TheDivine Cool Breeze IVIne 00 September - October 2005 SHWA NIRMALA. "IVERSAL PU PURE In This Issue:- 1. Saraswati Puja – Dhulia 14.1.1983 Maha Sahasrara Day 13 2. The First Shajayoga Seminar, Austria Sept, 1982 15 3. 4. Maria Smith's Account of the miracles at Bedford. 17 5. Little Stories from the Rome Centre 20 In memory of a great man 23 6. 7. The memories of our Divine Mother. 26 DHARMA RELIGION Co oL THE DIVINE C o OL B R E E ZE Published by Nirmal Infosystems & Technologies Pvt. Ltd. Infosys House, Plot No. 8, Chandragupt Housing Society, Paud Road,Kothrud, Pune-411 029 Printed at Amarnath Press (P) Ltd. WHS 2/50, Kirti Nagar Indl. Area, New Delhi - 15 Ph.:25268673 Please Send Your Suggestions and Subscription to:- Shri G.L. Aggarwal Nirmal Infosystems & Technologies Pvt. Ltd. 222, Desh Bandhu Apartments Kalkaji, New Dehi-110019 Tel. No.:011-26422054, 26216654 And Your Sahaja Experiences, Articles, Miracle Photographs etc. to: Shri O.P. Chandna G-11-(463), Rishi Nagar, Rani Bagh, Delhi-110 034 SHRI SARASWATI PUJA Dhulia 14.1.1983 With love all kinds of creative action gradually stop, when they will be fed up. takes place. You see how Raulbai has So all the activity on right hand side, of love for me and in this place you all also Saraswati, basically has to end up in love. got new idea of creating a beautiful thing. Starts with love and ends up in love. And as love will increase your creativity Whichever does not end up in love, coils will develop. So the basis of all creativity up and finishes off. It just disappears. So of Saraswati is love. If there is no love you can see that even matter which is not there is no creativity. It is even in the deeper used for love, just finishes off. The basis sense, you see; people who have created has to be love. Otherwise all such matter all the scientific things are also out of love that we crate which has angularity, which to the masses, not for themselves. is not fitting into the mass media, which is Nobody has produced anything for not appealing to the masses; of course, it themselves. If they make something for takes time, you have seen that it takes time themselves it has to become for universal - but it does have that terdency always to use, otherwise it has no meaning. Even if disappear in the thin air as soon as you you say atom bomb and all these things find it does not appeal to the masses. are created from science, they are also very protective. If they had not created, Now this love of, that we talk of, the those people would not have taken out great love of God we talk of, we know that their minds from war. Now, nobody can it is, for definite, through vibrations. People think of having a big war. Of course, they do not have vibrations but still they can leel are having cold wars, but that also will the vibrations in a very unconscious way September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze I told you, it cannot. Because the time will All the great paintings of the world have kill it. All these things have to disappear vibrations. All the great creative works of and already you can see the result, how the world have vibrations. Only those who things are changing every-where, even in have vibrations have been sustained by time - otherwise all other things are the West. So there is no need to be so much disappointed with the West and to destroyed. There must have been say that the Western world is a waste-land. monuments and horrible statues and horrible things that have been created long It is going to be alright and it has to be done. Specially it has done lot of Puja of time back. But they are all destroyed by Saraswati. I should say in the West. Much Nature as they could not stand the impact more than they have done in India because of the KALA-that is the destructive power they have gone to learn it and they have of time. So, all that is sustaining, all that is tried to find out so many things. But only nurturing, all that is ennobling comes from thing they forgot that it is a Goddess, God this sense of love, which is within us very much developed but within others also is the Giver. Everything comes from the Goddess. That is what they forgot. And who are not yet realised. Ultimately the that is why all the problems have been whole world has to realise that one has to go to that ultimate love of God, otherwise created. If there is no Spirit in your learning, it has no meaning. if there is no source of the goddess in your learning, then it is- absolutely useless. If they had realised that there is the Spirit that Now you have seen in arts people have taken to other methods of appealing is working it out, they would not have gone that far. And that is what I was warning the to people by using cheap things and very Indians, although, that you are now taking vulgar things, just to make people think to industrial revolution in a way and to avoid that this is art. But this will all disappear. It cannot sustain the impact of the time as all the complications of industrial September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze revolution, you must try to know the Spirit. Christ then it is even more essential that If you do not know the Spirit you will have the purity of life, what you call 'Niti', is the morality of life. Now morality itself has the same problem as these people have. Because they are also human beings, you become very much sort of an argument in the West. People don't have any sense of are also human beings. You will also go the same way. At random you will run and absolute morality. On vibrations of course there will be problems, the same problems you know. But they have all gone against it. Those who are worshippers of Lord as the Western people have. Jesus, those who are the worshippers of Now Saraswati's blessings are so the Surya, of the Saraswati have all gone against, against the powers, of Surya, just many that one cannot describe in such a short time. And the Surya (Sun) has given disobeying it. Because you cannot be a us so many powers that it is impossible to Surya if you don't have a proper sense of morality and holiness. The Surya itself tell them even in one lecture, even in ten brings light to see everything clearly. So lectures. But how we go against Surya and many qualities Surya has got. It dries up how we go against Saraswati, while doing everything that is wet, dirty, filthy. It dries the worship of Saraswati, it is to be seen up all those places which create parasites. very clearly within ourselves. For example But so many parasites are created in the the Western people are very fond of Surya West. Not only parasites, but there are because they have no Surya. But they go too far with it, as you know, and create horrible cults and horrible things which have come into that; those countries which complications within themselves of Surya. are supposed to be full of light, and in that But the main thing that one has to achieve darkness they exist. Darkness about the through Surya is the light 'Vivek'- is the tight within. And if Surya Chakra at the Spirit, darkness about their own Agnaya level is occupied by lord Jesus knowledge and darkness about love. September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze that. All our brain activity goes against pure These three things have taken over in the intelligence. And that is what one has to places where you are supposed to love understand- that this pure intelligence, is light. Light does not mean, light does not notto be soiled by our thinking. Ourthinking mean what you see with your gross eyes, Light means from within-the light of love, can make us so bumptious, so ego- That one should understand-Light of love. oriented, so impure, that we can really eat the poison and say 'what is wrong in it? And it is so soothing, it is so sweet, it is so beautiful, it is so enamouring, it is so Just the opposite of Saraswati. If abounding that unless and until you can Saraswati is within us, She give us "Subuddhi', wisdom. And that is why, to feel that light within you-that light which is of pure love - of purity, pure relationship, worship Saraswati, to worship Surya, we must have that clear vision as to what we pure understanding. If you can develop What we are doing. What that kind of a light within yourself, then the have to be. whole thing will be cleansed. "Wash me filth we are living in. What our mind is and I shall be whiter than snow.' This is getting into. After all we are here for what happens to you when you are emancipation and not for, just for pampering our ego and living with our filth completely cleansed. The purest form of Nature is within us. The purest form of that is with us. So this light has come Nature is within us. Our Chakras are within us and we should try to rise above our own mental filth which is being created made out of that 'purest' form of Nature. around us. Apart from that, you have to go We are the only people who are spoiling it by our mental thinking. higher and understand that there is, within Against the us, a thing called ego. And this ego is false, same Saraswati power, you are going against Saraswati itself. Saraswati absolutely false. You do not do anything. Actually when you turn your eyes here and cleanses all that is impure in nature, while there when your attention is here and there, with our brain activity we are spoiling all The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 7. it is nothing but your ego that is trying to then they become Gurus, they themselves have lots of defects in themselves and they overpower you. But actually ego is an try to pull people into those horrible stuff absolute falsehood because there is only one ego and that is the God Almighty, which is described as absolute NARAKA. NARAKA is the movement of ego on all 'Mahatahankara'. There is no really any the sides. ego that exists, it is myth. It is a very big myth, because if you start thinking you are Now when people try to use their right doing everything-you are doing this, you are doing that-which you are not doing; Vishuddhi, that is, to talk about themselves, is the worst of all. Whatever then this non-sensical ego comes in and you start working it out, it can project in type of ego you may have, if you start boasting about it and talking about it, then direction. When it projects forward, every it encircles, thickens the walls of ego so it overpowers others, it tries to dominate much, that it is impossible to penetrate into others, tries to kill others, becomes Hitler. that, because such a person is completely When it moves to right side, it becomes satisfied with himself and he believes that supraconscious. It starts seeing things he is so. And once he starts believing into which are absurd, which are foolish, which a non-sense like that, its an impossibility are stupid. When it moves to left side then then-impossibility to penetrate. it starts, talking-Imean, seeing things- yourself as a big man, as a big Christ or So when you boast about these as a big Devi or something like Adi Gurus and 'l am a very great personality' that is things or you talk big, be careful, you see. You know what I am, but how many times left sided. When it moves backwards, that is the dangerous one. do l say 'l am that'. Even ifI say once, you Then people become Gurus which are ruining other get tremendous vibrations for you. But how many times do I say so? At the most if you people. When their ego moves backwards September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze say something, I say 'yes'. But I don't say this talking. And once they take to talking that. IfI say it loudly, I don't know what may and they talk about it, the whole power goes out. But if they do not talk about it and keep The whole thing, might be happen. it within themselves, it is alright. You can blasted! So, one has to understand that Mahatahankara is the one that acts, that tell me about your experiences, alright, but works, that creates. Sometimes I shout if you start telling others, and talking about it too much, then the power that you have at you. Immediately all the bhoots run away. Just once I shout. Yesterday, you got will be all disappearing gradually. And you will just come down to absolutely lowest saw all the bhoots that were talking, they So one should not too much talk that all ran away. Yesterday this I talked to you. level. So you should understand that now you Ihave this power, I have this power or I think are a realised soul, you can also do the this orI do this, which is a very wrong thing. Use your right Vishuddhi to I warn you, DO NOT TRY TO SHOW OFF. same. Yes, you can talk about my powers. It is all shout at yourself, "Now will you please right. But don't try to talk about your powers. stop boasting, will you stop talking all this nonsense, will you stop showing When it comes, of course, you talk to off!" Then it will stop. somebody who is a negative person or to tell somebody, then you should say that WE, NOT I. "We' have, 'some of us' have Now this thickening takes place by felt this power within us. 'We' have seen people who really are active. They want people. It may be you only, but you need to do something about it, not that they are not say, 'I'have. What you've to say WE'. not active. They want to do. But they know Then you become the Mahatahankara. only one way, is to act talkative. They don't When you say 'We' 'here some of us' 'we understand that there are inner ways by which you control it much more.. Because do'. Like in Gregoire's book I made it, I saw to it that he should not have many 'I's they don't want to take to that, they take to The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 but he should have 'We'. We think', 'we always think in the words of "WE', so your do', 'we', means the whole collective ego will become much less, much less, much less. And the same ego which looks being, the whole collective organism, living organism of SHAJAYOGIS. So if you so funny and absurd will fall tomorrow to say, 'yes, some of us have got', that the EKADASHA. means, you put yourself down, but put all Today, individual ego will merge into others above you. Say "Yes, some of us have, I know some people have this.' That EKADASHA. But we all must remember is the way one should do it. Because if to say 'WE' all time. This is what is today's day is great day for us to change, because you have to overpower your ego, you must the Sun has changed its move, now. Sun allow it to spread into every body else. That is coming this side. So let us welcome the is how, you will make it perfectly all right. Sun, coming to the North now, this way. And Let it spread. We all SAHAJA YOGIS 'WE ALL'. But that pride is not there. I've seen for Australians to say that though the Sun that pride is not there. Still it is very has gone, let us establish the Sun, the individualistic. If you start thinking, 'we' domain of Sun, within ourselves. Because SAHAJA YOGIS', then what happens is Sun never disappears from our inside. So become 'one' personality, 'one' that is how we have to take a mode by which we should think of 'one' personality, organisation. 'all of us together, all of us together.' And But the person will look down upon anybody who tries to be something separate or different, he will drop out. I other people. He will see that person is will drop him out. What ever it may be, it low, that person is higher, that person is there. But he will not think 'We' the Sahaja So you judge yourself, will drop out. Yogis, how beautiful we are! We' the body anybody who tries to be singled out or of Sahaja Yoga, how beautiful we are! So anything. Everybody must do whatever 10 The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 they like, to nurture the whole, to help the thing today that we are having puja at Dhulia. Like the Dhulia means the dust. whole, to help the whole, to emancipate the whole. But not to, in anyway, put anyone Dust. And one day I had written in Childhood, a poem, I remember. Very down always. Because this is not the way the Sahaja Yoga is. Sahaja Yoga only interesting poem it was - I don't know where it is now-but which said that 'I want works in collectivity. And the one who has developed this permeating spirit, to be smaller like a dust particle which is a real Sahaja Yogi. Who has not, is moves with the wind. It goes everywhere. Can go, sit on the head of a king, or can not! Whatever you may think of yourself, I go and fall at the feet of someone. And it have nothing to say. But this permeating can go and sit on a little flower, and it can personality which moves from places to go and sit everywhere. But I want to be a places, whether you talk or not. Like your Mother is. Whether I meet you or not, particle of dust, that is fragrant, that is makes no difference, but I am permeating nourishing, that is enlightening,' Like that, I had written a very beautiful poem, I was through all of you, by little-little things also I am there with you. So like that, try to about seven year of age, I remember-To be a dust partiole, 'I remember that very permeate into each other and see the clearly, long time back, 'that I should be a beauty in you. Enjoy yourself the best dust particle. So that I will permeate into because that is the biggest thing. That's the biggest thing that is to be achieved. people,' which is a very big thing to become a dust particle of that kind. To just Because this ego you know makes you whatever you touch, you see, that becomes like a nutshell and it just cannot have a enliving, whatever you just feel, that is rapport with that beauty of permeation and fragrance. It is such a great thing to be like just see how the notes move into each that. And that was my desire, and it will be other. achieved. At that young age, I had this idea It will be a great idea today, it is great The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 11 of becoming a dust particle and today just around. And this is the way to overcome while talking to you, I remembered that I the problems of the right side and that is wanted to be that, and that is what this how to worship Saraswati. Because place is. And Raulbai is like that. She is a Saraswati has a Veena in Her hand and very simple woman, very simple woman that Veena is the primordial instrument and she lives like a very simple person. which She plays like music, and music She has a sense of permeation. And now penetrates into the heart. You don't know how it goes into you and how it works out. there are so many Sahaja Yogis, yesterday who came; and I am sure there That is how a person who is Sahaja Yogi should permeate- like music. There are are going to be more people.I hope you so many qualities as I told you which have met all of them. Make friends with cannot be described in one lecture. But all of them. Try to know them who they one of the greatest quality of Her's is that are. They may not know English. You get somebody to translate. Talk to them and She ends up into subtler things like the Mother Earth will end up into fragrance. be nice to them. Be friendly with them. I wanted you to meet them for permeation. Music will end up into inelody like that You should know who are the people here, whatever She creates ends up into something greater. Matter whatever She who are in Nasik. Because somehow we never meet the Sahaja Yogis, you see, produces ends up into aesthetics. If matter who are in that particular place. And when does not have aesthetics then it is gross, we go back we have only one or two like that everything. Now you will say what is water. Water becomes the river addresses. It is not a good idea. Try to see how many people there are. Ask Ganges! These are the subtler things. So the matter gets into subtler thing because questions about them. And all that. it has to permeate, it has to permeate. So This permeation is only possible when your ego starts permeating all everything whatever it is. And the best of The Divine Cool Breeze 12 September-October, 2005 all is the air. That air becomes the that and that is how one has to look at your vibrations! own life, to make it a beautiful combination of love and matter. So you can see how whatever has May god bless you. come out from this matter, from these five elements, becomes that subtler thing. Of (Nirmala Yoga) course, the left and right side both work it out. Because the love has to work on this 1983 and when love acts on matter it becomes MAHA SAHASRARA DAY on a motor-cycle, I had taken guidance We draw your attention to the article from Mr. B.G. Pradhan, who was present with the above heading in NIRMALA YOGA there on 5th May, 1970 and is one of the (May-June, 1983) Vol. 15, page 16. It is first twelve who got their realisation there. to be noted that on 5th May, 1970, Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi opened the I located the place where this grea. Sahasrara of VIRATA at NARGOLand not at Bordi as mentioned in the above event had taken place by the help of vibrations and then sat there in meditation. mentioned article. It is very difficult to describe the intense peace of the Grace which I enjoyed in the NARGOL is a small village near the meditation. It was very deep and blissful. seashore and is about 35 KM by State highway from Bordi. By Railway one has Thereafter, I returned back to the to get down at UMARGAON Railway house in whose compound I had parked Station on Central Railway and then to my motorcycle. As I was walking with my reach NARGOL by road. hands out stretched enjoying the vibrations, people of the house enquired On 25th Sept.,1983, I visited Bordi whether I was searching something. I told in connection with the arrangements of the them "About thirteen years back our Shri International Shivir for 600 Sahaja brothers and sisters who would be attending it Mataji Nirmala Devi had come there and during 10th to 15th Feb.. 1984. After meditated near the seashore. I wanted to find out the exact place where She had finishing my work at Bordi at about 1 PM meditated." They at once remembered in the afternoon I journeyed to NARGOL The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 14 that Shri Mataji had been there and they DEVI KI JAI. with some other local people had attended Her programme. BOLO SHRI R.N. PEREKAR (BOMBAY) SAHASRARA SWAMINI MOKSHA PRADAYANI MATAJI SHRI NIRMALA NIRMALA YOGA 1983 THE FIRST SAHAJA YOGA SEMINAR IN AUSTRIA Our Holy Mother visited Vienna in because the collectivity in the group was September 82, gave Her blessings to the very good. Fixing the attention to the Spirit and not to the outward appearance of a whole city and realization to about 6000 seekers. About 25 remained in Sahaja person, we somehow melted together. Yoga in an active capacity and gathered Finally nobody could bear to see the end to our first seminar in April. of the seminar coming. The three children of the manager of the youth hostel were You can't imagine, it was such a attracted to us one after the other and they blessing to attend it! Just thinking about it all got their realization; it was really sweet! one gets breathless... but we have to go All this sounds very nice, yet there is much beyond thought anyway. We had a work to do in Austria. With the help and programme of videos, workshops, guidance of the Divine we will spread Sahaja Yoga until the last valley of our Alps meditation, exchange of experiences and above all, a beautiful Shiva-Shakti- will be vibrated. And we now need an ashram to adore our Mother, who is Beauty Ganesh Puja, which according to the vibrations, was kindly accepted by the and Bliss itself and to set the example of a new life style to this Austria. deities. No doubt, all problems will be solved We gathered together to surrender if we to the realm of joy and silence, to get the the surrender ourselves to Enlightened One, the Spirit. We pray to our Divine Vibrations flowing from the Eternal Shri Mother that She opens our hearts for One. This happened in such a way, that, in a very short time, we grew remarkably Her Grace, compassion and guidance. strong in our yoga. This was possible, The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 16 O Devi, who else but you can take are Your children, playing with Your gifts. away our misidentifications so that we can Thank You ! face your shining love without shadow in - Guent her Nirmala Yoga our eyes. Let us always remember that we Maria Smith's account of the miracle at Bedford and the events leading up to it. the visit was temporarily called off by Shri Bedford is a provincial town in the midlands of England. Sahaja Yoga Mataji. We realized at this point that we had been completely drained and wasted programmes were started there about by going about things in a human rather eighteen months ago, during which time a number of people were given realization than a Sahaja fashion. So collectivity, the English Sahaja Yogis decided to work on and three became Sahaja Yogis, In 1982 Shri Mataji was invited by local Sahaja the midlands area by cleansing and strengthening themselves and the area by Yogis to come to Bedford and other doing pujas and by asking the elements neighbouring cities. to help in the process. Every Sunday we would have pujas in one of the three main Initially, absolutely nothing worked towns and would work on the map of the district in the presence of Shri Mataji's out as far as arrangements for Shri Mataji's trip were concerned. There was total photograph. We would use the vibrations negativity and opposition from the media, coming from different parts of the map to and even Sahaja Yogis were sucked into feel and work out the collective problems the vortex of inertia. A lot of energy was of a particular town. lost in the process of trying to make people understand the importance of this Just before all this took place, when visit by intellectual reasoning and the meetings had been cancelled, Maria persuasion, None of the approaches to telephoned Shri Mataji and our Holy media or any of the plans bore fruit through Mother explained that something was complete lack of local interest. As a result taking place on a level beyond our 18 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze awareness and beyond our ability to so completely. control. Shri Mataji had consulted the stars After a month or two of all this Shri and deities so that they would work it in Mataji suggested more dates for the way that the Divine knows best. programmes which She would attend in the midlands area. All the money for hiring halls After some weeks a series of etc. was gone, but due to one timely phone extremely violent rain storms occurred. call the right person appeared at the right One minute the summer skies would be moment to help with this side of things. The clear and blue; the next they would be filled with unnaturally heavy clouds, which second boon was that the media were totally positive; the newspaper, radio and seemed to come out of nowhere. The rain was so heavy that people could hardly even TV were only too delighted to believe it and it was accompanied by cooperate. It seemed almost as if everyone connected with the media had lightning which rent the skies from end to end and frightful and deafening thunder. been previously convinced about Shri Mataji and Sahaja Yoga prior to our visiting The rivers flooded and overflowed on to team. the surrounding lands. After every storm Shri Mataji arrived and was on two there would be spectacular rainbows -not TV programmes, and the Sahaja a normal, single rainbow, but many bows all crossing each other. These spectacular Programmes were jam packed with people standing in the corridors outside. shows would delight everyone with their beauty and people would even stop their It was during the first meeting at cars to watch this heavenly wonder. All Bedford that the greatest miracle Jews and Christians will recall that God occurred. Shri Mataji was driven to the sent Noah a rainbow after the great flood meeting and reached the hall at about 7.30 as a symbol of His love and as a promise that He would never flood the earth again p.m. Our Mother left at about 11.00 p.m. September-October, 2005 The Divine Copl Breeze 19 and was in the hall constantly in between. Yogis were accompanying Shri Mataji in Her car to the meeting at Canmbridge. One At about 9.15 p.m. a young man person complained that she was named Jason Haynes, who lived in suffering from a bed left nabhi catch. Bedford, was knocked off his motor bike The reply of Shri Mataji is instructive in one of the streets of the town and was for all: our Mother explained that it was lying seriously injured waiting for the not this lady's left nabhi, but the ambulance to arrive. Some minutes later collective catch of the whole area he was aware of a kind Indian lady which was being felt. She was told to standing over him, touching him where open her charkas, and pray to the particular he was most injured and each time She deity, then vibrations could be emitted touched him the pain left that part of the through that person's chakra out to the body. Then She left, and later the whole environment. Thus the problem was ambulance arrived and took him to the that of the whole area and the lady was to hospital, where he was treated for minor stop assuming that the catch revolved injuries and shock. The onlookers at the about the problems of her small self; it was scene of the accident did not see any something much bigger. "Indian lady' at any time, and Shri Mataji was at that time visibly giving realization Mother, please let us surrender to in the hall in another part of Bedford. The You completely so that we may be worthy next day the young man, Jason Haynes, instruments for the great work You are saw a photograph of Shri Mataji in the accomplishing on this earth of Yours which local paper and was certain beyond have so graciously given us to enjoy. you doubt that this was the 'mysterious lady who had helped him. NIRMALA YOGA 1983 The following day some Sahaja Little Stories from the Rome Center discussions on the need to stop smoking It was the first time I was going to but without any results. Yet the day after the apartment where the Sahaja Yogis meet and I could not remember the these comments of the Sahaja Yogis and after I had bitterly complained to them indications my husband gave me to find about all those smokers, without any their house. As I did not want to go all the apparentreasons, all the colleagues in the experiment way back home I decided to with the guidance from the vibrations on office decided to stop smoking in the room. All of a sudden they were all taking the hands. So, I went on it in the street till care of my right Vishuddhi. I was stunned, I arrived in front of the right gate and happy, and, from the bottom of my heart, I pushed on the right interphone button. thanked Shri Hanumana and Shri Mataji. When I got the confirmation that I had EDUARDO indeed found the flat I was looking for I just couldn't believe it. I started my study as I was 23, with a RITA lot of insecurity and fear of the exams. During the first series of exams after my Shortly after my realization I was told realization I was still afraid though feeling by the Sahaja Yogis that my right the Presence of Shri Mataji in the room. Vishuddhi was catching as smokers' Then something strange happened : the Vishuddhi usually do. I don't smoke but in examiners, well known for being harsh and my office they all do it. That same day the nasty, started beaming with smiles, Sahaja Yogis also told me that, as a child became so human and so nice as soon of Shri Mataji, I was protected; I could not as they proceeded with the girls of my really understand what they meant. group. Everything went so well as if a good In my office there had been regular fairy had entered the room on a cloud The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 21 towards our Mother). The next morning we sparkling with beauty. The same thing were amazed to find that the picture of the repeated itself for all the exams I had to "guru" had fallen down on the floor. Only go through. The wonderful thing about it is that my girl friends noted the change the picture of Shri Mataji remained. After this event, somehow, I felt that we should Occurring every time, and now, funnily not sleep with our feet towards the picture of Shri Mataji. enough, they all wanted to be examined at the same time as me. CRISTINA ANTONIO & ANNY Before meeting Shri Mataji, Anny It was 9.30 pm. I was returning home and myself were keeping in our bedroom when suddenly some boys forcefully took the picture of a "guru" whose meditation away my bag. It contained pictures of Shri techniques we had followed for a while. Mataji, my identification papers, money, Although we had found that his system did gold, jewels that I wanted to sell, a shawl not give any results we were still from India, my keys and newspapers to intellectually convinced that he was a saint. look for a place suitable for our ashram. Hence his picture remained on the wall, On arriving home I prayed to Mother that fortunately at the foot of the bed. Her angels should not be too harsh with the thieves. My husband told me to go to The night Anny and myself received the police right away but I refused:I was our realization from Shri Mataji we deeply convinced that the bag would be received Her picture for meditation. returned. It had to be so as lama daughter Returning happily home, we fixed Her of Shri Mataji. I went to bed, praying as picture on the wall near the one of the usual to Shri Mother, and, confidently, I went "guru". (We did not know anything about to sleep. The next day, I hardly protocol but probably we have been remembered what had happened when the forgiven for sleeping that night with the feet doorbell rang. It was the doorman holding The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 22 the bag in his hand. Astreet cleaner had been smashed into pieces... found it on a lawn and brought it back to Jai Shri Mataji the correct address. Nothing had been touched. Just an old amulet that, I had forgotten in a side pocket of the purse, had EMMA (Nirmala Yoga) In Memory of a Great Man The prize winning film of R. Attenborough on Mahatma Gandhi has been seen by many Sahaja Yogis throughout the world. For once the link between Gandhi and Sahaja Yoga cannot be stressed enough: in enabling Bharata to regain its political freedom. Gandhi brought back to the land of yoga its lost dignity without which it could not unveil to other civilizations the priceless secret of its spiritual tradition: Kundalini Yoga. He was, in this way, the precursor of this little girl who was staying in his ashram. I refer to Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi of course. Gandhiji used to call Her "Nepali" which, indeed, was quite accurate: the Devi is the daughter of Himavat, the king of the nmountains, and the Sahasrara of the planet is in Nepal, in the Himalayas. On a general level the film on Gandhi brings to a wide public's attention some features in the life of this remarkable man that Sahaja Yogis can, perhaps, best analyse. Young Europeans do not always realize what colonialism really meant to the rest of the world. They often consider that, after all, it was a good thing to bring science and technology to other continents without realizing that only too often the colonial powers behave with gross brutality; they destroyed in the process of their so quote "civilizing mission" the delicate fabric of human and social values which, in the light of spiritual life, were by far superior to their own. The real victory of Gandhi was to beat the major colonial power of the time merely by resorting to these values. In many ways the mode of action of Gandhiji was sahaj. For instance, he firmly derived his political activity from a couple of Dharmik principles and he refused to compromise with what was wrong. These principles, his very firmness, stemmed from his (correct) conviction that it is God who leads history. Thus God answered back the call, or, in other words, the Unconscious started working for Gandhi. The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 How did it happen? - Gandhi's greatest leverage was his command over the Indian masses, He gained such a command because the simple folk could recognize that he was inspired from above. The people felt it from their own individual unconscious and thus they believed in the legitimacy and the credibility of his leadership; they, indeed, called him "Mahatma", gave him confidence in his mission, lent him in any possible way their support. Therefore, to take but one example, merely by his hunger strike the Mahatma could control the behaviour of millions of people. But alas, this process cannot work outside India, in countries where the common man does not have the required level of sensitivity to his own unconscious. This is why Gandhi's schemes of peaceful revolution has not yet been implemented anywhere else in the world. Other countries could, possibly have their own Gandhi. But would these lone voices be heard, let alone listened to and obeyed ? Even in India the elite of the country, the clever people, missed the best part of Gandhi's teachings. They have largely borrowed the western ways of the westem power they were supposed to have expelled and, in this respect, remained colonized. Perhaps this has been Gandhi's greatest shortcoming. He could transform a country but he could not transform men. He could bring political freedom but not the freedom from conditionings and ego. In other words, he could not raise Kundalinis. Well, Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi can! This is why the spiritual revolution She has triggered with Sahaja Yoga is simply the most practical, the most effective revolution of all times. As Shri Mataji can transform the basic cell of society, man, transform him, that is, into a higher being, the gradual impact of this positive transformation will be felt in all the dimensions of society. As this transformation will be duiy opposed, there will be crises and clashes; the earth may shiver, the seas may rise. But the outcome can The Divine Cool Breeze 25 September-October, 2005 be predicted with the kind of quiet certainty which distinguishes Nature's doings. At the given time some eggs become chicken, some flowers turn into fruits, some people become Sahaja Yogis. Like Gandhi we should be collective and wish this new freedom for many, many more. And we should be confident about it. For not only is nature doing the job, She has even taken an incarnated form to explain us how She does it ! Really we can only wish to Gandhiji to be back as one of us... Gregoire (Nirmala Yoga) 1983 THE MEMORIES OF OUR DIVINE MOTHER (CONTD.) THE BEGINNINGS IN ENGLAND I've found this new sort of yoga front of this photograph of Shri Mataji and First of all, the area where I used to live put your hands to it." And he produced a was round by Euston, near Tolmers little black and white photograph. It wasn't Square (in London) and that area was a much bigger than a postcard. And we sat sort of high energy area. There were a lot there in his rather cold draughty, old bank of squatters and things like that there. We that we used to use as a social club and used to have a little community club there we sat there with our hands like this before and one day (in 1973) this fellow turned Shri Mataji's photograph. There was about up -Mukund shah-to teach us yoga. five or six of us. And he came round and Over a year he tried all sorts of different felt our hands and asked us what we felt yoga and meditation and then one day he and we all felt different sorts of things went to see Shri Mataji and, because he because we were all in different sorts of had so much experience of so many sorts states of awareness due to what we'd of yoga, he tended to be a bit skeptical done before. And anyway, we all obviously and he felt vibrations, but not to sort of felt something and he said, "You get these quantify it. vibrations from Shri Mataji. Would you like to come and meet Her at the Bharata So he had this group of half a dozen Vidya Bhavan? (which was at that time on of us that he used to teach yoga. So he New Oxford Street). said, "Look, I've found this new sort of Well, the following Friday, I believe, yoga and all we have to do is sit down in September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze 27 She said, "Put your hands over your ears we went off to the Bharata Vidya Bhavan and cover them up completely and you'll and we met Shri Mataji and we just sort of still be able to hear Me."And we could. We sat there at the back and listened to what She had to say and we realized it was had our hands over our ears and we could something really nice. And She was actually clearly hear what Shri Mataji was working on somebody at the time. At that saying because we were hearing through our Sahasraras. Our Sahasraras had particular point we were aware that it was something special, but we had an inkling actually opened. So that was perhaps the of what it might be, but weren't prepared first experience, apart from feeling the to admit to anybody, least of all ourselves, vibrations, that was one of the real that we had actually met Adi Shakti. ButI amazing, first amazing experience we had. think, basically, we knew that it was Now we had a few meetings at this special. Judd Street, but then, because the fellow that took us there was going to leave, we Then we went to Bharata Vidya Bhavan about two or three times and then, had to find somewhere else and we started to meet in a house in North Gower Street. because we wanted to go somewhere else, because the series was over, we And when we met in North Gower Street, I moved to a house in Clare Court, Judd think that's when it actually began to take Street, where Mukund Shah used to live root. Because there it had got a base for just over the road from Kings Cross. We the Sahaja Yoga to actually put roots down. had a few meetings there and Shri Mataji Then what would happen would be that told us about raising Kundalini and this is Shri Mataji would come round and She one of the first experiences we had of would sit there and there'd be may be half actually hearing through Sahasrara. She a dozen of us and Shri Mataji would talk to us and tell us all about Sahaja Yoga and told us all our Sahasraras were open and 28 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze heard that there was a yogi lady and I had the way She'd work on us would be that this kind of idea that I'd walk into a room we would put our hands under Her Feet and She'd sort of do various bits and full of sort of silence and perhaps little bells tinkling somewhere and I walked in the pieces to clear us out. Because there was so few of us, within a couple of days we'd room. And it was so unlike what I'd expected that the effect on me was really be caught up again which was rather sad, quite profound. I immediately felt that this but it just shows the sort of state we were is what it must have been like to come in. across Christ teaching in the marketplace. Douglas Fry It completely hit me like that, which was HOW COULD SOMEONE LIKE THIS quite strange because I didn't have any kind of religious-you know, religion wasn't BE HERE? part of my life. Quite the opposite, I was Actually, I'd seen Shri Mataji's coming from a hippie background. And I photograph before I met Mother. I'd left that just felt that here was an amazing yoga group before you brought the photo. personality and my feeling was, "How can How could I'd moved over to Baker Street and I did a being like this exist? notice the photograph appearing, being someone like that be here?" And the kind of furtively concealed from me and I whole room seemed full of light and there did hear about Shri Mataji, but I didn't hear was a tremendous impression of how anything that direct about it, but then I just powerful Shri Mataji was, but She was just said that I would like to come and see her very sweet. She asked us to come and I had heard about these meetings and I see Her and I came up and She put Her hand on me and said, "This one's sick," I came to the last meeting at Judd Street. One damp Sunday afternoon-raining-and think were the first words She said to me. I came with (my sister) Maureen (Rossi). And the meeting went on. It was just really It had a huge impact on me because l'd amazing-quite magical, the whole thing. September-October. 2005 29 The Divine Cool Breeze didn't really have a chance to figure out trying to kind of see how that made sense what it was all about, but I knew it was and fitted in. something quite momentous. That was Pat Anslow the first meeting. She said I was sick and thatI needed HAD NO IDEA WHAT I HAD BUT I something for my stomach and She asked KNEW I HAD IT. for a bottle and the strange thing was- It was the 16th September 1975 that no one else seemed to see this- but I saw we first met Shri Mataji in that (Judd Street) Her take the bottle, turn round and open a flat and, similar to (my brother) Pat sort of door into some kind of an atomic (Anslow), it couldn't have helped being a furnace and put the bottle in, take it out, most momentous feeling. Even walking up shut the door and gave it to me. And I was the street to go to that flat, I had this quite astonished. And I took it home, strongest urge to run away l've ever had in drank it and it had the most extraordinary my life. Even though I didn't know where | effect. It cleared me out. She said I had was going and I had only been told that, six months to live. Yes, I was really in quite "This lady is a yoga teacher, but she a bad way. doesn't teach Hatha Yoga." But I can remember thinking that if I wasn't with We went back for more meetings people that I felt would say, "What on Earth and I had a whole series of extraordinary are you up to?" l'd have run away. That's experiences when she was there, but l how strong I could feel the force I was think the thing that really hit me was a kind walking towards. of gut: 2action, a kind of recognition that this was someone. I kept getting the And when we went in the flat and we feeling that this was someone like Christ. were told to take off our shoes, which was That was the feeling that I had. And I was strange, and told to sit down and I saw Shri The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 30 my Realisation in 1975. The first time I Mataji working on this Indian gentleman, very strongly and sort of telling him off and met Mother was quite a marked memory. sorting him out, I thought She was a My father, Pat (Anslow), used to bring me up to London at that time, sometimes, for Goddess. That was my first thought that came into my head and then I thought, the weekend. I used to live with my "What on Earth do I mean by that? I don't grandparents until ny father was remarried. He first met Shri Mataji about even know what a Goddess is." But that's that time. So he brought me up and said I what it felt like. And then She got on with was going to meet this very special Indian seeing to everybody and when my turn came, if you like, She actually got up and lady. Ihad never actually met an Indian lady of any description before that point, which walked around, as well as sat down, and made it a little bit daunting actually, coming She told me to put my hands out and asked me what I felt and that second I felt my from a middle class commuter town just near Brighton. He took me up to London, attention drawn to my hands and said, "Oh, I feel something." And She just said, "May and that was a special thing in itself, and God bless you. You've got it." And I we got there and Shri Mataji was very different from what I imagined because thought, "I've got it." I had no idea what I had, but I knew I had it. And that was it. Indian ladies to me would have been a distant person in a sari. There was not a And She then went on to everybody else. It was just great. I was dealt with. person behind that, more a sort of image. And there was this quite remarkable Maureen Rossi lady who was very friendly. And instead of IT's GREAT BEING A KID me being all sort of anxious and kind of I got my Realisation when I was not knowing what to do because it was a seven year old. I was born in '68 and got strange adult, it was really rather fun. September-October, 2005 31 The Divine Cool Breeze laughed and laughed. And my father, People who remember seeing Mother with think, was horrified, sort of "Oh no, what's children-I mean, She sort of comes alive he doing." But She really took it on board and says, "Really?" and that sort of tone that She takes. She really sort of gets their and She really brought the situation alive attention and makes them feel comfortable and made it all rather fun. And there was and sort of creates this instantaneous no sort of anxiety or anything like that. I connection. So it was a bit like that. mean, it's great being a kid, I suppose. With Shri Mataji, you don't have to think, "DoI have to be this or that?" You just sort She asked me questions and Her eyes kind of lit up and there was a huge smileof are, if you know what I mean. Kevin Anslow and for some mysterious reason-being an adult now, I can't remember the logic behind it, if there was any - I decidedI had to be an elephant. Sol got these - it I REALISED THIS LADY WAS SOMETHING VERY HIGH. My first reaction to Mother was that I was in this flat in Gower Street where this Sahaja Yogi at the time, he had this-well, feit that I had met this lady before. And I what I think of now as rather unpleasant thought I had seen Her in Oxford Street (in London), in a shop somewhere. That was seventies-style furniture, including these wickerwork drinks things. You kind of put my first impression. And She just touched your drinks inside. I turned these things my hand and said, "You will be all right. You are not all right now, but you will be all upside down and stuck them on my feet right." Sol went home and had a shower. legs and kind of roared around the and I was alone at that moment, in the house I room and pretended to be an elephant. was sharing with some people. All of a When I did this Mother just pitched Her sudden, I went completely thoughtless. I wanted to think, but I couldn't. So I knew head back with laughter and laughed and September-Octoher, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze 32 had to lie down, so I lay on the bed and everything, every point. She would debate closed my eyes. Iwas aware of this energy everything with us. We were obviously very impressed with Her and we could see that rising up through my stomach and then all what Mother was saying was enlightening the way to my chest and then on to the top and amazing, but there was still lots of of my head like a sort of crown. And my body felt very light and I felt totally in the ideas we had which we didn't agree about bliss. So I realised that this lady was and we would argue about all kinds something very high and I never things. experienced that before. So that was my first experience of Sahaja Yoga. It took a Shri Mataji would resolve that by patiently going through every point and long time and is still taking a long time to correct all of my problems. explain. Really, Mother put Herself into Miodrag Radosavljevic quite a rough kind of environment. Gavin and Jane (Brown) were sort of respectable, WHAT ON EARTH CAN I DO WITH but the rest of us weren't. We all came from THEM? a hippie background, One thing we should perhaps say more about was just how amazing Mother Pat Anslow was with us in our ignorance of any kind of protorol or anything. We had no idea LAM BACK HOME how to behave with Her and we had no T remember entering in Her house in Oxted (In 1975). I was in jeans and was idea how to behave with each other, never mind with Shri Mataji. She was just so wearing an old US Army jacket full of amazing. She just must have put Herself holes, I kissed Her hand and gave Her out so much, in so many ways. It was just flowers. Interestingly, I remember bowing incredible. We would argue about and looking at the ground, so 33 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze stage, l'll never forget it, Mother just sort of She commanded spontaneously. immediate respect. But my heart felt such hugged Herself and seemed to be saying, a relief almost immediately. "What on Earth can I do with them?" She looked forlorn really and so unhappy. It just It is hard to say when exactly Istarted hit me then. I was looking at this scene and recognizing Mother, but clearly the heart it was just like a mother with her children. was faster than the brain. It was greatly It was the first time I really felt that She was helped, no doubt, by the contagious like a Mother. She had been saying, "You feeling of lightness and joy, an enveloping must stop taking drugs." Solsaw this and feeling of affection and wellbeing that said, "Okay, l'll do it." And immediately all you feel, "I am back home! Home, these other people turned around and made sweet home!". glared at me. It just really hit me. And Gregoire was on his knees saying, Gregoire de Kalbermatten "Mother, you must forgive them. They know not what they do" - very dramatic, but very My first memory of Gregoire (de true. He understood what was going on. Kalbermatten)-he came over and he met Mother and he was staying in the area and Pat Anslow. he had seen Her several times. He came to one of the meetings at Gavin and Jane's When Mother named me leader of and on that particular day the whole place the USA for a brief period, She told, "You was full of people who used drugs. Mother are quite qualified for this because you was arguing with them and saying it was know hell best." It is true that before Sahaja bad and they were saying, "No it is I had experimented with many forms of absolutely not true. You can experience adharma, but had also discovered their this. You can experience that." At one limitations. I mean, I felt like the Rolling 34 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze Stones, "I can get no satisfaction." And I Sahaja Yogis hadn't developed this basic was tired to keep trying. So, for me, it was discretion. Like one chap went off to try the vibrations of the graveyard. He came not at all a problem to change my lifestyle back and Mother had to work on him for after meeting Mother. The way She hours on end. "What did you do this for?" presented it made full sense, while the moral teachers of my past could not And he just couldn't explain it. Oh, things explain why I should not do something I like an early Sahaja Yogi went off fancied doing. I had done it all and I knew somewhere and she brought a necklace and Mother was saying, "Well, you've got it was dust. to try the vibrations of things". And She On one hand I finally understood from said, "This thing, there's something not Mother why virtue was good for me. But, quite right". And She got her to get a all the same, I did not know how to purify bucket of water and stuck this necklace in the water and the water turned black, like my attention right away and only meditation did help destroy the addictions. this black cloud came out of it. And She said, "Ah!" like She does and "See!" And they saw, but they didn't learn that quickly. Gregoire de Kalbermatten She had to be very patient with them. SHE HAD TO BE VERY PATIENT WITH THEM Kevin Anslow I remember Her being quite stern with the early Sahaja Yogis at times. She A DIFFERENT UNIVERSE ALTOTHER could be incredibly humorous and very Mother arranged this weekend at Her warm, but quite stern when She needed house at Hurst Green- Icehouse Wood, to be. She was very much a mother figure Hurst Green in Sussex (near Oxsted). We in every way in those days. The early all went down there by train. It was The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 35 vibrations, while stepping back. And it did extraordinary because it was this very strange collection of people in an have vibrations. That is the wooden statue extremely nice neighborhood, extremely we had in Chelsham Road (Ashram in London). nice and-Shri Mataji once described it- not even a rat was allowed to enter in or One of the things that struck me also would enter in because the houses there were so perfect. They never had visitors in the house of Mother, was that it looked and felt as if every statue that She had in let alone about fifteen straggling, hippie - the house was vibrating with power. And type people dressed in jeans and any old everywhere you went, you felt a kind of gear. There was a big drawing room Silent, peaceful, but extremely powerful downstairs with beautiful Indian rugs and things like that and then this room up the environment, which is very difficult to stairs that was on the mezzanine room- describe, except to say that you knew something very powerful was working very very sunny and there were large statues deep inside you and working it out. And of deities, a beautiful Shri Ganesha there. yet, you were in the middle of this and you Maureen Rossi felt you were in a different universe altogether. Pat (Anslow) took me to somewhere Djamel Metouri upstairs on the first floor and showed me this big statue of Shri Ganesha. And he And Shri Mataji worked on us and said, "See this statue has such vibrations". And I said, "Hang on". I didn't sort of react. talked to us and there was this incredible Being from a Muslim background, being smell of Indian cooking for about three hours. We were all dying of hunger. They of a Muslim background, I thought, "What started cooking so early and then I started What is he talking is he talking about? to be ill. Thad to keep rushing off and being So I about? tried just feeling the 36 The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 ill, but I felt brilliant. It was just a fantastic background, I hadn't with come nightclothes that were particularly smart or clear-out and then everybody went down to this big drawing room and fell asleep anything and She dressed me in petticoats on the floor - and we've got pictures of and cardigans. And She worked on my back all night in Her sleep and I kept having these bodies all over this floor- just to get up to be sick. And She snored and everywhere. then She'd stop snoring and say, "That's Again, then we had another session with Shri Mataji working on us and I had to better now." And then She'd carry on putting Her hand on my back and various keep dashing in and out, but it was like being totally divorced from the actual places and then She'd snore for a bit I felt fantastic. The house longer and then stop and say, "How do you bodily feeling. feel now? And it just went on all night and had almost like a balcony inside that ran round and went off all the rooms. in the morning I was allowed to have bananas and cardamom seeds. That was the absolute minute attention She'd give But because l'd been ill, Shri Mataji US. Said, "Maureen, you can come and sleep us. in my room." And when it came to bedtime, I tried to hide behind everybody It's just incredible to think of Her because I was convinced that Shri Mataji doing that for us and then She went to India for about six months and we used to meet disappeared when She went out of the together, a handful of us, to try to meditate, She went up these stairs curved room. but we weren't very good at all. And Shri round the middle of the house and She Mataji, before She went, had said, "You can went half up the stairs and spotted me and hauled me out from the crowd and I was come to lIndia next year when I go -with so scared as to what was going to happen Me and meet all the Sahaja Yogis there." So we started saving and when She came and anyway She had this enormous lovely bed. Being from a sort of hippie back we were in such a state She said, September-October, 2005 37 The Divine Coal Breeze SHE GAVE US SO MUCH AFFECTION "forget it. You're not up to it." But then She Now we are talking about early days again started meeting us each week, generally on a Sunday or Saturday, and and for me early days was the spring and She again had us to Her house. summer of 1977. What is special about the early days is that Shri Mataji had just a Maureen Rossi few Sahaja Yogis. She hadn't got many. She is trying to bring them up to the level HOW AM I GOING TO VISIT YOU? where they can be strong enough so we We went to Her house in Oxsted, but can then expand our collectivity. I can remember patchy things because I When I arrived, probably about six or was quite young at the time. One of them was that I used to love drawing maps -I seven people-I was probably the eighth. still do, actually-andI do them for the sort Some of us in those days have left. I guess of stories that I write now. But in those days I used to draw maps and I had no I remember how She worked on an Australian boy, Gus, for so many weeks. idea why. And I drew this map which had She took him home. She looked after him. some islands. There was an island for me She cured him. He was like an and an island for Shri Mataji. So She said, encyclopedia of drugs. He was really bad. "Well that's no good because how am I He had so many problems and She going to visit you?" And I said, "Well, I can't worked on him day in and day out, every take the train." Sol said, "Well, what about day. She never spared any effort. The an underground train?" So Mother said, most extraordinary thing is that She gave "Okay, that's fine". So, with Her direction, him all the love and, after three months, he we drew in this little sort of underground just left. He left Sahaja Yoga. He could train track. That solved the problem. have, in fact, stayed and She never said. In fact, She said, "Okay". When you look Kevin Anslow The Divine Cool Breeze 38 September-October, 2005 house She had in Hurst Green or in the flat at it from our point of view, he wasted Mother's efforts. But She never actually in Ashley Gardens, in those days, She always had -She did everything. She talked about it that way. To Her, She just gave love and that love, there was no gave us so much affection. Djamel Metouri condition put on it. TRULY LIKE A MOTHER The most extraordinary thing about Shri Shri Mataji used to cook for us and Mataji is Her capacity as a Mother to vibrate lemons for us and She would work basically - to nourish the Sahaja Yogis on us constantly and effortlessly andall the who came at that time. To nourish them time. Every week She would come into with enough love so they stayed in Sahaja Yoga, so they felt-may be She gives us the ashram and would work on our chakras what we didn't have, so, as Sai Nath of and check our vibrations and see how we Shirdi said, "We may want what She wants were doing. So She was really truly like a mother, taking care of us. to give us." And She worked tirelessly, taking us to Her home. She never hesitated to cook for LIS. Just think, the Adi Miodrag Radosavljevic Shakti in Her Home, cooking for the few SHE'D BUY THE JACKETS AND THE of us. There may have been seven, eight, TIES FOR US. nine, even ten Sahaja Yogis. She would, Herself, cook food for us because Shri Mataji would actually go out to a obviously She wanted to put those vibrations in our Nabhis. She wanted to shop. I know because She took me out and She took several other people out. improve our Nabhis, which were in such a state anyway. And the way She actually She'd give them Sir CP's second-hand, old ties and Sir CP, Her Husband, was very received us in Her home, whether it be the September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze 39 much the head of the IMO (International Maritime Organisation), so totally opposite Vicky Halperin from us. He was one of the highest placed Yes, She would never take money. people in International society and we were That was the difference. You'd hear of dug up from a gutter somewhere, relatively speaking. I remember I got a tie. She'd gurus and people they have. They're always give ties to people at pujas. She'd always taking money off them. You give them everything. give ties, jackets, clothes. She took me I tried to pay Shri Mataji back for the out and bought a jacket for me. She clothes She bought my sister, Sharon bought clothes for my sister. She must have spent well over a hundred pounds on [Vincent], and She just threw it away, said, clothes. That was down Brick Lane (In the "Don't be silly. What are you doing? I don't East End of London). want your money. Don't be silly." Ray Harris Ray Harris. When I bought Her a gift, She asked INCREDIBLY CHEAP me if I was being patronizing. She didn't She'd bought me a dress and I don't want gifts. She said, "You can't treat Me think anybody had bought me anything like the gurus." It was inappropriate to buy since l'd been a child and I was -I didn't individual gifts. I think at some point later know how to take it: I didn't know if I was we were told that collective gifts were supposed to pay for it. I didn't really appropriate and individual gifts were not understand what the protocol was for that appropriate. I mean, I think Mother went moment. I said I couldn't accept it. I from my house and I had big tears in niy wanted to pay and She let me. And then eyes at the thought that l'd offended Her She got another one. So I got two. and I really didn't. I'd wanted to do the The Divine Cool Breeze 40 September-October, 2005 happened was that we were at this opposite. reception and somebody, by mistake, gave me a glass of wine and l drank it." Vicky Halperin WE FELT WHAT SHRI MATAJI FELT So what happened was we felt the effects of the wine that Shri Mataji drank. We were painting various bits of the Because it had an effect on the house [Hurst Green in Sussex in about unconscious and we actually felt it from 1974]. Now one particular experience that Her. So obviously, at that time, we were in I remember was that Shri Mataji went out such deep meditation that we actually felt with Mr. Srivastava to go to a meeting, a what Shri Mataji felt through the collective reception of some sort. He was at that unconscious. That was quite an amazing time the director-general of IMCO experience. [International Maritime Consultative Douglas Fry Organization] and She left us. We were KIND S OF just cleaning this wall and painting it. About SHE TRIED ALL DIFFERENTTHINGS half way through the night we suddenly got One of the most memorable things this terrific headache and it felt really for me took place at Oxted, at he house strange, but we just carried on working. there. We spent actually quite a lot of time So it passed. there and Mother, as we say, the attention. I mean, She used to cook for us. There So when Shri Mataji came home were servants there who cooked, but and asked us how we were, I said, "I got sometimes She'd cook specially for us this really terrible headache halfway and She would work on us. It was so through. I didn't know what was happening." And She said, "Oh, what intensive. You'd bow down with your hands 41 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze worked. I felt very clear after that. under Mother's Feet and the other Sahaja Yogis would be gathered around and it Pat Anslow on for hours would literally sometimes go just to clear one person out. And they'd be down for that length of time with their SHE TRIED THINGS OUT WITH head on Mother's Feet. She tried all kinds PEOPLE of different things, mostly just looking after She used to give me little presents us in beautiful ways. sometimes. It's so fragmentary because Iremember once She gave me a it's a long, long time ago. I tend to find head massage with oil and we'd do odd these memories sort of suddenly come to jobs sometimes around the house. I me, but then they vanish again. remember once we were sandpapering remember in Gower Street Shri Mataji something ready to paint and Mother came used to - well, my father says it was over and joined in, got a bit of sandpaper somewhere else - well, the older Sahaja and sandpapered with us. And the meals Yogis at the time were a collection of ex- used to be the most memorable, weren't hippies and I was younger and clearer. they? We were really spoiled, spoiled They had had a bit of a wild time and it rotten. had sort of left its imprint on their charkas. Shri Mataji sometimes used to use me to I remember one day I turned up at sort of try things out or to clear things out. Her house and She said, "You just go out. She discovered the neck crick on me. This I clear you out and you just get caught up. is a form of treatment which no longer "And She made me lie down in front of exists, I think because some of the people Her and took Her shoe and actually shoe- got rather damaged necks when they did bashed my spine - very hard - hard it to each other. But Shri Mataji had me enough for me to see stars. And that sitting down and said, "I've discovered this The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 42 great new treatment for the Vishuddhi." Mataji and She said, "You shouldn't actually And She got my head and went see that." She said, "One is power and one is purity." I could actually see them, but "huwhump!" And it went "Click!" And I screamed and was in absolute outrage, She said, "Ilf you can actually see those but She found it very amusing. colours, it means you are not actually in the center. You are off to one side." There was this sense that Sahaja Douglas Fry Yoga was sort of experimental. She tried things out with people. She would get them I WAS SEEING MOTHER AS A CHILD to do things and see if it worked or not. I WOULD mean, I think it sort of goes on, on a larger I was seeing Mother as a child scale, as well today. would. Imean every timel saw Her, I would run up and hug Her. It is not something Kevin Anslow you get to do when you get older. There was a definite change of protocol there. ONE IS POWER AND ONE IS And I do remember that as I got older, I PURITY was not quite aware of this protocol and not knowing what to make of it, particularly Because I wasn't properly centered, as the Sahaja Yogis were sort of T had a bit of an Agnaya problem at that intellectually engaging with ;it in some sort time. I used to see Shri Mataji flash from different colours. She used to go this of sense. But I do remember that I could sort of run up and hug Mother. She was beautiful rainbow green and this beautiful It was very sort of like a big friend. rainbow red and I'd just see this light sort different. She was very accessible in those of flashing from Her. But apparently the reason for that was because I had an days to people and yet it didn't quite have the intensity that people have in encounters Agnaya problem. I mentioned this to Shri 43 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze with Mother in more recent times or as trying to sort of teach us who She was, trying to tell us who She was. And then time went on. She said, "The power of God actually just I remember my Aunt Maureen [Rossi) goes to the back of Me. I am like the saying that She was very direct and source and it's just flowing behind Me." And that is when we started realizing that sociable, especially with the ladies, in a Mother was trying to tell us who She was. way that She wasn't with the men. But, And then She was trying to work on our generally speaking, like in talks and things, Mooladhara. And Gus was saying that he will notice that at a certain moment you some aspect of Her will come out, saw Mother as Shri Ganesha, He was quite struck by it and he was very surprised. He something very serious and quite didactic hadn't seen Mother in that aspect. and sometimes a great jocularity. She did Djamel Metouri have that, but it was very much more toned down in those days. I think people were Her THE SHOES OF THE ADI SHAKTI perhaps not up to the scope of | believe I saw from the very first days manifesting these things in their fuller the colossal meaning of what Shri Mataji sense. was doing. 1 recognized She brings the Kevin AnsloW total, the grand revolution, the most radical factor of global change for mankind. The TAM LIKE THE SOURCE French and Russian revolutions are I also remember this meeting we had nothing compared to this ! with Mother. She gave us this sort of On the other hand, I was looking meditation in Her lounge, you know, where around me. How on Earth and in the we were seven or eight people. We were heavens are we going to get there? Maureen, Gus, from the early days, Pat, This was the problem and the tension Douglas. At some stage Mother was within me. It was like being at the 44 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze bottom of a huge rock and not looking at a bunch of stunned people, sitting around a table looking at pairs knowing how to climb it. of shoes on the table and thinking, "Is I remember one day in August 1975, it with this lot we are going to change in the house of Shri Mataji in Hurst the world?" My mistake was to focus on the people, not the shoes. I did not Green, there were about seven Sahaja know what shoes can do if these are Yogis around the table. Needless to in those days we were all new and the shoes of the Adi Shakti. And if the say, there was nobody else. Shri Mataji world, indeed, will be transformed, let started putting Her shoes on the table us handle these shoes with the very nice and elegant ones, no feelings that Bharat had in handling doubts! But, of course, we did not the shoes of his brother, Shri Rama. know then that Mother was doing it Gregoire de because the vibrations from Her Kalbermatten shoes are so powerful. So I was Nirmala Yoga. 212 ---------------------- 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-0.txt TheDivine Cool Breeze IVIne 00 September - October 2005 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-2.txt SHWA NIRMALA. "IVERSAL PU PURE In This Issue:- 1. Saraswati Puja – Dhulia 14.1.1983 Maha Sahasrara Day 13 2. The First Shajayoga Seminar, Austria Sept, 1982 15 3. 4. Maria Smith's Account of the miracles at Bedford. 17 5. Little Stories from the Rome Centre 20 In memory of a great man 23 6. 7. The memories of our Divine Mother. 26 DHARMA RELIGION 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-3.txt Co oL THE DIVINE C o OL B R E E ZE Published by Nirmal Infosystems & Technologies Pvt. Ltd. Infosys House, Plot No. 8, Chandragupt Housing Society, Paud Road,Kothrud, Pune-411 029 Printed at Amarnath Press (P) Ltd. WHS 2/50, Kirti Nagar Indl. Area, New Delhi - 15 Ph.:25268673 Please Send Your Suggestions and Subscription to:- Shri G.L. Aggarwal Nirmal Infosystems & Technologies Pvt. Ltd. 222, Desh Bandhu Apartments Kalkaji, New Dehi-110019 Tel. No.:011-26422054, 26216654 And Your Sahaja Experiences, Articles, Miracle Photographs etc. to: Shri O.P. Chandna G-11-(463), Rishi Nagar, Rani Bagh, Delhi-110 034 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-4.txt SHRI SARASWATI PUJA Dhulia 14.1.1983 With love all kinds of creative action gradually stop, when they will be fed up. takes place. You see how Raulbai has So all the activity on right hand side, of love for me and in this place you all also Saraswati, basically has to end up in love. got new idea of creating a beautiful thing. Starts with love and ends up in love. And as love will increase your creativity Whichever does not end up in love, coils will develop. So the basis of all creativity up and finishes off. It just disappears. So of Saraswati is love. If there is no love you can see that even matter which is not there is no creativity. It is even in the deeper used for love, just finishes off. The basis sense, you see; people who have created has to be love. Otherwise all such matter all the scientific things are also out of love that we crate which has angularity, which to the masses, not for themselves. is not fitting into the mass media, which is Nobody has produced anything for not appealing to the masses; of course, it themselves. If they make something for takes time, you have seen that it takes time themselves it has to become for universal - but it does have that terdency always to use, otherwise it has no meaning. Even if disappear in the thin air as soon as you you say atom bomb and all these things find it does not appeal to the masses. are created from science, they are also very protective. If they had not created, Now this love of, that we talk of, the those people would not have taken out great love of God we talk of, we know that their minds from war. Now, nobody can it is, for definite, through vibrations. People think of having a big war. Of course, they do not have vibrations but still they can leel are having cold wars, but that also will the vibrations in a very unconscious way 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-5.txt September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze I told you, it cannot. Because the time will All the great paintings of the world have kill it. All these things have to disappear vibrations. All the great creative works of and already you can see the result, how the world have vibrations. Only those who things are changing every-where, even in have vibrations have been sustained by time - otherwise all other things are the West. So there is no need to be so much disappointed with the West and to destroyed. There must have been say that the Western world is a waste-land. monuments and horrible statues and horrible things that have been created long It is going to be alright and it has to be done. Specially it has done lot of Puja of time back. But they are all destroyed by Saraswati. I should say in the West. Much Nature as they could not stand the impact more than they have done in India because of the KALA-that is the destructive power they have gone to learn it and they have of time. So, all that is sustaining, all that is tried to find out so many things. But only nurturing, all that is ennobling comes from thing they forgot that it is a Goddess, God this sense of love, which is within us very much developed but within others also is the Giver. Everything comes from the Goddess. That is what they forgot. And who are not yet realised. Ultimately the that is why all the problems have been whole world has to realise that one has to go to that ultimate love of God, otherwise created. If there is no Spirit in your learning, it has no meaning. if there is no source of the goddess in your learning, then it is- absolutely useless. If they had realised that there is the Spirit that Now you have seen in arts people have taken to other methods of appealing is working it out, they would not have gone that far. And that is what I was warning the to people by using cheap things and very Indians, although, that you are now taking vulgar things, just to make people think to industrial revolution in a way and to avoid that this is art. But this will all disappear. It cannot sustain the impact of the time as all the complications of industrial 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-6.txt September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze revolution, you must try to know the Spirit. Christ then it is even more essential that If you do not know the Spirit you will have the purity of life, what you call 'Niti', is the morality of life. Now morality itself has the same problem as these people have. Because they are also human beings, you become very much sort of an argument in the West. People don't have any sense of are also human beings. You will also go the same way. At random you will run and absolute morality. On vibrations of course there will be problems, the same problems you know. But they have all gone against it. Those who are worshippers of Lord as the Western people have. Jesus, those who are the worshippers of Now Saraswati's blessings are so the Surya, of the Saraswati have all gone against, against the powers, of Surya, just many that one cannot describe in such a short time. And the Surya (Sun) has given disobeying it. Because you cannot be a us so many powers that it is impossible to Surya if you don't have a proper sense of morality and holiness. The Surya itself tell them even in one lecture, even in ten brings light to see everything clearly. So lectures. But how we go against Surya and many qualities Surya has got. It dries up how we go against Saraswati, while doing everything that is wet, dirty, filthy. It dries the worship of Saraswati, it is to be seen up all those places which create parasites. very clearly within ourselves. For example But so many parasites are created in the the Western people are very fond of Surya West. Not only parasites, but there are because they have no Surya. But they go too far with it, as you know, and create horrible cults and horrible things which have come into that; those countries which complications within themselves of Surya. are supposed to be full of light, and in that But the main thing that one has to achieve darkness they exist. Darkness about the through Surya is the light 'Vivek'- is the tight within. And if Surya Chakra at the Spirit, darkness about their own Agnaya level is occupied by lord Jesus knowledge and darkness about love. 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-7.txt September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze that. All our brain activity goes against pure These three things have taken over in the intelligence. And that is what one has to places where you are supposed to love understand- that this pure intelligence, is light. Light does not mean, light does not notto be soiled by our thinking. Ourthinking mean what you see with your gross eyes, Light means from within-the light of love, can make us so bumptious, so ego- That one should understand-Light of love. oriented, so impure, that we can really eat the poison and say 'what is wrong in it? And it is so soothing, it is so sweet, it is so beautiful, it is so enamouring, it is so Just the opposite of Saraswati. If abounding that unless and until you can Saraswati is within us, She give us "Subuddhi', wisdom. And that is why, to feel that light within you-that light which is of pure love - of purity, pure relationship, worship Saraswati, to worship Surya, we must have that clear vision as to what we pure understanding. If you can develop What we are doing. What that kind of a light within yourself, then the have to be. whole thing will be cleansed. "Wash me filth we are living in. What our mind is and I shall be whiter than snow.' This is getting into. After all we are here for what happens to you when you are emancipation and not for, just for pampering our ego and living with our filth completely cleansed. The purest form of Nature is within us. The purest form of that is with us. So this light has come Nature is within us. Our Chakras are within us and we should try to rise above our own mental filth which is being created made out of that 'purest' form of Nature. around us. Apart from that, you have to go We are the only people who are spoiling it by our mental thinking. higher and understand that there is, within Against the us, a thing called ego. And this ego is false, same Saraswati power, you are going against Saraswati itself. Saraswati absolutely false. You do not do anything. Actually when you turn your eyes here and cleanses all that is impure in nature, while there when your attention is here and there, with our brain activity we are spoiling all 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-8.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 7. it is nothing but your ego that is trying to then they become Gurus, they themselves have lots of defects in themselves and they overpower you. But actually ego is an try to pull people into those horrible stuff absolute falsehood because there is only one ego and that is the God Almighty, which is described as absolute NARAKA. NARAKA is the movement of ego on all 'Mahatahankara'. There is no really any the sides. ego that exists, it is myth. It is a very big myth, because if you start thinking you are Now when people try to use their right doing everything-you are doing this, you are doing that-which you are not doing; Vishuddhi, that is, to talk about themselves, is the worst of all. Whatever then this non-sensical ego comes in and you start working it out, it can project in type of ego you may have, if you start boasting about it and talking about it, then direction. When it projects forward, every it encircles, thickens the walls of ego so it overpowers others, it tries to dominate much, that it is impossible to penetrate into others, tries to kill others, becomes Hitler. that, because such a person is completely When it moves to right side, it becomes satisfied with himself and he believes that supraconscious. It starts seeing things he is so. And once he starts believing into which are absurd, which are foolish, which a non-sense like that, its an impossibility are stupid. When it moves to left side then then-impossibility to penetrate. it starts, talking-Imean, seeing things- yourself as a big man, as a big Christ or So when you boast about these as a big Devi or something like Adi Gurus and 'l am a very great personality' that is things or you talk big, be careful, you see. You know what I am, but how many times left sided. When it moves backwards, that is the dangerous one. do l say 'l am that'. Even ifI say once, you Then people become Gurus which are ruining other get tremendous vibrations for you. But how many times do I say so? At the most if you people. When their ego moves backwards 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-9.txt September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze say something, I say 'yes'. But I don't say this talking. And once they take to talking that. IfI say it loudly, I don't know what may and they talk about it, the whole power goes out. But if they do not talk about it and keep The whole thing, might be happen. it within themselves, it is alright. You can blasted! So, one has to understand that Mahatahankara is the one that acts, that tell me about your experiences, alright, but works, that creates. Sometimes I shout if you start telling others, and talking about it too much, then the power that you have at you. Immediately all the bhoots run away. Just once I shout. Yesterday, you got will be all disappearing gradually. And you will just come down to absolutely lowest saw all the bhoots that were talking, they So one should not too much talk that all ran away. Yesterday this I talked to you. level. So you should understand that now you Ihave this power, I have this power or I think are a realised soul, you can also do the this orI do this, which is a very wrong thing. Use your right Vishuddhi to I warn you, DO NOT TRY TO SHOW OFF. same. Yes, you can talk about my powers. It is all shout at yourself, "Now will you please right. But don't try to talk about your powers. stop boasting, will you stop talking all this nonsense, will you stop showing When it comes, of course, you talk to off!" Then it will stop. somebody who is a negative person or to tell somebody, then you should say that WE, NOT I. "We' have, 'some of us' have Now this thickening takes place by felt this power within us. 'We' have seen people who really are active. They want people. It may be you only, but you need to do something about it, not that they are not say, 'I'have. What you've to say WE'. not active. They want to do. But they know Then you become the Mahatahankara. only one way, is to act talkative. They don't When you say 'We' 'here some of us' 'we understand that there are inner ways by which you control it much more.. Because do'. Like in Gregoire's book I made it, I saw to it that he should not have many 'I's they don't want to take to that, they take to 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-10.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 but he should have 'We'. We think', 'we always think in the words of "WE', so your do', 'we', means the whole collective ego will become much less, much less, much less. And the same ego which looks being, the whole collective organism, living organism of SHAJAYOGIS. So if you so funny and absurd will fall tomorrow to say, 'yes, some of us have got', that the EKADASHA. means, you put yourself down, but put all Today, individual ego will merge into others above you. Say "Yes, some of us have, I know some people have this.' That EKADASHA. But we all must remember is the way one should do it. Because if to say 'WE' all time. This is what is today's day is great day for us to change, because you have to overpower your ego, you must the Sun has changed its move, now. Sun allow it to spread into every body else. That is coming this side. So let us welcome the is how, you will make it perfectly all right. Sun, coming to the North now, this way. And Let it spread. We all SAHAJA YOGIS 'WE ALL'. But that pride is not there. I've seen for Australians to say that though the Sun that pride is not there. Still it is very has gone, let us establish the Sun, the individualistic. If you start thinking, 'we' domain of Sun, within ourselves. Because SAHAJA YOGIS', then what happens is Sun never disappears from our inside. So become 'one' personality, 'one' that is how we have to take a mode by which we should think of 'one' personality, organisation. 'all of us together, all of us together.' And But the person will look down upon anybody who tries to be something separate or different, he will drop out. I other people. He will see that person is will drop him out. What ever it may be, it low, that person is higher, that person is there. But he will not think 'We' the Sahaja So you judge yourself, will drop out. Yogis, how beautiful we are! We' the body anybody who tries to be singled out or of Sahaja Yoga, how beautiful we are! So anything. Everybody must do whatever 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-11.txt 10 The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 they like, to nurture the whole, to help the thing today that we are having puja at Dhulia. Like the Dhulia means the dust. whole, to help the whole, to emancipate the whole. But not to, in anyway, put anyone Dust. And one day I had written in Childhood, a poem, I remember. Very down always. Because this is not the way the Sahaja Yoga is. Sahaja Yoga only interesting poem it was - I don't know where it is now-but which said that 'I want works in collectivity. And the one who has developed this permeating spirit, to be smaller like a dust particle which is a real Sahaja Yogi. Who has not, is moves with the wind. It goes everywhere. Can go, sit on the head of a king, or can not! Whatever you may think of yourself, I go and fall at the feet of someone. And it have nothing to say. But this permeating can go and sit on a little flower, and it can personality which moves from places to go and sit everywhere. But I want to be a places, whether you talk or not. Like your Mother is. Whether I meet you or not, particle of dust, that is fragrant, that is makes no difference, but I am permeating nourishing, that is enlightening,' Like that, I had written a very beautiful poem, I was through all of you, by little-little things also I am there with you. So like that, try to about seven year of age, I remember-To be a dust partiole, 'I remember that very permeate into each other and see the clearly, long time back, 'that I should be a beauty in you. Enjoy yourself the best dust particle. So that I will permeate into because that is the biggest thing. That's the biggest thing that is to be achieved. people,' which is a very big thing to become a dust particle of that kind. To just Because this ego you know makes you whatever you touch, you see, that becomes like a nutshell and it just cannot have a enliving, whatever you just feel, that is rapport with that beauty of permeation and fragrance. It is such a great thing to be like just see how the notes move into each that. And that was my desire, and it will be other. achieved. At that young age, I had this idea It will be a great idea today, it is great 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-12.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 11 of becoming a dust particle and today just around. And this is the way to overcome while talking to you, I remembered that I the problems of the right side and that is wanted to be that, and that is what this how to worship Saraswati. Because place is. And Raulbai is like that. She is a Saraswati has a Veena in Her hand and very simple woman, very simple woman that Veena is the primordial instrument and she lives like a very simple person. which She plays like music, and music She has a sense of permeation. And now penetrates into the heart. You don't know how it goes into you and how it works out. there are so many Sahaja Yogis, yesterday who came; and I am sure there That is how a person who is Sahaja Yogi should permeate- like music. There are are going to be more people.I hope you so many qualities as I told you which have met all of them. Make friends with cannot be described in one lecture. But all of them. Try to know them who they one of the greatest quality of Her's is that are. They may not know English. You get somebody to translate. Talk to them and She ends up into subtler things like the Mother Earth will end up into fragrance. be nice to them. Be friendly with them. I wanted you to meet them for permeation. Music will end up into inelody like that You should know who are the people here, whatever She creates ends up into something greater. Matter whatever She who are in Nasik. Because somehow we never meet the Sahaja Yogis, you see, produces ends up into aesthetics. If matter who are in that particular place. And when does not have aesthetics then it is gross, we go back we have only one or two like that everything. Now you will say what is water. Water becomes the river addresses. It is not a good idea. Try to see how many people there are. Ask Ganges! These are the subtler things. So the matter gets into subtler thing because questions about them. And all that. it has to permeate, it has to permeate. So This permeation is only possible when your ego starts permeating all everything whatever it is. And the best of 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-13.txt The Divine Cool Breeze 12 September-October, 2005 all is the air. That air becomes the that and that is how one has to look at your vibrations! own life, to make it a beautiful combination of love and matter. So you can see how whatever has May god bless you. come out from this matter, from these five elements, becomes that subtler thing. Of (Nirmala Yoga) course, the left and right side both work it out. Because the love has to work on this 1983 and when love acts on matter it becomes 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-14.txt MAHA SAHASRARA DAY on a motor-cycle, I had taken guidance We draw your attention to the article from Mr. B.G. Pradhan, who was present with the above heading in NIRMALA YOGA there on 5th May, 1970 and is one of the (May-June, 1983) Vol. 15, page 16. It is first twelve who got their realisation there. to be noted that on 5th May, 1970, Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi opened the I located the place where this grea. Sahasrara of VIRATA at NARGOLand not at Bordi as mentioned in the above event had taken place by the help of vibrations and then sat there in meditation. mentioned article. It is very difficult to describe the intense peace of the Grace which I enjoyed in the NARGOL is a small village near the meditation. It was very deep and blissful. seashore and is about 35 KM by State highway from Bordi. By Railway one has Thereafter, I returned back to the to get down at UMARGAON Railway house in whose compound I had parked Station on Central Railway and then to my motorcycle. As I was walking with my reach NARGOL by road. hands out stretched enjoying the vibrations, people of the house enquired On 25th Sept.,1983, I visited Bordi whether I was searching something. I told in connection with the arrangements of the them "About thirteen years back our Shri International Shivir for 600 Sahaja brothers and sisters who would be attending it Mataji Nirmala Devi had come there and during 10th to 15th Feb.. 1984. After meditated near the seashore. I wanted to find out the exact place where She had finishing my work at Bordi at about 1 PM meditated." They at once remembered in the afternoon I journeyed to NARGOL 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-15.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 14 that Shri Mataji had been there and they DEVI KI JAI. with some other local people had attended Her programme. BOLO SHRI R.N. PEREKAR (BOMBAY) SAHASRARA SWAMINI MOKSHA PRADAYANI MATAJI SHRI NIRMALA NIRMALA YOGA 1983 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-16.txt THE FIRST SAHAJA YOGA SEMINAR IN AUSTRIA Our Holy Mother visited Vienna in because the collectivity in the group was September 82, gave Her blessings to the very good. Fixing the attention to the Spirit and not to the outward appearance of a whole city and realization to about 6000 seekers. About 25 remained in Sahaja person, we somehow melted together. Yoga in an active capacity and gathered Finally nobody could bear to see the end to our first seminar in April. of the seminar coming. The three children of the manager of the youth hostel were You can't imagine, it was such a attracted to us one after the other and they blessing to attend it! Just thinking about it all got their realization; it was really sweet! one gets breathless... but we have to go All this sounds very nice, yet there is much beyond thought anyway. We had a work to do in Austria. With the help and programme of videos, workshops, guidance of the Divine we will spread Sahaja Yoga until the last valley of our Alps meditation, exchange of experiences and above all, a beautiful Shiva-Shakti- will be vibrated. And we now need an ashram to adore our Mother, who is Beauty Ganesh Puja, which according to the vibrations, was kindly accepted by the and Bliss itself and to set the example of a new life style to this Austria. deities. No doubt, all problems will be solved We gathered together to surrender if we to the realm of joy and silence, to get the the surrender ourselves to Enlightened One, the Spirit. We pray to our Divine Vibrations flowing from the Eternal Shri Mother that She opens our hearts for One. This happened in such a way, that, in a very short time, we grew remarkably Her Grace, compassion and guidance. strong in our yoga. This was possible, 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-17.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 16 O Devi, who else but you can take are Your children, playing with Your gifts. away our misidentifications so that we can Thank You ! face your shining love without shadow in - Guent her Nirmala Yoga our eyes. Let us always remember that we 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-18.txt Maria Smith's account of the miracle at Bedford and the events leading up to it. the visit was temporarily called off by Shri Bedford is a provincial town in the midlands of England. Sahaja Yoga Mataji. We realized at this point that we had been completely drained and wasted programmes were started there about by going about things in a human rather eighteen months ago, during which time a number of people were given realization than a Sahaja fashion. So collectivity, the English Sahaja Yogis decided to work on and three became Sahaja Yogis, In 1982 Shri Mataji was invited by local Sahaja the midlands area by cleansing and strengthening themselves and the area by Yogis to come to Bedford and other doing pujas and by asking the elements neighbouring cities. to help in the process. Every Sunday we would have pujas in one of the three main Initially, absolutely nothing worked towns and would work on the map of the district in the presence of Shri Mataji's out as far as arrangements for Shri Mataji's trip were concerned. There was total photograph. We would use the vibrations negativity and opposition from the media, coming from different parts of the map to and even Sahaja Yogis were sucked into feel and work out the collective problems the vortex of inertia. A lot of energy was of a particular town. lost in the process of trying to make people understand the importance of this Just before all this took place, when visit by intellectual reasoning and the meetings had been cancelled, Maria persuasion, None of the approaches to telephoned Shri Mataji and our Holy media or any of the plans bore fruit through Mother explained that something was complete lack of local interest. As a result taking place on a level beyond our 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-19.txt 18 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze awareness and beyond our ability to so completely. control. Shri Mataji had consulted the stars After a month or two of all this Shri and deities so that they would work it in Mataji suggested more dates for the way that the Divine knows best. programmes which She would attend in the midlands area. All the money for hiring halls After some weeks a series of etc. was gone, but due to one timely phone extremely violent rain storms occurred. call the right person appeared at the right One minute the summer skies would be moment to help with this side of things. The clear and blue; the next they would be filled with unnaturally heavy clouds, which second boon was that the media were totally positive; the newspaper, radio and seemed to come out of nowhere. The rain was so heavy that people could hardly even TV were only too delighted to believe it and it was accompanied by cooperate. It seemed almost as if everyone connected with the media had lightning which rent the skies from end to end and frightful and deafening thunder. been previously convinced about Shri Mataji and Sahaja Yoga prior to our visiting The rivers flooded and overflowed on to team. the surrounding lands. After every storm Shri Mataji arrived and was on two there would be spectacular rainbows -not TV programmes, and the Sahaja a normal, single rainbow, but many bows all crossing each other. These spectacular Programmes were jam packed with people standing in the corridors outside. shows would delight everyone with their beauty and people would even stop their It was during the first meeting at cars to watch this heavenly wonder. All Bedford that the greatest miracle Jews and Christians will recall that God occurred. Shri Mataji was driven to the sent Noah a rainbow after the great flood meeting and reached the hall at about 7.30 as a symbol of His love and as a promise that He would never flood the earth again p.m. Our Mother left at about 11.00 p.m. 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-20.txt September-October, 2005 The Divine Copl Breeze 19 and was in the hall constantly in between. Yogis were accompanying Shri Mataji in Her car to the meeting at Canmbridge. One At about 9.15 p.m. a young man person complained that she was named Jason Haynes, who lived in suffering from a bed left nabhi catch. Bedford, was knocked off his motor bike The reply of Shri Mataji is instructive in one of the streets of the town and was for all: our Mother explained that it was lying seriously injured waiting for the not this lady's left nabhi, but the ambulance to arrive. Some minutes later collective catch of the whole area he was aware of a kind Indian lady which was being felt. She was told to standing over him, touching him where open her charkas, and pray to the particular he was most injured and each time She deity, then vibrations could be emitted touched him the pain left that part of the through that person's chakra out to the body. Then She left, and later the whole environment. Thus the problem was ambulance arrived and took him to the that of the whole area and the lady was to hospital, where he was treated for minor stop assuming that the catch revolved injuries and shock. The onlookers at the about the problems of her small self; it was scene of the accident did not see any something much bigger. "Indian lady' at any time, and Shri Mataji was at that time visibly giving realization Mother, please let us surrender to in the hall in another part of Bedford. The You completely so that we may be worthy next day the young man, Jason Haynes, instruments for the great work You are saw a photograph of Shri Mataji in the accomplishing on this earth of Yours which local paper and was certain beyond have so graciously given us to enjoy. you doubt that this was the 'mysterious lady who had helped him. NIRMALA YOGA 1983 The following day some Sahaja 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-21.txt Little Stories from the Rome Center discussions on the need to stop smoking It was the first time I was going to but without any results. Yet the day after the apartment where the Sahaja Yogis meet and I could not remember the these comments of the Sahaja Yogis and after I had bitterly complained to them indications my husband gave me to find about all those smokers, without any their house. As I did not want to go all the apparentreasons, all the colleagues in the experiment way back home I decided to with the guidance from the vibrations on office decided to stop smoking in the room. All of a sudden they were all taking the hands. So, I went on it in the street till care of my right Vishuddhi. I was stunned, I arrived in front of the right gate and happy, and, from the bottom of my heart, I pushed on the right interphone button. thanked Shri Hanumana and Shri Mataji. When I got the confirmation that I had EDUARDO indeed found the flat I was looking for I just couldn't believe it. I started my study as I was 23, with a RITA lot of insecurity and fear of the exams. During the first series of exams after my Shortly after my realization I was told realization I was still afraid though feeling by the Sahaja Yogis that my right the Presence of Shri Mataji in the room. Vishuddhi was catching as smokers' Then something strange happened : the Vishuddhi usually do. I don't smoke but in examiners, well known for being harsh and my office they all do it. That same day the nasty, started beaming with smiles, Sahaja Yogis also told me that, as a child became so human and so nice as soon of Shri Mataji, I was protected; I could not as they proceeded with the girls of my really understand what they meant. group. Everything went so well as if a good In my office there had been regular fairy had entered the room on a cloud 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-22.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 21 towards our Mother). The next morning we sparkling with beauty. The same thing were amazed to find that the picture of the repeated itself for all the exams I had to "guru" had fallen down on the floor. Only go through. The wonderful thing about it is that my girl friends noted the change the picture of Shri Mataji remained. After this event, somehow, I felt that we should Occurring every time, and now, funnily not sleep with our feet towards the picture of Shri Mataji. enough, they all wanted to be examined at the same time as me. CRISTINA ANTONIO & ANNY Before meeting Shri Mataji, Anny It was 9.30 pm. I was returning home and myself were keeping in our bedroom when suddenly some boys forcefully took the picture of a "guru" whose meditation away my bag. It contained pictures of Shri techniques we had followed for a while. Mataji, my identification papers, money, Although we had found that his system did gold, jewels that I wanted to sell, a shawl not give any results we were still from India, my keys and newspapers to intellectually convinced that he was a saint. look for a place suitable for our ashram. Hence his picture remained on the wall, On arriving home I prayed to Mother that fortunately at the foot of the bed. Her angels should not be too harsh with the thieves. My husband told me to go to The night Anny and myself received the police right away but I refused:I was our realization from Shri Mataji we deeply convinced that the bag would be received Her picture for meditation. returned. It had to be so as lama daughter Returning happily home, we fixed Her of Shri Mataji. I went to bed, praying as picture on the wall near the one of the usual to Shri Mother, and, confidently, I went "guru". (We did not know anything about to sleep. The next day, I hardly protocol but probably we have been remembered what had happened when the forgiven for sleeping that night with the feet doorbell rang. It was the doorman holding 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-23.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 22 the bag in his hand. Astreet cleaner had been smashed into pieces... found it on a lawn and brought it back to Jai Shri Mataji the correct address. Nothing had been touched. Just an old amulet that, I had forgotten in a side pocket of the purse, had EMMA (Nirmala Yoga) 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-24.txt In Memory of a Great Man The prize winning film of R. Attenborough on Mahatma Gandhi has been seen by many Sahaja Yogis throughout the world. For once the link between Gandhi and Sahaja Yoga cannot be stressed enough: in enabling Bharata to regain its political freedom. Gandhi brought back to the land of yoga its lost dignity without which it could not unveil to other civilizations the priceless secret of its spiritual tradition: Kundalini Yoga. He was, in this way, the precursor of this little girl who was staying in his ashram. I refer to Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi of course. Gandhiji used to call Her "Nepali" which, indeed, was quite accurate: the Devi is the daughter of Himavat, the king of the nmountains, and the Sahasrara of the planet is in Nepal, in the Himalayas. On a general level the film on Gandhi brings to a wide public's attention some features in the life of this remarkable man that Sahaja Yogis can, perhaps, best analyse. Young Europeans do not always realize what colonialism really meant to the rest of the world. They often consider that, after all, it was a good thing to bring science and technology to other continents without realizing that only too often the colonial powers behave with gross brutality; they destroyed in the process of their so quote "civilizing mission" the delicate fabric of human and social values which, in the light of spiritual life, were by far superior to their own. The real victory of Gandhi was to beat the major colonial power of the time merely by resorting to these values. In many ways the mode of action of Gandhiji was sahaj. For instance, he firmly derived his political activity from a couple of Dharmik principles and he refused to compromise with what was wrong. These principles, his very firmness, stemmed from his (correct) conviction that it is God who leads history. Thus God answered back the call, or, in other words, the Unconscious started working for Gandhi. 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-25.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 How did it happen? - Gandhi's greatest leverage was his command over the Indian masses, He gained such a command because the simple folk could recognize that he was inspired from above. The people felt it from their own individual unconscious and thus they believed in the legitimacy and the credibility of his leadership; they, indeed, called him "Mahatma", gave him confidence in his mission, lent him in any possible way their support. Therefore, to take but one example, merely by his hunger strike the Mahatma could control the behaviour of millions of people. But alas, this process cannot work outside India, in countries where the common man does not have the required level of sensitivity to his own unconscious. This is why Gandhi's schemes of peaceful revolution has not yet been implemented anywhere else in the world. Other countries could, possibly have their own Gandhi. But would these lone voices be heard, let alone listened to and obeyed ? Even in India the elite of the country, the clever people, missed the best part of Gandhi's teachings. They have largely borrowed the western ways of the westem power they were supposed to have expelled and, in this respect, remained colonized. Perhaps this has been Gandhi's greatest shortcoming. He could transform a country but he could not transform men. He could bring political freedom but not the freedom from conditionings and ego. In other words, he could not raise Kundalinis. Well, Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi can! This is why the spiritual revolution She has triggered with Sahaja Yoga is simply the most practical, the most effective revolution of all times. As Shri Mataji can transform the basic cell of society, man, transform him, that is, into a higher being, the gradual impact of this positive transformation will be felt in all the dimensions of society. As this transformation will be duiy opposed, there will be crises and clashes; the earth may shiver, the seas may rise. But the outcome can 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-26.txt The Divine Cool Breeze 25 September-October, 2005 be predicted with the kind of quiet certainty which distinguishes Nature's doings. At the given time some eggs become chicken, some flowers turn into fruits, some people become Sahaja Yogis. Like Gandhi we should be collective and wish this new freedom for many, many more. And we should be confident about it. For not only is nature doing the job, She has even taken an incarnated form to explain us how She does it ! Really we can only wish to Gandhiji to be back as one of us... Gregoire (Nirmala Yoga) 1983 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-27.txt THE MEMORIES OF OUR DIVINE MOTHER (CONTD.) THE BEGINNINGS IN ENGLAND I've found this new sort of yoga front of this photograph of Shri Mataji and First of all, the area where I used to live put your hands to it." And he produced a was round by Euston, near Tolmers little black and white photograph. It wasn't Square (in London) and that area was a much bigger than a postcard. And we sat sort of high energy area. There were a lot there in his rather cold draughty, old bank of squatters and things like that there. We that we used to use as a social club and used to have a little community club there we sat there with our hands like this before and one day (in 1973) this fellow turned Shri Mataji's photograph. There was about up -Mukund shah-to teach us yoga. five or six of us. And he came round and Over a year he tried all sorts of different felt our hands and asked us what we felt yoga and meditation and then one day he and we all felt different sorts of things went to see Shri Mataji and, because he because we were all in different sorts of had so much experience of so many sorts states of awareness due to what we'd of yoga, he tended to be a bit skeptical done before. And anyway, we all obviously and he felt vibrations, but not to sort of felt something and he said, "You get these quantify it. vibrations from Shri Mataji. Would you like to come and meet Her at the Bharata So he had this group of half a dozen Vidya Bhavan? (which was at that time on of us that he used to teach yoga. So he New Oxford Street). said, "Look, I've found this new sort of Well, the following Friday, I believe, yoga and all we have to do is sit down in 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-28.txt September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze 27 She said, "Put your hands over your ears we went off to the Bharata Vidya Bhavan and cover them up completely and you'll and we met Shri Mataji and we just sort of still be able to hear Me."And we could. We sat there at the back and listened to what She had to say and we realized it was had our hands over our ears and we could something really nice. And She was actually clearly hear what Shri Mataji was working on somebody at the time. At that saying because we were hearing through our Sahasraras. Our Sahasraras had particular point we were aware that it was something special, but we had an inkling actually opened. So that was perhaps the of what it might be, but weren't prepared first experience, apart from feeling the to admit to anybody, least of all ourselves, vibrations, that was one of the real that we had actually met Adi Shakti. ButI amazing, first amazing experience we had. think, basically, we knew that it was Now we had a few meetings at this special. Judd Street, but then, because the fellow that took us there was going to leave, we Then we went to Bharata Vidya Bhavan about two or three times and then, had to find somewhere else and we started to meet in a house in North Gower Street. because we wanted to go somewhere else, because the series was over, we And when we met in North Gower Street, I moved to a house in Clare Court, Judd think that's when it actually began to take Street, where Mukund Shah used to live root. Because there it had got a base for just over the road from Kings Cross. We the Sahaja Yoga to actually put roots down. had a few meetings there and Shri Mataji Then what would happen would be that told us about raising Kundalini and this is Shri Mataji would come round and She one of the first experiences we had of would sit there and there'd be may be half actually hearing through Sahasrara. She a dozen of us and Shri Mataji would talk to us and tell us all about Sahaja Yoga and told us all our Sahasraras were open and 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-29.txt 28 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze heard that there was a yogi lady and I had the way She'd work on us would be that this kind of idea that I'd walk into a room we would put our hands under Her Feet and She'd sort of do various bits and full of sort of silence and perhaps little bells tinkling somewhere and I walked in the pieces to clear us out. Because there was so few of us, within a couple of days we'd room. And it was so unlike what I'd expected that the effect on me was really be caught up again which was rather sad, quite profound. I immediately felt that this but it just shows the sort of state we were is what it must have been like to come in. across Christ teaching in the marketplace. Douglas Fry It completely hit me like that, which was HOW COULD SOMEONE LIKE THIS quite strange because I didn't have any kind of religious-you know, religion wasn't BE HERE? part of my life. Quite the opposite, I was Actually, I'd seen Shri Mataji's coming from a hippie background. And I photograph before I met Mother. I'd left that just felt that here was an amazing yoga group before you brought the photo. personality and my feeling was, "How can How could I'd moved over to Baker Street and I did a being like this exist? notice the photograph appearing, being someone like that be here?" And the kind of furtively concealed from me and I whole room seemed full of light and there did hear about Shri Mataji, but I didn't hear was a tremendous impression of how anything that direct about it, but then I just powerful Shri Mataji was, but She was just said that I would like to come and see her very sweet. She asked us to come and I had heard about these meetings and I see Her and I came up and She put Her hand on me and said, "This one's sick," I came to the last meeting at Judd Street. One damp Sunday afternoon-raining-and think were the first words She said to me. I came with (my sister) Maureen (Rossi). And the meeting went on. It was just really It had a huge impact on me because l'd amazing-quite magical, the whole thing. 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-30.txt September-October. 2005 29 The Divine Cool Breeze didn't really have a chance to figure out trying to kind of see how that made sense what it was all about, but I knew it was and fitted in. something quite momentous. That was Pat Anslow the first meeting. She said I was sick and thatI needed HAD NO IDEA WHAT I HAD BUT I something for my stomach and She asked KNEW I HAD IT. for a bottle and the strange thing was- It was the 16th September 1975 that no one else seemed to see this- but I saw we first met Shri Mataji in that (Judd Street) Her take the bottle, turn round and open a flat and, similar to (my brother) Pat sort of door into some kind of an atomic (Anslow), it couldn't have helped being a furnace and put the bottle in, take it out, most momentous feeling. Even walking up shut the door and gave it to me. And I was the street to go to that flat, I had this quite astonished. And I took it home, strongest urge to run away l've ever had in drank it and it had the most extraordinary my life. Even though I didn't know where | effect. It cleared me out. She said I had was going and I had only been told that, six months to live. Yes, I was really in quite "This lady is a yoga teacher, but she a bad way. doesn't teach Hatha Yoga." But I can remember thinking that if I wasn't with We went back for more meetings people that I felt would say, "What on Earth and I had a whole series of extraordinary are you up to?" l'd have run away. That's experiences when she was there, but l how strong I could feel the force I was think the thing that really hit me was a kind walking towards. of gut: 2action, a kind of recognition that this was someone. I kept getting the And when we went in the flat and we feeling that this was someone like Christ. were told to take off our shoes, which was That was the feeling that I had. And I was strange, and told to sit down and I saw Shri 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-31.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 30 my Realisation in 1975. The first time I Mataji working on this Indian gentleman, very strongly and sort of telling him off and met Mother was quite a marked memory. sorting him out, I thought She was a My father, Pat (Anslow), used to bring me up to London at that time, sometimes, for Goddess. That was my first thought that came into my head and then I thought, the weekend. I used to live with my "What on Earth do I mean by that? I don't grandparents until ny father was remarried. He first met Shri Mataji about even know what a Goddess is." But that's that time. So he brought me up and said I what it felt like. And then She got on with was going to meet this very special Indian seeing to everybody and when my turn came, if you like, She actually got up and lady. Ihad never actually met an Indian lady of any description before that point, which walked around, as well as sat down, and made it a little bit daunting actually, coming She told me to put my hands out and asked me what I felt and that second I felt my from a middle class commuter town just near Brighton. He took me up to London, attention drawn to my hands and said, "Oh, I feel something." And She just said, "May and that was a special thing in itself, and God bless you. You've got it." And I we got there and Shri Mataji was very different from what I imagined because thought, "I've got it." I had no idea what I had, but I knew I had it. And that was it. Indian ladies to me would have been a distant person in a sari. There was not a And She then went on to everybody else. It was just great. I was dealt with. person behind that, more a sort of image. And there was this quite remarkable Maureen Rossi lady who was very friendly. And instead of IT's GREAT BEING A KID me being all sort of anxious and kind of I got my Realisation when I was not knowing what to do because it was a seven year old. I was born in '68 and got strange adult, it was really rather fun. 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-32.txt September-October, 2005 31 The Divine Cool Breeze laughed and laughed. And my father, People who remember seeing Mother with think, was horrified, sort of "Oh no, what's children-I mean, She sort of comes alive he doing." But She really took it on board and says, "Really?" and that sort of tone that She takes. She really sort of gets their and She really brought the situation alive attention and makes them feel comfortable and made it all rather fun. And there was and sort of creates this instantaneous no sort of anxiety or anything like that. I connection. So it was a bit like that. mean, it's great being a kid, I suppose. With Shri Mataji, you don't have to think, "DoI have to be this or that?" You just sort She asked me questions and Her eyes kind of lit up and there was a huge smileof are, if you know what I mean. Kevin Anslow and for some mysterious reason-being an adult now, I can't remember the logic behind it, if there was any - I decidedI had to be an elephant. Sol got these - it I REALISED THIS LADY WAS SOMETHING VERY HIGH. My first reaction to Mother was that I was in this flat in Gower Street where this Sahaja Yogi at the time, he had this-well, feit that I had met this lady before. And I what I think of now as rather unpleasant thought I had seen Her in Oxford Street (in London), in a shop somewhere. That was seventies-style furniture, including these wickerwork drinks things. You kind of put my first impression. And She just touched your drinks inside. I turned these things my hand and said, "You will be all right. You are not all right now, but you will be all upside down and stuck them on my feet right." Sol went home and had a shower. legs and kind of roared around the and I was alone at that moment, in the house I room and pretended to be an elephant. was sharing with some people. All of a When I did this Mother just pitched Her sudden, I went completely thoughtless. I wanted to think, but I couldn't. So I knew head back with laughter and laughed and 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-33.txt September-Octoher, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze 32 had to lie down, so I lay on the bed and everything, every point. She would debate closed my eyes. Iwas aware of this energy everything with us. We were obviously very impressed with Her and we could see that rising up through my stomach and then all what Mother was saying was enlightening the way to my chest and then on to the top and amazing, but there was still lots of of my head like a sort of crown. And my body felt very light and I felt totally in the ideas we had which we didn't agree about bliss. So I realised that this lady was and we would argue about all kinds something very high and I never things. experienced that before. So that was my first experience of Sahaja Yoga. It took a Shri Mataji would resolve that by patiently going through every point and long time and is still taking a long time to correct all of my problems. explain. Really, Mother put Herself into Miodrag Radosavljevic quite a rough kind of environment. Gavin and Jane (Brown) were sort of respectable, WHAT ON EARTH CAN I DO WITH but the rest of us weren't. We all came from THEM? a hippie background, One thing we should perhaps say more about was just how amazing Mother Pat Anslow was with us in our ignorance of any kind of protorol or anything. We had no idea LAM BACK HOME how to behave with Her and we had no T remember entering in Her house in Oxted (In 1975). I was in jeans and was idea how to behave with each other, never mind with Shri Mataji. She was just so wearing an old US Army jacket full of amazing. She just must have put Herself holes, I kissed Her hand and gave Her out so much, in so many ways. It was just flowers. Interestingly, I remember bowing incredible. We would argue about and looking at the ground, so 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-34.txt 33 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze stage, l'll never forget it, Mother just sort of She commanded spontaneously. immediate respect. But my heart felt such hugged Herself and seemed to be saying, a relief almost immediately. "What on Earth can I do with them?" She looked forlorn really and so unhappy. It just It is hard to say when exactly Istarted hit me then. I was looking at this scene and recognizing Mother, but clearly the heart it was just like a mother with her children. was faster than the brain. It was greatly It was the first time I really felt that She was helped, no doubt, by the contagious like a Mother. She had been saying, "You feeling of lightness and joy, an enveloping must stop taking drugs." Solsaw this and feeling of affection and wellbeing that said, "Okay, l'll do it." And immediately all you feel, "I am back home! Home, these other people turned around and made sweet home!". glared at me. It just really hit me. And Gregoire was on his knees saying, Gregoire de Kalbermatten "Mother, you must forgive them. They know not what they do" - very dramatic, but very My first memory of Gregoire (de true. He understood what was going on. Kalbermatten)-he came over and he met Mother and he was staying in the area and Pat Anslow. he had seen Her several times. He came to one of the meetings at Gavin and Jane's When Mother named me leader of and on that particular day the whole place the USA for a brief period, She told, "You was full of people who used drugs. Mother are quite qualified for this because you was arguing with them and saying it was know hell best." It is true that before Sahaja bad and they were saying, "No it is I had experimented with many forms of absolutely not true. You can experience adharma, but had also discovered their this. You can experience that." At one limitations. I mean, I felt like the Rolling 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-35.txt 34 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze Stones, "I can get no satisfaction." And I Sahaja Yogis hadn't developed this basic was tired to keep trying. So, for me, it was discretion. Like one chap went off to try the vibrations of the graveyard. He came not at all a problem to change my lifestyle back and Mother had to work on him for after meeting Mother. The way She hours on end. "What did you do this for?" presented it made full sense, while the moral teachers of my past could not And he just couldn't explain it. Oh, things explain why I should not do something I like an early Sahaja Yogi went off fancied doing. I had done it all and I knew somewhere and she brought a necklace and Mother was saying, "Well, you've got it was dust. to try the vibrations of things". And She On one hand I finally understood from said, "This thing, there's something not Mother why virtue was good for me. But, quite right". And She got her to get a all the same, I did not know how to purify bucket of water and stuck this necklace in the water and the water turned black, like my attention right away and only meditation did help destroy the addictions. this black cloud came out of it. And She said, "Ah!" like She does and "See!" And they saw, but they didn't learn that quickly. Gregoire de Kalbermatten She had to be very patient with them. SHE HAD TO BE VERY PATIENT WITH THEM Kevin Anslow I remember Her being quite stern with the early Sahaja Yogis at times. She A DIFFERENT UNIVERSE ALTOTHER could be incredibly humorous and very Mother arranged this weekend at Her warm, but quite stern when She needed house at Hurst Green- Icehouse Wood, to be. She was very much a mother figure Hurst Green in Sussex (near Oxsted). We in every way in those days. The early all went down there by train. It was 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-36.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 35 vibrations, while stepping back. And it did extraordinary because it was this very strange collection of people in an have vibrations. That is the wooden statue extremely nice neighborhood, extremely we had in Chelsham Road (Ashram in London). nice and-Shri Mataji once described it- not even a rat was allowed to enter in or One of the things that struck me also would enter in because the houses there were so perfect. They never had visitors in the house of Mother, was that it looked and felt as if every statue that She had in let alone about fifteen straggling, hippie - the house was vibrating with power. And type people dressed in jeans and any old everywhere you went, you felt a kind of gear. There was a big drawing room Silent, peaceful, but extremely powerful downstairs with beautiful Indian rugs and things like that and then this room up the environment, which is very difficult to stairs that was on the mezzanine room- describe, except to say that you knew something very powerful was working very very sunny and there were large statues deep inside you and working it out. And of deities, a beautiful Shri Ganesha there. yet, you were in the middle of this and you Maureen Rossi felt you were in a different universe altogether. Pat (Anslow) took me to somewhere Djamel Metouri upstairs on the first floor and showed me this big statue of Shri Ganesha. And he And Shri Mataji worked on us and said, "See this statue has such vibrations". And I said, "Hang on". I didn't sort of react. talked to us and there was this incredible Being from a Muslim background, being smell of Indian cooking for about three hours. We were all dying of hunger. They of a Muslim background, I thought, "What started cooking so early and then I started What is he talking is he talking about? to be ill. Thad to keep rushing off and being So I about? tried just feeling the 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-37.txt 36 The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 ill, but I felt brilliant. It was just a fantastic background, I hadn't with come nightclothes that were particularly smart or clear-out and then everybody went down to this big drawing room and fell asleep anything and She dressed me in petticoats on the floor - and we've got pictures of and cardigans. And She worked on my back all night in Her sleep and I kept having these bodies all over this floor- just to get up to be sick. And She snored and everywhere. then She'd stop snoring and say, "That's Again, then we had another session with Shri Mataji working on us and I had to better now." And then She'd carry on putting Her hand on my back and various keep dashing in and out, but it was like being totally divorced from the actual places and then She'd snore for a bit I felt fantastic. The house longer and then stop and say, "How do you bodily feeling. feel now? And it just went on all night and had almost like a balcony inside that ran round and went off all the rooms. in the morning I was allowed to have bananas and cardamom seeds. That was the absolute minute attention She'd give But because l'd been ill, Shri Mataji US. Said, "Maureen, you can come and sleep us. in my room." And when it came to bedtime, I tried to hide behind everybody It's just incredible to think of Her because I was convinced that Shri Mataji doing that for us and then She went to India for about six months and we used to meet disappeared when She went out of the together, a handful of us, to try to meditate, She went up these stairs curved room. but we weren't very good at all. And Shri round the middle of the house and She Mataji, before She went, had said, "You can went half up the stairs and spotted me and hauled me out from the crowd and I was come to lIndia next year when I go -with so scared as to what was going to happen Me and meet all the Sahaja Yogis there." So we started saving and when She came and anyway She had this enormous lovely bed. Being from a sort of hippie back we were in such a state She said, 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-38.txt September-October, 2005 37 The Divine Coal Breeze SHE GAVE US SO MUCH AFFECTION "forget it. You're not up to it." But then She Now we are talking about early days again started meeting us each week, generally on a Sunday or Saturday, and and for me early days was the spring and She again had us to Her house. summer of 1977. What is special about the early days is that Shri Mataji had just a Maureen Rossi few Sahaja Yogis. She hadn't got many. She is trying to bring them up to the level HOW AM I GOING TO VISIT YOU? where they can be strong enough so we We went to Her house in Oxsted, but can then expand our collectivity. I can remember patchy things because I When I arrived, probably about six or was quite young at the time. One of them was that I used to love drawing maps -I seven people-I was probably the eighth. still do, actually-andI do them for the sort Some of us in those days have left. I guess of stories that I write now. But in those days I used to draw maps and I had no I remember how She worked on an Australian boy, Gus, for so many weeks. idea why. And I drew this map which had She took him home. She looked after him. some islands. There was an island for me She cured him. He was like an and an island for Shri Mataji. So She said, encyclopedia of drugs. He was really bad. "Well that's no good because how am I He had so many problems and She going to visit you?" And I said, "Well, I can't worked on him day in and day out, every take the train." Sol said, "Well, what about day. She never spared any effort. The an underground train?" So Mother said, most extraordinary thing is that She gave "Okay, that's fine". So, with Her direction, him all the love and, after three months, he we drew in this little sort of underground just left. He left Sahaja Yoga. He could train track. That solved the problem. have, in fact, stayed and She never said. In fact, She said, "Okay". When you look Kevin Anslow 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-39.txt The Divine Cool Breeze 38 September-October, 2005 house She had in Hurst Green or in the flat at it from our point of view, he wasted Mother's efforts. But She never actually in Ashley Gardens, in those days, She always had -She did everything. She talked about it that way. To Her, She just gave love and that love, there was no gave us so much affection. Djamel Metouri condition put on it. TRULY LIKE A MOTHER The most extraordinary thing about Shri Shri Mataji used to cook for us and Mataji is Her capacity as a Mother to vibrate lemons for us and She would work basically - to nourish the Sahaja Yogis on us constantly and effortlessly andall the who came at that time. To nourish them time. Every week She would come into with enough love so they stayed in Sahaja Yoga, so they felt-may be She gives us the ashram and would work on our chakras what we didn't have, so, as Sai Nath of and check our vibrations and see how we Shirdi said, "We may want what She wants were doing. So She was really truly like a mother, taking care of us. to give us." And She worked tirelessly, taking us to Her home. She never hesitated to cook for LIS. Just think, the Adi Miodrag Radosavljevic Shakti in Her Home, cooking for the few SHE'D BUY THE JACKETS AND THE of us. There may have been seven, eight, TIES FOR US. nine, even ten Sahaja Yogis. She would, Herself, cook food for us because Shri Mataji would actually go out to a obviously She wanted to put those vibrations in our Nabhis. She wanted to shop. I know because She took me out and She took several other people out. improve our Nabhis, which were in such a state anyway. And the way She actually She'd give them Sir CP's second-hand, old ties and Sir CP, Her Husband, was very received us in Her home, whether it be the 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-40.txt September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze 39 much the head of the IMO (International Maritime Organisation), so totally opposite Vicky Halperin from us. He was one of the highest placed Yes, She would never take money. people in International society and we were That was the difference. You'd hear of dug up from a gutter somewhere, relatively speaking. I remember I got a tie. She'd gurus and people they have. They're always give ties to people at pujas. She'd always taking money off them. You give them everything. give ties, jackets, clothes. She took me I tried to pay Shri Mataji back for the out and bought a jacket for me. She clothes She bought my sister, Sharon bought clothes for my sister. She must have spent well over a hundred pounds on [Vincent], and She just threw it away, said, clothes. That was down Brick Lane (In the "Don't be silly. What are you doing? I don't East End of London). want your money. Don't be silly." Ray Harris Ray Harris. When I bought Her a gift, She asked INCREDIBLY CHEAP me if I was being patronizing. She didn't She'd bought me a dress and I don't want gifts. She said, "You can't treat Me think anybody had bought me anything like the gurus." It was inappropriate to buy since l'd been a child and I was -I didn't individual gifts. I think at some point later know how to take it: I didn't know if I was we were told that collective gifts were supposed to pay for it. I didn't really appropriate and individual gifts were not understand what the protocol was for that appropriate. I mean, I think Mother went moment. I said I couldn't accept it. I from my house and I had big tears in niy wanted to pay and She let me. And then eyes at the thought that l'd offended Her She got another one. So I got two. and I really didn't. I'd wanted to do the 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-41.txt The Divine Cool Breeze 40 September-October, 2005 happened was that we were at this opposite. reception and somebody, by mistake, gave me a glass of wine and l drank it." Vicky Halperin WE FELT WHAT SHRI MATAJI FELT So what happened was we felt the effects of the wine that Shri Mataji drank. We were painting various bits of the Because it had an effect on the house [Hurst Green in Sussex in about unconscious and we actually felt it from 1974]. Now one particular experience that Her. So obviously, at that time, we were in I remember was that Shri Mataji went out such deep meditation that we actually felt with Mr. Srivastava to go to a meeting, a what Shri Mataji felt through the collective reception of some sort. He was at that unconscious. That was quite an amazing time the director-general of IMCO experience. [International Maritime Consultative Douglas Fry Organization] and She left us. We were KIND S OF just cleaning this wall and painting it. About SHE TRIED ALL DIFFERENTTHINGS half way through the night we suddenly got One of the most memorable things this terrific headache and it felt really for me took place at Oxted, at he house strange, but we just carried on working. there. We spent actually quite a lot of time So it passed. there and Mother, as we say, the attention. I mean, She used to cook for us. There So when Shri Mataji came home were servants there who cooked, but and asked us how we were, I said, "I got sometimes She'd cook specially for us this really terrible headache halfway and She would work on us. It was so through. I didn't know what was happening." And She said, "Oh, what intensive. You'd bow down with your hands 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-42.txt 41 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze worked. I felt very clear after that. under Mother's Feet and the other Sahaja Yogis would be gathered around and it Pat Anslow on for hours would literally sometimes go just to clear one person out. And they'd be down for that length of time with their SHE TRIED THINGS OUT WITH head on Mother's Feet. She tried all kinds PEOPLE of different things, mostly just looking after She used to give me little presents us in beautiful ways. sometimes. It's so fragmentary because Iremember once She gave me a it's a long, long time ago. I tend to find head massage with oil and we'd do odd these memories sort of suddenly come to jobs sometimes around the house. I me, but then they vanish again. remember once we were sandpapering remember in Gower Street Shri Mataji something ready to paint and Mother came used to - well, my father says it was over and joined in, got a bit of sandpaper somewhere else - well, the older Sahaja and sandpapered with us. And the meals Yogis at the time were a collection of ex- used to be the most memorable, weren't hippies and I was younger and clearer. they? We were really spoiled, spoiled They had had a bit of a wild time and it rotten. had sort of left its imprint on their charkas. Shri Mataji sometimes used to use me to I remember one day I turned up at sort of try things out or to clear things out. Her house and She said, "You just go out. She discovered the neck crick on me. This I clear you out and you just get caught up. is a form of treatment which no longer "And She made me lie down in front of exists, I think because some of the people Her and took Her shoe and actually shoe- got rather damaged necks when they did bashed my spine - very hard - hard it to each other. But Shri Mataji had me enough for me to see stars. And that sitting down and said, "I've discovered this 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-43.txt The Divine Cool Breeze September-October, 2005 42 great new treatment for the Vishuddhi." Mataji and She said, "You shouldn't actually And She got my head and went see that." She said, "One is power and one is purity." I could actually see them, but "huwhump!" And it went "Click!" And I screamed and was in absolute outrage, She said, "Ilf you can actually see those but She found it very amusing. colours, it means you are not actually in the center. You are off to one side." There was this sense that Sahaja Douglas Fry Yoga was sort of experimental. She tried things out with people. She would get them I WAS SEEING MOTHER AS A CHILD to do things and see if it worked or not. I WOULD mean, I think it sort of goes on, on a larger I was seeing Mother as a child scale, as well today. would. Imean every timel saw Her, I would run up and hug Her. It is not something Kevin Anslow you get to do when you get older. There was a definite change of protocol there. ONE IS POWER AND ONE IS And I do remember that as I got older, I PURITY was not quite aware of this protocol and not knowing what to make of it, particularly Because I wasn't properly centered, as the Sahaja Yogis were sort of T had a bit of an Agnaya problem at that intellectually engaging with ;it in some sort time. I used to see Shri Mataji flash from different colours. She used to go this of sense. But I do remember that I could sort of run up and hug Mother. She was beautiful rainbow green and this beautiful It was very sort of like a big friend. rainbow red and I'd just see this light sort different. She was very accessible in those of flashing from Her. But apparently the reason for that was because I had an days to people and yet it didn't quite have the intensity that people have in encounters Agnaya problem. I mentioned this to Shri 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-44.txt 43 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze with Mother in more recent times or as trying to sort of teach us who She was, trying to tell us who She was. And then time went on. She said, "The power of God actually just I remember my Aunt Maureen [Rossi) goes to the back of Me. I am like the saying that She was very direct and source and it's just flowing behind Me." And that is when we started realizing that sociable, especially with the ladies, in a Mother was trying to tell us who She was. way that She wasn't with the men. But, And then She was trying to work on our generally speaking, like in talks and things, Mooladhara. And Gus was saying that he will notice that at a certain moment you some aspect of Her will come out, saw Mother as Shri Ganesha, He was quite struck by it and he was very surprised. He something very serious and quite didactic hadn't seen Mother in that aspect. and sometimes a great jocularity. She did Djamel Metouri have that, but it was very much more toned down in those days. I think people were Her THE SHOES OF THE ADI SHAKTI perhaps not up to the scope of | believe I saw from the very first days manifesting these things in their fuller the colossal meaning of what Shri Mataji sense. was doing. 1 recognized She brings the Kevin AnsloW total, the grand revolution, the most radical factor of global change for mankind. The TAM LIKE THE SOURCE French and Russian revolutions are I also remember this meeting we had nothing compared to this ! with Mother. She gave us this sort of On the other hand, I was looking meditation in Her lounge, you know, where around me. How on Earth and in the we were seven or eight people. We were heavens are we going to get there? Maureen, Gus, from the early days, Pat, This was the problem and the tension Douglas. At some stage Mother was within me. It was like being at the 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-45.txt 44 September-October, 2005 The Divine Cool Breeze bottom of a huge rock and not looking at a bunch of stunned people, sitting around a table looking at pairs knowing how to climb it. of shoes on the table and thinking, "Is I remember one day in August 1975, it with this lot we are going to change in the house of Shri Mataji in Hurst the world?" My mistake was to focus on the people, not the shoes. I did not Green, there were about seven Sahaja know what shoes can do if these are Yogis around the table. Needless to in those days we were all new and the shoes of the Adi Shakti. And if the say, there was nobody else. Shri Mataji world, indeed, will be transformed, let started putting Her shoes on the table us handle these shoes with the very nice and elegant ones, no feelings that Bharat had in handling doubts! But, of course, we did not the shoes of his brother, Shri Rama. know then that Mother was doing it Gregoire de because the vibrations from Her Kalbermatten shoes are so powerful. So I was Nirmala Yoga. 2005_Divine_Cool_Breeze_E_(Scan)_V.pdf-page-46.txt 212