i remember the visage of 𝘩𝘦𝘳 in front of that tree. i couldn't remember what it looked like. all i remember is that she was slowly impaled - she didn't seem to react, she didn't seem to care that she was bleeding out in front of me. she didn't seem to even notice me; she was lost somewhere, i could tell by her gaze. i felt like i was drowning in miles and miles of dark, dark water. i couldn't breathe. i couldn't reach out for her, i couldn't tell her i loved her, i couldn't tell her i was scared
and then i woke up