she started up suddenly, and went on with her story. For ten years nearly she had been
“If I had killed my child,” said Madame Elaguine, savagely, “it would have been better than to see her carried away from me.”
The individual who had made these attempts she described as being very dark, as if his complexion had been altered by overdoses of nitrate of silver. And this man would every now and then, at unexpected moments, reappear, and his reappearance meant some fresh outrage. Poor little Helen had suddenly seen him, or thought she had seen him, among the crowd coming out of the theatre; and this had produced the child’s sudden fit.
“Ever since I have come to London,” said Madame Elaguine, “I have been comparatively quiet. I was almost forgetting all about my misfortunes, or thinking I was forgotten—and here it begins afresh;” and she burst into tears.
“Oh why, why cannot I be permitted to be happy for a little while—only a little while?” she cried.
Anne had listened awe‐stricken. She had always thought there was something mysterious about
this giddy little woman. This frightful undeserved calamity struck down her
“Perhaps,” she suggested timidly—“perhaps it may have been Helen’s fancy. As she is used to the idea of this black man, she may have imagined, being tired and overexcited from the play, that she saw him among the crowd.”
“Oh no, no, it was he, really he,” moaned Madame Elaguine, turning over on the sofa and burying her face in its cushions.
“You must go now,” whispered Anne to Hamlin; “there is no earthly use in your staying. I will sit up with her till she be quiet. Good night.”
“Good night;” and Hamlin, as he noiselessly opened the door, cast a last glance at that
singular group in the rose‐coloured light of his cousin’s lamp,—Sacha, with her fur and lace
all in disarray, gasping on the couch, her bare throat heaving, and one of her thin white arms
hanging loosely by her side; and Anne
“Is Walter gone?” suddenly asked Madame Elaguine, turning her head.
“Mr Hamlin went some minutes ago.”
Madame Elaguine raised herself and sat up on the sofa, and passed her little hands through her disorderly yellow hair.
“Give me a kiss, Annie,” she said.
Anne stooped down and kissed her.
“Perhaps I had better go to bed now,” said Madame Elaguine.
“Shall I help you to undress?” asked Anne, who feared that Hamlin’s cousin might have another fit of hysterics.
“Oh no; call Sophie—she will undress me.”
On Anne’s call, the Swiss maid emerged from the next room.
“Put me to bed,” ordered Sacha, rising and leaning on the arm of the sofa.
“May I really not help you?” asked Anne, for the maid looked so indifferent, nay, so sulky, and she seemed to handle her mistress so roughly, that Miss Brown wondered how Madame Elaguine, in her state of nerves, could endure to be helped by her.
Anne waited till Madame Elaguine was in bed.
“I have made up the bed for Mademoiselle in the spare room,” said the maid, looking at Anne
with a curious insolence; and she led her up‐stairs. Anne did not put out the lamp, and she
did not undress. She could not sleep; and she felt miserable at the notion of Madame Elaguine
being left all alone on the first floor. What if the little woman should wake up with a panic,
if she were to fancy that some of her mysterious persecutors were hiding in her room? Anne
took the lamp, and silently descended into the drawing‐room. All was quiet. She sat down in an
arm‐chair, and made up the dying fire. She felt very restless and unable to sleep. The whole
scene
THE notion that a man was waiting, thirsting for her love, would have been enough
for many a woman in Anne’s position—many a woman more gifted than Anne, and more conscious of
her gifts, especially if the man who thus tacitly implored her to love and kindle love in him,
were, like Hamlin, the former object of passionate worship. But with Anne Brown it was
different. Some few women seem to be born to have been men, or at least not to have been
women. To them love, if it come, will be an absorbing passion, but a passion only of brief
duration, the mere momentary diversion into a personal and individual channel of a force which
constitutes the whole moral and intellectual existence, whose object is an unattainable
So when Hamlin had, in his veiled way, made her to understand what he hoped, what he
desired, what he expected, what (she could not help saying to herself) he had bargained for,
of her,—the thought of this love, which she could no longer feel, and which she was expected
to give—of this love which was to be merely the highest selfish pleasure, the most precious
(because the most refined), æsthetic lust of a selfish æsthetic voluptuary, Anne experienced a
sense of horror and self‐debasement. So this was what Hamlin was waiting for—this which made
him play that comedy of respectful distant adoration, of freedom of
Hitherto Anne had been unhappy from her isolation, from her gradual discovery that the man
whom she had loved as an ideal of nobility must be scorned as a mere weak‐spirited and
morbid‐minded artistic automaton,—a mind creating beautiful things from sheer blind necessity,
as a violin gives out beautiful sounds, but soulless, like the mere instrument of wood and
string. She had been unhappy because she was alone, terribly alone; but now she was unhappy
because she had discovered that she was in bondage, surrounded by walls, a slave. And now that
she yearned for the icy sense of isolation with which she had lived a few weeks back, as a
prisoner in a fortress might yearn for the desert, she found also that she could no longer
drift on indifferent, enduring the present, and hoping for the future. She could no longer
vaguely say to
This new feeling made Anne’s life—that life which was so completely a life of the world within, not of the world without—insupportable in a new way. Isolated she could live, but not caged. Her whole soul sickened; she no longer thought of trying to influence Hamlin, of trying to help others; all her energies were concentrated upon helping, upon freeing herself.
“There is something the matter with Anne Brown,” said Sacha one day to her cousin. “What is it?”
“Miss Brown always looks very serious,” answered Hamlin, affecting indifference. “She has a
tragic sort of face even when she is quite
“That’s not it,” cried Madame Elaguine, impatiently. “I know Anne when she’s happy and Anne when she’s unhappy. She doesn’t look merely grave and tragic as she used to—she looks perplexed, and pained, and worried; she’s not happy in her life.”
“Miss Brown,” said Edmund Lewis, in his drawling, clammy voice, fixing his conquering eyes on Madame Elaguine with a quiet, insolent smile—“Miss Brown is a woman, although she looks like a goddess; and even goddesses, you know, could not help being women too.”
The Russian laughed. “Always the fatuity of these men!” she cried, and turned contemptuously on her heel.
Hamlin did not answer, but a feeling of satisfaction came over him. Anne was unhappy; and in
a nature like hers, he said to himself, love must be unhappiness. But when he saw Lewis and
his cousin alone he felt
Anne little knew that she was watched; she did not care what might or might not be thought
of her by Sacha Elaguine, by Chough, by Edmund Lewis, by any of these people whom she
despised; and as to Hamlin, an instinct told her that he would never guess what it was that
troubled her. So Anne kept her pain to herself; but sometimes the despair of being thus
enslaved became too strong for endurance, and she longed for some one to whom to confide it.
Every word, every look, every piece of attention, every show of indifference on Hamlin’s part,
seemed to mean the same thing: that he expected her to love him—everything seemed to allude
and point to that. The only women with whom she was at all really intimate were the Leighs;
but Anne could not say a word to them, could not ask their advice. She could never, she
thought, make either of these girls enter into her situation, comprehend her feelings, make
Every night Anne lay down to sleep with her doubts half solved, her mind half made up, only
to wake up the next day with all her doubts reinforced and all her resolutions scattered. Such
a condition is not due to weakness or indecision of character; nay, it is
The strain, Anne felt, was becoming too much for her; this question of her own future, of
her own dignity and undignity, was swallowing up her whole nature, neither more nor less than
the nature of Hamlin and his friend was swallowed up by their æsthetical feelings. Anne
recognised, with terror, that she was deteriorating; that she was beginning to care nothing
for others in this preoccupation about herself; and that such a thing should happen—that she
too should lose her more generous feelings—was a greater degradation than any other which
could come over her. This shame and this misfortune alone it was in her power to prevent, and
she determined to prevent it. She did her best to put aside all questions of her own future,
to accustom herself to wait for
Anne’s earnest nature, lacking the happy faculty of being absorbed by present feelings, had
always been very subject to a dull moral pain at the evil in the world, storms from the great
Sahara of misery which would lower over her own oasis of happiness, clogging its atmosphere
and blighting its greenness. But now her efforts not to brood over her own unhappiness,
resulted merely in her brooding almost unceasingly over the unhappiness of others. And
gradually, to the sense of the misery of the world, became superadded the terrible sense of
the injustice of that world’s arrangements: from being indignant with the callousness of men,
Anne became indignant, with the same cold and sombre indignation,
Richard Brown had somehow, that day, been more sympathising with Anne than usual. Had she not been too much engrossed, she might have noticed that he watched her face, listened to her words, not merely now with gentleness and friendliness, but with a kind of suppressed admiration and wonder.
“Nothing is so bad as death,” answered Richard; “because, once dead, we can no longer feel, we can no longer judge, or sympathise, or strive.”
Anne looked up from the frock which she
“I don’t mean that we are so useful when we are dead, but we are less unhappy. You talk of feeling, and sympathising, and judging, and striving: what can we feel, and sympathise with, and judge, except the miserableness of men, and their weakness and badness, and the horrible arrangement of the world which makes them such? and after what can we strive, except vainly to release ourselves from that abominable order of the world?”
Richard Brown looked at Anne for a moment in silence. He was a singularly unæsthetic man, and confusing beauty with mere utility, he had never well understood the beauty which artistic people chose to see in this strange, uncommon, sombre face, so unlike that of any one else, and which seemed to have no prototype either in man or woman. But now he felt that Anne was beautiful, and very beautiful.
“All mankind is gradually releasing itself from what you call this evil arrangement of the world,” he answered; “or rather, the very perception that such an arrangement is evil is teaching mankind,—I mean all that much of mankind which makes the rest move on, to rearrange the world, and out of the bad to make the good.”
Anne shrugged her shoulders contemptuously.
“Why was the arrangement made if it was evil?” she asked.
“Because,” said her cousin, watching her face as he let his words drop—“because there was no
sense of good and evil at the beginning; because it is only man who has conceived that the
pleasure of others is good, and the pain of others is evil; and because, therefore, only man
can be expected to reorganise the world so that the good of others be sought and the evil of
others avoided. It is only man living with men, and feeling their miseries in his own, and
their happiness in his own, who can be
Anne did not answer, but remained for a moment with her hands folded over her work, looking out of the window. Outside there was only yellow fog, and leafless spectral branches; yet her onyx‐grey eyes opened slowly, as if she were taking in some faint but glorious vision.
“What right have you to expect such feelings except from men and women?” went on Brown; “the gods, you know, have other things to do. I suppose,” he added bitterly, “that they had a godlike life like their representatives, the poets and artists, on earth, creating only for their amusement, and keeping every disagreeable sight, or sound, or feeling, or suspicion away from them.”
Anne was accustomed to such hits at Hamlin; they were too true to be refuted, and too spiteful to be accepted; and now she was too much absorbed to notice any of them.
“I don’t know exactly what you are driving
“It must make a great difference to every honest person. You have no religion, Anne.”
“No. I thought religion was all bosh; merely a sort of silly pretty delusion, like love and all that;” and Anne thought bitterly how her own only religion, her love for Hamlin, her desire to become worthy of his goodness, had lamentably betrayed her.
“Without religion life is death,” said Brown, with his positivistic solemnity.
Anne looked at him contemptuously; she had so often heard people talk solemnly like that. Did not Hamlin talk in that way about the religion of beauty, and Dennistoun about the religion of love, by which he meant lust?
“It is all very fine; but I don’t much believe
“You don’t believe in any religion, Anne, because you have never tried to find one.”
“I have looked in the Gospel, and in the ‘Imitation of Christ,’ and in my own heart, Dick; and what I have found there is ignored in the scheme on which the world is made; because I have read there of love and justice and mercy, and I have not found the love and justice and mercy which presided over creation.”
“I told you that the world was not made by man, and that it is man who has conceived good and evil. I always told you, Anne, that it was a great pity that you should read only books upon details of science, like political economy and so forth, and refuse to get general ideas of what is and what is not the belief of our age.”
“Detail knowledge—I mean knowledge of political economy and physiology and so forth—is
useful; it can be applied, it can serve to
“These general ideas,” answered Brown, “are what prevent me from being as wretched as you are. Do you call that useless?”
“That is just what Mr Hamlin says about beauty, and Chough about the Eternal Feminine. But I don’t see that the world gains by this devotion.”
“I know nothing of Hamlin’s or Chough’s
His words seemed to go through Anne. Was she becoming selfish, weak, self‐indulgent? The terror of it sickened her. And was everything, however noble it seemed—love, beauty, nay, even her indignation at the world’s evil—only a snare?
“Will you teach me, Dick?” she said, after a moment. “I don’t much believe in your religion—positivism, I suppose it is—for all religions seem to me to turn out, oh, so empty, after promising so much. But if you will tell me, or give me books to read, you know I will do my best to understand.”
“You are a noble girl, Anne,” said Brown
“You always think people base, Dick,” she answered sadly. “It is a wretched mistake, but not so bad a one for yourself as always to think them noble.”
Richard Brown lent Anne a number of books, and he often came of an evening when Hamlin was
gone to Madame Elaguine’s spiritual
“I owe a great deal to you, dear old Dick,” she said one day, taking his hand; “I am so glad I would not let you continue to despise me.”
Brown flushed, and his cynical smile failed him. “Despise you? Oh Anne, how could I—” he exclaimed. But suddenly he checked himself.
END OF THE SECOND VOLUME.
WHILE Anne was being indoctrinated with her cousin’s philosophical theories, Hamlin
had little by little let himself be drawn into the little clique of more mystical and Bohemian
pre‐Raphaelites whom Edmund Lewis had collected round Madame Elaguine. The old‐fashioned,
long‐established æsthetes, who believed that artistic salvation resided solely in themselves
and their kith and kin, and who strangely muddled together the theories of an esoteric school
and the prejudice of the untravelled Briton, decidedly set their face against Madame Elaguine.
They had not liked Anne Brown
“A nasty, ignorant, frivolous little woman,” said Mrs Spencer, who was the spokeswoman of the party; “a woman with no sense of responsibility whatever. Did you hear the way in which she spoke of those horrible French painters? That she actually dared to talk to papa about that Monsieur Page, vulgar, base creature that he is!”
And the older people, and the women of the æsthetic world—the spinsters with dishevelled
locks and overflowing hearts, who kept little garlanded lamps before the photographs of puny
English painters and booted and red‐shirted American poets, all agreed with her. But the
younger men merely laughed, and neglected the solemn, smut‐engrained parlours of Bloomsbury,
the chilly, ascetic studios of Hampstead, for Madame Elaguine’s curious, disorderly, charming
house in Kensington—the house patched up with old lodging‐house
“Do you think Circe’s pigs were jealous of each other?” asked Mrs Spencer, when this peculiarity was pointed out to her by Chough. “Reduce people to a certain level, and they will be satisfied with equality.”
Lewis explained it as being due to Madame Elaguine’s magnetic power. Whether the Russian had
been fully converted to his spiritualistic theories, or, indeed, whether it was possible to
make her believe seriously in anything, it is impossible to say. But she had caught the
spiritualistic infection from Lewis as a tinder catches fire. Nothing in the world
“I feel sometimes,” she would say to her friends, “as if I mixed with the living as smoke mingles with air—seeing them move before me, but unable to clutch them or be clutched by them, coming in contact only with their passions. I feel as if I could more easily live with the dead—mix more easily with them. It is terrible. I sometimes fancy that I shall fall in love with some dead creature, and my life be sucked away by him,”—and she gave a little shudder.
Cosmo Chough listened spell‐bound with admiration, twisting and untwisting his long black whiskers. What a woman was this! And he ruminated over a new chapter of his Triumph of Womanhood, of which Sacha Elaguine—“Sacha quite short,” as she bade her friends call her—should be the heroine.
Edmund Lewis smiled his sensual lazy smile, which one knew that he imagined to be the prototype of the cruel and lustful mysterious smile of the men and women, and creatures neither one nor the other or both, who came from beneath his fantastic pencil.
“Has it never occurred to you,” he said, in his luscious voice, stooping over Madame Elaguine’s chair, “that you may rather be a dead creature yourself—a vampire come to suck out some one’s life‐blood?”
“Confound that Lewis!” thought Chough. “Why must such ideas occur to him, a mere damned painter, and not to me, who am a poet?” and he made a note of the vampire.
Hamlin was standing by, smoking his cigarette
“What a carrion‐feeding fancy you have, Lewis!” he exclaimed, frowning. “One would think you lived on corpses, in order to be more in harmony with those beasts of spirits of yours.”
Lewis laughed triumphantly; but Madame Elaguine, to his amazement, cut him short by saying—
“Your idea may be very amusing, Mr Lewis; but I don’t think it is exactly the style of thing for a man to say to a woman.”
Lewis, who was never abashed, merely raised his eyebrows.
“I thought you were superior to your sex,” he answered.
“If Lewis dare to talk to you like that,” whispered Hamlin to Sacha, “I shall horsewhip him one of these days.”
Madame Elaguine pressed his fingers in her little hot hand.
“You are good,” she answered, in what was like the buzz of a gnat, but infinitely caressing;
“but poor Lewis means no harm: he is very
The last words were scarcely more than a little sigh to herself; but Hamlin caught them, and reddened.
“Anne is very cold,” he said briefly; then added, as if to justify himself in his own eyes—“I suppose all very passionate natures are.”
Sacha shook her little thin childish head.
“Oh no—not all.”
Miss Brown went but rarely to the house of Hamlin’s cousin. She was extremely sorry for the
poor little woman’s misfortunes; and asking herself what she would have been had she had
Madame Elaguine’s past, she often admired how the Russian had kept her independence and
self‐respect, and serenity and cheerfulness.
Poor Mary Leigh was silent. Anne—this beautiful noble, distant, somewhat inscrutable
Anne—was the idol of the enthusiastic Irish girl. She had often longed to tell her so; she
longed, at this moment, to put her arms round Anne’s neck, and say quite quietly—“I love you,
Anne;” but she had not the courage. How much may this sort of cowardice, called reticence,
cheat people of? The knowledge that there is a loving heart near one, that there is a creature
whom one can trust, that the world
Anyhow Anne, while thinking that she liked Madame Elaguine, somehow did not care to see much of her. What she could do for her she did willingly. Madame Elaguine wanted the child to learn English, but made a fuss about letting her have a governess.
“My child’s mind must be my own mind,” she said. But as she went on grieving at little
Helen’s ignorance, and her own incapacity, from want of schooling and want of strength, to
teach her, Anne offered to teach the child together with the little Chough girls, who were
still her pupils. Madame Elaguine was rapturously grateful; but Helen was so completely
spoilt, that she could be brought to Anne only when she fancied it herself, and Anne found her
so demoralised that she really
However, one evening she could not refuse Sacha’s invitation, more especially as the latter,
evidently to please Anne, had invited her friends the two Leighs. It was a grand
spiritualistic
“I hate all this vulgar twaddle of spiritualism
“The whole boxful, machinery complete, all the newest tricks, eighteenpence,” as little Thaddy O’Reilly fiippantly remarked to Anne. How could Madame Elaguine have patience with such rubbish? wondered Miss Brown. What excitement could that excitement‐loving little woman, with a real mystery in her own life, find in all this stale shibboleth?
“You can’t think what a strange, delightful sensation I have at these moments,” said Sacha to Hamlin, as her little soft hand touched his. “I seem to feel the whole current of your life streaming through me, and mingling with mine. It is like an additional sense. Do you understand that, Anne?”
“No,” answered Anne, briefly. “I feel Mr Hamlin’s fingers touching mine, and that’s all.”
Hamlin somehow admired Anne’s answer; he was glad it was so,—had she felt like his cousin, something would have spoilt in an ideal of his; and yet Anne’s coldness annoyed him.
“The spirits are reluctant; there are too many sceptics in the room,” said Edmund Lewis, angrily. “Great as is the power of some of us—as, for instance, of Madame Elaguine—I feel that there is something acting as a non‐conductor,—some very chilly nature here.”
But nevertheless, when the company was giving up the
“Spirit‐hands!” whispered Edmund Lewis.
“Wash‐leather gloves painted over with luminous paint,” whispered Thaddy O’Reilly.
“A wreath!” whispered Madame Elaguine.
Something round, like a wreath, did seem to float, supported by the spirit‐hands. Some said it was oak, others cypress, others myrtle; but it soon became apparent that it was bay.
“For Hamlin!” whispered the guests to each other.
The wreath floated unsteadily over the heads of the party; but, as it passed Marjory Leigh, that evil‐minded young materialist quickly snatched at it, but it was whisked away by the indignant spirits. There was a murmur of indignation; but indignation turned into triumph when suddenly the wreath reappeared, and hovered for two good minutes over Hamlin’s head. There was a cry of admiration, and Madame Elaguine clapped her hands.
But Marjory Leigh struck a light, and lit the candle by her side. She could see faintly the excited faces all round, and among them the pale face of Anne Brown, scornful and angry, fixed upon that of Hamlin, who was flushed, hesitating, surprised.
“I am glad the spirits have such good taste in poetry,” said Marjory Leigh, quietly; “but it is a pity that they should not have crowned Mr Hamlin, like Petrarch and Corinne, with real laurels.” And she stretched out something in the palm of her hand. Every one crowded round, and took it up by turns.
It was a leaf, torn and broken, of green laurel which she had pulled off when the crown had passed over her; but the green laurels were masses of stamped paper, and left a green stain in the hand.
“It does smack a little of a French
There was a titter. Madame Elaguine burst out laughing. Hamlin laughed, but he looked black as thunder.
“You brought that piece of green paper with you!” cried Lewis furiously at Marjory Leigh. “You brought it to insult and delude us! It is disgraceful.”
“My dear Lewis,” said Thaddy O’Reilly, gently, “remember that you are still a gentleman, and not yet a spirit.”
“Had I known that there was to be any crowning, I should certainly have brought something better than paper laurels,” said Marjory, fiercely. “I never thought spirits were reduced to such expedients as these.”
The
Hamlin looked as if he wished himself a thousand miles away. He would speak with no one; he was angry with his cousin for having let him in for such a ridiculous scene, and angry with the rest of the company for having witnessed it; he had no command over his looks; and while Madame Elaguine’s curious, warm, childish voice throbbed passionately through Schumann’s songs, or while people took their tea and talked, he sat aside, in the doorway of the next room, like a whipped child.
“What a baby Walter is!” whispered Madame Elaguine, laughing, to Chough.
But Anne did not laugh. She felt the humiliation not of the paper laurels, but of that
radiant look which she had seen in Hamlin when the lights had first been lit. And she was
indignant with Hamlin for taking
She did not allude to the scene. What use was it chiding him? He could never understand. She talked to him about the picture which he was painting, about the people, anything to make him feel that she was sorry for him. Hamlin was bitter against his friends; he began once more his tirades against modern art and poetry, its lifelessness and weakness; he again declared himself longing for a different life; he again, passionately and delicately, called upon Anne, in his veiled way, to redeem him. Anne listened sadly. She knew it all so well by heart, this vain talk which was to be the daily bread of her soul.
Suddenly Hamlin’s eye fell upon Marjory
“I wonder you can endure that girl, Miss Brown!” he cried, “much less make her your friend.”
“Marjory may sometimes be rude, and it was perhaps not very good manners to interrupt the
“She is a humbug!” exclaimed Hamlin, crossly and violently. “Doesn’t she set up for philanthropy, and self‐sacrifice, and all that? and then she goes to parties dressed in that way—a fit beginning for the wife of an East End curate, for a man like Harry Collett!”
“Marjory’s dress does not cost more than Harry Collett’s coats,” answered Anne, quietly.
“You men never understand such things, and think because a girl’s dress is showy that it is
expensive. Of course Marjory doesn’t wear æsthetic things, and it would be absurd if she
“I know nothing about the dress, except that a wife of Harry Collett’s should not go about like a peacock. But I do know,” cried Hamlin, fiercely, “that it is disgraceful for a girl engaged to marry, and to marry a man like Harry, to sit the whole evening in a corner, letting a jackanapes like O’Reilly make love to her.”
“Marjory has been sitting with Mr O’Reilly only about ten minutes,” answered Anne, indignantly, “and she has known him ever since they were babies. I think it is too ridiculous if a girl can’t talk to a young man at a party without being treated as if she were committing an infidelity.”
“I don’t say that any other girl talking to any other young man is to blame,” said Hamlin,
still hotly; “but I say that a woman who can let O’Reilly flirt with her throughout the
evening is no wife for Collett; and I have
Anne did not answer at first. She was filled with contempt for this vain childish ill‐humour, which was taking the proportions of rabid hatred.
“Marjory is my friend,” she at last said, “and I think that the less you talk such nonsense as about writing to Mr Collett, the better.”
“I will, upon my word!” exclaimed Hamlin. “Marjory Leigh is a friend of yours, but she is an infamous flirt all the same!”
“Why does Mr Hamlin glare at me like that?” asked Marjory of Anne a little later. “One would think it was my fault that the spirits crowned him with paper laurels and not with bay‐leaves.”
ANNE had forgotten all about the
“What is the matter, Mary?” asked Anne, wondering at her flushed face, which was usually so quiet.
“Nothing—nothing,” said Mary Leigh, looking impatiently at some visitors who were present. “I spoilt two copper plates this morning, and shall have no etchings worth exhibiting. I suppose that has put me out of sorts.”
But the visitors had scarcely turned their backs, when Mary Leigh turned suddenly towards Miss Brown.
“Oh Anne dear, a dreadful, shameful thing has happened! and I have come to you to know what it means, because I can’t help thinking that Mr Hamlin has had something to do with it, and poor Marjory is so miserable.”
“What is it?” asked Anne, a vague terror coming over her.
“Why, Marjory got this letter to‐day from Harry Collett; he has been staying with his mother at Wotton for the last week. Read it, and you will understand.”
Miss Brown took the letter, evidently much pulled about and read and re‐read, from Mary Leigh, and smoothed it out and read it slowly; while her friend sat by, looking anxiously at her face.
The letter was from Marjory’s intended. Harry Collett told her, with a dignity and
gentleness, a desire not to hurt the one who had hurt him, and an incapacity of hiding his
great pain, which nearly made Anne cry, that his eyes had at length been opened to the
undesirableness of a marriage
“Much as I have looked forward to our marriage,” wrote poor Harry, “I could not possibly be
happy if I suspected that it did not give you everything which you have a right to require
from life. I thank God for having sent me a warning in time, for having let me understand what
your generosity and my infatuation would have hidden to me—namely, that your thoughts have,
despite your will, turned elsewhere; that your nature requires a life of greater cheerfulness
and variety than I could hope to give it. And, indeed, I am beginning also to understand that
I was trying to reconcile the irreconcilable—that a man who has elected a life among the poor,
has no right to share its privations with any one, much less with any one dear to him; and I
see that I was on the verge of committing the sin of sacrificing your happiness to my
vocation, or rather to my unmanly desire to
But the poor curate’s angelic nature could not resist the temptation of a fling at his supposed rival.
“I am only surprised—but my surprise may be due to my ignorance,” he added, “at the person who engrosses your thoughts. I should never have thought you could seriously care for a shallow creature like O’Reilly. I wish you to be happy, but I fear you will not be solidly happy with him.”
“Do you understand?” cried Mary Leigh, impatiently; “some one has written to Harry some horrid lies about Marjory and Thaddy O’Reilly. Oh, I think it is too shameful! Marjory, who has not seen Thaddy O’Reilly more than twice in the last six months; and,” added Mary Leigh, with an agony in her voice, “I fear—oh, I fear—Anne, that it must have been Mr Hamlin who did it.”
Anne did not look up from the letter. She was very white, and her face full of shame.
“I fear it must,” she answered, half audibly.
“But what is the meaning of it?” cried Mary. “What can Mr Hamlin know about the matter? Why, he scarcely ever sees Marjory. I don’t believe he had seen her for nearly six weeks before that party at Madame Elaguine’s. Oh, Anne, do you think it is Madame Elaguine, that horrid little Russian, who did it?”
“Oh no,” answered Anne, quickly, “I know Sacha Elaguine has not done it; I don’t believe she is capable of doing it.”
“Then you think? . . .”
“I fear—I fear Mr Hamlin did it.”
There was a dead silence. Poor Mary Leigh was torn by her indignation for her sister, and her pain at the shame cast upon her admired Hamlin, and through him upon her adored Anne.
“What can I do? If only I knew the grounds of the accusation,” she said desperately
“Has Marjory not answered Mr Collett?”
Mary Leigh shook her head.
“Marjory is too proud and self‐willed. She is disgusted with Harry. She won’t hear his name mentioned; it is useless. Oh, it is dreadful to see people who care for each other so much separated in this way, by a mere vile groundless calumny, which one cannot even refute.”
Anne passed her hand across her forehead.
“Mr Hamlin has done it,” she said slowly, and with an effort, “and he must undo it.”
“
“I will tell him that he was wrong, and make him write to Harry Collett.”
“Oh Annie dear, you are good”—and Mary Leigh threw herself on Anne’s neck—“for I know how dreadful, how terrible it must be for you to tell him that he has acted badly.”
“It is not the first time,” answered Anne, mournfully. “Leave me the letter, will you, Mary dear?”
Mary Leigh left the letter with Miss Brown; and that evening, as Anne was sitting with Hamlin after dinner, she suddenly dashed into the subject.
“Do you remember saying, the other night, at your cousin’s, that you would write to Harry Collett about the flirtation which you took it upon yourself to imagine between Marjory Leigh and Mr O’Reilly?” asked Anne.
Hamlin looked puzzled.
“I remember something or other,” he said evasively.
“Did you write to Harry Collett?”
“I had occasion to write to Collett about some books I had left at Wotton, and which I wanted him to bring up to town on his return.”
“But did you mention about Marjory and Mr O’Reilly?”
“I may have”—Hamlin spoke absently—“yes, I suppose I did. What of it?”
“What of it?” cried Anne, indignantly; “why, this much, that you have made two people perfectly miserable, and that Marjory’s marriage with Mr Collett is broken off,” and she handed him the letter.
Hamlin looked at it with an air of puzzled indifference.
“I don’t understand what it’s all about,” he said, coolly and serenely, returning the letter to Anne.
“Then you did not say anything about Marjory to Mr Collett?”
“Yes—I did—I certainly think I did. I can’t exactly remember what it was. You know how one writes letters; one forgets the next day.”
Anne looked at him with wonder. So after having, momentarily at least, made two people as unhappy as was well possible, this was how he took the revelation of the results of his doings.
“Mr Hamlin,” said Anne, sternly, “you know that you never believed that Marjory Leigh was really flirting with O’Reilly; and you know that you wrote to Harry Collett, and made him believe that she cared for another man.”
“I don’t know anything about Miss Leigh’s doings. I remember noticing her talking very assiduously that evening with Thaddy. Perhaps it was all fancy of mine; I have no doubt it was. I just mentioned it to Collett as I might mention anything else. I never dreamed that it would annoy him.”
“You thought it would merely annoy her?” asked Anne, reproachfully.
“I really know nothing about the matter. I’m not responsible for what I may have thought or written a week ago, much less for all these complications, which I never dreamed of.”
“Did you suppose, then, that Harry Collett would be utterly indifferent to being given to
understand that Marjory cared for another
“I don’t know. I wrote, and thought no more about it. If they have gone and quarrelled about it, I’m very sorry—and that’s all I can say.”
Hamlin’s tone was bored and slightly impatient. He had evidently not the smallest shame or regret for what he had done.
“Since you are sorry—since you
Hamlin had risen from his seat, and his face had taken a curious obstinate look.
“I’m very sorry I can’t obey you, Miss Brown,” he said, “but it appears to me that you wish me to write myself down a liar. If these people choose to fall out because of a word of mine, I see no reason to apologise. It is their concern, not mine.”
“Was it your concern to write to Collett, then? Was it your concern to take such a responsibility?”
“Every one may write whatever passes through his head. I thought Miss Leigh a flirt last week; I don’t now. As to responsibilities, I repudiate such things.”
“No one can repudiate such things,” cried Anne. “You have done mischief, and with a few strokes of the pen you can repair it. Oh, you must write, Mr Hamlin—you must.”
“If I write,” answered Hamlin, hotly, “I shall just tell Collett that I
He had gone to Anne’s writing‐table. Anne put her arm over it.
“You have told a falsehood once, you shall not tell it twice,” she said.
“I said that merely to show you how impossible your request was. After all, my dear Miss Brown, a man does owe something to himself and to his name, and there is such a thing as proper pride.”
“Is there?” answered Anne, and the words were like drops of freezing water. “I thought,” she added, the remembrance of what he had answered when she had entreated him not to slander himself in those sonnets “Desire,” “that your school considered it legitimate for a man to say that he had committed no matter what baseness, even those which he had not. But I see,” and Anne’s indignation blazed up, “that you want sometimes to be considered wicked, but that you succeed only in being mean.”
“I think that is a little hard upon me,” he answered mournfully and bitterly, and left the
Anne remained seated, looking into the fire, for some moments. Then she went to her desk and took paper and an envelope.
“DEAR MR COLLETT,” she wrote slowly, “Mary Leigh has just shown me your letter to Marjory,
which has greatly shocked and grieved me. As I know that the person who misled you about
Marjory and Mr O’Reilly, between whom there has never been a shadow of a flirtation, is Mr
Hamlin, I feel bound to tell you, not only that to my knowledge Marjory has not seen Mr
O’Reilly except once since your departure; but also, as having been present on the occasion of
the supposed flirtation, that Mr Hamlin imagined the flirtation, and wrote to you about it
merely because he was in an ill temper, and because Marjory had annoyed him that evening by
detecting a fraud in the spiritualistic
Anne stopped several times in course of writing, and read and re‐read her letter. Hamlin had
refused to make amends; well, she must make them for him: the matter was simple, and it was
Anne’s character, whenever she saw the right course, to take it without hesitation, however
painful to her. Like many very honest and firm people, she had something destructive in her
temper; she could, as Sacha Elaguine had said, sacrifice herself and others with a sort of
sullen savage satisfaction. It was a humiliation for Hamlin, but he had deserved it; it was a
bitter humiliation for herself, but her
The next day, Hamlin sent word that he had to go and see some pictures at Oxford, and would
be away for two days. Anne felt a vague hope that he was ashamed of himself. Madame Elaguine
called, and with her came Cosmo Chough. The conversation, to Miss Brown’s annoyance, turned
upon the spiritualistic
“What a fool Walter is!” exclaimed Sacha. “Fancy his moping in a corner because the spirits crowned him with paper laurels! I can’t understand a man not having more brass, not putting a better face on things. But Walter is a curious creature: in many respects he is not a man but a child. He has seen a great deal of life, and yet in many things he is like a girl of fifteen.”
“Mr Hamlin,” said Anne, evasively, “has an essentially artistic nature; the realities of the world don’t appeal much to him.”
“Unless an artist feel the realities of the world,” said Madame Elaguine, eating some of the petals of the roses that were at her elbow, “his art will be very thin. Life must stain the artist with its colours, or his art will be tintless.”
Anne had often said those same words to herself; yet somehow she knew that in Sacha Elaguine’s mouth they had a different meaning; and she felt it, when, with her curious, half‐childlike, and yet infinitely conscious smile, she turned to Chough.
“Don’t you think so, Signor Cosmo?”
Cosmo Chough pretended that he understood, as he always did, whenever he thought that passion and the Eternal Feminine were in question; he tightened his black moustachioed lips into a long grimace, and bowed in deferential agreement.
“Of course,” said the little man, sticking his single eye‐glass in his eye, “we all know
that our friend Hamlin will never get out of life all that perfume, that narcotic and
bitter‐sweet
“A goose, in short,” laughed Sacha.
“He is, purely and simply, an artist. Passions, senses, all the things which belong to other
men’s personality, belong to him only as factors of his art. And this is perhaps not to be
regretted, but to be rejoiced in. There is terrible danger of the artist being swallowed up by
the man. Of the poets whom God sends on earth, two‐thirds are lost to mankind: their passions,
which should be merely so many means of communication between their soul and the universe, eat
them up; or rather they feed themselves on what should become the world’s honey. And even of
those who are not lost entirely, how many are there not whose lives are engulfed by passions;
to whom, alas! what they sing is but the wretched shadow of what they feel!” And Chough
sighed, and fixed his eyes on his
Madame Elaguine laughed; but Chough thought it was at Hamlin, and frowned.
“Herein lies Hamlin’s advantage; he is the pure artist. And, mark me,” he said, looking fiercely around him, “he is none the worse for that. No, rather the better. I know no man to compare with Hamlin as a mere person; to compare with him not merely in genius, but in kindliness of temper, in purity of soul, in delicacy of thoughts. He is not merely a great artist, but a work of art; he is like a picture of Sir Galahad vivified, or like a sonnet of Dante turned into flesh—and I think Miss Brown will agree with me.”
“Mr Hamlin,” said Anne, slowly, “is a very generous man and a very chivalric man, and,” she
added, feeling as if Madame Elaguine were looking into her soul, and as if she must read
ingratitude written in it, “I feel that I am
“Oh no, no!” exclaimed the polite little poet, to whom Anne was quite the goddess, “don’t say that, Miss Brown; you can never owe anything to any one. Whatever a man can do, is a tribute which his nature forces him to lay down at your shrine.”
“Yes,” mused Madame Elaguine, following out the pattern of the carpet with her parasol “indebted—that is how one must feel towards Walter—indebted for the pleasure, etc., etc., of so charming an acquaintance; but love—one can’t love where there is only artistic instinct to meet one—”
“I know nothing about such matters,” said Anne, quietly.
“But, perhaps—Hamlin may be a sort of child of genius, and the man, the man who feels may come later,” finished the Russian.
“When people don’t feel, they don’t feel,” said Anne, sternly; “I mean—morally.”
“By the way,” exclaimed Chough, “I am reading such a delightful book—have you ever read it, Madame Elaguine?—The Letters of Mademoiselle Aïssé—”
“Who was Mademoiselle Aïssé?” asked Anne absently, forgetting that experience had taught her that it was safer not to inquire too curiously into Mr Chough’s heroines.
“I suppose she was some improper lady or other—all your poetic ladies were, weren’t they?” asked Madame Elaguine. “Something like your Belle Heaulmière, whom you insisted on talking about at poor Lady Brady’s party, although I kept making signs to you the whole time.”
“Improper?” exclaimed Chough. “Mademoiselle Aïssé was the soul of virtue—the purest woman—of the eighteenth century.”
“Tell us about this purest woman of—the eighteenth century,” laughed Sacha.
“She was the daughter of kings; her name was originally Ayesha, like the wife of the
Prophet—but she became a slave, and was sold as
Chough paused and looked round him to watch the effect of his eloquence. But his eyes fell upon Anne. She was very white.
“Well—and what did Aïssé answer?” asked Madame Elaguine.
“Aïssé answered—let me see, what did Aïssé answer?—oh, I should spoil your pleasure were I to tell it you. I will bring you the book, dear Madame Elaguine, and you shall tell me what you think of it.”
Anne felt that she had betrayed herself. To Sacha, she hoped, she believed not—but to Chough. The little poet, in his trumpery way, was really attached to Anne, whom he considered as his guardian angel; and perhaps his affection had made him understand.
“What became of Mademoiselle Aïssé?” asked Anne, some time later, as she stood by the piano where Chough was playing.
Chough looked up. “Oh—why—she—in short—afterwards—she died.”
“Would you like to see the book?” asked Madame Elaguine; “I have some others on hand at present. Mr Chough shall send it to you—”
“Oh no, thank you,” answered Anne, “I have a heap of books to get through; and—I don’t care what happened to Mademoiselle Aïssé.”
“You are very hard‐hearted, Anne.”
“She would not have objected to M. de Ferréol if she had remained a mere little Turkish
slave‐girl; she would have thought
“A nasty old ambassador!” said Madame Elaguine. “
WHEN Chough first told her the story of Mademoiselle Aïssé, it was as if Anne had
been suddenly confronted by her own wraith, surrounded by strange and tragic lights; and the
shock was very violent. But Miss Brown was too honest not to see after a minute that between
her and Aïssé there was an unfathomable difference. M. de Ferréol was a mere experimentalising
old
Unconsciously Anne’s mind reverted to the business of Marjory and Harry Collett; and her
mind’s eye rested for a moment upon those two lovers, to each of whom, through whatsoever of
discrepancy there might be, the other represented his or her highest ideal, that other’s
opinion his or her highest conscience; not passionately in love, like Othello and Desdemona,
or Romeo and Juliet, but persuaded to their inmost soul that in living by each other’s side,
and sympathising with and helping in the other’s work, each would be fulfilling his or her
best destiny in the world. Another woman situated like Anne might have let herself be tempted
into cynicism by unconscious envy; but this was not
“I am a selfish brute,” she suddenly said to herself, “wasting the time which is still
mine,”—and she took down her books of political economy, and tried to fix her attention upon
them, and think out a scheme of the lessons and exercises which she would give to the
shop‐girls at the Working Women’s Club.
Still Anne tried to work on courageously. In the afternoon she went to hear one of Professor
Richmond’s lectures. This was the fervent young positivist whom Cousin Dick so much admired,
and whose intense moral convictions had done a good deal to keep Anne out of the slough of
desponding pessimism round which she had been some time hovering. Andrew Richmond was a man
who had many slanderers, many of whom he has now left behind him—their misrepresentations
having been more long‐lived than he; for he had passed through many phases of thought, and,
being perfectly honest, he had never been able to become unjust to any, and thus had made
enemies not merely among the men whose
“The danger of our epoch of moral transition,” he said, “lies in the temptation of the individual to say to himself—‘If I am willing to sacrifice myself, have I not a right also to sacrifice the established opinions of others?’”
“I detest that man Richmond,” Madame Elaguine had once said; “he puts an end to all self‐sacrifice.”
“If you mean the sacrifice of one’s peace of mind and social dignity to the passion of another person and to one’s own, he certainly does,” Richard Brown had answered sternly.
At the door of the lecture‐room Anne met her cousin.
“Are you driving to Hammersmith?” he asked.
“No; I am going to walk.”
Anne had made it a rule for the last two or three months to deprive herself of all luxuries. She did not wish to enjoy everything that she had a right to; she had also a stern pleasure in doing the things most repugnant to her; and a walk through the London streets, in murky spring weather, was to Anne’s Italian temper, nurtured with æsthetic delicacy, one of the most disagreeable of expeditions.
“But it is drizzling and horribly muddy,” said Richard Brown, looking at her as he buttoned her ulster over her massive figure. “Surely Hamlin will be very much shocked if you come into the house with mud on your shoes? But if you are really going to walk I will accompany you, if you don’t mind, because I’m going in that direction.”
“Where are you going?”
“To Hammersmith; I have some business there.” And Brown looked once more at his cousin as he opened his umbrella over her.
“Will you take my arm, Anne?” Richard
“I am big enough to take care of myself, I think, Dick. And I know you hate having women to drag along; I have watched you going into dinner‐parties often enough.”
“It is out of my line, you’re right.”
For some time they walked along in silence through the black oozy streets, crammed with barrows of fruit, round which gathered the draggled dripping women, their babies huddled up in their torn shawls, their hair untidy and dank beneath their once lilac or pale‐pink smut‐engrained bonnets; the cabs, shining blue‐black, ploughed through the mud; the heavy drays splashed from gutter to gutter; the houses were black and oozy; the very raindrops on the railings looked black; the sky was a dirty dull‐grey waste; only the scarlet letter‐boxes stood out coloured in the general smutty, foggy, neutral tint.
“Do you remark that public‐houses are the
Always that indirect attack upon Hamlin and his friends: it was just and reasonable; yet, coming from Brown, it somehow grated upon Anne.
“That will come later,” she said. “The first thing is that the upper classes become
accustomed to beautiful things. You can’t expect them to mind hideous outsides to their houses
if they are indifferent to hideous insides. I don’t think,” she added boldly, “that
“Nero rebuilt Rome, didn’t he,” sneered Brown, “after he had amused himself burning it down?”
They fell to talking about the lecture, and then about Richard Brown’s plans.
“I hope to get into Parliament next elections,” he said, “and then I shall retire from Mr Gillespie’s firm.”
“Why? They say you can make a big fortune if you keep on.”
“I have quite money enough; I am a rich man. You wouldn’t have thought that possible, would you, Nan, two or three years ago? Almost as rich as Hamlin, do you know, young woman?” and he turned and looked at her. There was a curious expression, what she could not understand, except that it was defiant, in Dick’s face.
“I am glad to hear it. It is a fine thing to have money; it enables one to do generous things—like what Mr Hamlin did for me, for instance.” Anne could not have explained why she felt bound, at this particular moment, to throw Hamlin’s generosity in her cousin’s face.
“Ah, well,” answered Brown, suppressing something he had been about to retort, “of course I could not formerly have done what he did for you; but I would have gladly spent every shilling I had, Anne, to educate you, so that your father might have been proud of you.”
“I know you would, Dick—you are very kind.” And yet, thought Anne, until he had been piqued by Hamlin’s offer, he had forgotten all about her. “But why do you intend to leave your business?”
“Because I want to give myself up entirely to studying social questions, and my business would suffer if I gave it only partial attention.”
And he proceeded to explain the various questions which he intended studying, the
“Reform has been too much the leisure‐time amusement of men,” he said. “People have thought that it requires less training to touch, nay, to sound, social wounds, than to set a broken arm or dress a wound. We must find the scientific basis for our art. And it is a very, very long art, and life is very, very short. For my part, I feel that my knowledge is to what it should be what the knowledge you may get out of a school primer of physiology is to the knowledge required by a great surgeon. I don’t suppose I or any of my generation will succeed in doing much practical good; but we shall have made the public ready for certain views on our subjects, and rendered it easier for our practical followers to get their education. There is nothing very glorious to be done at present: no giving out of brilliant new ideas or making of successful revolutions; only patient grubbing at facts and patient working on the public mind.”
“Is that enough for an ambitious man?”
“One must pocket one’s ambition. What we want is knowledge, not conspicuous personalities.”
Anne was silent. Dick’s words were like military music to her. Oh to be able to join him, to march by his side, to carry his arms!
“Go on Dick, please. It does one good to hear of these things.”
Dick went on.
“You must not overwork yourself,” said Anne, anxiously. “Just think if you were to break down, as so many men have done—as poor Richmond is doing.”
“Oh, I am strong. The only thing which concerns me is my sight. I find I am already unable
to read of an evening. There’s no danger of blindness, but the doctor says I must not work by
candle‐light. Oh, there’s no mischief. I shall engage a secretary. I know plenty of young men
who would come, even for a small salary. There is the son of one of our head workmen, a very
intelligent
Anne felt a lump in her throat. Oh that she had been a man, instead of being this useless, base creature of mere comely looks, a woman, set apart for the contemplation of æsthetes! If she had been a man, and could have helped a man like Richard Brown!
“But I am not certain of my plans just yet,” added Brown, and he dropped the subject. They walked on for some moments in silence; then he began questioning her about Lewis, and Chough, and Dennistoun.
“Chough is a dear good little man,” said Anne; “he is very absurd and vain, and fond of
talking and writing about wicked things, which I am sure he doesn’t understand any more than
I. But he is so self‐sacrificing, and warm‐hearted, and true. Dennistoun, poor creature, is
very morbid and faddy, and, I think, hates me; but I am very sorry for him.
“I suppose you have heard what people say,—that Mr Lewis had rather a bad influence upon Hamlin some years ago—in short, made him take to eating opium, or haschisch, or something similar?”
“No—I had never heard that,” and Anne seemed suddenly to understand her instinctive horror of Lewis.
“Does Hamlin see much of him now?”
“A great deal—more than I can at all sympathise with. Lewis is rather a sore subject between us; he knows I don’t like him, and yet he is very fond of him.”
“I suppose Lewis flatters him very much.”
“I suppose so.”
Anne resented being thus cross‐questioned about Hamlin, but she was quite unable to prevaricate in her answers—her nature was too frank, and Richard’s questions were too direct.
“You are not very happy with Mr Hamlin,” he suddenly asked, or rather affirmed.
Anne flushed, but did not answer at once. “I have an unlucky temper,” she said, after a moment. “I am too exacting with people. I can’t get out of my own individuality sufficiently, I fear.”
Richard looked at her with pity, and at the same time with that implacable scrutiny of his.
“You feel your nature narrowed by all this æsthetic world around you,” he said. “You find these men selfish, mean, weak, shallow—”
“Chough is not selfish. As to Dennistoun and Lewis, I told you I disliked them.”
“You are equivocating, Anne. You know I am not speaking of Dennistoun, or Lewis, or Chough. You find that Hamlin drags you down, freezes all your best aspirations.”
Anne turned very white and trembled.
“Mr Hamlin is a poet, an artist; he is not a philanthropist or a thinker. But he has done for me more than I believe any man has ever done for any woman.”
“But—you don’t love him?”
Richard had stopped as they walked along the Hammersmith embankment. It was a very quiet spot, and not a soul was out in the thin, grey, drizzly fog.
Anne hesitated for a moment.
“I feel very much attached to Mr Hamlin on account of his generosity towards me—and I feel I can never repay it.” She did not look in Brown’s face as she answered, but stared vaguely at the river, at the dripping trees, the grey willow branches pulled backwards and forwards by the grey current; at the houses opposite, and the boats dim in the fog.
“You don’t love him?” repeated Richard in a whisper. “Anne, answer me.”
“I don’t see what right you have to ask me such a question, Richard.”
“No? Well, I do—and you shall see why. You are not his wife; why should you try and tell lies? Do you or do you not love Hamlin, Anne?”
Anne looked for a moment at the swirling waters, at the willow twigs whirled hither and thither.
“I suppose I do not.”
There was a pause.
“You do not love him, and you still contemplate marrying him?”
“I contemplate nothing at all. Mr Hamlin has not yet asked me to marry him, and perhaps he never may.”
“Nonsense, Anne. And when he does ask you, what will you answer?”
“I shall answer Yes. I am bound to do it. Mr Hamlin has done all, all for me. If he wish to marry me, I cannot refuse him the only thing which I can give in return for his generosity.”
Richard Brown burst into a strange shrill laugh.
“The only thing which you can give in return for his generosity!” he exclaimed, but always
in the same undertone. “Who first made use of those words, Nan? The only
“Richard,” said Anne, hotly, “you are my
“My words are ugly; and what are the things which you would do? Anne, you shall listen to me,” and he laid his hand heavily on her arm.
“You can make me stand here,” she answered icily, “but you cannot make me listen.”
“I
“If there is anything noble in me, Dick, no one can ever crush it out; and I do not see what real degradation there will be in honestly carrying out my part of a bargain which has been honestly carried out towards me.”
Richard paused for a minute.
“But,” he cried, “you mistake, Anne; you forget what that bargain was.”
“No, I do not. Mr Hamlin promised to marry me whenever I should ask him to do so, and—”
“And he left you free, perfectly free to marry him or not as you pleased!”
“
“That is an absurd quibble, Anne. If Hamlin’s leaving you free bound you all the more, why,
then, he did not leave you free, and you
“On the contrary,
Richard turned round.
“Fool that I am!” he cried, “to believe in you and not see through your woman’s tergiversation! You say you do not love Hamlin, but you do; you may despise him, feel his emptiness—I grant it all—be dissatisfied with him. Oh, I know it! But you love him all the same, and you would not for the world give him up, even if he asked you to.”
Anne laughed bitterly. “The usual generalisations about women. Because I will not do a
dishonourable thing, I must needs be a self‐deluding fool. No; I do
“You do not? Then, if Hamlin were to release you,—if he were to say, ‘I want to marry some one else,’—would you—would you not regret him, his poetry, his good looks, his fame, his fortune?”
“It would be the happiest day of my life!” cried poor Anne, despairingly.
“Then that day must come. Anne, I cannot see you sacrificed. I cannot see you lost to
yourself and to the world. You
“Poor Dick!” said Anne gently, touched by this enthusiasm, “you are very good; but I fear—I fear I shall never have any need of your help; and I would never burden another man—never have a debt again—if I were remitted this one.”
“You would have no debt,” cried Brown. “Anne, I am not a woman’s man. I don’t know how to
say such things. But ever since I have got really to know you, I have felt if
Richard looked straight before him: Anne could see his face quiver. A coldness came all over her: a coldness and a heat. She felt as if she must cry out. It was too sudden, too wonderful. The vision of being Richard Brown’s wife overcame her like some celestial vision a fasting saint. But she made an effort over herself. “I am bound, bound,” she said; “but if ever I be released . . . ”
She hesitated: the longing for what she knew herself to be renouncing was too great.
“Anne,” cried Richard, seizing her hand, “I love you—I love you—I want you—I must have you!”
It was like the outburst of another nature, a strange, unsuspected ego, bursting out from beneath the philanthropist’s cool and self‐sacrificing surface.
That sudden contact gave Anne a shock which woke her, restored her to herself; it
“If ever I be released,” she said, “I will remain free. I do not love you, Dick.”
She was sorry the moment after she had said it.
“I have gone too far,” cried Richard.
“Good‐bye,” said Anne. “We have been talking too long—and—you won’t resume the subject, will you?”
There was a command, a threat implied in her voice. Brown somehow felt ashamed of himself.
“Not since you wish it,” he said flatly.
“Good‐bye,” said Anne. And she walked away and entered the house—Hamlin’s house.
THE sudden revelation of her cousin’s feeling was more than a shock, it was a blow
to Anne. In her loneliness, in her dreary waiting for the hour of sacrifice, Richard Brown’s
friendship had, almost without her knowing it, been her great consolation and support. It had
given her a sense of safety and repose to think that, in the midst of all the morbid passion
and fantastic vanity which seemed to surround her, there was a possibility of honest
companionship, of affection which meant merely reciprocal esteem and sympathy in the objects
of life; wholesome prose in the middle of unhealthy poetry. This was now gone: Richard Brown
loved her, wanted her; it was the old nauseous story over again; the sympathy, the
Such was the bulk of Miss Brown’s condition; but there were streakings of another colour
which made it, on the whole, only more gloomy. The possibility, the vision which had for a
moment been projected on to her mind, of becoming Richard Brown’s wife, of sharing in all
those thoughts and endeavours which were her highest ideal, would return to her every now and
then in strange sudden gleams. And this possibility, or rather this which was an
impossibility, made the
Anne did not pay much heed to Hamlin and his doings: it seemed to her, whose life in the
last months had appeared like years, that it was always the same monotony; Hamlin was waiting
for her to fall in love with him, watching whether she was not in love already; offering her,
in those vague, Platonic, elegiac speeches of his about the necessity of
“What is the use of asking people to be intense when it is not their nature?” Anne would ask, not without bitterness in her own heart. “If you find a pleasant friend, be satisfied and thankful for your good luck.”
Be it as it may, Hamlin was restless, subject to strange ups and downs of humour, sometimes in a state of vague unaccountable cheerfulness, sometimes horribly depressed. To any one but Anne it would have occurred that there must be some novelty in his life. But Anne did not see; indeed, from a sort of instinct, she observed Hamlin as little as possible: she had loved him when she had not known him; the less she saw, except his gentle, chivalric, poetic, idealising surface, the better.
But one day—it might be a fortnight after the memorable walk home from Richmond’s
lecture—Anne found among her letters one, evidently delivered by hand or dropped into the
letterbox
“
Anne turned the note round and round, and read and re‐read it, her heart beating as if she
had received a slap in the face. “The
Miss Brown meditated for some time upon what she ought to do. She felt indignant with the
mysterious author of the letter; and she felt that, as it contained a slander, it was her duty
to let those whom it accused know the whole matter. Should she show that paper to Hamlin? Once
in her life, Anne gave way to a movement of cowardice. That letter,
Miss Brown had made up her mind that the mysterious letter had no sort of truth in it; yet
despite this decision, which lay, cut and
A new love was for him the most poignant of temptations,—a new love in its still half‐unconscious, Platonic, vague condition; and he was not a man to resist such a temptation; indeed he had gone through life with the philosophy that a poet may dally with any emotion, however questionable, as long as he does not actually commit a dishonourable action. Oh no, Hamlin’s ups and downs could not be struggles or remorse; so Anne decided that it was all fancy, all calumny. And she determined to give the letter to Sacha on the first opportunity.
Madame Elaguine at last made up her mind that her little Helen ought to learn something; and
with the impulsiveness of her nature, she determined that she, whom she had always kept under
her own eyes, should go to school. Why there should be such a swing of the pendulum, and why
Madame Elaguine should not rather hire a governess to teach the child in her own house, Miss
Brown could not explain, except by the capriciousness, the tendency always to be in extremes,
of Hamlin’s cousin. Anyhow, Sacha had determined that Helen must soon go to school, and she
had written to Anne begging her, before the child went, to permit her to share for a week or
two the lessons which Miss Brown was giving the little Choughs. “I know,” she wrote, “that my
poor little child is not fit to be turned loose among other children yet; I know she is too
ignorant, too sensitive, too much accustomed to life with her elders. To learn with Mr
Chough’s children, to play with them, will take the keen edge off; and also, I know, my
Anne was touched by this letter. Poor Madame Elaguine, although she did care too much for
Baudelaire and Gautier, and did tell too many anecdotes about married women’s lovers and
married men’s
Madame Elaguine was in one of her unstrung moments. Anne found her lying on a sofa, a heap
of books about her, reading none, fidgety and vacant. She brightened up for a moment on Miss
Brown’s entry, and
“I want to know,” she said, “why you are suddenly so anxious to send your little Helen to school, when you said, only a few days ago, that you could not bear even that a stranger should have any influence upon her.”
Madame Elaguine hesitated. “Oh, dear Anne,” she suddenly exclaimed, “I am a poor, weak,
vacillating creature, always in excesses. You
Anne looked at the Russian, who had raised herself on her sofa convulsively, and thatched and torn to pieces a flower which was lying on her, with a great look of pity.
“I am not bad!” cried Sacha—“I am not bad! I want to be good; but I can’t. Oh, and I can’t teach my child anything, not even the multiplication table,” and she suddenly burst out laughing.
Anne did not know whether to cry or to laugh.
“I quite understand your wishing that Helen should get the habit of work, and should learn
something,” she said, in her business‐like way; “but I cannot see the advantage of sending her
to school. She is far too nervous and delicate, and far too much accustomed to indulgence, to
get anything but harm from a
“I won’t have a governess; they are all good‐for‐nothings. I won’t have spies in the house!” exclaimed Madame Elaguine, vehemently.
“Nonsense!” said Anne; “how can you talk like that? You know that governesses are just as good as schoolmistresses; and for you and Helen such a plan would be in every way preferable.”
“I won’t have any one in the house to pry into my affairs!” repeated Sacha, hotly. “Helen
Anne felt angry with the little woman.
“Of course it is for you to choose,” she said; “but I confess I can’t see why you should not have a governess any more than other people.” She felt as if there were something wrong here.
“And do you forget what my life is?” cried Sacha; “do you forget that I am the daily, hourly victim of unseen enemies? Would you have me admit some one to my house, that she might play into their hands, or, at all events, pry into my misfortune?”
Anne had forgotten that. How unjust she was!
“True,” she said; “I think we might find a governess who, even under your circumstances, might be safely admitted into the house. But I can understand your unconquerable aversion to the idea, so we had better look out for a school, and, till one is found, I shall be delighted if you will send Helen to me. I fear I can’t do much for her, but at all events she will meet the Choughs, who are very good little girls.”
Madame Elaguine rose, and, to Anne’s immeasurable
“Oh Anne, dearest Anne,” she said, “you are so good to me—so good, so very good—and I don’t deserve it at all—indeed I know I don’t.”
“Nonsense; you are unwell and unstrung about Helen, and you are just making yourself miserable. Do try and be quiet, and reflect that there is nothing whatever to be miserable about.”
Somehow or other Miss Brown, for all her good‐nature, always had a harsh instinct whenever she saw Sacha in such a condition as this—an instinct that the Russian could prevent it—that such fits of tears and abjectness were mere self‐indulgence, and self‐indulgence which was utterly incompatible with Anne’s idea of self‐respect.
But Madame Elaguine could not be reined in. She fell back in an arm‐chair in an agony of hysterical sobbing, mixed with ghastly laughing.
“It is not nonsense; it is true—it is true; I don’t deserve it. I deserve that you should hate me. Oh Anne, you must hate me; but it is not my fault. I hate him! I have always hated him! I have told him so; but he won’t believe. Oh, indeed it is not my fault. But of course you hate me, you . . .” and she suddenly burst out laughing.
Anne was very white. She had heard and she had understood; but she had no right to have heard or to have understood.
Suddenly Sacha started up and looked strangely about her.
“What! you are here?” she asked, with a start as if of terror. “Oh, what have I been talking about? Oh, I am sure I have been talking nonsense!”
“Poor little woman!” said Anne; “yes, you
“Ah!” cried Madame Elaguine, with a sigh of relief. “Oh, you don’t know what it is to have
such a fit. One feels one is talking lies,
“You will feel all right when you have had some tea,” said Anne. “Tell me, have they, have those people been frightening you of late?”
Madame Elaguine nodded. “Only last night; you don’t know what happened. I didn’t intend telling you—look here—but it is that that has put me into such a state,” and opening the door of her bedroom, Sachs pointed to the wall opposite.
Over Madame Elaguine’s bed hung a painted portrait of little Helen; but where the face should have been was a dark spot.
“Good heavens! what have they done?” cried Anne.
“Oh, they have only cut out Mademoiselle Hélène’s face,” said the Swiss maid, who was sitting in the room, with a shrug. “For my part, I am accustomed to such tricks, and so, I should think, must be Madame also.”
Something cynical and insolent in the woman struck Anne very much.
“How horrible!” she said, leading Sacha back to the drawing‐room. “I can quite understand your being excited to‐day, and feeling anxious about Helen.”
“It is because of that,” said Sacha, with clenched teeth, “that I want to send Helen to school. She will be safer there than here. If things go on as now, I shall have to send Helen to a convent; I am no protection to her.”
“You must marry, and have a husband to take care of you,” said Anne, quietly.
Madame Elaguine turned scarlet. Was she
“Ah yes, marry!—that would be a fine idea!—and whom, pray? Perhaps Lewis or Chough. True—I forgot—he has a wife! Ah no, a rolling stone like me must always be solitary.”
“You need not always be a rolling stone,” said Anne, gently. “But I must go—good‐bye, dear Madame Elaguine.”
At the door she met Hamlin. It seemed to her that he looked guilty, and coloured.
“I have been to see your cousin; she has had another horrid trick played to her. Go up to her, it will do her good to see you; she is very lonely, poor little woman.”
Hamlin was unnerved by the allusion to the persecution. He stood silent for a moment, with a long lingering look on Anne, like a man making a mental comparison.
“You are very good, Miss Brown,” he said, slowly; “there is no other woman in the world like you.”
“Sacha has been more tried than I,” answered Anne. And Hamlin went up and Miss Brown went out.
MISS BROWN did not hand over the anonymous letter either to Madame Elaguine or to Hamlin. She felt that she had now no longer a right to do so. Sacha had, in the vague pouring out of words of that fit which Anne had witnessed, let out her secret; but Anne had no right to use it or to act upon it. She could only watch and wait.
Wait!—but in what a different spirit! Wait, not for the hour of death, but for the moment of freedom, of complete freedom.
“What has happened to you?” asked Mrs Spencer, meeting her on her way back from Madame Elaguine’s. “Why, you look quite another being, Anne—as if some one had left you a fortune!”
“No one has left me anything,” said Anne. “I feel very happy, that’s all.”
“But where in all this wretched London have you been that you should feel happy?”
Anne laughed.
“I have been to see Madame Elaguine.”
Mrs Spencer frowned.
“Well, that wouldn’t be enough to make
“Mr Hamlin was there,” answered Anne, sternly.
“Mark my words!” said Mrs Spencer that evening to her father and husband, and to one or two
of those well‐thinking æsthetes
“But, my dear Edith,” objected her father, seated among an admiring crowd in his dusty studio at Hampstead, among his ghastly Saviours on gilded grounds, and Nativities, in despite of perspective—“how de ye know that there’s ever been any philandering between ’em?”
“Oh papa, really now you are too provoking!”
“Oh, Mr Saunders, how do we know anything?” chorussed the two or three elderly poetesses and untidy Giottesque painters of the circle.
“P’raps ye don’t know anything, any of ye!”
Mrs Spencer sighed, as much as to say, “See what it is to be the long‐suffering daughter of the greatest genius in the world, and pity me!”
Cosmo Chough had been reading some of his ‘Triumph of Womanhood,’ lying on the hearth‐rug in the studio.
“Do you think he has proposed?” he asked, darting up, with beaming eyes.
“Proposed! I should think so, and been told not to play such tricks again.”
“Ah!” cried Chough, “thank heaven. I—I—” but he stopped.
“You shall send Anne your Ginevra in the Tomb, papa, as a wedding present.”
“Don’t be in too great a hurry,” said old Saunders; whereupon he was jeered at with all the respect due to so great an artist.
For the first time after so long, Anne felt happy. A load was off her mind. That Hamlin
should love Sacha, and Sacha Hamlin, was the miracle which alone could release her, and
releasing her, put an end at the same time to the horrible false position into which Hamlin’s
self‐engagement to a woman so different from himself created for him also in the future. And
now only did it strike Anne that perhaps
Days passed on; and Anne, instead of being, as she expected, disappointed, was confirmed by
every little thing in her belief. On one pretext or other, Hamlin was perpetually at Madame
Elaguine’s. The latest excuse for seeing her was to paint her portrait; so, for a number of
days, Sacha came every morning to the house at Hammersmith, and spent a couple of hours at
least closeted with Hamlin in the studio. Anne usually received her, and she frequently stayed
to lunch; and Miss Brown could not help feeling indignant at the coolness with which Hamlin
amused himself playing with two women: he was perpetually trailing after Sacha, he was
perpetually, she felt persuaded, talking about life and love and himself in a way which was
equivalent to making love to the little woman; and yet, he would still come and sit at Anne’s
feet, and represent himself as the dejected and heartbroken creature whom only a strong and
pure
“I feel I am not worthy to live!” he exclaimed. “I have become too weak and selfish to enjoy the world; I feel that I am sinking into a bog of meanness and sensuality; and yet I cannot even become the mere beast that I ought—the mere beast that would be satisfied with the mud. I keep looking up, and longing for higher things which I cannot attain.”
“How very sad!” said Anne, icily; “what a pity you can’t make up your mind! it would save you much valuable time. But then, I suppose, it always comes in usefully for sonnets. That is the great advantage of being a poet.”
Hamlin was silent. He had—she felt sure, and she was indignant as if at an affront—imagined
that he might tempt her into saying—“I will raise you,” while his poor, giddy,
“You despise me!” cried Hamlin, after a minute.
“I thought your indecision between the bog and the stars rather contemptible, certainly, just now. But I now see that such conditions are as necessary to you as a poet as are your lay figures and studio properties to you as a painter. It was my ignorance.”
Hamlin fixed his eyes on the ground. He looked very weak and miserable, and like a man who
feels that he has dishonoured himself in some way. But to Anne it was all merely a piece of
acting—the climax of that long and nauseous comedy of self‐reproach and self‐sympathising, of
pretending to hanker after evil and good, that was equally indifferent to him,—that comedy
which had begun long ago in his letters to her at Coblenz, which she had watched with
admiration, and love, and agony
Meanwhile Hamlin’s perpetual attendance on Madame Elaguine had become apparent to every one; and even Mrs Spencer admitted to her father that Hamlin could not have proposed that day she had met Anne.
“That is to say—mind you, I daresay he actually did propose; but that wretched woman somehow contrived to talk him over again. I believe she’s capable of everything!”
“Well, my dear,” said her father, “it goes a little against your theory that Miss Brown looks just as happy as possible.”
“Because she’s too honourable to believe!” exclaimed Mrs Spencer; and forgetting the many
acrimonious remarks in which she had indulged against Miss Brown, and the many times she had
sighed at Walter Hamlin taking up with a “mere soulless Italian” instead of with this or the
other Sappho or Properzia dei Rossi
In which sentiment poor Mr Spencer modestly acquiesced.
“I shall have to warn her some day, if no one else has the courage to do so,” she said. Of course no one else did have the courage. Edmund Lewis became every day more and more offensive in manner to Miss Brown; he hated her, and he enjoyed seeing her what he considered ousted.
Mrs Macgregor, although she went on abusing Madame Elaguine for being the Sacha of other
days, lived too much in her bedroom, saw too little of what was going on even in the house, to
guess at anything. Mary and Marjory Leigh looked on in wonder and indignation; but Anne’s calm
and cheerful manner forbade their saying anything. Did
“Besides, Hamlin is too honourable,” said Mary, forgetting about the letter to Harry Collett; “and how could a poet, an artist, prefer an odious, rowdy, hysterical creature like Madame Elaguine to such a being as Anne Brown?” The mere thought seemed a profanation.
“I don’t think Hamlin is a bit noble,” said Marjory, sternly; “and such a little wretch is just likely to pamper his vanity—and Anne is too honest to do that.”
“Every man has a nobler and a baser side,” said Harry Collett, mercifully. “Madame Elaguine
(though I think it very uncharitable to hate her because she is a little rowdy, and I’m sure
she’s quite innocent) may flatter Hamlin’s worse part. But the nobler will always have its
way, and with it Miss Brown. Walter is weak, but he can see the difference between an inferior
woman and a superior one. Besides, after all, she is his cousin, and I see
“That’s the way Harry pays off Hamlin for writing that beastly letter about me!” said Marjory to her sister, when Mr Collett was gone. “How I do hate evangelical charity! how I do wish Harry had just a little of the bad in him!”
Mary laughed, and catching hold of Marjory, kissed her.
“What do you mean?” cried Marjory, indignantly breaking loose.
“I mean, Marjory dear, that though you imagine the contrary, you are very, very glad that Harry is just what he is.”
“Well, perhaps I am. But still, oh, I do hate . . .”
And thus the Leighs, being very happy themselves, forgot Anne Brown’s supposed grievances, even as the best of us, being happy, will forget the wrongs of others.
But there was one person who could not forget what seemed to him the most frightful
“How ao you do, Mr Chough?” said Anne, stretching out her hand to the little man, who came in with even more than usually brushed coat and hat, and more than usually blacked boots, his lips squeezed into a long, cat‐like grimace of solemnity, his brows knit gloomily, and walking on the tips of his toes like an operatic conspirator. Mr Chough sat down and sighed.
“Will you have some tea?” asked Miss Brown, with her hand on the bell.
The poet of womanhood darted up, laid one hand lightly on Anne’s arm, and opening and straightening out the other with an eloquent gesture, said—
“Excuse me. I would rather have no tea. I want your attention—your
Anne could not help smiling.
“You can have both some tea and my best, my very best attention,” she said.
Mr Chough sighed, and waited gloomily until tea had been brought, absolutely refusing to open his lips.
“Have you brought something to read to me?” asked Anne, thinking it might be some new bit of
the ‘Triumph of Womanhood,’ which Cosmo Chough most innocently read to all the ladies of his
acquaintance, only Anne having the courage to say every now and then, “I think that had better
be omitted, Mr Chough. I think people will give it
“I have nothing to read,” answered Chough, solemnly. “I have come to ask your advice about a matter more important than any literary one.”
“You shall have it if I can give any. Go on, Mr Chough.”
“Well, then,” began Cosmo, stooping forward on his chair and frowning, “let me premise that I have two friends whom I greatly value. I am not at liberty to mention their names; but I will call one the Duke, and the other la Marquise.”
“Oh!” cried Anne, laughing, “I fear I can’t give you any advice about such exalted people as that. I am a woman of the people, and have never known a duke in my life.”
“One moment’s patience, dear Miss Brown. This Duke—who lives—well, let us say he has a
magnificent
“Well!”
“Well, this lady, by some occult power of which I cannot judge, gains possession of the
fancy of the Duke—not of his heart,—he still continuing to love the Marquise
Little by little Miss Brown had guessed what Chough was hiding beneath this grotesque piece of romancing.
“I say that the vulgar are probably right; and that the Marquise, for all the
Anne spoke coldly and indifferently; and Chough, who, despite his vaunted knowledge of the human heart, was the most obtuse of good‐hearted little people, actually prided himself upon having put his case so delicately, that Miss Brown could not even guess as yet that she was alluded to.
“But the Duke would die were he to lose her! The Queen of Night, who is a wicked
fairy—
Miss Brown suddenly sat bolt‐upright, and fixing her eyes on Chough, said—
“You don’t mean to say that you—you actually concocted that ridiculous missive?”
“Ridiculous missive! What ridiculous missive?” asked Cosmo Chough, striking an attitude.
“Well, I ought rather to say that most ungentlemanly anonymous letter, written in Italian which would make a cat laugh.”
“Ungentlemanly! ungentlemanly!” howled Chough; but in reality what he was thinking of was Miss Brown’s stricture upon the Italian.
“Oh, Miss Brown!” he cried, after a minute, “and it is possible that you should so far have misunderstood the friend who respects you most in the whole world, as to have supposed that that letter had any evil intention? Is it possible that you, who have of all people in the world been kindest to me, who have been as a mother to my children—that you should have such an opinion of me?”
Poor Cosmo had let go all his affectation;
“Oh fool, fool that I was, trying to do good, and merely making myself seem an odious ungrateful wretch!”
His sorrow was so genuine that Miss Brown felt quite sorry for him.
“Come, come, dear Mr Chough,” she said, “don’t distress yourself. I think you did a rather improper thing, but I am quite persuaded that you merely wished to do good.”
And she stretched out her hand.
Chough struck his head with his fist.
“Ah, you are good—you are
“Oh no,” said Anne, quietly, “I don’t think it for a moment. I know that all that letter contained was true, except that you were unjust to one of the parties; for I am sure Madame Elaguine is not at all base, and has no conception of what she is drifting into.”
Chough gaped in astonishment.
“You believe it to be true, and yet . . .”
“How can I help believing by this time what every creature can see, and what every creature, except themselves perhaps, must and does see as clear as the sun at noon?”
Anne spoke very composedly.
“But if that is the case—if you know—why then, how is it that you don’t—well, that you don’t put a stop to it?”
“One can’t put a stop to what has already taken place.”
“Oh, but you can—you can—and it was in hopes of your doing it that I wrote that letter. It is to entreat you to do it that I have come now, dear, dear Miss Brown, to supplicate, to implore you . . .”
“To do what?” There was a freezing indifference in her voice.
“To do what? Why, to do everything and anything! Dearest Miss Brown, I know, I understand
fully, that Hamlin has acted unworthily towards you. I know, I admit, that
“I think this all rather disgusting, don’t you, Mr Chough?” said Anne, sternly.
“Nay, have patience—for the sake of Hamlin, for the sake of your own noble goodness
“It is not,” answered Anne, harshly; “it is not doing anything of the sort, and it is no more a fancy than his love for me. As to Madame Elaguine, she is in every way fit to be his wife.”
“His wife!” screamed Chough, and looked as if he would faint; “and you would let your resentment go thus far—you would let the nettles choke the roses, the impure passion choke the pure one, you would sacrifice him and yourself—you would let him . . .”
“I would let him marry his cousin. There is no impurity about it, so please don’t revert to
that, Mr Chough. She is just the woman
Chough started up. “Oh, you saint! you noble heroic woman!” he cried, kissing Anne’s dress enthusiastically.
“What are you doing, Mr Chough?” she asked angrily.
“I am kissing the holiest thing I shall ever touch,” answered the little man solemnly. “Yes! you are a saint, an Alkertis, an Iphigenia! But we will not let the monstrous self‐sacrifice take place! No, by heaven! never, never! You shall not give up your happiness; I will speak to Hamlin. I will tell him all, all—that you love him . . .”
“I do not love Hamlin,” said Anne sternly, pronouncing every word clearly and slowly.
“You do not love Hamlin!—you do not want—”
Poor little Chough was so utterly dumfounded that he had not the breath to finish his sentence.
“You have obliged me to say what I never
“You love another!” whispered Chough, his eyebrows and whiskers standing on end.
“Neither him nor any one else.”
“Then why—why have you not told him so? Why make the sacrifice of your inclinations—because, marrying him, you would be—why?”
“Mr Hamlin has done everything for me. I was a penniless, ignorant servant. He had me taught, he gave me his money, he gave me more kindness and trustfulness and generosity than any man ever gave any woman I think, and I must pay my debt. If he wants me, he shall have me. If not, so much the better for me.”
There was a silence. Anne took up her piece of work; Chough sat rapping gently on the table with his finger‐tips, looking wonderingly at her.
At last Miss Brown spoke.
“You have got my secret out of me, Mr Chough. I don’t believe much in you poets; and I think you are a giddy, often a foolish man. But I think you are a gentleman at heart, and a good man; and as such, I trust you never to let out, either by speech or hint or look, positively or negatively, a word of what I have told you. If Mr Hamlin marry his cousin, so much the better; if he marry me, so much the worse. But what must be, must be. And come what may, I depend upon you, as the only friend upon whom I can rely, to forget all that I have told you to‐day. Will you promise?”
Miss Brown looked very solemn; and Chough was overcome by an almost religious awe.
“I promise never to reveal,” he said quietly, “but you must not ask me to forget; I have neither the power nor the right to forget the best thing I have known in my life. Goodbye, Miss Brown, and God bless you!”
And Anne, who believed only in right and wrong, felt really the better and stronger for the blessing of the preposterous little poet of Messalina and Lucrezia Borgia, who declared himself to be an atheist when he did not declare himself to be a Catholic mystic.
SOME time after this conversation with Cosmo Chough, a circumstance took place
which caused great momentary excitement, and considerably unsettled Miss Brown’s mind. The
summer had come with a sudden rush; and Hamlin had had the notion of taking his aunt and Miss
Brown, and two or three friends, to spend a week at Wotton. Among these friends was Madame
Elaguine. That Hamlin should care to take his cousin to the house where she had played so
lamentable a part in her childhood; that Sacha should endure to confront those invisible
ghosts of her uncle, her cousins, her own former self, of all the shameful past, which haunted
that house, was quite incomprehensible
“She is a brazen creature!” Aunt Claudia had cried, when she heard that Sacha was going to Wotton; “corrupt like her father, and fantastic like her mother. She must get Mrs Spencer or some one else to chaperon her in that house, if indeed she wants any one. I shall stay behind. As to you, Annie, you are at liberty to go or not go, of course.”
“I shall go, Aunt Claudia,” Anne had answered resolutely, “because I don’t see that I have a right to imply by my absence that I disapprove of Madame Elaguine’s going to Wotton. I neither approve nor disapprove; and I think that, however little we may sympathise with her notions of self‐humiliation, we must give her the benefit of supposing that she is honest in them.”
So Anne had gone.
The self‐humiliation of Madame Elaguine, and the hours she had spent in her room—she had
asked for the room which had been hers as a child—crying over the past, did not prevent her
being in excessively high spirits the
Madame Elaguine’s songs made Anne feel quite uncomfortable and angry; but she said nothing, seeing Mrs Spencer, who could tolerate any amount of impropriety as long as it was medieval and poetic, was evidently putting down this French levity as a mark of the Russian woman’s depravity; and she felt somehow, that though she was annoyed herself, and annoyed with good cause, she must not back up Mrs Spencer’s prejudiced indignation.
Cousin Sacha seemed to take a pleasure in vexing Hamlin, in shocking Anne, in making Mrs
Spencer think her a wicked creature; she sang on, in her devil‐may‐care, street‐boy way, with
a malicious, childish impudence in her face; then suddenly, when she saw Hamlin get positively
black at what he considered her bad taste—suddenly dropped from her
She looked very fascinating, as she sat near the window, resting her guitar on her knee,
Suddenly she threw the guitar on the sofa.
“Bah!” she cried, “what is the use of singing sad things when one is sad? and what is the
use of pretending to be merry, and shocking people with
And she walked through the French window on to the wide terrace which surrounded one side of the house and overlooked the lawn.
“The only good thing,” she said, “in this world is tobacco‐smoke. If,” turning with affected deference and timidity to Mrs Spencer, who considered a woman who smoked as little short of an adventuress, “you have no objection, these gentlemen and I will have a smoke.”
“Oh, pray don’t mind me,” snorted Mrs Spencer, stalking back into the drawing‐room, and sitting down near the window.
The three men immediately produced cigars and cigarettes and matches.
“No, thank you, Walter,” said Madame Elaguine; “your cigarettes are too weak for me—too ladylike, like their owner, for a badly brought up woman. I must make mine myself.” And she went into her bedroom, the last room opening out to the terrace, to fetch her box of tobacco and her cigarette‐papers.
In a minute she returned, whistling, in a curious bird‐like whistle, below her breath, and rolling a cigarette in her fingers. Some of the party were seated, some standing. Madame Elaguine came to where Miss Brown was seated, looking into the twilight park.
“Dear Annie,” she murmured, putting her arm round Miss Brown’s neck, in her childish way, and which yet always affected Anne as might the caress of a lamia’s clammy scales.
“I fear,” she said, putting her face close to Anne, and lowering her voice to a whisper, “that you must have thought me horribly vulgar and undignified and indecent just now. I don’t know why I sang all those nasty songs; I suppose it was to vex Walter. I don’t like them myself. But sometimes a sort of horrible desire, a kind of demon inside me, makes me wish to do something which I know is disgusting; I feel as if I could be the lowest of women, just from perversity. Ah, it is sickening.”
Anne did not answer.
“Where did you learn those wonderful little Burgundian couplets, Sacha?” asked Lewis, in his sultan‐like familiar way. He had a trick of calling her Sacha every now and then, as he had tried, but failed, to call Miss Brown Annie.
“I don’t know. I ought not to have learned them at all; and I ought not to have sung them
before a man like you, who notices all the nastiness there is in anything, and a great
“What a Southern evening!” exclaimed Cosmo Chough, looking up at the blue evening sky, singularly pure and blue and high, twinkling with stars, and against which the distant trees stood out clear like the sidescenes of a theatre. “It is sad that our cigars should have to do for fireflies,—to be the only thing imitating that,” and he pointed at the sky.
“A lit cigar is the only imitation of the stars which people like ourselves can attempt,” said the Russian. “It’s so in everything—our poetry, our passions—nothing but cigar‐lights for stars; don’t you think so, Annie?”
“What’s that?” asked Chough, suddenly.
They looked up at his startled voice.
“What’s what?” asked Madame Elaguine, quietly. “Have you seen the ghost of Imperia of Rome, Mr Chough?”
“What the deuce is that?” exclaimed Lewis. In the midst of the general blue
Anne turned round quickly and looked behind her.
“The house is on fire!” she cried. “Madame Elaguine’s room!” And before the others could understand, she had rushed towards the other end of the terrace.
The light, which had suddenly illumined the piece of lawn, the trees opposite, did issue, a brilliant broad sheet like that of large chandelier, from out of the open window of Sacha’s room.
“Good heavens!” cried Hamlin, “you must have set the curtains on fire with the match of your cigarette!”
“No, no,” cried Madame Elaguine, “I lit my cigarette here outside; it must be . . .” and she rushed wildly after Anne into her bedroom.
An extraordinary spectacle met Miss Brown first, and the rest of the party an instant or two later.
The large old‐fashioned bed of Cousin Sacha, which stood in the centre of the room, was burning, blazing like a Christmas pudding, its whole top, coverlet and pillows, turned into a roaring mass of bluish flame, whence arose an acrid stifling smell.
“They have done it! they have done it!” shrieked Madame Elaguine, throwing herself into Hamlin’s arms. “They want to kill me! they have always said so!”
But before he had had time to answer, she had rushed off into a neighbouring room, and, with a presence of mind most unexpected in her, returned with a heap of woollen blankets which she had dragged off a bed.
“Pour the water on this!” she cried to Anne, who, with her strong arms, had immediately
dashed the contents of a bath on to the flames. “Soak this! it is useless throwing water on
the flames;” and taking the soaking
In a minute every one had brought blankets, cushions, water; the servants had run up; and in about five minutes the flames were extinguished.
The damages were very trifling compared with the appearance of danger. The fire had not spread beyond the surface of the bed, and consumed only the upper layer of bedding. But the sight of that expanse of waving blue flame had been frightful, and it seemed impossible to realise that no harm had been done.
“How has it happened?”—“How have they done it?”—“Send to the police station.”—“Scour the park!”—every one was talking at the same time.
“I’ll go down into the park and have a good hunt,” said Hamlin, taking down one of the guns which hung in the hall; “they can’t have got far yet.”
“I don’t think you’ll catch them,” answered Lewis, in his drawling ironical way.
“We’re not in Russia, Mr Lewis,” rejoined Mrs Spencer, bridling up; “
“Some things can’t be caught,” said Lewis, with an odd wise smile.
While they were standing discussing in the hall, they were startled by a sudden thump on the
floor. Madame Elaguine, who had hitherto been singularly calm and energetic, had fallen in a
half‐fainting condition, like a column on to the ground. She was carried in to a couch in the
drawing‐room, and Anne called the Swiss maid, who came, with that sort of insolent
indifference to the condition of her mistress, which had struck Miss Brown on more than one
similar occasion. Madame Elaguine was in a state of hysterical panic—she wept, and laughed,
and talked, and moaned; but she absolutely refused to be put to bed, and insisted with great
violence that
A curious coincidence occurred, which remained impressed in Anne’s mind. While the rest of
the party, including Mrs Spencer, were examining the house in company with the policemen, Miss
Brown, who was seated near Madame Elaguine’s sofa—a sense of unreality, as of being at the
play, filling her whole nature after that terrible sight of the blazing bed—mechanically
opened a book which was lying on the table at her elbow. It was a child’s story which she had
bought on a railway bookstall and given to little Helen Elaguine
“And they never forgot, as long as they lived, that terrible burning bed.”
For a moment the words echoed through Anne’s mind as merely so much sound; but, as is the case when we hear a name which awakens associations which we cannot at first define to ourselves, she was conscious at the same time of an effort to adjust her faculties, to seize a meaning which was there, but which she could not at once grasp.
“And they never forgot, as long as they lived, that terrible burning bed.”
Anne kept on repeating those words to herself. They made her restless. She went to the window, and looked out into the night. The vision of that broad sheet of white light on the terrace and bushes, of that expanse of waving blue flamelets, rose up in her mind.
“That terrible burning bed.” She saw the printed page again. Then, as to a central bubble,
other ideas which bubbled up slowly began to gravitate. Madame Elaguine’s perfect, and, in a
woman so excitable, unaccountable presence of mind until all chance of further mischief had
been over; the blankets which she had immediately dragged out of the next room, as a fireman
might have dragged them; the rapid instruction, as of a person accustomed to such things, to
wet the blankets instead of pouring water on the flames, as all the others had done; the
insolent, indifferent look of the maid; the going into her room to fetch the cigarette‐papers
only a minute or two before the conflagration, and when it would seem that whoever had set the
bed aflame must have been making the necessary preparations. Then also, the fire had been so
carefully limited to the bed, as if no real damage had been meant. No; that was merely
consistent with the usual policy of Madame Elaguine’s mysterious enemies, who wished to
All these ideas moved confusedly through Miss Brown’s brain. Was it a mere ordinary mental
delusion, one of those impressions which physiologists explain by the imperfect momentary
double action of the two brain‐lobes; or was it a recollection of a suspicion which had long
existed in her mind, but unconsciously, not daring to come to the surface? Anyhow, it seemed
to Anne, as she stood by the open window looking into the night, and listening
THE incident of the burning bed left the inmates of Wotton Hall in a state of
excitement which outlasted their stay in the country. All attempts to find the culprits had
been useless; and Madame Elaguine had begged Hamlin not to permit any regular judicial
inquiry, lest the story of her persecution, about which she affected to be excessively
jealous, should become public property. Hamlin, who hated vulgar publicity, easily consented.
But the mysterious story was now known to all the guests at Wotton, and soon became known to
the whole pre‐Raphaelite set which centred round the house at Hammersmith, with the result of
turning Madame Elaguine, in the eyes of Mrs Spencer and her friends, from
The only person who seemed displeased was Hamlin; and the only person who seemed cold was
Miss Brown. Hamlin always required to absorb the whole attention of any person to whom he took
a liking; to see his cousin fenced
This sort of talk, with his beautiful dreamy eyes fixed adoringly upon her, his slow quiet
voice sounding like that of a votary before an altar, had long become for Anne a mere
additional bitterness; a bitterness of comprehension proportionate to the long delusion which
had made her see in this sort of behaviour the dissatisfaction of a noble nature, the
yearnings of real love. She was accustomed to it; and would have merely smiled the bitter
smile which had become part of her nature. But now, every lover‐like look or word from Hamlin
Into this vague and painful suspense were vaguely mingled the suspicions which she had
formed regarding Madame Elaguine. Confusedly Anne was conscious that the worthiness or
unworthiness of Sacha was not a matter of indifference to her; if Sacha was a mere hysterical
liar, she could not sincerely love
Suddenly, one day, there came a change, and with it the end of the terrible doubt and fear
which were corroding Miss Brown’s soul. What had happened Anne never clearly understood; she
only perceived a change, and guessed that it was connected in some manner with the sudden
disappearance of Edmund Lewis, and with some tremendous quarrel between him and Hamlin which
seemed to have preceded it. Mr Lewis, who had spent all his mornings in Hamlin’s studio, and
all his evenings in Madame Elaguine’s boudoir, appeared to have sunk into the ground; his very
name was scarcely mentioned; and Anne Brown, who hated the very sight of the little man with
the sealing‐wax lips and green cat‐like eyes, who instinctively felt that he personified
What had Lewis done? Had he insulted Madame Elaguine; and had this insulting, by a man who was his friend, of a woman whom he loved, made Hamlin suddenly conscious of his love for Sacha, and of his duty to protect an irresponsible little woman whom his indecision was putting into a false position? The more Miss Brown pored over the subject, the more did it seem as if there could be no other explanation.
But whatever the explanation, the result was unmistakable. On the score of ill‐health,
Madame Elaguine had more or less dismissed all those admiring and sympathising friends who had
given Hamlin so much umbrage, and Hamlin had become almost her sole and constant visitor. He
appeared to have almost taken up his abode at the Russian’s. He came to Hammersmith for lunch
as usual, but always
It seemed to Miss Brown as if she could understand it all so well: she, who was slow in
understanding others, felt as if she knew Hamlin’s character as her own father must have known
the construction and working of the machines which she remembered seeing him continually
taking to pieces and setting up again. Hamlin had been, so Anne thought, obliged to admit to
himself that he loved his
Oh, Anne had not suffered silently these two years, without getting to understand the
strange character to which her suffering was due. Yes, she knew Hamlin and what was passing in
his mind; and the sense of power implied in this knowledge, the power of following all
It gave her a morbid pleasure also to watch Madame Elaguine, who, in the last month or so,
ever since the quarrel with Edmund Lewis and the consequent intimacy with her cousin, had
suddenly changed in her manner towards Anne—had shown a half‐savage, half‐childish desire to
parade her conquest before her rival, to let her see how completely she had taken Hamlin away
from her, to humiliate and insult her: the flaunting perversity of a new sultana towards an
old one. Anne had hitherto insisted
Anne felt herself getting into so singular a condition of excitement, losing so completely,
under the pressure of these conflicting doubts and hopes in the past, of the great joy in the
present, all her usual self‐composure and self‐control, that she took fiercely to working, to
hurrying in every way through those studies
Now that liberty seemed on the point of
“If you go on like that you will get seedy, Annie,” warned the practical Marjory Leigh, now on the eve of becoming Mrs Harry Collett.
And Marjory Leigh proved right. The secret excitement of the last months, joined to the recent overwork, was too much for Anne. One day she was suddenly taken ill, and a little time later she was delirious.
“Nervous prostration from overwork,” said the doctors.
A great remorse, which was at the same time a great triumph, rose up in Hamlin’s heart.
“Sacha,” he cried, one day as Madame Elaguine came into the studio at Hammersmith, after
visiting the sick woman, “it is I who am killing Anne; and it is you—you—who are forcing me to
do it,”—and he tore the
“It’s no great harm,” said the Russian, quietly; “I’m not quite such a guy as you
represented me, Watty, and I’m the better pleased not to go down to posterity like that. As to
Anne, don’t flatter yourself you are breaking her heart, for the excellent reason that there
is none to break. Too much study! the doctor says, and he knows. A woman like that works only
with her brain. Too much Euclid, Kant, Hegel, Fichte, etc. You needn’t flatter yourself
that
Madame Elaguine watched Hamlin as she let these words drop, then she burst out laughing.
“Poor Walter! what a misfortune it is to be a poet and to be vain! I am really grieved for you. But sooner or later you would understand that when a woman has no heart, but only ‘a muscle for pumping the blood to the extremities,’ as one of her professors calls it, she can’t love; and that, moreover, no woman will ever understand or love you, you silly person, except your cousin Sacha.”
Cosmo Chough, who had come to the studio door, and, not being troubled with scruples when base creatures like Madame Elaguine were concerned, and having, moreover, a violent curiosity about everything concerning the Eternal Feminine, had listened at the keyhole, affirmed to Miss Brown some time after that Madame Elaguine had then and there put her arms round Hamlin’s neck, and called him a poor, vain little baby.
ON recovering from that long delirium, during which she had raved only about the
past and the future, about Miss Curzon, the Perrys, the Villa Arnolfini, Cousin Dick, Girton
College, and political economy, but never—by some singular obliviousness of the present—about
Hamlin and Sacha,—the first persons that Anne Brown recognised about her were the Leigh girls.
Marjory had postponed her marriage in order to help her sister in nursing Miss Brown; and Mrs
Macgregor had gladly accepted their proposal to settle for the time being in the house at
Hammersmith, she herself being far too unpractical to be of any use. Anne’s impressions were
vague, diffuse; the ideas aud sensations, the slight amount of life
The mere sense of rest and renovation constituted a sort of happiness, with which mingled
the consciousness of the kindness of those
Little by little the past became concrete once more; but it became concrete as the past, all
her doubts and difficulties remaining far distant behind her, like the Alps which the
traveller has arduously crossed, and looks back
“What has become of Sacha Elaguine?” she asked one day, rolling her head, with face even paler than before, and black crisp hair just beginning to cluster after cropping short, on the pillows. “Has she gone out of town? You have never spoken about her, Mary.”
Mary Leigh, who was seated, holding Anne’s thin white hand, did not raise her head; and Marjory, who was pouring out the tea hard by, flushed scarlet.
“Haven’t I? Oh yes, I must,” answered Mary Leigh, still keeping her eyes on the pattern of the carpet. “Madame Elaguine? Oh, she’s just as usual.”
“Odious little brute,” scowled Marjory.
Mary raised her head sharply, and gave her sister a look of reproof.
Anne asked no more. She had understood: during her illness Sacha had tightened her hold on Hamlin; the Leighs had seen it, or been told, and Mary was afraid lest her sister should let out to the invalid what she imagined to be a heart‐breaking secret.
“I am free!” thought Anne; and repeated these words to herself every time that one of the
Leighs spoke coldly of Hamlin, or looked savage when he was mentioned. And sometimes she
fancied that she could distinguish in the face and manner of the true‐hearted Mary,
“Won’t you let me smell Mr Hamlin’s flowers, Mary?” asked Anne from her bed.
Mary Leigh gave her a long strange look.
“They aren’t fit for you, Anne,” said Mary, in a hoarse voice; “they’re horrible, morbid sort of things—they’ll just make your head ache.”
“My head is much stronger than you think,” said Anne; “let me have them—they are lovely. The
jasmine doesn’t smell like ordinary jasmine. What is it?—it smells like the incense that Sacha
Elaguine burns in her boudoir; it’s nice, but too strong. I
Mary Leigh threw herself on her knees before Anne’s bed, and drawing her head to her, kissed her.
“Oh, Annie, Annie, my darling!” she cried.
“You are good,” answered Anne—“you are good to love me so. But Mr Hamlin is also very good, although he doesn’t love me. I am very happy—so happy, Mary dear.”
“She is mad,” thought Mary, in terror, as Anne threw her head back, smiling, her onyx‐grey eyes beaming, on the pillow. And she resolved that, as long as she could help, Anne Brown should not know what she knew, and what, every time that Hamlin’s name was mentioned, sickened her heart.
Some days later Miss Brown was sufficiently well to exchange her bed for a couch in the
Miss Brown was still unfit for much conversation; and Hamlin seemed glad to cut short the interview. She asked him to raise one of the blinds; and when the light streamed upon his face, she thought she saw in it something unusual, something beyond his mere usual melancholy, a lassitude and look of being worried; again she felt sorry for him.
“How is your cousin Sacha?” she asked.
“She is well,” he answered briefly, “and
Every afternoon Hamlin returned for a short time. Anne’s first impression was merely
strengthened; Hamlin was extraordinarily depressed, worried‐looking, taciturn. Anne felt
really sorry for him; he was evidently, she thought, eating his heart out in doubts and
self‐reproach; he had gone too far with Sacha to retreat, and yet his engagement to Miss Brown
forbade his taking a decisive step. After all, he was truer and nobler than she had thought,
more of her real Hamlin of former days; she reflected that this hostility of temperament and
aims between them, this long and sickening endurance of a bond which suited neither, had made
her unjust and bitter towards him, prone to seek for only his worse sides, neglectful of his
good ones. She felt that it was not the least benefit of her release that she could now be
perfectly grateful once more; that she could give to this man the
“He is mean, after all,” thought Anne; “he is angry with poor Sacha for being the cause of
his finding himself in a false position.” And she determined that she would speak, not to him
but to Madame Elaguine; she felt that she could not endure the way in which he would assuredly
seek to whitewash himself at his cousin’s expense. Mean, very mean; nay, something more than
mean. What irritation or hypocrisy could induce him to speak
And again she began to despise and dislike him. Another thing soon struck her. There was something unusual about Hamlin’s appearance. Somewhat effeminate he had always been in his aristocratic refinement; but now it seemed to her as if there were in his face a something, half physical, half spiritual, a vague, helpless, half‐stupefied look, which made her think of that hysterical tippling little poet Dennistoun, whom she disliked so much. Her mind reverted to what she had heard about Edmund Lewis having, at one period, induced Hamlin to take opium.
“Is Mr Lewis back?” she asked.
Hamlin flushed all over.
“Lewis is not likely to return,” he answered briefly.
What was the meaning of it all? Hamlin was also, she noticed, no longer as careful in his
dress as he had formerly been; there was
Was it possible that Hamlin, weak as he was, and feeling himself cornered in a false position, had taken to drinking—to drinking, which had been the fatal vice of his family, of his brother, father, and of his uncles, in order to rid himself of his worries?
She must speak to Madame Elaguine. She must let them know that they were free.
WHILE she was in this perplexity about Hamlin, Miss Brown received a visit from her cousin Dick. She had scarcely seen him, and never alone, since that memorable walk home from Professor Richmond’s lecture. Whether from the sense that he had gone too far, that his violence had offended and frightened her; or whether, more probably, from his having rushed to the conclusion that she was unattainable and perhaps unworthy of his seeking, Richard Brown had kept studiously out of her way.
For the first time in his life he came in with hesitation and almost shyness. He sat down by
the side of her arm‐chair, and spoke with a gentleness, a courtesy, that were quite unusual
“You are nearly recovered now?” he asked. “Do you feel as if you were getting your strength back, Anne?”
“Oh yes,” she answered; “I feel wonderfully well. I have been for a drive these last few days, and I am sure I could walk, if only they would let me. I only feel very tired and lazy every now and then.”
There was a pause.
“Do you remember what you told me that afternoon when we walked home from Richmond’s lecture—a rainy day at the end of March?” he asked suddenly.
“Yes, I do.”
“You said, if you remember, that you did not care for Mr Hamlin, and that you felt
“I remember perfectly. Well?”
Richard Brown had spoken slowly and watching her face; and he seemed surprised at the perfect calm which he read in it.
“Well, I think it is right that you should know what is by this time known by all your acquaintances. Walter Hamlin no longer wants you; he has entirely thrown you over for another woman. He is—I don’t know exactly what to call it, and don’t mean any innuendo—well—the accepted lover of Madame Elaguine.”
Anne nodded.
“I know it,” she answered coolly. “I have known it, or at least guessed it, since a long while.”
Richard was surprised, and, unconsciously perhaps to himself, mortified. He had always
resented his cousin’s fidelity to Hamlin, had always, with his tendency to seek for base
“It is no business of mine to pass a judgment over Mr Hamlin,” he proceeded slowly, and wondering, suspicious as he always was with women, of the genuineness of Anne’s imperturbability; “the whole business seems to me quite consonant with all my notions of his character.”
“I do not think Mr Hamlin has acted dishonourably towards me,” put in Anne, quietly; “on the contrary, I feel sure that he reproaches himself much more than he need.”
“Very likely. What I was going to say is merely that this new turn which matters have taken necessarily implies an entire change in your position towards Mr Hamlin. He no longer wants you; you are therefore free. Am I correct in my view of the case?”
He was speaking with a deference to her opinion quite new in him.
“As far as I can judge,” answered Anne, playing with a big lapis‐lazuli rosary which she had taken off her neck, “I think you are quite correct, Dick. I believe I am free.”
She hesitated and spoke the last words almost inaudibly, as if superstitiously afraid that they should be heard.
“In that case I presume you will have to remodel your life. Have you thought of any plans?”
“I have thought over the matter a good deal. My intention, as soon as Mr Hamlin and I have
come to an explanation, which will be shortly, is to go to Ireland for a few months with Mary
Leigh, to finish getting well and to finish some preparatory work, and then to go up to
Girton. I should be able to pass the entrance examination in another three months. You see,”
she added, “Mr Hamlin, in spending the money that he has in turning me into
She seemed to hesitate, to be afraid of being
“Do you really contemplate renouncing the fortune which Mr Hamlin settled on you? giving up all the luxury to which he has accustomed you, Annie?”
Richard Brown, disinterested though he was, was too deeply impressed with the mercenary temper of mankind, to believe very easily in such sentiments.
“Why, of course,” answered Anne. “When Mr Hamlin marries his cousin, he will find, that he has not too much with all his money. And I would certainly not keep any of it as soon as I could do without; though heaven knows I am not ungrateful, nor so silly as to fancy that I should be in the very least lightening my obligation towards him.”
Richard did not answer for a moment. “Listen,” he said, not without hesitation “I am nearer
to you than Walter Hamlin and whatever I am, I owe it to your father. I find I have just made
a very considerable
Richard Brown hesitated, in a way very singular in his cut‐and‐dry nature; he seemed prepared for a rebuff.
“You are very kind, Dick; but I can’t accept your offer. I owe it to Mr Hamlin, in return for all the generosity he has shown towards me and would still show, that I should never accept anything from any man but him, even if I were not resolved never to put myself under such an obligation again. I have no right to prefer your generosity to his.”
Richard Brown was silent. Then, after a moment, they fell to talking about the plans and
theories which occupied Cousin Dick’s mind. He was unusually gentle and modest;
“You are becoming quite tolerant, Dick,” remarked Anne. “Six months ago you could never have conceived that any one unlike yourself or differing from your views could have anything good in him. I am very glad; it will make you more hopeful of the world, and show you a lot of energy and good faith which deserves to be united to your own, and which you would formerly have thrown upon the dust‐heap.”
“You are right,” answered Brown. “I feel that I have diminished my own usefulness by not admitting any other kind of usefulness than my own. I often catch myself thinking, now, that my great danger lies in my tendency to underrate people; sometimes it seems as if, unless I can struggle against it, it will invade and sterilise my whole nature.”
“I am so glad you feel like that, Dick.”
“And do you know,” he continued, “I
He bent over her, and took her hand. She let him hold it for a minute. She felt so strangely free, so safe, so happy somehow with this man, whose presence had so often been a threat and an insult.
“I wonder whether you will ever learn to be just to Mr Hamlin,” she mused.
“I will do my best.”
She had withdrawn her hand from his.
“I wonder whether I have ever been just to Mr Hamlin,” said Anne.
Richard reddened.
“What makes you say that, Nan?”
“I don’t know. I feel how difficult it is
“Can you be just towards me?” he suddenly asked.
“I am, I think.”
“Do you think, then,” went on Richard Brown, “that during the time you spend at Girton you could try a little and understand me,—you could try and like me a little, Annie?”
“I do like you, Richard,” she answered coldly; but a quiet happiness, like that of a windless, half‐covered morning in the fields, stole over her.
“I don’t mean this,” he said, rising. “I want you to like me, Nan, as much—as much as you thought you liked Walter Hamlin.”
Anne shook her head sadly.
“That is quite impossible,” she said: “one doesn’t feel like that twice, I fancy, Richard, any more than one believes twice in angels or such things.”
Richard Brown frowned. She could never pluck Hamlin, Hamlin in some shape, real or false, out of her heart.
“Good‐bye,” he said; “I fear I have tired you. Annie,” he added, “it is idiotic, isn’t it? but all the time you were ill, even until I came into this room, I kept hoping that you might have lost your looks—that Hamlin might be quite unable ever to care for you again—that you might have ceased to be, in this sort of way, above me. And yet, when I saw you, I was glad it was not so. Oh, Nan, promise me you will try and like me a little.”
“Please don’t say that, Dick. I have been a slave, a prisoner. Can’t you understand that my great joy is the sense of my freedom, my sense of belonging to no one, caring about no one? Can’t you understand that it seems horrible to me to even think that I could ever care for any one again? Can’t you let me enjoy my liberty, at least until I have realised that it isn’t a dream?”
She spoke with impetuosity, but gently; and her cousin did not feel rebuked.
“By the way,” he said, “I suppose you have heard who is expected here soon—your old friend, Melton Perry.”
“Melton Perry!” cried Anne. It seemed such centuries since she had heard that name last. “Oh, I shall be so glad to see him, he is such a good man!”
She walked up and down after Dick had left.
Melton Perry! the name brought up the far, far distant past—a vision of the untidy house at
Florence; of Mrs Perry’s lean and Sapphic profile; of the tall grass and crushed herbs in the
vineyard of the Villa Arnolfini; of Hamlin as she had first known him—a mysterious,
unattainable ideal high above her; of the studio at the top of the tower; of herself, as she
recollected herself to have been, a sombre, unhappy creature, with whose identity she seemed
to have no connection, and into
And, as she cleared her mind of all vain regrets, she became aware that, in a manner,
THE day after this visit from Cousin Dick, came the first visit from Madame Elaguine. It seemed to Anne that, from the very moment of her entering the room, she could perceive something strange in Sacha’s manner—something brazen, flaunting, cruel. The little woman somehow no longer looked so small and that childish appealingness had entirely left her manner; she was self‐possessed, cynical, triumphant. Her very dress was different from anything in which Miss Brown had hitherto seen her; exotic indeed and fantastic, like everything that she wore, but certainly not turned out by Madame Elaguine’s maid. She kissed Anne familiarly on both cheeks, enveloping her in an atmosphere of heady Eastern perfumes.
“Poor Annie,” she said, “you have been very ill, and must have thought me a great brute for not coming to see you before. But Walter absolutely forbade my coming—stood in front of your door, so to speak, and shut it in my face. He pretended that I should have excited you too much. Perhaps I should; I am a wretched, excitable creature. Perhaps he was right; what do you think?” Madame Elaguine fixed her eyes on those of Anne; a long look of scrutiny and triumph, as if she had expected to see her wince.
“I think Mr Hamlin was quite mistaken,” answered Miss Brown quietly, understanding the meaning of that look. “I am much less subject to excitement than he supposes; and your presence would not have excited me more than any one else’s.”
“Really!” and Madame Elaguine’s mouth took a peculiar little sneering turn; “I should have
thought that I
Sacha laughed, and bit her lower lip a little, so that it suddenly became scarlet, like the lips of Edmund Lewis. She threw herself back in her chair, one foot crossed over the other, her eyes fixed on the Venetian chandelier, which caught opalescent lights in the sunshine; she was smiling, perhaps in recollection of the professor with his wrists and his waistcoat.
Anne did not know what to say; the presence of this woman seemed to freeze her, like the
contact of some clammy thing: it was as if the soul of Edmund Lewis had entered her body and
had become more active, more
“It’s a pretty frock, isn’t it?” she remarked, looking down upon it with satisfaction. “Oh
no, I didn’t make this; I am bored with always making my own frocks. It’s from Worth. I swore
I would bring round Watty from belief in pre‐Adamitic skirts and purfled sleeves and
eighteen‐penny medievalism to a belief in Worth; you know he used always to rant at Paris
clothes. Well, I’ve been as good as my word; this is from Worth, and what’s more, Walter has
paid my bill. Humiliating, rather, isn’t it? but then, you see, I’m a pauper,
Anne flushed. Hamlin had paid for Sacha’s dress! And yet, had Hamlin not paid for not merely one, but all Anne’s dresses these years—nay, for everything that Anne saw about her—nay, for everything almost that Anne knew and was? And still, how was it, there was a difference? and as she looked at Sacha in her fantastic Molière coat of crimson plush and watered white silk and lace, which Hamlin had paid for, she could not get out of her mind the image of certain French kept women whom she had seen, in their elaborate dresses and well‐appointed victorias, driving in the Park. It was very unjust and horrible, yet she could not get it out of her mind.
“Walter is a queer creature,” went on Madame Elaguine; “somewhat like my German
“Oh Annie, I am an unworthy wretch! I am a beast towards you!” she cried.
Anne felt a horror, a kind of fear of death;
“Madame Elaguine” she began, feeling her face still burning from this strangling embrace, and mechanically smoothing her ruffled hair, “I have long wanted to tell you something with regard to Mr Hamlin—indeed I feel I ought to have told it you before, but . . .” At this moment the door opened and Hamlin entered.
Anne had missed her opportunity; it was impossible to speak before Hamlin, although she had
once or twice contemplated clearing up matters to him and his cousin at the same time. But it
was impossible now. Sacha had something strange, brazen, about her, which froze Anne’s soul.
Hamlin was listless, depressed, with that hang‐dog, stupefied air that Miss Brown had noticed
in him of late. He
They did not stay long. Madame Elaguine rose, and Hamlin mechanically followed her example: was it that he could not see her go away by herself, or that he was afraid of being left alone with Miss Brown?
“This is my first visit to you since your illness, and it will be my last for a little time,” said Madame Elaguine, letting Hamlin help her on with her cloak, and spinning out the operation, as if to show that this depressed and sullen creature, for all his sulkiness, was her slave.
“Are you going away?” cried Anne, a sudden fear entering her heart. Sacha noticed
“Only for a fortnight,” she answered, with an odd smile. “Oh no; I can’t do without London
and my friends—hideous London and disagreeable friends, at least so far as Walter is
concerned. I suppose it’s my perversity and want of
“Come along, Watty!” cried Sacha; “can’t you learn to open the door for a woman?”
“Good‐bye, Miss Brown,” and Hamlin gave a little sigh of weariness as he pressed Anne’s hand.
Miss Brown remained in a state of vague fear all that day. Was that love—at least on
Hamlin’s part—that look of bored disgust with which he had responded to Madame Elaguine’s
provocation? Anne grew pale at the notion of that fortnight of Sacha’s absence. Would Hamlin,
fickle, easily wounded in his vanity, sated with Madame Elaguine’s Russian ways, remain
faithful to the absent woman? Would he not rather return and begin afresh that old, old story
of Platonic adoration, of self‐reproach, with what his cousin called Madonna of the Glaciers?
And as Hamlin was leaving, he had said to her half audibly, “If you will allow me, I will come
to‐morrow afternoon
A sitting! Anne’s heart had sunk at the mere word.
But the next morning she found on the tray on which her breakfast was brought up a twisted note. It was from Hamlin, written late the previous night.
“DEAR MISS BROWN,” it said,—“I fear you will think me very uncourteous to break through our engagement for to‐morrow morning. But I am feeling rather anxious lest Madame Elaguine should get imposed on about the school for her boy; so I shall join her for a few days in Paris. Pray forgive my apparent rudeness.—Yours sincerely, W. H.”
“What’s your news, Annie?” asked Mary Leigh, who had come in to see after her invalid. “You look as if you had come in for a fortune!”
Anne made an effort and laughed.
“It was only Mr Hamlin postponing a sitting which I was to give him. I really
“And Madame Elaguine?”
“Madame Elaguine—went yesterday.”
“Oh, indeed!” answered Mary Leigh; and as she said that, a wave of red came into Miss Brown’s pale face—why, Anne could not herself have explained.
THE day after Hamlin’s departure to join Madame Elaguine, Richard Brown paid
another visit at Hammersmith; and he dropped in frequently in the next few days. He never
spoke of his hopes, he never inquired about Anne’s plans; he scarcely so much as alluded to
Hamlin’s departure. He seemed satisfied to see his cousin, to explain to her all the things
that he hoped some day to do. This forbearance, this delicate discretion, on the part of one
of the most tactless and exacting of men; this something which implied that Cousin Dick had
learned to consult her wishes, touched Miss Brown very much. Love, or by whatever other name
(since the name of love was discredited to Anne) she might
Richard Brown had become comparatively quite charitable in his judgments, sincerely anxious
to be just. He tried to see things a little from her point of view—nay, even to understand
whatever good there was or had been in Hamlin. This big and self‐reliant man, who had already
thought and done so much for himself and for others, began to appear to his cousin as less
mature than she had fancied, and even less self‐reliant; new instincts and perceptions, new
sides of his nature—making it fuller, richer, purer—developing under her influence. Anne did
not love her cousin; she did not even anticipate loving him anything as she had once loved
Hamlin. She recognised that, in her nature, love could exist only for an ideal, and in an
ideal she could never again believe; but she became aware of
The fortnight was drawing to a close; Hamlin would soon be back. Anne began to be filled
with unendurable impatience; she even, once or twice, began a letter telling him everything,
and tore it up only from the fear that it might seem harsh, ungrateful, that it might (and the
idea was terrible to her) make him suppose that she was jealous, that she loved him. It was a
great relief to her when there suddenly came a telegram, sent on from Hamlin’s lodgings, and
opened by his servant, which announced for next evening the arrival
“Oh, Aunt Claudia,” cried Anne, “Mr Perry is coming to‐morrow evening! Do you think—oh, do you think you could have him to stay here till Mr Hamlin return?”
“Who is Mr Perry?” asked Chough, who was dining with them, suddenly pricking up his ears at
Anne’s excited tone. Could
“Mr Perry,” answered Anne, “is the gentleman in whose house I was a servant until I met Mr Hamlin—the father of the little girls whose maid I was. He was very kind to me, and I am very fond of him.”
Cosmo Chough stared at her in amazement. He had quite forgotten, indeed he had never
properly realised, that this queenly woman, this more than Dante’s Beatrice or Petrarch’s
Laura, had actually been a nursemaid—a servant! She a servant! he repeated to himself,
“Mr Perry, except Miss Curzon, was the only friend I ever had, until—until I met Mr Hamlin,” went on Miss Brown. “You will give him the spare room, Aunt Claudia, for my sake, won’t you? And you will let me arrange it for him, and make it look a little untidy, and put match‐boxes and pipe‐lights about, so that he may feel a little comfortable.”
Mrs Macgregor laughed.
“Put as many pipe‐lights about as you please, my dear; but if he fill Watty’s studio with pipe‐smoke, you will be responsible, not I.”
The next afternoon Anne Brown was just in the midst of what she called making the spare room
look untidy, taking out the superfluous æsthetic furniture which would, she knew, fidget her
former master to death, dragging in leather arm‐chairs instead of imitation Queen Anne things,
and piling newspapers and novels on the table, when a visitor was announced. She went down
into the drawing‐room, and, to her surprise, found Edmund Lewis. An inexpressible sense of
disgust came over her, This man personified all that she hated most of that past with which
she was about to break for ever. The little man with the auburn beard and sealing‐wax lips was
considerably less free‐and‐easy and sultan‐like than usual; his humiliation, whatever it was,
had evidently done him good. Indeed, Miss Brown was almost beginning to ask herself whether
she might not have been a little unjust towards him also, so respectful and amiable had he
made himself, when it began to dawn upon her that there was an explanation
“I hear that Walter Hamlin is in Paris with his cousin,” he had remarked, after a few minutes’ conversation. He had tried to say it in an off‐hand manner; but Anne had felt his green eyes fixed curiously upon her.
“Yes; they have gone to settle about sending Boris to the Lycée.”
Lewis hereupon made some remarks about English and French schools, and upon the education of Boris Elaguine; but slowly and dexterously he made the conversation return to Sacha and Hamlin; he made the conspicuous matter no longer the object of Madame Elaguine’s and Hamlin’s journey to Paris, but the journey itself.
“I don’t think Madame Elaguine’s Russian relations—her aunt who lives in Paris and Boris’s grandfather—will be particularly pleased at her going about like that with a young man,” he said. “Russians are such corrupt people, they see mischief in everything.”
Anne understood. Edmund Lewis, who always hated her, had been unable to resist the temptation, now that both Hamlin and Sacha were safe out of the way, of seeing the proud Miss Brown wince beneath his compassion. He was artistically playing upon the feelings of humiliation and anger with which he imagined her to be filled.
“Madame Elaguine is Mr Hamlin’s cousin, you must remember,” answered Anne, quietly bending over her embroidery.
“True; but the people who meet them in Paris won’t know that, or won’t believe it. Besides,
it’s not as if they had always lived together and been as brother and sister, as some cousins
have. I think Madame Elaguine is very rash to run the risk of unnecessary gossip; and I must
say I can’t understand Hamlin being so dense as not to see that he was compromising his
cousin, especially as people were beginning to notice his assiduity to his cousin even here.
Of course, however,” added Lewis, fixing his eyes on Miss Brown,
“There is nothing to congratulate about,” answered Anne, quietly; “there has been no question of my marrying Mr Hamlin. I am sorry such an idea should have got abroad. I was, you know, Mr Hamlin’s ward till lately, and I am now taking advantage of his aunt’s kindness to stay here till—till I settle what I am going to do; I may be going to Girton—I don’t know.”
“Oh, indeed!” exclaimed Lewis; “pray forgive my unintentional impertinence then. Girton? Ah—How long do you intend remaining there?”
“I don’t know. Nothing is settled yet.”
“I may stay there altogether. I should rather like to be a teacher.”
“And I,” said Lewis, with one of his would‐be fascinating smiles, “would, in that case, like to be a pupil, Miss Brown.”
Anne did not answer. He must be disappointed, she thought. But he was determined to get some satisfaction out of her.
“I can’t get over Hamlin’s thoughtlessness in accompanying Madame Elaguine to Paris,” he said. “It would have been so simple to ask some lady to be of the party. I suppose you did not like leaving Mrs Macgregor? I was sorry to hear that she was ailing.”
“There was no question of my going,” answered Anne; “and I do think it is such silly nonsense about any one being required. If people choose to think that Mr Hamlin is going to marry his cousin—well, why not? It would be a very natural thing if he did.”
She looked Lewis boldly in the face. It was the first time that she had said the thing which she believed, hoped for, prayed for.
Edmund Lewis was evidently staggered; and Anne enjoyed watching his discomfiture. But a thought soon came into his subtle head.
“I suppose you see a good deal of Mr Richard Brown?” he asked; “he’s an extraordinarily clever man.”
“Yes; he is very able. I see him often enough. At present his electioneering business doesn’t leave him much time.”
“Ah, to be sure. It costs a lot of money, doesn’t it, to get into Parliament? But I suppose Mr Brown is rich now, is he not?”
“He is well off.”
“And he is sure to succeed. He has a fine career before him,” mused Lewis. He had, as he
thought, grasped the situation: there had been an amicable exchange—Anne was to marry Richard
Brown, and Sacha was to have Hamlin. All his enemies—for Sacha and Hamlin had evidently sent
him to the right-about
But he kept his temper—nay, he was quite unusually deferential and sweet. He led the conversation to other topics; and Anne thought that his only object was now to talk no more about the affairs which he had so misjudged, when, she scarcely knew how, he began to talk about Wotton Hall—first about the scenery, then about the grounds, then the house, then their stay there, and finally about the incident of the burning bed.
He went over all the circumstances of it; he summed up all that he and Anne knew of Madame
Elaguine’s persecution; and then, as if discussing a curious psychological problem, he asked
her whether it had ever occurred to her that there was any possibility that the persecution
should be a fraud, and that the bed
Anne said nothing; the recollection of the precious lace‐trimmed dressing‐gown, placed carefully out of the way of the flames, and of that sentence, “And they never forgot, so long as they lived, that terrible burning bed,” which had caught her eye in little Hélène Elaguine’s story‐book, came into her mind. She had put that matter of the persecution behind her of late, and yet in her heart she felt that she believed it to be a fraud.
“I have had my doubts about it,” bending over her work lest Lewis should see her face.
“Indeed,” she added boldly, indignant at her
Lewis smiled. “I am glad to find that you take my view of the case, Miss Brown. The chemist at Appledore—where, if you remember, Madame Elaguine went for some shopping the day before the fire—showed me himself the bottle of acid from which he had helped Madame Elaguine—I forget the name of the stuff—she said she wanted some to take spots out of a dress.”
“Indeed,” went on Lewis, “I think that we have in Madame Elaguine a very curious instance of
a sort of monomania which has, I believe, its scientific name,”—and Lewis began to retail a
variety of instances, culled out of some volume of ‘Causes célèbres,’ of persons who had
elaborately made up persecutions of which themselves were victims. He had always been fond of
talking as if he knew a great deal about morbid conditions of the brain, and, indeed, morbid
things of all sorts; and he
“One is apt to meet very singular types among Russian women, especially such as have led a wandering life like Madame Elaguine,” went on Lewis. “They are devoured by a passion for the forbidden, or at least for the unreal and theatrical; there is something strangely crooked in their moral vision, something discordant in their nature. They are extraordinary, charming, intelligent, depraved creatures. Only a Russian woman could be at once so childish and so theatrical and insincere, so full of idealism and of cynicism, as Madame Elaguine. Ah, she is a wonderful being! That matter of the burning bed finishes her off perfectly.”
Edmund Lewis fixed his green magnetic eyes on Anne. He still believed that she must hate
Sacha, as it was clear that, for some reason or other, he hated the Russian; and he wished, by
giving Miss Brown these notions about Madame Elaguine, to induce
“I think you take a dreadful view of the matter,” she said; “you explain Madame Elaguine,
who is only half a Russian, by all the horrible Russians you have ever met or imagined. I
think there is a much simpler explanation. Madame Elaguine has been very strangely brought up;
she has lived with very bad people; her husband was a
Anne spoke rapidly. She seemed to be speaking fairly; and yet she knew she was wilfully misrepresenting, that Madame Elaguine was something more than a hysterical monomaniac: she remembered Mrs Macgregor’s stories of Sacha’s degraded childhood, all the accusations of her precocious lying and unchasteness, of her having led one of her cousins into mischief, and set the house by the ears. She was indignant with herself for defending this woman—out of charity? out of conviction? No. But merely because she required that this woman be sufficiently innocent to become Hamlin’s wife.
Edmund Lewis stroked his auburn beard meditatively.
“I don’t believe in praise and blame,” he answered; “I believe merely in fate. Some people
are born noble, truthful, chaste—others just the reverse. It is the fault of neither; and
each, in its way, is equally interesting and valuable to the artist or the psychologist. The
curious thing about Madame Elaguine is, that she apparently stands half‐way; she is, according
to the ideas of the world, half responsible and half irresponsible. We see in her a hysterical
woman, troubled by a morbid love of deceit; and at the same time a woman to whom such deceit
is or has been practically necessary. Madame Elaguine continues for her amusement, and
develops to the utmost, an imaginary persecution, whose origin must be sought in some intrigue
which it was her interest to veil by a mystification,” Lewis drawled on in his omniscient,
half‐pedantic way, as if the intrigues of married women were the most usual subject of
Miss Brown blushed crimson; but she felt something more than insulted, something more than indignant. What right had this man to focus all her own suspicions concerning a woman whom she fervently wished not to suspect?
“Mr Lewis,” she said, “I don’t think those things should be listened to by me or said by you. I believe that Madame Elaguine is not sound in her mind, and that her persecution is a hoax; but I believe that she is an honest woman in other respects. She is a friend of mine, and I will not hear her slandered.”
“Heaven forbid that I should wish to slander her! I think she is a fascinating woman; and she is—at least she was—quite as great a friend of mine as of yours. I was only telling you how I explain her character.”
Lewis had always appeared a reptile in
“I hate scandal,” he said, taking his hat, “and I am most grieved to have appeared to be talking scandal. People always misunderstand the sort of passionate interest I take in every kind of curious character. I suppose you would call it morbid, Miss Brown; but I really was considering Madame Elaguine merely as an interesting study.”
All this kind of talk, of which Hamlin was so fond, perfectly sickened Anne; and the sudden stirring up of all her old suspicions was exasperating.
“That is all very fine,” she said angrily; “but do you, or do you not, believe Madame Elaguine to be a dishonourable woman, apart from this monomania?”
“It is very hard to say. You know I disbelieve in what you call moral responsibilities. I
imagine Madame Elaguine to have found her mania for persecution very convenient at one period
of her life—yes, certainly
Miss Brown took no notice of Lewis’s insolent inquisitiveness of manner.
“If you think that, Mr Lewis,” she said, “may I ask how you reconciled with your notions of gentlemanly behaviour the calm way in which you let Mr Hamlin introduce such a woman as you describe to me, and let me continue to know her? No; you are perfectly aware that all this is merely trumped up at the moment.” And she put her hand on the bell‐handle, for the door to be opened to Lewis.
Edmund Lewis smiled.
“Walter Hamlin’s eyes are quite as good as mine. As regards my behaviour towards you, I
cannot go into details, but you may understand, dear Miss Brown, that two or three months ago
I may not, as a man of honour, have been at liberty to discuss Madame Elaguine’s character in
the way that I
Anne merely made an impatient gesture, a gesture almost of disgust, as Edmund Lewis left the room.
So this was the explanation of Edmund Lewis’s apparent disgrace! Sacha Elaguine had repelled his odious advances, she had closed her door to him, she had complained to Hamlin; and now, as soon as their backs were turned, Lewis had come to slander them without fear of a horsewhipping. Anne seemed to breathe once more—thank heaven that the wretch had overreached himself in his malice!
THE door had scarcely closed upon Edmund Lewis, when it opened again suddenly.
“Mr Perry!” cried Anne, rising and running forward as a child might run to meet a former kind and encouraging teacher; “Mr Perry! oh I am so glad to see you!”
It really seemed to her that this dear, good, open familiar face, with the untidy yellow hair and beard,—that this well‐known, boyish, slouching figure drove away like some cabalistic sign the loathsome creature who had been there a few minutes before,—that Melton Perry dispelled all the horrid vision left behind by Edmund Lewis.
“Didn’t expect me yet, eh, Annie—I mean Miss Brown?” said Melton Perry, as she
“It’s one of the best things I have,” said Anne, the tears coming into her eyes as this well‐known voice brought back the far‐distant past—“it’s the present of a friend.”
“And all this, isn’t this also the present of a friend?” said Perry, throwing himself into an arm‐chair, and looking round the room with much the same wonder with which Anne had looked at its strange furniture, its brocades and embroideries, and Japanese vases and lustre plates, when she first came; “but I forgot, Walter Hamlin isn’t a particular friend of yours.”
To this jest Miss Brown made no answer:
“Lord, what a damned gorgeous place this is!” cried Perry, still looking round; and then, suddenly turning towards Anne, where she sat, in a wonderful trailing dress of deep crimson stamped velvet, a big bunch of blackish crimson roses marking off, throwing into relief, the strange opaque ivory of her face, “what a beautiful woman you are, Annie! Do you know, I usen’t to believe it, when Watty raved about you at the Villa Arnolfini. What a crusty old jackass I must have been! But tell, why in the wide world aren’t you married yet? What have you been doing all this time?”
“Mr Hamlin has not asked me to marry him yet,” answered Anne, laconically.
Melton Perry thrust his hands upon the arms of his chair, and his whole body forward. “Not asked you to marry him yet!” he repeated; “do you mean to say you aren’t engaged to him . . .?”
Anne shook her head.
“That he’s been going loafing, and spooning, and doing
Miss Brown could not help smiling.
“Oh no, Mr Hamlin has been quite well. He is in Paris at present; he didn’t expect you quite so soon, but he will be back in a day or two.”
Melton Perry rose and looked Anne very earnestly in the face—
“Miss Brown—no, I can’t call you Miss Brown—Annie, tell me the truth. Has Hamlin not kept his word—has he played you any dirty trick? No, no, I don’t mean anything,—but, has Hamlin played fast and loose with you?”
“Mr Hamlin never intended asking me to marry him at once,” answered Anne, evasively. She felt in Melton Perry’s suspicions that again, as with her cousin, Hamlin would be attacked, maligned, that she would have to defend him. “Don’t you remember, Mr Perry? We were to wait, to see whether we really . . . I will tell you all about it later—to‐morrow. It is a long story; I want to hear about you now, about Italy—about your work, the children, Mrs Perry.”
“Mr Hamlin,” she added, fearing lest her evasive answers, her haste to get rid of the subject, should prejudice Perry against his friend, “has been most generous and noble towards me; indeed much more than I can ever say.”
“I’m damned if I understand any of it,” said Perry to himself, as he proceeded to answer
Anne’s rapid strings of questions about his wife, his little girls, his pictures, his
etchings,—those etchings, never thought of before, which had revealed in this sixth‐rate
painter
“Annie,” he said, “if it’s not rude to ask, for I’ve forgotten—how old are you?”
“I was twenty‐four last month. Why do you ask? Do you think I look more?”—she added, with a smile whose bitterness he did not catch. She could scarcely realise it herself; she seemed to have lived so long, such years and years since she had seen him last—nay, since she had first entered this room.
“Twenty‐four,” repeated Perry, stupidly. “Well now, don’t be offended—of course you couldn’t be more, for you weren’t of age when you left us; but somehow—it isn’t that you don’t look young, you know, but all the same I should have thought . . . I’m a rude brute.”
“That I was much older,” laughed Miss Brown. “Well, I often think so myself.”
“It’s something, I don’t know what. You are far handsomer than in Italy, and you never did look much like a girl—you know what I mean; but now, upon my word, I don’t know how to say it, I never saw an unmarried woman look like you. You look as if you had seen and understood such a heap of things. I feel quite a fool before you. Forgive me,” he said, “I’m always a blundering tomfool. I had somehow thought of you as something like my own girls. Winnie’s sixteen, you know, and such a strapping girl. But I feel as if you might be my grandmother.”
Anne laughed. “I have always felt as if I were your grandmother. I was born old. Good‐bye, Mr Perry. Remember that dinner is at seven; and put on a dress‐coat if you want to win the heart of my aunt—I mean Mr Hamlin’s aunt.”
Melton Perry whistled as he stooped to unbuckle his portmanteau.
“I’m damned if I understand anything of it all, and Annie least of any of them,” he mused.
“AFTER all,” said Melton Perry to himself next morning, as he sat under the big
apple‐trees in the garden, smoking his pipe and looking at Miss Brown stitching at a piece of
embroidery and overwhelming him with questions about Winnie, Mildred, Leila, the baby, Mrs
Perry—nay, even about all her former fellow‐servants in Italy, and the grocer round the
corner, and the milkman, and the man who came from the country every Monday to fetch the
linen,—“after all, it was a very bright idea of old Watty’s to fall in love with our nursemaid
and turn her into a wonderful æsthetic being in a wonderful æsthetic house: it was very
sensible of Mrs Perry to encourage him in the idea; and it was just like
After lunch Anne took Melton Perry up into the drawing‐room, cool, and almost Italian, with drawn blinds and a faint smell of flowers in the dusk, on one of the most stifling London afternoons. Perry mechanically took out a cigarette; but he hastily put it in again. It seemed to him profanation to smoke in such a wonderful room, in the presence of such a wonderful woman.
“Please smoke; you used always to smoke after lunch with Mrs Perry,” said Anne.
“But—this isn’t Florence; and you—you aren’t Mrs Perry.”
Anne made an impatient gesture that he should take out his cigarettes again. She had
determined that she must speak to him before Hamlin came; that she must try and get him to
understand, to explain things to Hamlin. But how get this good‐natured, kindly, childish, yet
in a way chivalrous, harum‐scarum creature to understand her story? She
Anne groaned at the thought, as she might have groaned at some immense stone to roll uphill. It was always so difficult for her to understand others, so intolerably more difficult to make herself understood. But she had resolved.
“I must tell you all my history since last we saw each other,” she said; “you will want to hear it, won’t you, Mr Perry?”
Perry, to whose brain all the unwonted
“I scarcely know where to begin; perhaps
“Oh yes; what the deuce is the meaning of it, Annie? You are certainly the queerest people,
you æsthetic folk. By Jove! you actually have a photograph of yourself with the children. I
had clean forgotten its existence; and now I remember as if it were yesterday taking you to
Alinari’s, and how beastly naughty Winnie was! Oh, what a sulky blackamoor you do look, Annie!
Good gracious! you don’t mean to say you know
“Mrs Constantine Bulzo ?” asked Anne, in amazement. “Whom do you mean? I never heard of such
a person. That photograph?—why, that’s a half‐Russian cousin of Mr Hamlin's
“Hamlin’s cousin!” whistled Melton Perry,—“well, upon my word . . . yes, of course, I had forgotten—of course, her name isn’t Mrs Constantine Bulzo any longer. But may I ask, how under heaven do you come to know Madame Elaguine?”
“I don’t understand a word. This lady is Madame Elaguine; she is Mr Hamlin’s first cousin, and that’s of course how I come to know her.”
“Hamlin’s cousin or not Hamlin’s cousin, how in the wide world could a woman like you ever know, ever meet such a—such a—excuse the word, but it’s the least bad I can find—such an abominable baggage as this woman, Elaguine, or Bulzo, or Polozoff—as this abominable Sacha?”
Miss Brown turned white and almost green; the embroidery slipped out of her hands—she gasped.
“Good Lord, what’s the matter with you,
“It’s nothing—the heat, I suppose,” said Anne, stooping to pick up her embroidery; “and then, also, I suppose I’m not very strong yet; I’ve had brain fever, and you took me by surprise. But I oughtn’t to have been surprised, because I know Sacha Elaguine has a great many enemies, and that her circumstances, her history, and in some measure, unfortunately, her ways and character, rather lend themselves to all manner of horrible stories. She’s a frightfully tried and slandered little woman, poor thing. But I don’t—I don’t believe any of it.”
Anne was conscious of a horrible effort as she spoke these words; lying was difficult to her; and she remembered Edmund Lewis’s words.
“Are you really fond of Madame Bulzo—I mean Madame Elaguine?” asked Perry, grown
“I am intimate in the sense of having been with her a good deal, and knowing more than other people about her,” answered Anne; “but I can’t say I am a great friend of hers. She is Mr Hamlin’s cousin; she has settled in England recently; he—we, I mean—see a good deal of her. I am awfully sorry for her, poor little woman; but there isn’t very much in common between us.”
“Thank goodness!” cried Perry. “Do you know, the sight of that photograph made me feel quite sick—the thought that you, Annie, should be the friend of such a creature. But I knew you couldn’t be.”
“But I am Madame Elaguine’s friend; I don’t believe a word of the infamous stories that are told about her; and you wouldn’t believe them either, if you knew all that I do.”
“What
“Listen to me, Anne,” he said, “and judge whether I am unfair. God knows I’m not a Puritan,
neither towards myself nor towards others. I’ve been a very rowdy man; I’ve knowu a great many
rowdy women—what you call regular bad women—Russians, who are the
“I understand; but I don’t see why I should believe—it’s too horrible to be true.”
“It is true, though, for Constantine Bulzo told it me all himself later; how the Elaguine
had talked him over to consent, and had regularly bullied his sister into the marriage, by
pretending that it was the only way of paying a lot of imaginary debts of her brother’s, and
had forced Constantine, who was raving in love with her, to hold his tongue. That was the end
of Marie Bulzo. Now as to Constantine. His sister once safely married to her old beast, he
went off with the Elaguine, or rather, the Elaguine went off with him. Next summer I met them
at Perugia; they were travelling about in remote places as Mr and Mrs Bulzo; and English
people were so kind as to believe that this Russian woman of thirty and this Greek boy of
twenty were married. Constantine perfectly adored her; but I never
“I saw Constantine shortly after; the woman had spent nearly all his money, and he was
living, or starving, in a room in a beastly court, slinking out only early in the morning and
late at night, spending the day lying in his bed, eating opium and drinking. I never saw such
a wreck in my life. As he was starving, I got him a place as clerk at a picture‐shop, and
tried to get him to work; but he didn’t seem to care about living, and went on drinking and
Perry was walking up and down rapidly. Anne had never seen him so excited in his life.
“But,” remarked Miss Brown, coldly, “even admitting your story to be true, which I suppose, as it comes from you, that I must, was it all the woman’s fault? You men always throw the blame on the woman. But your Constantine Bulzo must have been a wretched weak creature.”
Perry stopped short.
“No one has a right to expect every man or every woman to be very strong,” he answered, sadly. “This poor boy was kind and trusting, and, when left to his own devices, honest. He was not weaker than most men, especially than most artistic natures—not weaker, for instance, than Walter Hamlin.”
Anne Brown did not answer. But next morning she greatly surprised Melton Perry by asking him, in a voice that affected him as being very strange—
“Did you tell me something—a dreadful story—about Madame Elaguine and a young Greek friend of yours, yesterday afternoon?”
Perry looked at her with surprise. There was something in her wide‐opened, strained eyes, in her rigidity of features, that made him think of a sleep‐walker.
“Of course I did. Why?”
“Oh, nothing. I had only a very bad night—all manner of horrible dreams, and I was not sure whether this might not be one of them.”
“DO you know, Annie,” said Melton Perry, two or three days later, “I find Watty
very much altered. He seems so fearfully depressed and broken‐spirited. He used always to be
bored, but not like this; he has got to look so old, with those great rings under his
eyes.”
Miss Brown did not answer. Hamlin had returned the previous evening from Paris, and she also
had noticed that he was changed—not so much, indeed, as Melton Perry seemed to think, for
Melton Perry had not seen him for four or five years; and she—she had watched a change coming
over him during the last months. Yet even she must own to herself that this change had made
rapid progress during his fortnight or three weeks in Paris, or at least that this absence
“It’s awfully good of old Hamlin to wish me to know all these grand swell painters and
Anne did not answer. It seemed to her that she understood so well why Hamlin dreaded a
One afternoon, they were seated—Hamlin,
Hamlin was more than merely depressed, he was very sad; his face, so handsome and still so
young, so perfectly unmarked in feature,
Richard Brown, obviously disappointed in his visit, rose.
“Why are you going so soon, Brown ?” asked Hamlin, rising and making an effort over himself;
“you never give me a chance of seeing you. Won’t you stay to dinner? It is very impertinent of
me to invite people in a house that isn’t mine; but I feel sure Miss Brown is disappointed in
not having had any talk with you. Chough is coming to see Perry
He spoke simply, in his quiet, subdued, melancholy voice. Richard Brown looked at him rapidly from head to foot; what was the meaning of this? And Anne felt herself growing very red. Had Hamlin guessed what she scarcely herself knew?
“Thank you,” answered Richard; “I am dining with some of my would‐be constituents to‐night. You know,” he said to Anne, “I am going into Parliament, I believe. I will return soon; many thanks, Mr Hamlin.”
“I have a good many things to tell you, Nan,” he said, as Miss Brown accompanied him to the room‐door. “I have heard of a scholarship which I am sure you could take if you would cram for six months; and I want to ask you a lot of things also. I will come back in two or three days. Good‐bye.”
He squeezed her hand; and Anne felt her heart thump at that hand‐squeeze, so frank and affectionate.
“Good‐bye, Cousin Dick,” she said. Her voice and eyes and hand lingered in that farewell, in a way quite unusual to her reserved and decided nature. She was saying goodbye she knew not exactly to what, but she felt that the farewell was the last, and that it meant farewell to her happiness.
Chough came to dinner and stayed during the evening.
When he and Hamlin had taken their departure, Perry remained for a few moments standing by the open window, looking vacantly at the trees, the outlines of the craft moored opposite, the long trails of moonlight on the water. Then he came back into the room, and began fiddling with some roses in a glass.
“Beautiful roses,” he said, in an awkward drawl; “we have none like them in Italy. Why don’t Italians cultivate flowers? What do you call this? Is it a La France? I never knew a turnip from a jasmine.”
“I think it is a La France; I don’t know,” answered Anne, taking a candlestick off the
“One moment!” cried Perry. “It’s a very disagreeable thing I have to say, Annie; but I think I ought to say it. I guessed it the second time I saw him already; but now I am quite sure of it—Hamlin drinks.”
Anne did not answer.
“I don’t mean to say that he gets drunk. But he drinks—spirits; I’ve seen him to‐night after
dinner, and I’m sure he’s going to take more at home. There’s no mistaking the look. It isn’t
that he takes much, not more than I or most men might take; but it is that he oughtn’t to take
any. He used, you know, never even to take wine, except with gallons of water. He can’t take
anything of the sort. I remember already when we were at college together, Watty was a
teetotaller. It appears some people are like that; I’ve heard doctors say that it’s not
unusual in families where
“He has quarrelled with Edmund Lewis, I fancy.”
“Ah—so much the better. Then this would evidently be the moment to act. Of course
“I will do my best,” said Miss Brown.
MISS BROWN went up to her room slowly, and slowly proceeded to undress.
“You look very tired, miss,” said her maid; “haven’t you perhaps been overtiring yourself so soon after your illness? and don’t you think you had better let me brush your hair for you?”
Anne shook her head; she had never consented to let any one wait upon her except when ill,
with that odd feeling that she, a servant, had no right to have a servant; and the maid whom
Hamlin considered as a sort of necessary institution for a woman in Miss Brown’s position, had
been virtually put at the disposal of Mrs Macgregor, whose constant fidgeting over her
clothes, and tea, and coffee,
“No, thank you, Laura,” said Miss Brown. She really did not feel at all as if she could sleep; she felt the blood rushing through every artery of her body, and a hot faintness overtake her.
“It won’t do to make myself ill again,” she said to herself. The doctor had said that for
the present she must try and get as much sleep as possible; and she was a practical,
methodical person. She brushed her hair, still in short wavy masses since it was cut during
the fever, carefully, slowly. It seemed to her as if, in the half light, it looked more grey
than black. She pulled out a few white hairs: they come early in hair as dark and wiry as
hers. She folded her clothes methodically, as she used to fold the clothes of
“It won’t do to make myself ill again,” she said; and, closing her eyes, determined to sleep.
She remained stretched out rigidly, like a dead woman, her head straight on her pillows, and trying to keep her mind as rigid as her body. But it was of no use. She could not sleep; her blood and her thoughts seemed to throb furiously within her.
Anne’s mind had been made up, quietly, methodically, much in the same way as her hair had
been brushed and her clothes folded, already a good hour ago, when talking to Melton Perry;
she had seen the necessity of a decision coming, had waited for the moment when the decision
should be made, ever since she had heard that story of Madame Elaguine and Constantine Bulzo.
There had been, it seemed to her, no alternative; and there seemed to her that there was no
alternative now, either. But as she lay motionless in
Hamlin had done everything for her; he had turned what she looked back upon with horror, as
a kind of intellectual and moral death, into life. He had bought her soul free, had nourished
and nurtured it, as a man might have redeemed, nourished, and nurtured the body of some slave
child, doomed to be a cripple in a crippling occupation; he had done, she felt assured, what
no other man had ever done for a woman, since no other woman, she thought, could have escaped
from such a state of utter soul stagnation as had already begun, those five years ago, in her
slow, sullen nature. It was more than had ever been done for another woman, and Anne felt its
value
What Hamlin had done, he had done from no base motives, and without the smallest taint of
baseness in the doing: he had not actually wanted her, he had wanted merely to perfect a thing
that seemed to him good of its sort, to make her a soul that should suit
That Hamlin had acted from an imaginative whim, that he had carried out an exotic artistic
caprice, played a sublimated game of artistic skill, Anne could not at this moment take into
account. She knew, and only too well, that Hamlin was selfish, whimsical, fantastic, vain, a
seeker after new
And now this Hamlin, this man to whom she owed all, and whose past she still loved, was
gradually being alienated from all the nobler things for which he was fit—gradually being
separated from his nobler self, and dragged, stripped of all his better qualities, into a
moral quagmire, a charnel, a cloaca, to stick and rot inchwise. And this, Anne said to
herself, to some degree by her own
Why had she not driven away Edmund Lewis, opposing herself to him with all her might? Why
had she not driven away Sacha Elaguine? Now that she had learned from Melton Perry what this
woman really was, every single circumstance of their former intercourse, every single fact and
suggestion that had come to her, from Mrs Macgregor’s warnings to Edmund Lewis’s cowardly
accusation,—all the hundred little impressions which she herself had received, grouped
themselves
Was it still time? Could Hamlin still be saved? was he already hopelessly bound for life to
Madame Elaguine? Had Anne waked
“I must become his wife,” said Anne to herself; and she said it as she might have said “the
sun must rise in so many hours.” There was no room for hesitation on her part; the choice, the
act of volition, was so decided, that there ceased to be either choice or volition; to become
Hamlin’s wife seemed to Anne as an inevitable necessity coming from
To be understood, to be sympathised with, to be loved really and really to love—none of these things would be for her. But, after all, what right had she to any of them? Anne was, in all matters concerning herself, a born fatalist and pessimist; the words of Goethe, “Entbehren sollst du, sollst entbehren,” were to her not an admonition, but a mere statement of fact. She had, for a time, fancied that she clutched happiness; if it had turned out, like the goddess clutched by Ixion, a mere mist, why, that was quite natural; there was nothing to complain of in that.
But suddenly there came a sense not any
Anne rose from her bed, and wrapping herself
No; she could not marry this man. She had no right to forego her just resentment, to stifle
her just disgust, no right to degrade her soul in order to save his. If he was weak, vain,
foredoomed to baseness, let him run his career—fulfil his destiny. Some sacrifices are sins.
Without identifying the case, Anne’s thoughts reverted to the story, to the words of Isabella
in ‘Measure for Measure’; and the pride that lay at the bottom of her soul—the pride of purity
and strength—rose like a great wind within her. No; she would not pollute her cleanness,
prostitute her nobility, for this
But though in some measure right, since there is a destructive element in all strong souls, the person who should have thought like this would yet have been mistaken. Anne’s ruthlessness, her cruelty, could exist only against herself; the sacrifice, which seemed to her no very great matter, was the sacrifice of herself.
Anne remained seated for a few minutes by the window, that storm of pride and contempt rushing in great gusts through her whole nature. But then suddenly the storm dropped.
Here was Hamlin, to whom she owed everything, owed this very soul which seemed too good to
be wasted upon him, in danger of being degraded for ever by this loathsome woman, this
incarnation of all his own vices, this moral disease become a human creature. This fate
The first pale light of dawn was beginning to mingle with the light of the candles, making
them burn yellow, and surrounded by a sort of halo, like the tapers round a catafalque.
Outside she saw the chilly grey streaks of light, the faint cold rose veinings of sunrise. But
the sunrise itself did not come; the sky gradually appeared, clotted with red and purplish
reflections; then the colour died away, and there remained instead a pale, suffused, grey
heaven. It began to drizzle. Anne left the window. The room was light now with
When the maid came in, she did not wake up as usual, and the girl was half‐frightened and very much awed by seeing Miss Brown lying straight and motionless; her face, surrounded by a sort of wreath of short, curling, iron‐black locks, stiff on the pillow, looking, in the grey morning light which came through the pale‐blue blinds, like a dead woman.
Anne opened her eyes and looked round slowly, as if trying to collect her thoughts. “Ah,” she said, half audibly, “I remember.”
BY an effort of manœuvring which was not very natural to her, Miss Brown induced
Melton Perry to take himself off after breakfast and go and see some studios, an expedition
which would keep him out of the way till lunch. She would have Hamlin all to herself. When
Perry was gone, Anne sat down to write to Mary Leigh, who was in the country. There was
absolutely no reason why she should write to Mary, nor had she anything whatever to tell her;
but she was devoured by a restlessness—by a vague desire to talk to some one who cared for
her. She told Mary Leigh nothing of what was passing through her mind, nor of the event which
was pending: there was not, in her letter, a word to suggest
When she had finished writing, she went down to Hamlin’s studio. He would come soon, and she would wait for him here.
It was still drizzling, and the room opening on to the garden, with its silk blinds drawn
down, was full of a kind of twilight. Anne walked up and down for a minute or two, looking
vaguely round her. A drowsy scent of faded flowers, of cigarette‐smoke, of she
“I want to talk to you about something, Mr Hamlin,” she said, when he had recovered from the surprise of finding her in the studio. “You have nothing very pressing to do just now, I hope?”
“Nothing,” answered Hamlin; “I am at your disposal.” He sat down opposite to her, and began to fidget with the pencils and pen‐knives lying on the table. He was very pale, haggard, and looked tired and worried.
“You don’t seem well,” said Anne, mechanically.
“I am horribly nervous, that’s all,” he answered, passing his hand through his hair. “I suppose it’s this damp heat. Will it annoy you if I smoke a cigarette? I feel my brain spinning.”
Anne nodded, and waited in silence till he had taken two or three puffs.
“Mr Hamlin,” she suddenly began, in a low, steady voice, rather like a person reciting a
lesson, “it is going on three years since I left Coblenz and came into this house. I am over
Hamlin listened quietly, with a certain listless and helpless look that was very painful.
“I quite agree with you,” he answered, “and I fully see how greatly I am to blame in not having forestalled you. You must not suppose that I have not thought more than once about this matter. I have done so, I assure you. But somehow, things have always come in the way; and then, you know, I—I did not wish to put any pressure upon you. In short, I am unable to say how it is that I have placed myself in what may appear to be the wrong in this matter.”
Again he passed his hand across his head.
“Forgive me,” he said, “for being so feeble this morning. I really have a wretched headache.”
“I am very sorry for you,” answered Anne, but adding with the same deliberate resolution
Hamlin, who had been sitting with his head resting on his hand, vacantly watching the wreathing smoke of his cigarette, suddenly looked up at Anne. She was seated very erect in a high‐backed chair opposite, looking taller, calmer than ever, less girlish than ever also, although he had never thought of her, even years ago, as a girl. He looked at her for a moment in silence; a long, lingering, and very melancholy look.
“Miss Brown,” he answered, and his voice became tremulous towards the end of his speech,
“you have, if you remember the terms of our reciprocal engagement, always been free; and you
are free. It is rather sad for me to reflect—and perhaps a little sad for you also—how very
differently things have turned out from what I believe both of us anticipated. And it is, as
you may understand, not a little
Hamlin’s mouth, that delicate mouth with the uncertain lines, began to quiver. Anne turned very red, and then, suddenly, very white. She did not take his hand; she did not look at him as he stood before her; her eyes seemed fixed in space, as she answered in a voice which became steadier and louder as she went on—
“You don’t understand me. I was not
Anne, spoke very slowly, gravely, and calmly; but as she spoke, she felt her heart tighten. There remained still one chance, one shred of hope, and in another moment that might be gone.
A sudden convulsion passed over Hamlin’s face; he caught at the back of a chair, for he seemed trembling and reeling, his eyes closed for a moment as if he were choking, and he made a vague helpless movement with one hand, as a man who cannot speak. Then, suddenly, he flung himself down before Miss Brown’s chair, seized both her hands, and covered his face with them.
“Anne—Anne!” he cried.
They remained thus for a moment; she seated upright in the chair, he on his knees, her hands pressed to his face.
“Anne—you love me,” he murmured.
Miss Brown did not answer. She looked straight before her into space, fixedly, vaguely, taking in nothing, with her solemn, tearless, grey eyes. She felt as if she were waiting she knew not for what, counting the tickings of an unheard clock.
“You love me, Anne; you love me!” cried Hamlin, louder; and pressing closer to her, he put out his arms, and drew down her face to his, and kissed her, twice, thrice, a long kiss on the mouth.
It seemed to Anne as if she felt again the throttling arms of Sacha Elaguine about her neck, her convulsive kiss on her face, the cloud of her drowsily scented hair stifling her. She drew back, and loosened his grasp with her strong hands.
Hamlin sprang up. His face was changed: he was radiant. He took her hand in both his, and looked long into her eyes.
“Forgive me,” he whispered; “forgive me—oh, forgive me, Anne. That all this time I should
have been so blind—thought
Anne nodded without speaking. She could not tell a lie, even now; and she knew she must not tell the truth. Yet never perhaps had she loathed Hamlin as she loathed him—vain, fatuously happy—at this moment that he believed she had confessed that she loved him.
“Well, then,” she said quickly, “perhaps you can understand that—after what has passed, you understand—I am anxious that we should get married at once. Perry was asking me, only the other day, why things had dragged on so long; and then also there is . . .”
“I understand,” interrupted Hamlin. “Oh, forgive me, dearest. I never, never really loved that woman: I could not have loved her. I have never loved but you. Will you believe it?”
“You will never see her again?—I mean, never except in my presence? ” went on Anne. “Will you promise that? And will you promise to leave London in a day or two—to go to Italy, anywhere where she is not—and wait till I can join you with Aunt Claudia?”
“I promise; I will do anything. Oh, Anne, if only you will forget all that; if you will believe me when I tell you that I never loved that woman—that I felt the whole time that she was debasing, humiliating me, making me forfeit all my honour and my happiness . . .”
Anne paid no attention to these assurances. So he was shifting all the shame of his weakness and baseness and sensuality on to another,—washing his hands of the woman who had given herself to him. How like him! How well, how terribly well, Anne knew him!
“You have promised, remember,” she repeated,—“you will leave to‐morrow, the day after—as
soon as you can. You won’t tell her where you are going—do you understand? You will write
to‐day, and tell her of our
Hamlin kissed her hand with passion.
“And listen,” went on Miss Brown; “this evening there is a big party at the Argiropoulos. I did not intend going; but I wish to go now. Write to Mrs Argiropoulo to tell her we are coming together; explain that we are going to be married; ask her to tell all her guests. I want every one to know. Do you understand, Mr Hamlin—Walter, I mean? You won’t lose time, will you?”
“No, no!” cried Hamlin; “I understand. Only forgive me; and tell me that you love me, my darling;” and he seized Anne, and kissed her again with a sort of fury. “Tell me that you forgive me for all that I have made you suffer, Anne. Speak,—only one word, Anne—one word.”
Anne covered her eyes with her hand.
“I forgive you, Walter,” she answered, and burst into tears. But she wiped them away, and, rising suddenly, left the room.
“Walter is leaving for Italy to‐morrow,” she said, as she met Melton Perry in the corridor. “I want you to accompany me and Aunt Claudia there in a few days. Mr Hamlin and I are going to be married.”
“God bless my soul!” cried Perry. “When—where—why didn’t you tell me before?” But Anne was out of sight.
IN the blazing drawing‐room, where a crowd of black coats and shining bare
shoulders and fashionable dresses contrasted drolly with the melancholy thin Cupids of Burne
Jones, the mournful mysterious ladies of Rossetti, which adorned the walls, one of Mrs
Argiropoulo’s many musical celebrities was wailing Austrian popular songs at the piano. Miss
Brown, who had undergone the universal staring and received the general congratulations with a
monosyllabic composure much criticised on all hands, had slipped away, when the Austrian tenor
approached the piano, to the furthest end of the room, where she was half protected from sight
by the plants of an adjacent conservatory. All this triumph, people said to themselves
“You are very tired, Annie dear,” said Madame Elaguine, in one of her caressing half‐whispers, but fixing her eyes on Miss Brown with a look which was anything but a caress. “All this emotion—this general ovation and triumph, this great joy of satisfied love—has been too much for you, poor child!”
Anne shook her head, thrown back on the Persian embroidery of an ottoman, among the large tropical leaves and the delicate stems of bamboos and fern plants. She knew that this woman wished to insult her; but she was too weary and absent‐minded to care.
“I am merely rather tired. I didn’t get much sleep last night,” she answered, as she might
have answered the maid who pulled up her blinds in the morning. Madame Elaguine seemed a
hundred miles away from her: she
She did not feel Madame Elaguine’s glance, although the glance was concentrated hatred and outrage.
“Poor child!” repeated Sacha, taking one of her hands and pressing it between her own burning ones. “Poor child! Ah, well, I won’t bore you with congratulations. I know Walter sufficiently well to know how happy he will make you; and I know how deeply you have loved him all the while, and how faithfully he has always loved you. But I want to give you a little wedding‐present. I have brought it here, because Walter has written to me that you don’t want to have your bliss disturbed, and are going off at once. Quite right. When people are very happy, there’s something immodest in letting the world see it and be jealous; that’s the classic view, isn’t it?” As she spoke she drew from out of her cloud of lace and feather trimmings a little leathern case.
“Oh dear no,” went on Madame Elaguine, “you mustn’t think I’ve been ruining myself. I’m far too much of a pauper and far too selfish to go making handsome presents. It doesn’t cost me anything, you see, for Walter gave me them last month; and as I really don’t care a jackstraw about pearls, and I accepted them merely to please him, I think it’s much better you should have them to make the set complete, since you have the necklace.”
The case contained two large pearl ear‐rings, which Anne immediately recognised as part of the set once belonging to Hamlin’s mother which he had shown her long ago at Wotton. Round her own neck was the former Mrs Hamlin’s pearl necklace; he had given it to her that evening, not a fortnight, perhaps, since giving Sacha the ear‐rings.
Anne looked at the ear‐rings for a moment, feeling the triumphant eyes of Sacha upon her;
she felt also her face grow crimson, and her soul waking out of its state of lethargic
indifference, with a fierce desire to tear the pearls
“Thank you,” she merely said, closing the box and handing it back to Sacha; “I don’t think I could wear them, Madame Elaguine. And I don’t think my husband would wish me to wear them,” she added, but the words half stuck in her throat.
“Won’t you, really?” said the Russian. “I assure you Walter will be most mortified if he hear that you have refused them. It would be a hundred pities that the set should be spoilt. I wouldn’t have taken these, if he hadn’t told me that I should have the rest. You see, I was the nearest of kin last month. And I’m sure it would make poor Aunt Philippa turn in her grave to know that all her things did not go to Miss Anne Brown. Ah, well—as you like. I can always get them exchanged at the jeweller’s for something else—or I’ll tell Walter, and he can buy them back for you. That’s more like a pauper’s proceeding.”
“Thank you, Madame Elaguine,” said Anne,
But Madame Elaguine laid hold of her wrist. “Don’t go yet, my dear Madonna of the Glaciers—I shan’t see you again, perhaps, for a long while, and I want you to tell me some things. I’m a horrible ill‐bred little creature, I know, but I can’t help it. I’ve always had a lot of morbid curiosities. One of them is how love‐marriages are made up—how it all comes about. You see I wasn’t married for love—I was married for money by my Russian relations. But I always think I should like to know about love‐marriages. Tell me what Walter said to you—how he did it. I wish I’d seen it.”
Anne’s face was burning. Each of Madame Elaguine’s words was a piece of insolence.
“Did you always love him—ever since the beginning—ever since he sent you to school; and have
you always gone on caring for him in the same way?” went on Madame Elaguine. “Fancy, I thought
you didn’t care much for
“There is nothing to tell you, Madame Elaguine,” said Anne. “Mr Hamlin and I are going to be married, that’s all.”
“In short,” answered Madame Elaguine, bursting into an angry laugh, “you thought better of
it; you learned to appreciate the satisfaction of getting a handsome husband, with a good name
and a good fortune. I think you are quite right. Mrs Hamlin of Wotton sounds better than Mrs
Richard Brown. Or else are you still sufficiently human to enjoy making a man give the cold
shoulder to another woman? I fear I must spoil your satisfaction in this. I have never cared a
button for Walter. I would not have married Walter for anything you could offer me; I only
cared to bring down his pride a little, in remembrance of the days when his great virtue of
seventeen had me turned out of my uncle’s house, like a
“All this is very useless and disagreeable,” she said, rising to go. “Good‐bye, Madame Elaguine.”
But Sacha laid her hand on Miss Brown’s arm.
“I see,” she said, “your friend and former master Mr Perry has been entertaining you with
anecdotes of my life, and perhaps Edmund Lewis has been doing so also. Very shocking, weren’t
they? Well, I won’t insult you any longer with my presence. But I
The little woman spoke in a very low but very distinct voice, unabashed, brazen, almost smiling. She said the last words not in shame, but in triumph; hurled them at Anne as an outrage, almost as a thunderbolt.
“I knew it already,” answered Miss Brown, gathering her white brocade skirts about her.
“You knew it!” exclaimed Madame Elaguine, staring at her as if she could not believe her ears.
“You knew it!” she repeated after a moment, a sudden triumphant scorn coming into her face.
“You knew it, and you make him marry you all the same! Well, I wish you all possible
happiness, and I rejoice that
Anne brushed aside the palm‐leaves and ferns of the conservatory door. A sudden pain, as of a blow with the fist, was at her heart. She did not answer, for she felt that there was truth in Sacha’s insult.
Miss Brown had forgotten that ignominy is an almost indispensable part of all martyrdom.
She found Hamlin standing in a little knot of friends.
“I fear I must be going home rather early,” he said, “as I set off for the Italian lakes
tomorrow morning, and all my packing still remains to be done. And I think,” he added, with a
kind of supplicating look, “that Miss
Anne nodded. She saw the burly shoulders, the bushy black head of Richard Brown in the crowd, and she dreaded meeting him.
“Let us go,” she said.
But as they were turning away, Richard made his way to his cousin.
“Good evening, Annie,” he said, in an off‐hand voice; “I have had no opportunity of congratulating you and Mr Hamlin.”
“Thank you, Dick,” answered Miss Brown, her eyes mechanically avoiding his. “I’m sorry it’s so late; the carriage is at the door, and Mr Hamlin and I must be leaving.”
“Ah, very good!” said Brown. “Well, then, I will take you down, and help you to get your
wraps, while Mr Hamlin finishes taking leave of his friends.” He gave a contemptuous nod to
Hamlin, waited for Anne to have said good‐bye to her friends, and pushed his way with her
through the crowd, while
“Well, I must say it is a satisfaction to see two people who are really made for each other, like Walter Hamlin and dear Anne.”
There was no one as yet in the highly æsthetic study, which had been turned into a perfect exhibition of fantastic shawls and opera‐cloaks. They had said nothing while going down‐stairs, and even now Richard Brown was silent, as he hunted about for his cousin’s cloak.
“Anne, are you there?” asked Hamlin’s voice from the corridor.
Richard Brown’s heavy brows contracted. “Here’s your fan,” he said, stooping to pick it up. “Good‐bye, Nan! I hope you may be happy—”
She stretched out her hand. “Good‐bye, Dick!” said Miss Brown, raising her eyes shyly upon him; “you have been very good to me—”
Richard looked at her for a moment as she stood under the lamp, in her shimmering white
“Good‐bye, Nan—you mercenary creature!”
A few intimate friends had assembled near the hall door, to say good‐bye.
“Here, Mr Chough,” cried fat old Mr Saunders, the impeccable disciple of Fra Angelico, “you’ll be just in time to write a nice bridal ode while Miss Brown packs her boxes to‐morrow. Mind you cut out Spenser and Suckling and all the rest of them, old boy.”
Cosmo Chough, his cat‐like black whiskers brushed fiercely over a shirt fantastically frilled and starched, to show his eighteenth‐century proclivities, made one of his beautiful bows.
“Some better poet than I must write that ode,” he said; “all that her poor servant Cosmo can do, is to thank Miss Brown from all his heart for marrying his dearest friend.”
Anne heard the voice of the Poet of Womanhood vaguely, distantly, like all the others.
“Is the carriage there, Mr Hamlin?” she asked.
“Here it is. Good night! Good‐bye!” cried Hamlin. He jumped in after her.
“Oh, Anne! that you should really have loved me all this time—you, really you; and that I should never have understood it,” he whispered, pressing her hand, as the carriage rolled off.
“Are you cold, my love?”
Miss Brown suddenly shivered, as he put his arm round her shoulder. The flash of a street lamp as they passed quickly, had shown her Hamlin’s face close to her own, and radiant with the triumph of satisfied vanity.